Precedented 6 - St. Basil the Great, Faith, Works, Civil Religion, and Wealth


INTRO 

True, we've never before had a nearly-instantaneous, nearly-worldwide network connected to devices in our pockets alerting us to rising temperatures and the temperamental outbursts of tyrants or the spread of malicious insects and viruses. 

And being constantly aware of all this can feel disorienting and surreal. 

But even so, we're not convinced we should be so quick to call our times "totally unprecedented." Our ancestors weathered tyrants and plagues and renovated their political thought and activity when facing the consequences of previous human actions. 

And for those of us within the Christian Tradition, we must always remember that our predecessors took on the challenge of reinterpreting all of reality in light of the singular life of Jesus of Nazareth. 

What is not "unprecedented" is humans encountering the unprecedented. And in the midst of our own unique challenges, we unnecessarily feed the bad reactions that can come with fear and uncertainty if we believe we face our challenges alone.

So, in this series, we look at people and moments in the Tradition where those who came before us give us precedents for facing our epoch-shaping tests and tasks. 

This time, we meet Basil of Caesarea, a man who sets for us an indelible precedent for how integrating our faith and works can help us navigate the pressures of empire, wealth, and civil religion.


STORY

Basil was born in 330 A.D., in Caesarea -- a city in what we now call Turkey. His family was Christian, and exceedingly prominent: his paternal grandfather was martyred for his faith, and his paternal grandmother, his father, his mother, and four of his nine siblings, would all become saints of the Church. In episode 6 of season 2, we covered two of Basil's siblings, St. Gregory of Nyssa and St. Macrina, who definitely shaped him, but who also considered Basil to be a central influence in their lives.

When Basil came of age, he studied in Constantinople and then Athens, cities that were the prominent intellectual centers of the day. At the age of 26 Basil completed his studies and returned to his hometown of Caesarea, where he opened a law practice and  tutored others in rhetoric. However, he would soon undergo a profound shift in his thinking that meant he would not occupy this position beyond the age of 27. In one of his letters, Basil described the change this way:

"Much time had I spent in vanity, and had wasted nearly all my youth in vain labor which I underwent in acquiring the wisdom made foolish by God. Then once upon a time, like a man roused from a deep sleep, I turned my eyes to the marvelous light of the truth of the Gospel, and I perceived the uselessness of the 'wisdom of the princes of this world, who come to naught.' ... Then I read the Gospel, and I saw there that a great means of reaching perfection was the selling of one's goods, sharing them with the poor, giving up all care for this life, and the refusal to allow the soul to be turned by any sympathy to things of earth."

After this realization, Basil underwent baptism, the Christian sacrament that marks a decisive break from ones past and initiates a whole new life. 

Notice here, a few things: 

This man was the grandson of a martyr, and grew up in a family of soon-to-be-saints, yet by his own account, Basil did not really recognize the Gospel until he was around 27 years old. 

It's also very interesting that it was Jesus' parable about the rich young man who was instructed to sell all that he had and give it to the poor, that awakened Basil and gave his life the new direction it would take.

And finally we need to point out a bit of background information. Around 20 years before Basil was born, the Emperor Constantine converted to Christianity and legalized it within the Roman Empire. And because of the cultural respectability this brought, during Basil's lifetime the faith grew in numbers at an unprecedented rate. Then, 1 year after Basil's death, an edict from the emperor Theodosius made Christianity the official religion of the Roman Empire.

So, in talking about unprecedented challenges for the Church, there's a strong argument to be made that Christianity becoming the official religion of the Empire stands as one of the greatest challenges the church has ever faced, and that we continue even today to wrestle with the fallout of this decree.

Now, Basil was born right in the middle of Christianity's shift from persecuted underdog to religion of the empire. And, no doubt, the lived expression of the faith around him was beginning to look quite different from that of the early church described in the Scriptures. Here, the church started to see people who bought and sold things the same as they always had, treated their friends and superiors and those below them the same way they always had, thought about and cared for their bodies the same way they always had, only now they went to a Christian service on Sundays. This might be the first experiment with what we now call "cultural christianity." 

It's also important to add that Basil's family was notable not only for its piety, but also for its wealth and social status. Basil's father was a renowned lawyer and speaker, and was a member of the Roman aristocracy. His family owned many properties - some just for living and others for hunting and recreation. 

And remember how Basil studied at the  Yales and Oxfords of the day? He didn't take out loans for this: his family paid cash. And when his father died while Basil was in school, Basil became the heir of a considerable sum of money.

It is this Basil - the upper class, inheritance child, from a family with an impressive Christian legacy, and who grew up immersed in the "Christian" Roman Empire, who is struck to the heart by Jesus' instruction to the rich young man to sell his possessions and give to the poor. And it is this command, that goes against the comforts of a Christianized culture, that would shape Basil's life and ministry going forward.

After his baptism, Basil began to spend his inheritance on behalf of the poor in the region. He soon departed to travel throughout Palestine, Syria, and Egypt, visiting many of the experimental monastic colonies that were developing there. These communities resembled the early Christian church in that they shared a common life of prayer and worship, and held all their goods in common.

After his travels, Basil returned to his family's estate where his mother and sister had founded a monastic community for women. Basil settled into a remote section of the property to live a life of prayer and solitude. Others soon joined him, and another monastic community developed. 

After living there 6 years, Basil felt compelled to leave and re-engage the divisions and difficulties of the world. He took with him his considerable rhetorical and theological acumen, his experience of communal monastic life, and the fruits of his silence and prayer, so he was soon ordained as a priest and began parish ministry in his hometown of Caesarea.

During his ministry, Basil remained committed to the idea of a community of shared life and resources, but was was determined to extend this ideal beyond the monasteries and bring it to bear upon the larger society. Basil envisioned a who new social order no longer founded on competition and hoarding, but based upon simplicity and sharing. 

And these ideals were put to the test only a few years after Basil's ordination, when in 369 a drought struck Caesarea and the surrounding areas, which was then followed by a severe famine.

During this crisis, Basil found his voice with regard to social issues. He penned four prominent homilies that have been preserved. They are titled: "To the Rich," "I Will Tear Down My Barns," "In Time of Famine and Drought," and "Against Those Who Lend at Interest."

We've linked a compilation of these homilies in our show notes, and we encourage you to read them in their entirety, but for now, here are some excerpts that will give you a sense of just how direct and insightful Basil's homilies were.

And as listen, remember Basil was from a wealthy, landholding family. So when he talks about the dangers of greed, he's speaking from experience. And when Basil talks about generously giving to those in need, he's implicating himself.

From "I Will Tear Down My Barns," "Who are the greedy? Those who are not satisfied with what suffices for their own needs. ... The bread you are holding back is for the hungry, the clothes you keep put away are for the naked, the shoes that are rotting away with disease are for those who have none, the silver you keep buried in the earth is for the needy. You are thus guilty of injustice towards as many as you might have aided, and did not."

In "To the Rich," Basil says: "Therefore, however much you exceed in wealth, so much so do you fall short in love: else long since you'd have taken care to be divorced from your money, if you had loved your neighbor. But now your money sticks to you closer than the limbs of your body, and he who would separate you from it grieves you more than someone who would cut off your vital parts."

And lastly, from "In Time of Famine and Drought." "Are you poor? You know someone who is even poorer. You have provisions for only ten days, but someone else has only enough for one day. As a good and generous person, redistribute your surplus to the needy. Do not shrink from giving the little that you have; do not prefer your own benefit to remedying the common distress. And if you have only one remaining loaf of bread, and someone comes knocking at your door, bring forth the one loaf from your store, hold it heavenward, and say this prayer, which is not only generous on our part, but also calls for the the Lord's pity: 'Lord, you see this one loaf, and you know the threat of starvation is imminent, but I place your commandment before my own well-being, and from the little I have I give to this famished brother. Give, then, in return to me your servant, since I am also in danger of starvation. I know your goodness, and am emboldened by your power. You do not delay your grace indefinitely, but distribute your gifts when you will.'"

As gifted a rhetor as he was, Basil didn't just talk. During this drought and famine, he sold and distributed much of what remained of his paternal inheritance to help provide for the starving people of Caesarea, and founded a philanthropic institution that would later come to be known as the Basiliad.

Here, the poor and diseased were able to receive food, shelter, and medical treatment free of charge. The Basiliad was in many ways the culmination of Basil's social vision, the fruit of his efforts to develop a more just and humane social order within the region. 

In 370, Basil was elected bishop of Caesarea, and the Basiliad expanded. It eventually grew into a large complex of buildings that not only served as a distribution center for donated goods, but also provided shelter to the homeless and skilled medical services to the sick. Special care was given to lepers because of the social stigma they carried. Basil himself was known for his willingness to put himself at risk to care for the victims of leprosy.

In addition to being a philanthropic institution, the Basiliad was also an important spiritual center, a place for worship, prayer, and religious education. 

Its presence is eloquent testimony to the fact that in Basil, words and action came together with saintly integrity. And by his testimony, Basil was also able to convince many other wealthy people to open their storehouses and share with the poor.

So, in the conversation that follows, we talk about the relationship between faith and works. We've all heard it quoted that we are justified by faith, not by works. But then why do the Scriptures  instruct us to do them? How do faith and works hold together and how can Basil's life and teaching shed light on this and help us meet our own societal struggles as we too, find ways to live distinctively Christian lives in the midst of the cultural and civil religion of our day?


DISCUSSION [Auto-Generated Transcript]

Julius: Welcome back to “All Things.” To briefly state it. This is Julius and we'll once again. Hello in this series? Um, yeah, in this series we've been mining the Christian tradition for key stories that give us precedents for present day issues that appear to us unprecedented. 

And now the story of Saint Basil that we just heard is full of precedents that strike up a lot of connections, for me at least, between, um, Constantinian Rome and our present day. Like there's the whole backdrop of what has become like a mainstream “cultural Christianity”— kind of like in the beginning of Christendom where the church has activity and presence has co-mingled with the empire or the seat of political power.

And I think that that's kind of a backdrop that we can at least be familiar with or understand, or it makes sense to us in our present day. And of course, there's this still pertinent issue of wealth disparity and income inequality that, um, that's kind of one of the undercurrents that goes on with St. Basil's story and what Christians are to do in response to that. 

So coming out of this social/political/economic landscape, I feel like Basil offers us a real already offers a real robust and practical response to Jesus's call to sell our possessions, and to share our goods with the poor.

And in doing so he gives us a great example of the harmony that exists between faith and works. So what more can we say about the relationship between faith and works in light of Basil story? 

Wilson: Um, well, I mean so much, but to keep it really punchy, I guess, um, there is a connection. Faith and works and what Basil, uh, his, his life and his gifts keep like putting in front of our face or into our ears in this case, I guess is there's no such thing as no fake. No works. You will have faith in something and you will do something, whether it's productive, helpful, or unproductive, unhelpful or flat out destructive.

And what Basil shows us is when, when I guess the magic, so to speak happens, or I guess better language would be salvation 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: redemption. When that happens, then your faith in Christ leads to a life in Christ. And so your life begins to look more and more like Christ. 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: Um, and I think where to, to keep it really focused on basil and the precedent he set for us and how his life shows us this, it has really challenged me, um, to open up and appreciate.

To a greater extent, the gifts of administration 

Julius: Hm. 

Wilson: administration, um, cause personal story, it had always just kinda. By the time I got into like working the quote-unquote adult world, all that stuff. Um, in my head, everybody had already been sorted into, well, you're a, you're a people person, or you're an accomplished things person.

These are, these are the two 

Julius: Oh, 

Wilson: And especially in the pastoral world, it's either. Well, are you really, are you a people person? Are you relational or are you administrative? 

Julius: It's a hard line. 

Wilson: It. Right. And, um, this plays out with, um, like  and his younger brother Gregory. So we mentioned in the story, he's, he's from a pretty important family on many levels and it's, it's intriguing to see how Basil, but not just him, but how his whole family like undergoes a conversion.

Um, Experience like in personally and, and as a whole, but his younger brother and his sister were both very gifted and skilled in their own ways. And, uh, but as Basil, you know, was appointed as a Bishop, he later as part of some of the politics that were going on around in that area, he appointed his younger brother Gregory as a Bishop, also in that.

And he was constantly frustrated with Gregory because Gregory just couldn't like handle business. Gregory was very philosophical. He was incredibly smart. Probably. You know, if you, if you want to put it in competitive terms, more gifted intellectually, as far as the, the philosophy side, the thinking side, um, then his brother, but his brother was the one that founded.

Julius: Yeah. Oh yeah. 

Wilson: Right. And, um, we're Gregory could give a lot of the thought about. Well, here's who Christ is and Basil can hold his own in this, but you know, we're a Gregory would just outrun him with thinking about, well, who's Jesus. And so who are we as persons? And that's one of the places Gregory made and an incredible gift, um, to, to all of Western civilization really is in the area of like anthropology.

If it has. Directly contributed to a lot of the things that we take for granted, um, and value like the dignity of all people, the way 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: the way Gregory would talk about Christ and all of us being created in Christ. You know, this leads to, to viewing each individual person and this and that in a new way that elevates the dignity of all people.

Now I played that up, but then while Gregory might've been able to like outflank her outcome. Basil on this basil was the one that was like, okay, so what do we do with this? And this takes administrative skill. He was able to take this and put it into, into work and, um, in setting up his, um, in setting, setting up the bacilli ad.

So what I'm saying here is, uh, I at the beginning, in my work focused more on like, what would have been in this sphere of Gregory, you know, the thinking, being deep and then being relational with people, that kind of thing. Um, but then it became pretty clear to me after a few failures and heartaches that if you can't administrate, then you're not going to be able to sustain.

And you're going to end up talking in a way that makes explicitly or implicitly makes big promises to people about how we're going to love you and how we're going to treat you and how, you know, maybe the world sees you this way or has overlooked or, you know, whatever it is. I mean, as many people as you could be talking to, there are all sorts of different scenarios.

You know, maybe it's a little. You're lazy or while you did this, so this is punishment or, you know, whatever it is, however you've experienced the world, um, lacking in compassion when it comes or understanding when it comes to your story, you explicitly or implicitly make big promises about how we, as the people of God are going to do something differently.

But if you can't administrate, if you can't take that and put it into, into action. 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: It's going to lead to more cynicism or disillusionment. You're going to break those promises and people are going to find it hard to believe the great, true things that you tell them about who they are in Christ. If we can't back that up with action.

Julius: Right. So talking about like the difference between. And I guess it's, it's not like, like I joked about that being a hard line before that, like maybe the work is trying to integrate those two things, the Gregory And the basil in us to be able to have the, yeah, I guess the engage intellectually, philosophically theologically to shape kind of a vision of how to do life, but then like the administrative gifts or the work side of it is like how to execute that, how to carry it out.

Practice.

Wilson: Right. And if we can come in electorally to think and believe it's true now, how do we get that truth into our bones? How do we get that truth into, um, into, uh, something concrete for people to, and, and for us that further instills, like, as we work this out, as we trust this and live it, we come to know that truth to an even greater extent.

So, uh, you know, talking about faith and works, we could say it's one thing to. Believe in our heads, God is trustworthy. God is generous. Um, but when it comes to like trustworthy, if, if we don't actually take some risks, we're not going to really know that if we don't step out and act on our faith, there's going to be a part of us that still really, really wonders that doesn't know that.

But to, to know that, to the full extent it takes works, it takes action to get that out there. Um, and then when it comes that same principle holds for other people. Right. We can, we can have all sorts of sermons. We can have all sorts of theological tracks or podcast or whatever it is. But if we don't have someone like basil or basil, that's the, it's always 

Julius: Right. 

Wilson: with dead languages and everything.

And it just, it kinda it's like Augustine, it depends on, uh, yeah. Uh, Gustin or Augustine. What, what group or school or accent? The person talking about comes from. And for other people that trust it. Um, if, if there's a, I mean, it's one thing. To be able to be honest and humble and say, look the ideal of the gospel.

Sure. We're never going to live this perfectly because that's really it. That takes a level of God working. Um, as God, as only God can to bring it to, to fullness. But if there's not something genuine in us, if there's not something tangible that flows out. That shows, in fact that we do trust the things that we're going, that we are saying about who Christ is and who people are in light of Christ.

If there's, if there's not something flowing out of us through our deeds that shows the world, we do believe this stuff for real. Um, then they're going to mistrust it to.

Julius: Yeah, I think, yeah, that's helpful. And I think that's why. I appreciate the language of like integration that that's such a key part of even what we're about here at Shamar is trying to provide like resources and avenues for people to.

experience integration in following Christ is that, Um, It feels like it's a helpful way to understand that works is not just like a separate kind of elective thing, but it's more of like the relationship between faith and works as like the concrete life that you live.

Like you said, there, you're going to live a life and you're going to act in the world and you're going to work a certain way. And it's a matter of like how, the way that we live is shaped by what we say We believe, which is the pertinent question that I think that one of the pertinent questions that we're trying to address is that.

From my experience. I see that a lot of the people that have become kind of disillusioned with the church, or at least like disappointed by the church comes from what you were talking about with being met with a lot of like grand promises of what the faith can offer and like doing a lot of good work in that the church has done.

What has maybe done good work in casting a, a good vision or like a vision for the good life, but that when there's a disconnect with. That is practiced or executed. That that's what leads to like, oh, like what is, what is the point of this, if it's not changing how you live? So the S the story that we're examining of Saint Faisal, um, certainly has echoes of things that we're experiencing now in, I guess, unprecedented levels like the, um, the connection between.

Church and empire and being in the seat of political power and influence. And then also, like I said earlier, like issues of wealth disparity, um, as we take into account, like where we are now, and as we look back to what this precedent can offer us, how. St the story of Saint Basil's example, offer us a robustly Christian way to put our faith into work specifically in the area of what we do with our material resources.

Wilson: Um, We mentioned this a little bit in the story. And so now maybe it's time to unpack it a bit more where, uh, if we, if we want some guidance in, in being faithful during times that seem unprecedented to us, let's look for precedence of when other, other Christians have, have like, faced something that to them would have been unprecedented and so around.

Be it. I'm I'm no economist, that's not my field. Um, I'm a, I'm a New Testament and Theology guy. That's that's my field. Um, but it's led me into asking a lot of questions, right. Because I just think the way I understand the gospel, it leads to, to all these things, right. It, it, it, if it's. Reconciling all things to God, then there's nothing out of bounds or, you know, neutral in this whole thing.

So what is, what does Christ have to say about it? So I'm no economist, but, um, in, in looking at the Greco-Roman world, the way I have, and then looking at some like, uh, You know, how, how politics has shifted, uh, and how politics and economics go hand in hand, how it shifted in the middle ages. Um, it's, it's really tough to make a one-to-one comparison because we just, we count wealth so differently, but it's, it's really not unprecedented for a few to have a.

And, and a lot to have little, um, it, it's really hard to make one to one comparisons because now we do it in, you know, in America, in dollars. And even now, what is a dollar, you know, as it goes more and more online, like it's not even really the piece of paper. Cause how many of us actually have cash in our wallets and use that, 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: what is a dollar, that's a rabbit hole that I would like to go down, but not right now. 

Julius: Sure. 

Wilson: You know, but then it was, it was land. It was honor, you know, it was food production and who controls the food production, you know? And, and definitely if you want to talk about like Cesar and the few under seasons, I mean, they, they exploited and, but I think where we would want to go with this, if we want to bring the gospel to bear and not end up making a fool of ourselves by stepping out of our realm of expertise and making huge claims that we honestly just might not be, be justified or able to back up, what we can say is there.

I think my hunch is that this all matters, but there's something more fundamental. And more at the root of things in this. And this is why we keep talking about not just like wealth and giving, but from, from the deeper soil or trying to have our conversation, or I think about that really shaped by faith and the question of faith.

What, because along with whatever wealth disparity was happening back then, and, you know, at the beginning of it Basil was on the top of whatever that pyramid was. 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: He and his family, you know, had much that most people in his time and place didn't have. Um, but what's also happening around this time that I don't want us to miss the connection is um. For the first time in the history of the Christian Church, it's becoming like culturally advantageous to be a Christian…

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And we can go in and scholars have, they've spent all sorts of ink and, um, trying to figure out how legit was Constantine in his conversion. But what you can't argue is whether his conversion was, was sincere or not. His conversion changed so much for the Christian world at that point, because. For most of the history before just being a Christian, just saying I placed my faith in Jesus as Lord was costly on, on all sorts of levels was costly.

It didn't when you favor with your neighbors, it didn't when you culture, the steam, you know, it. It didn't even if on like an introductory level, hi I'm will, will. Hi, I'm Julius. Well, Julius, I'm a Christian. It, even at that level, it didn't make your neighbor assume positive things like, oh, well you must tell the truth and you must be good to the people that work for you and that you work 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: and you must be generous with your money.

It didn't, I mean, for, for so much. Their initial assumption was negative. Oh, you're anti-social oh, your rent. And once Constantine converts. And now, even before it becomes the official religion, just the influence of the emperor being a Christian. Now for the first time, it could work out to your benefit to just to be a Christian just on that level.

And so what you do start seeing, um, is. Who may not be willing to really risk anything for their faith to really not back it up with their actions. Now, for the first time you see people who think about their money, the same way they always have. And they think about the people they work for and that work under them the same way they always have.

And they think about their bodies the way they always have. They think about everything the way they always have. And so keep acting out of their thinking in the same way they always have, but they go to church on Sunday. And now just because the emperor is a Christian and I go to the same church. Now it starts to bring it.

There may not have been a genuine conversion for so many people, but now, right. It's it could work out in your favor. Now, all of this thing, what's going to show, if we've said there's no such thing as no faith, and there's no such thing as no work, what's one of the things that's going to show us even just what our faith is really in.

Cause this raises the question. So then what is their faith really? Is there faith in Jesus as a living presence? Do they trust Jesus's words? Like the sermon on. 

Julius: Hm. 

Wilson: And we're so much of the sermon on the Mount seems upside down to us. Blessed are those who mourn, like give to anyone who asks of you. Those things do not seem like a solid way to build a life, but he says at the end, if you hear these words and put it in practice, it's like building your house on a rock, not on sand the storms will come, but it will last, right.

Do they really trust Jesus? And do they trust his words? And his way of life or do they trust that once the emperor throws his hat and that becomes beneficial for everyone and I'm going to play that game. Um, and what we'll show is how you actually handle your stuff. What will show where your faith really is, is in your works.

And so what Basil offers us here is in this middle, right? Where he could have gone the other path of playing both, right? Looking like a Christian and continuing right. His status in his wealth. He instead gives sacrificially and, and starts to. Do you even like test in himself and set that example for the people around him, like, look, salvation is in Christ.

I've come to believe that. So in BA when basil says the path to salvation is not to put any, any trust in earthly things or any concern or give any concern to earthly things. That earthly things part can be really misunderstood, especially in our time. Um, and I've heard it misunderstood as in like, well, you know, uh, I've actually heard someone say, well, sure, I'd like to give to the poor, but I want, you know, we're saved by faith, not by works.

And so I don't want to start putting my trust in my works, which, which gets it, gets it backwards and misses what he's saying, what he's saying by earthly things is the stuff like what was, what was starting to really take off. In his time and place was, Hey, you throw in with the emperor that's earthly stuff.

That's what he's talking about. The things that like, um, th th th implicitly, the trust, the faith that you're you're putting in things is put in, uh, the emperor and worldly power and, and the way wealth and money and influence and provisions flow in that system. And what Basil is inviting us to is to concretely trust Christ here and now.

Right. When he says don't trust, earthly things. He doesn't mean stuff here. And now he means right here and right now to trust God, where, where you act in such a way with your things with your time, right. You act in such a way that God you're real and true, or this isn't going to work out well for me.

Julius: All right. 

Wilson: Now to take it to our times. I think in applying this, it takes a little critical thinking. It takes some discernment. Um, and I think we could say that we used. I live in a time that still carried a whole lot of what was big was just starting in Basil’s time, where it for, and in some places it's still true, but it's becoming less and less true in our culture that when people hear that you are a Christian.

They assume good things. 

Julius: right, right. 

Wilson: It, we were, we're coming out of a time where it was very culturally advantageous to be a good church member. Right. And to, to let people know that you read the Bible regularly or whatever, whatever, you know, the marks were. And now that it's becoming less and less the case it's giving us the opportunity to, to look at.

Okay. So now when it's tough now, what do we do? Do we still 

Julius: Hmm. 

Wilson: Do we still care? Um, do we, do we still concretely act like Jesus is Lord, because that shows us whether or not we genuinely have faith that Jesus is Lord.

Julius: So I, I guess to bring it home and like, Flat out, ask, what does this, what do we do with this now? Like given that we're in these situations that like, where we say we've got precedents for in dealing with stuff like wealth disparity and like the church has a relationship to power. Um, how does this all come together?

In what St. Basil can offer us about the connection between faith and works. And I'll introduce this. I'll introduce another element into this that I think might hold this all together as the, the question. Character of the kind of people that we are and how that connects faith and works to be not disintegrated things, but that whole, that holds it all together.

The, the vision that we cast and that we believe in and how we, like you said to administrate that or execute it, and that, like, it feels like character holding those two things together is very. Maybe like the robustly Christian way So that we don't slip into just like, oh, but yeah, that there's one particular kind of system or like administrative system.

That is the solution.

Wilson: So I think Basil is such a key figure for exactly that because of all the things that come together in him, like his skills, his faith has works. Um, like it really, it offers us something. Man. it, it touches on so many of the huge issues. Right. So right now I even think it kind of corrects some, some of how we're trying to even convince people that there's a problem.

Right. So, um, so one of the, one of the things that we hear over and over and over again, to try to convince people, Hey, something needs to happen. Something needs to happen is just like how wide the gap is. the Uber wealthy. I mean, Hey look, people are going to space for fun now, 

Julius: right. 

Wilson: And this is, this is how it, how I hear it played out in some op-ed pieces and see it on memes, which, you know, not that memes are the best place to get your information and tackle the most challenging and difficult.

Julius: Sure. 

Wilson: but you know, it's, it shows, it shows what's out there and the questions that are being asked, and I think Basil reframes even how we ask it. Right. Because is it so bad? That is it. So are, is the gap getting wider and wider and wider? W okay. Maybe, and again, like, I would say that's really a question for economists, because I don't know how to, to really in the economic sphere equate what wealth was in the fourth century.

In Kappa dosha to how dollars work now. I don't know that right. Was there a Jeff Bezos back then? You know, I mean, Caesar may be, I don't know how to do that, but where I think this points us to even greater, like an even more insightful question is how is sin and greed working in our world now? Because that has been happening.

Right. And if Christ comes to rescue us to, to set us free from sin and death, even now Basil someone that gives us, you know, again, not a perfect, but one of the best examples of how you, how you see that happen, right? Because he taught clearly about the dangers of where, like what holds your heart and.

Where your heart, if this is what holds your heart, it will lead you to act that, right. I mean, just like. Just like, if you say, I mean to put it, I hope this doesn't seem cheesy, but th but the old, like, Hey, dad is down there at the pool and the kids up at the high dive saying jump, you know, you can, you can think in your head, dad's trustworthy, but unless you jump, you don't know it.

And unless you jumped there still, there's a fear. There's a hang up. There's something else. There's, there's a longing for a certain sort of like, you know, safety or whatever that will keep you from really experiencing that. Basil shows us. Hey, you put it into action to, to really live this out. Um, so he modeled, Hey me first, right?

Meet me first. I've got all this stuff and it tempts my heart, but here's the gospel. And so here's how I, I tangibly, right. If I, if I intellectually give my heart and my mind to Christ, here's how I tangibly do it. I do what Christ did for the sick. I set this up and. Uses his gifts and his skills, right. To, to administrate to see that this can be done in, in a way that actually long-term benefits and helps.

So that it's not just words about Christ being trustworthy, but Christ's people let people experience that you give them an opportunity to actually jump right. Um, and, and you. To keep the metaphor going, his, his, uh, and his bacilli at is a place to say, jump right here, come and experience the goodness of Christ through Christ people, uh, and, and where it hits.

I think, I think now, We, we notice something is wrong, but we fractured the problems and we fractured the solutions. And so we end up looking, like you said, either just for a person, a good person, right. A people person that cares, and now you, you fix everything, but then you realize the limits of. And, and you, can't just, you've got to have a system, you've got to have administrative skills.

You've got to have a group of people and a system that can hold this together to sustain that. Right. So that it goes beyond just thoughts and prayers and well-wishes and abstract things that don't really change things. But on the other end, yeah, you've got to have the system. 

Julius: Yeah, 

Wilson: it's, it's tempting there to say, that's all we need is just the system.

But the question, you know, and, and this is where you get the back and forth, back and forth between different camps. Right? Well, capitalism has shown that yada, yada, yada, and it has failed these sorts of people in this and that way. And then you have somebody on the other side that just volleys back. Yeah.

But the USSR failed to communism failed because of this and that, yada yada. And they go back and forth and don't see like really what's what's at issue here is we don't trust you. 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: and it's sure if you switch this system, there's still that question of, but if I don't trust you to. if it's still a greedy person or greedy people or greedy camps, you know, whatever it is, if it's still sinful, fallen, greedy people, whatever the system, there's some way that, because I don't trust you, you know, I can't, we can't even talk to each other, let alone buy into something together and contribute to something together.

Um, and we're, Basil hits us. It is the person that has the skill. The gifts to administrate, but also the character to administrate it well. And if you've got that, if you've got a good enough system and good character, there's at least an opportunity, right. 

Julius: Hm. 

Wilson: To, contribute to something and to give people a tangible enough experience of something that might help them also trust, not just us, but the Lord that we're learning to trust.


MEDITATION

Faith, works, empire, civil religion, and wealth, are huge topics that in the real world create a dizzyingly complex web of relationships. And our goal today is not to explain or fix all of this. This episode isn't going to change economic theory or shift the course of policy over the next five years. 

Our current goal is simply to let St. Basil's precedent help Christians live like Jesus in the middle of the confusion and turmoil. 

And in all our disorder and uncertainty, one way Basil can help us find a direction in which we can move confidently, and firm ground to plant our feet and push off of, is by calling us to place our faith in Jesus by practicing generosity. 

With whatever you have. 

Remember, in Basil's sermons, he speaks to everyone, and says for all of us, the path to salvation includes generosity. 

So think, up to this point, what has guided the way you handle your resources? 

Even if you've never joined a school for financial freedom, something has directed they way you handle your wealth. And a key first step toward greater fullness in Christ is just to name the things other than Christ that have direct our lives. So, what has influenced your saving and spending and giving?

Emotions? Momentary desires? Fear? Lust for control?

And what does this say about where you place your faith and trust?

And if you have followed a budgeting and spending system, that's probably good. You should be intentional and wise with your wealth. But, has that system itself become the thing you put your faith in? 

Has the system itself become the thing you look to for provision and security? 

That might seem like a difficult question, but it can be dealt with simply by looking at the role generosity plays in the system, and noticing what habits the system forms in you.

So, if you follow one, or are considering following one, ask, where does the system place generosity? It is integral to how the money is thought of and used? Or does the system place giving at the end, saying after you have a storehouse full of money, then you can be generous?

Now, maybe your debt to income ratio doesn't allow you to give a lot. But remember Basil's words from the sermon, In Times of Famine and Drought: from the little I have I give to this famished brother. Give, then, in return to me your servant, (Lord), since I am also in danger of starvation. I know your goodness, and am emboldened by your power. You do not delay your grace indefinitely, but distribute your gifts when you will.

This is challenging, but what St. Basil understands is that everything we do acts not just on outward things, there in the world, but also acts to shape and direct our faith. And what we do repeatedly becomes a habit, and what we do so well and so often the action can become unconscious, shapes who we are. 

And so if we do not habituate generosity, when the times comes where we do have excess amounts of wealth, we will not be the types of people who are capable of being generous, even if we have more than we need.

Because of where we have, for so long, actively placed our faith. See, to habituate anything, we must, at the very beginning, put faith in something. To cut our spending and deal only in cash and track every dollar for a whole year, we have to trust the system and the results it promises. But, likewise, to give a piece of bread or to venmo money to someone in need, habitually, requires we trust the source of all true generosity.

So, what habits does following the system engrain in you? 

And, whether your habits for dealing with your resources are developed out of religion, or chasing endlessly variable desires, or from legalistically following a financial system, where do your financial habits place your faith? 

And finally, name where you have opportunity to become generous. 

Some may only have a few dollars ...

And some of you have the ability to influence systems and cultures...

But whatever our levels of wealth and influence, what Basil's words and example show us is we all have the same opportunity to experience the fullness that comes with being like Jesus. Because, to act like Jesus, we must also put our faith in the Father like Jesus did. 

And the places where we have concrete opportunity to habitually trust God are also the places we have opportunity to become the kinds of people who are capable of receiving and extending more of God's provision. 

Precedented 5 - Sacraments and DIY Spirituality


INTRO 

True, we've never before had a nearly-instantaneous, nearly-worldwide network connected to devices in our pockets alerting us to rising temperatures and the temperamental outbursts of tyrants or the spread of malicious insects and viruses. 

And being constantly aware of all this can feel disorienting and surreal. 

But even so, we're not convinced we should be so quick to call our times "totally unprecedented." Our ancestors weathered tyrants and plagues and renovated their political thought and activity when facing the consequences of previous human actions. 

And for those of us within the Christian Tradition, we must always remember that our predecessors took on the challenge of reinterpreting all of reality in light of the singular life of Jesus of Nazareth. 

What is not "unprecedented" is humans encountering the unprecedented. And in the midst of our own unique challenges, we unnecessarily feed the bad reactions that can come with fear and uncertainty if we believe we face our challenges alone.

So, in this series, we look at people and moments in the Tradition where those who came before us give us precedents for facing our epoch-shaping tests and tasks. 

This time, we talk about water and wine and blood, and how they can provide a precedent that leads us to something better than DIY, individualistic spirituality.


STORY

The Christian faith hinges on Jesus, and Jesus' ability to save us. And we are not the first to hear the Christian proclamation of salvation and ask, "How could he possibly do this?" 

For those engaging this question in the first few centuries of the life of the church, the first step was to define just what salvation was. And, they said, certainly salvation includes liberation from oppression and death and the freedom to love and do what is right and good, but more primally this, and even more fundamentally than thinking of salvation as eternal life, to the minds of early Christians, salvation is Union with God. 

Everything else, the life and liberation and peace, would flow from union with the eternal source of life and freedom and bliss. In truth, these could only flow from God.

So, the Christian faith hinges on Jesus ability to unite humanity to God. 

It was then reasoned that only God can unite us to God. If Jesus was anything less than God -- even if Jesus was the supreme prototype of God's creative abilities -- Jesus might serve as a celestial example of eternal love, or as an immortal teacher dealing in divine secrets, but everything Jesus might grant as this kind of exalted being would fall short of intimate union with the source of wisdom and love. So Jesus must be God. 

The church then reasoned the flip side of Jesus' divinity must be his full humanity, because salvation is union with God. If Jesus was not a true human -- if in Jesus God was only speaking through some fleshly Avatar or moving through some earthly puppet -- then Jesus did not actually unite humanity with God. So, next came the Christian dogma that Jesus was fully human. 

This is what Christian faith calls the doctrine of the Incarnation. And with it, we can see salvation achieved ... in Jesus of Nazareth.

And so now, in this episode, we puck up the question, "How can other, genuine, normal, humans, how can people like you and I experience a salvation that is nothing less than Union with God?"

The Christian faith also proclaims the possibility of this union for any who would come in faith. And the sacraments have been key places we've said this fellowship with God happens. 

Two central examples, shared across just about every strand of the Christian Tradition, are Baptism and the Eucharist. Which is why we also call that second sacrament, Communion.

And notice, these sacraments are not constituted by disembodied leaps into etherial realities. But they involve everyday things like water, bread, and wine. 

So, if the central claim of the Christian faith is going to hold, these ordinary things must also be involved in granting us union with God. This means the bread and wine do more than make us think about Jesus and his union with God, more than cause us to remember Jesus and his teachings and sacrifice. The water must do more than trigger memories and generate desire for communion. They must to some degree be communion.

So, we need to talk about how we think ordinary things like bread and wine and water can be vehicles for God's presence.

To help us see the intimate connection between God and bread and water, I'm going to first make and explore a vital distinction, between an arbitrary sign and a valid symbol.

An example of an arbitrary sign would be the octagon shape we use for stop signs. Or the plus or minus icons we use for addition and subtraction. These things have nothing to do with what they stand for. 

Octagons don't interrupt the flights of birds or the wind by making them think, "Oh, okay, stop." A horizontal line bisecting a vertical line, or a single short horizontal dash ... They only work to make us add apples or subtract dollars from our bank accounts because a bunch of people agreed to make them work that way. Just like the color purple could potentially come to stand for the chicken dance, if a whole culture decided every time they saw it they would bob their heads and flap their arms. 

Symbols, like those used in the sacraments, though, have an actual communion with the thing they represent. 

Take Baptism. 

It's about washing and cleansing. And what do we use to wash off dirt and germs? Baptism is also about death. And throughout history and in many cultures, water has embodied forces of chaos and death - because what is more terrifying and disorienting than being out to sea in the middle of a hurricane? But Baptism is also about new birth - and what surrounded and nourished us in the womb? So what, other than water, could sever as a better symbol for baptism?

So, a North African theologian named Tertullian, who helped the church develop its thinking thinking about the sacraments, wrote around the year 200, quote, "Water was created at the dawn of time." And noted that at creation, the Spirit was "carried on the waters." It was the first element to "produce things that would live." And so water, ordinary water used at baptism, "already knows how to give life." And so Tertullian also notes that, quote "Christ was never without water. He himself was baptized with water; when invited to a marriage he inaugurates the exercise of his power with water; when talking he invites the thirsty to partake of his own everlasting water; when teaching about charity he approves among the works of love the offering of a cup of water to a neighbor; he refreshes his strength at a well-side; he walks on water; he crosses it at will; he uses water to do an act of service to his disciples. This witness to baptism continues right up to the passion. When he is handed over to the cross, water plays a part (witness Pilate's hands); and when he is pierced, water gushes out from his side (witness the soldier's spear)."

To the mind and imagination of the early church, the the One who is union with God, places the waters of baptism at the center of his ongoing work to provide that union for others.

And when it comes to the Eucharist, we first note that it is all about a kind of union with Christ that allows his life and energy to nourish and enliven our souls. And what are greater staples of the food that nourishes and energizes our bodies and minds than Bread and Wine? 

So, one of the most famous preachers of the early church, John Chrysostom, said, in order that we might receive union with God in Christ, and quote "become one with Christ in body and soul, not only according to love, but in actual fact, let us be blended into that flesh. For this happens through the food he has graciously given us ... he has mixed himself together with us, and has kneaded his body into us ... he has allowed [us] not only to see him, but also to touch him, and to devour him, and to fix [our] teeth in his flesh, and to embrace him."

In this context, bread and wine and water don't just "stand for" what they represent like an octagon stands for stop and a dash can stand for subtraction and purple might well stand for polka and flapping chicken wings. The symbols of water and bread and wine look like what they represent. They feel like what they represent. They deliver something of the actual effects of the things they represent. 

These symbols embody what they represent, and so they re-present to us what they represent.

Now, one place arbitrary signs and genuine symbols have something in common is that they both always have a story behind them. But what sets them apart here is that arbitrary signs always have a story - as in, all arbitrary signs have some variation of the same story -- behind them. Whatever the sign, the story always goes like this: At some point, some people decided this thing, whatever it is, would stand for this other thing, whatever that is. Then enough people agreed and so it became a sign.

But symbols, they have stories. Plural. Symbols are tied to any number of varied and very particular stories. And because of the wide variations that can take place in these narratives, there is no way to summarize them all in a general formula like the one we just laid out for signs without losing the vital power and nature of the story itself.

The Waters of Baptism, and the words and ritual movements we us in it, for instance, as we saw in the Tertullian quote, are linked to the story of creation and the ritual John the Baptist appropriated when he began to prepare peoples' hearts and minds for the coming of Jesus, and then the baptism of Jesus himself when we see the Trinity revealed. So when at our baptisms, we enter into Jesus death to be raised to new life in him, we do it in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. 

And the Eucharistic meal is rooted in the story of Jesus' last meal with his disciples when Jesus took the bread and blessed it, then broke it and said, "Take this and eat, all of you, for this is my body, broken for you." Then he took the cup and said "take this and drink, all of you, for this is my blood poured out for the forgiveness of sins." When Jesus did this, he gave his disciples a way to live out the implications of his earlier words when Jesus said, "unless you eat my flesh and drink my blood," or unless you have my energy and way of thinking become your energy and way of thinking, unless you have my very life become your very life, "then you have no part in me." 

Then, as the story of the Eucharist progresses, after Jesus' crucifixion and resurrection, there is an episode in Luke chapter 24, where two disciples are walking along a road, arguing about what to make of Jesus now that he'd been crucified. And Jesus himself comes along and starts to walk and talk with them, and they have no idea who this really is. Then Jesus spends a whole seven mile walk correcting their understanding of the Scriptures and show them how they all witness to him, but it is not until Jesus blesses and breaks the bread and gives it to them that the disciples see who is right in front of them. 

So, the story of the Eucharist goes, followers of Jesus don't read Scripture well, or even recognize Jesus, without communion with God.  

These are powerful and central stories that show us what union with God in Christ would look like. And because symbols, as we are using the word, carry a deeper resonance with the thing they re-present, they also carry us deeper into these stories.

See, whenever the stories we live involve something deeply moving, or that changes forever the direction of our lives - say, the day I got engaged, or when you moved to a new city - we might want to names some symbols and develop a ritual to commemorate it. When it comes time to do this, we hope this episode might help you find an authentic symbol, rather than just settling for some arbitrary sign, that would help you not just remember the events, but also live deeper and deeper into what that story continues to mean for you. 

But that's not the main goal of today's podcast. Today we're  not just looking for a precedent for a faith that can transform people by helping them connect to God or something that brings meaning to their individual existence. This would be a truly good goal. It's just not our main goal right now. Today we're chasing something bigger. Were looking for something that doesn't just unify and heal individuals, but that can also unify and heal us. That do more than help me feel connected to God, but can heal and save by uniting us to the source of freedom and peace and a life that would be worth living throughout the ages. 

So in the conversation coming up, Julius and I talk about how the central symbols of the faith we are highlighting, draw us into a story that is much larger than our own. And so why the Sacraments play a role that cannot be replaced by any arbitrary sign, or even a genuine symbol, that we make up and connect with, because it is born out of and continues to unite us with, our individualistic stories.


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to "All Things". And today we are just going to go for it. This is Julius and you know, Wil, uh, some of you 

Wilson: Well, no... you don't know me. 

Julius: That's true... Pause for reflection.

Wilson: You tossed that to the wrong Enneagram type, buddy. 

Julius: We're both 4's, so we apologize. Um, but outside of that today, we want to talk about why sacraments matter. I, I think I just want to talk about, I don't know if this is fully just a question, but like, I think just opening up the conversation as even between kind of our pre-conversation on Friday and today it's it was one of those things where like, you know, where you.

You're like on the market for a Toyota Prius and then you see it everywhere. It was one of, 

Wilson: Yeah. 

Julius: it was one of those moments for me where like this weekend alone, just like conversations with friends, um, seeing, um, public figures on social media that there seems to be this kind of, um, I don't know if it's like a push pull or like a resistance, but I think there's, there's this sense of like, The hanging question is something like, why, why is it worth doing church the way that we've always done?

And I mean, they don't use these terms, but like the people that I've talked to are kind of like, um, I think it's something like, w what is the point of. Um, retaining these traditions and for us, what we would see as sacraments, if we live in a world where like experientially, people are finding instances of like feeling closer to God or the divine in things outside of that, of like the churches four walls or the like quote unquote constructs of liturgy.

And I think that, um, This connects to those distinctions that we were talking about, because my hunch is that there's something like, um, uh, philosophical under a current that is wary of these forms of worship, because the assumption is that things like baptism and Eucharist and the way that the church has done worship.

Just falls under the category of the rest of the things that we do, where we just arbitrarily assigned, meaning that like ancient people decided that this was the way to connect with God. And that's the only reason why they're being done. And so, because it's arbitrary that these things can be done away with, or shouldn't matter to us today.

Right. And so.

Wilson: And I think if I'm tracking, what, what you're connecting here is with the distinctions we've just made. Uh, you're you're seeing all over the place that in our world, the assumption is that it's these things aren't genuinely sacrament in, in the kind of way we've talked about, but these, these would just be signed. 

That these, that this isn't, you know, this isn't the symbol of the sacrament. This is like the octagon on the stop sign that baptism and Eucharist are, are just arbitrary signs. And if they're arbitrary, why not make up something we like better. 

Julius: Yeah, exactly. And I think part of the first part of where I want to take this conversation, I think I may be. I'm trying to be a bit generous too, because I think a lot of what people are experiencing right now is like, what do we do with this? Like I skipped church on the Sunday and made a meal with my friends.

And that made me feel some sense of like connectedness to God and people around me more than going to Sunday service has, or like I went out for like to look at nature and I was moved by that. And that brought me like, in a sense, In like a palpable sense, closer to God than Sunday church ever has. And like, I, I understand like, and I, but I think that where I come from might not see those two things as disconnected, but like, how can we, I guess the question is something like, is that invalid for people to.

Like connect with God outside of like Sunday service. And what do we, what do we do with that?

Wilson: well, I first just want to say that I think the. Uh, the attempt, the intentional attempt to be generous is, uh, is a good one because it, this isn't the case that people are just like out to destroy things just out of meanness or leave things behind out of, Right.

That it really is coming from a genuine place of, but I've experienced some things.

And now how do, how do we make sense of this? And what we would be saying here is not that those things are in. You know, uh, there's there's also along with the tradition of sacraments in worship, there's a long tradition of, of testimony and. And of the church receiving and, and affirming the testimonies of people that, that found, you know, God all over the place.

I mean, one of, one of my favorite books is called practicing the presence of God, uh, by a guy named brother Lawrence, who was, you know, who is just a very ordinary monk. Um, and actually maybe ordinary, according to certain standards. Too much because in his monastery, he wasn't seen as incredibly valuable in a lot of things.

Like they, they tried to give him some business to carry out and he didn't handle business very well. And so they ended up just putting him in the kitchen, washing the dishes. And the whole book is about how he found God in that work of just washing other people's dishes. So there there's a long tradition in this.

And so what we're saying is not. You can't or you should feel guilty, uh, communing with God, with your friends on a Sunday morning, um, over brunch or out in the, in the woods or in a beautiful landscape or on a, on a cliff overlooking the ocean to sunset. You know, the, the thing here, what we would want to say is actually, it's not really an either or, but it's kind of a matter of priority.

Um, and what we would like to, I think a lot of what confuses people is they just, haven't been given a way to conceptualize and understand both and how they fit together. And that's more, I think, where we're aiming in this, in this episode, in this discussion. That if we see the genuine precedent that's been given to us in the tradition of the sacraments, then that's something that genuinely like on the back end fuels and makes it possible for us to experience some of the depth of those kinds of. To even begin to, I mean, that, that back ground experience, and even just the rote habit of going to church over and over and hearing these words, hearing these stories, being, being told over and over about this creator. Is what allows you to initially make the connection between something great happened?

When I had lunch with those friends and the concept of God, Right. So on the back end, that's part of what allowed those things to happen. And on the other end, that continued practice and engagement in the sacral. It's something that it's, and here's what we'll pick this up later. It's not arbitrary now again, you don't have, we're not enforcing this on anyone and you don't have to incorporate it into your life as the most important, but I do think intellectual honesty just puts us in a place where we have to at least admit they're not arbitrary.

Right. And so that's the point of our distinction here between sign and symbol. Is the symbols and the sacraments of the tradition, aren't arbitrary and continuing to participate in those and receive the grace of God through those, you know, we sat on the, on the front end, makes those moments possible.

And on the back end and continuing to seek the integration of those things is what will allow you to experience more and more the depth of the walk on the beach and the sunset and the dinner with friends. Right and getting captivated by, I mean, whatever it is, dust flakes floating through your living room, in the sunlight, you know, coming through your Venetian blinds or whatever it is, you know, all these moments like brother Lawrence, doing his dishes can be those things.

Right. And so it's not that or the sacraments, but we're trying to give a framework where we could see the tradition and engaging in the sacraments would open up more for those. 

Julius: Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I think that that's really, I think that's a really great way of putting it and it helps name kind of. Some of the ways that I feel about it too, that those two things don't necessarily have to be in competition with one another, the like finding God's. Oh, it goes back to seeing the world as graced as seeing those things as the ordinary, like the shared meal as graced by God.

Seeing like nature is graced by God. I think that's all held in the Christian story in the Christian faith, but I, I like the. The importance of seeing that as connected. Right. And not in competition. So I want to ask what, like, I know that like a lot of people who are like in the churches and especially work in the church, maybe have some anxiety about like, when people start to kind of, um, untether these other practices from, um, The worship and life of the church.

Why, um, why is that? And what, what harm can there be from like leaning into these non Sunday church practices and just like disconnecting those from, um, like liturgies and sacraments.

Wilson: well framed in that way. Um, from the angle of, well, why do some people in the church feelings identity, when others start to start to recognize these sorts of religious experiences outside of an overtly religious context, um, There could be lots of ways, you know, and some of those that you have my complete permission to ignore if that's what's really going on, because it might be, who knows, you know, pastors and church leaders are just people too.

And so it could be that it's just anxiety about attendance. You know, their, their lives are intertwined in this and just like anybody. And, and I, again, I don't want, I actually want to point this out in a way that levels it and helps us to notice another double standard is it's super easy to. Get really, really hard on pastors when they get worried about their paycheck, but it's like, come on.

People who wouldn't. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: I mean, for real, if you're in danger of like, not being able to pay your rent, I would not in any way, shame or guilt you for being worried about that, you know, but where there's, where there is it. And so why do we do it, pastors, and then, but where there's I think the answer to that question is, is maybe because we're just in a season where pastors have abused authority and, uh, have missed the point on the. You know, so, uh, if, if it's coming from, from that sort of place, you know, I don't really have anything beyond that to say, but I think we're where it would be genuine where a genuine cause. And we're where I could say like, well, here's, here's what I would see as a genuine concern for that is, um, well, it's situated in, uh, Or a root this part of the conversation in talking about a religious experience itself, that just to say, so for our culture, that's a highly, highly entertained, you know, a very consumeristic, um, emotive, uh, you know, emotion centric kind of culture.

Um, It can be easy to think that those religious feelings are the point, but this is exactly why we don't want to just abandon the tradition because the deep Wells, the richest part of the tradition warns us about the potential dangers of religious feeling, right.

That lets us know religious feeling in and of itself is not the point.

You know, for one precedent here, we could talk about St. John at the cross. um,

And his, his whole thing there is about how sometimes God will work to remove the feelings so that we don't put the feelings on the throne so that we don't come to learn the feelings or come to love the feelings, um, over religious experience, the way we should love only God and people. Right.

So to, to put an analogy, when you fall head over heels, for someone where the relationship really gets tested is when the feelings. And then it's like, you know, if, and I think it's important to put yourself on the end is like on the receiving side, the question being, do you really love me or do you just love it when I can make you feel this way? 

Julius: Oh,

Wilson: Right.

And so on a human when you're in that, in that place and then flip it and then just think, Okay.

If life, if eternal life is loving and communing with God, then the question then becomes Right. Do we really love God? Or do we love it when God makes us feel this way and this way? Um, and so the, the feelings themselves, aren't the point.

And so th where that can become really, really dangerous is when you feel great when you're having all sorts of religious experiences, but you're actually pretty unhealthy. I mean, just think about it with our bodies. The worst possible scenario is to have like a terminal illness, but no symptoms, 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: a terminal illness, but not feel any discomfort or anything that would point alert us to the fact that, you know, something, you know, a disease or a cancer is stealing our life from us.

Um, and you know, I've, I've. gotta be really general here because I do not want to betray anyone's story. But, um, I mean, there are plenty of time and I've, and I've lived through seasons like this myself too, where, um, people have said, you know, have if out of their mouths, it's, you know, I don't do this or this anymore.

And I've never felt closer to God, but are totally blind to the kind of havoc that they're wreaking on. Well, in some cases, their children, in other cases, they're their best friends, people that are dependent on them 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: are counting on them. Right. But they feel great. And that's, that's where the danger would be, um, is that we could go off and be feeling spiritually, alive and healthy when that's not actually the case.

Um, just like if we feel energetic and strong and alert, but there's, there's a disease. And where the sacraments and the disciplines, um, can help with that. As they constantly point us to Christ, they root the whole thing in Christ as the model of look, whether you're showing up and you're praying and you're worshiping and you feel great or you're showing up and you're praying and you're worshiping and you don't feel great.

The real question is, um, is Christ alive in you? And so are you becoming like Christ? 

Julius: Hmm.

Wilson: Not did I have a great Sunday morning with some friends or did I have a great Sunday morning with some other worshipers? 

Julius: Right.

Um, so, so far I think we've addressed some really important things. Um, first off, just reiterating that. That these practices right outside of Sunday, church aren't necessarily invalid or in competition with, but there's something that can, there's something there that is grace that can be held together, especially in the context of a worshiping community, practicing these sacraments together that these two things can hold together and it's not either, or, and also we've named something like the importance of ha um, rather than.

Turning to arbitrary signs and practices that make us feel good or spiritual, that those necessarily must be held in something that is, I want to use the word intersectional of something that's like held in like, uh, a story greater than ourselves that holds a community beyond ourselves so that we're able to be in conversation and listen, so that the things that make us so that we're not turning to things that only make us feel good.

But. Creating harm for others. And I think that that's an important part of, um, I mean, that's, that's, it's Eucharistic to be able to share like a table with somebody and like have to be, have to face somebody and like to consider their needs, consider who they are, that there's something embedded in the practice of that.

And so I guess to continue in, in that, um, In that thought or like that question, I guess. What more can we say about, um, what the church's precedent of practicing these sacraments? Like for all of these centuries and generations that, I mean, it, it is another one of those like unprecedented slash precedented things where like walking down somewhere in LA feels like maybe there's an unprecedented amount of like, options for like spirituality or like a do it yourself, kind of like create your own path towards God thing.

But that that's not necessarily a new thing that end that end, that those things also. To be even more generous, like can be held in traditions in and of themselves and are, have symbols that are not necessarily arbitrary, but that are held in something. So keeping all that in mind. Um, what does the story of the church has precedent in like being faithful to practicing these sacraments that they've viewed as important?

How does that make a case for. Why these particular like Christian practices, these sacraments are still worthwhile for us to hold on to.

Wilson: The way I would succinctly put that and then maybe try to unpack it and see what happens is when, what we're, what we're putting forward is to, to recognize, uh, a genuine expression of the Christian sacramental tradition. Um, meaning if, if your look, I mean, you go to. Any church with, you know, a Christian name and his title, and it's organizing papers that are filed with whatever government agency or whatever that has the name, Christian.

And you'll, you'll find these things, but that doesn't mean they're all alive and healthy. You 

Julius: Hmm.

Wilson: again, our Tricia, our tradition, our scriptures speak. Uh,

bodies of believers that have lost their true love, who who've been wooed away to other things and have traded the living genuine Christ for something else.

And where we'd look at this and say like, if, if Jesus is like the gospel of John says the true light that enlivens everyone, uh, coming into the world, if Jesus is this, then. And if, if his life and his presence is really being shared and received in this sacramental context, it would be. Open in it will enliven and open things up. Right.

Rather than it being the like super closed off, this is the only place you get it and own. Right. But it, instead being, this is the primary originary way that you get it so that it opens up so much more. Right. And so, yes, not, yes. Opening up other places for you to be able to recognize. You know, God in this place, Jesus is present the holy spirit and in this ordinary, everyday thing 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: from the overwhelmingly beautiful sunset to the seemingly overlooked dust, motes dancing around in Sunbeams, you know, but not just this, but even, even at an edit deeper like metaphysical level. The genuine practice of the sacraments opens up so much more for, for life and humanity. There's there are so many arbitrary symbols. Sure. We live in such a world that, that we, we start to think that it's only arbitrary. It's only sign. What the tradition can teach us is that we actually have we, and we are meaning-making animals. We constantly do that. We constantly make signs and meanings for other things.

And so of course, but what, what tradition does, is it, so yes, it disciplines, um, that strength, that power. And directs it. And so, yes, that's good. So that provides some bumpers to keep it from going down. That is that place where, you know, we, we could be ill, but feel great, but it doesn't just provide the guard rails.

It also, it doesn't just guard against the negative. It also opens up the positive by bringing us into, like we said, uh, the way a chord functions in a song. Now we can bring. Our symbols, right? The ones that we've discovered that we've made. And instead of it just being my arbitrary thing can find it participating in something much, much larger than me.

That then teaches us that our, our capacities are not just like our own personal isolated capacity to make up my own meaning, but to discover something larger, to participate in something larger that tells not just me, something about. You know, something I find meaningful, but that could help us discover together, um, a meaning that's bigger than all of us, so that our, so that our language, so that our, our words, so that our gestures toward each other, our acts of kindness can not just be arbitrary.

Things that we make up. It alerts us to a genuine, real reality. And so, and in that. Uh, truth. Um, because so often we, we mistake truth capital T for a thing that I, I contain and, and I hold in in my head, but, but what sacrament would genuine symbols in a sacramental context can alert us, can teach us to see is a genuine reality.

That's out there a real thing. And so in that sense truth that a genuine reality and truth that we're, that we named God, um, that, that then be in light of that in coming to see, recognize, participate, and receive life from that larger thing than us. Then what that does, is it enlivens and it opens up it, it saves. Tempted to say isn't right. Like, uh, I'm compelled saved. I'm compelled to say, uh, our, our meaning making abilities so that Yeah.

we make it up, but now it doesn't, it no longer resonates as true to say. It's just arbitrary. Yes. It's very much me recognizing a new. You know, creating, making a connection here, seeing it in these other places, but it's sanctifying and enlivening my ability to do that.

So that when I make meaning, when I, when I find my, my personal liturgies and rituals, they harmonize with this other genuine truth. And so I become more truthful and my son. It carry more, more life and vitality and weight and truth because they've been, they've been, uh, not just, you know, disciplined away from bad paths, but, but opened up in the genuine life of God. 

Julius: Hmm.


MEDITATION

Sacraments involve symbols, and symbols are themselves powerful things. But a Sacrament is not a simple synonym for "symbol." Sacraments are greater realities that help even symbols find a fuller meaning and purpose. 

As an analogy to help us comprehend and feel what's happening here, think of the relationship between a musical chord, and a whole song. 

A symbol is something like a chord. And a single note does not make a chord. 

For a triad, you have to pull together three different notes  ...

...that share a harmony. So the nature of a chord is to bring things together. And so, in itself, it is a thing of substantial power and beauty. 

Likewise, a symbol is something that pulls things together. For the key symbol of baptism, you have to have the water. The story. The religious experience of rebirth, and a sense of cleansing. 

You have in a symbol many different things participating in the one thing. So a strong symbol is like a full musical chord, but if you just hit the same chord over ...

..and over...

...and over again, eventually the beauty of that chord is going to get lost on your ears. 

So a chord needs a larger context, something bigger to participate in.

And what happens when difference and harmony and rhythm and pacing and ideas and words all come together in a song? 

What we're saying here, is that a symbol, like a chord, can indeed pull several things together in the hidden places of our hearts and minds, and this can be a very powerful thing. To a certain degree, it can even be healing. But this is always a healing carried out to a certain degree. Because some parts of us - like the parts that connect us to relationships and communities - by their nature cannot be healed when we are cut off from relationships and communities. 

And, further, we must admit, that individual hearts and minds are not the only things that need healing. The relationships and communities and cultures and institutions and ecosystems we are tangled up in also need to know the life and liberation that comes with being brought into communion with God. 

So, just as a symbol is something like a strong, harmonious chord, the sacraments provides a larger environment where something more like a song can take shape. 

Here, the symbol has an important role to play, but in a much larger piece that gives a greater experience of the beauty and power of God's ability to reconcile and save, and so joining that larger piece and harmonizing with other realities lets the symbol experience more of its own reality. 

Because, notice, in a sacramental context when the church gathers you have the different people from different backgrounds, with different hopes and expectations, and the love and the faith and the doubts of the people and their ideas and their ignorance and the felt absence of those who are elsewhere, all there. And you have the non-human stuff that makes the floors and walls and the music filling the air and light pouring through the windows and shadows cast on the ground and the whole myriad of infinite things that come together to make any kind of moment in any kind of place ...

...all of it, being united in God, and with God. The One in whom we live and move and have our being. Who created and holds it all. United together in God to work salvation into every dimension of that reality.

When all this comes together in faith the sacraments are for us like a song moving all things to the rhythms and uniting all things in the harmonies of Christ Jesus. 

Nothing less than this union is Salvation.

Precedented 4 - Worship, the Climate, and the End of the World


INTRO 

True, we've never before had a nearly-instantaneous, nearly-worldwide network connected to devices in our pockets alerting us to rising temperatures and the temperamental outbursts of tyrants or the spread of malicious insects and viruses. 

And being constantly aware of all this can feel disorienting and surreal. 

But even so, we're not convinced we should be so quick to call our times "totally unprecedented." Our ancestors weathered tyrants and plagues and renovated their political thought and activity when facing the consequences of previous human actions. 

And for those of us within the Christian Tradition, we must always remember that our predecessors took on the challenge of reinterpreting all of reality in light of the singular life of Jesus of Nazareth. 

What is not "unprecedented" is humans encountering the unprecedented. And in the midst of our own unique challenges, we unnecessarily feed the bad reactions that can come with fear and uncertainty if we believe we face our challenges alone.

So, in this series, we look at people and moments in the Tradition where those who came before us give us precedents for facing our epoch-shaping tests and tasks. 

This time, in the face of constant news of ominous threats to the climate and ecosystems, we look at a precedent that could help form us into people who see the world rightly, and live accordingly.


STORY

Talk and fears about the end of the world are nothing new.

A religious text that dates early as the 18th century BCE, named The Epic of Gilgamesh, tells of an immeasurable storm whose winds and waters flatten the earth and turn all human life to clay.

Portions Norse mythology that started to be written down about a millennia ago, but was passed on orally for who knows how long before that, tell of Ragnarok, a war waged at the primal spiritual levels of reality that brings about natural disasters and the total submersion of the world in water.

And the New Testament book of Revelation gives us a picture of how some, nearly 2,000 years ago, imagined the end in episodes of spiritually desolate yet aesthetically awe-inspiring cities lying within wasted landscapes and then a burning and then renewed world. 

But that's the end. And we'll grant that the end is the most important part of any story. But that end is always dependent on the second most important part of any story: the beginning. 

And Genesis 1, the beginning of the Hebrew and Christian Scriptures, invites us to see things of substance and potential being called out of the nothing and chaos by the Word of God. To hear that Word speaking the structures that undergird peace and provide a guiding vision for those things to come together in order and harmony and beauty. And over all this is Spirit of God, or as the Hebrew has it, the ruach elohim, hovering, and teasing out the kind of vitality and beauty that makes God pause, take it all in, and declare that the light and the waters and the land and the life filling it all, is all good.

You can read every line after Genesis 1:2 and you will not again see the word combination ruach elohim, the Spirit of God, until the 31st chapter of the book of Exodus. Here, you find God's people in a wilderness, a desolate landscape falling back into formless chaos, right after God has freed them from the tyranny of Egypt, but without their own culture and law and liturgy to give shape to their own particular way of life. 

They did not know it yet, but God was about to, again, issuing the same invitation to bring something from nothing. 

In the beginning, God speaks over the course of seven days. And to each word, there was a yes, and because of this response there was light and water and earth. The raw materials for a world. 

In the wilderness, throughout chapters 25-40 of Exodus, God speaks precisely seven times. And to each word Moses and the people respond with funding and incense, cloth and wood, which become the raw materials for what would be shaped into their place of worship: the tabernacle. This was their yes. 

And the Spirit was again hovering. 

Because here, in chapter 31, you also meet a man named Bezalel. He was the artist tasked with crafting the tabernacle.  And this is also the next time you encounter the phrase ruach elohim. God poured the same breath that teased life and beauty from the raw materials of creation into Bezalel so he could craft the incense and cloth and wood into a place of worship. 

Now, if the Spirit of Genesis 1 is involved in this craftwork, do you think we are intended to see the place of worship, and the worship itself that takes place there, as having nothing to do with Creation?

Under the inspiration of the ruach elohim, Bezalel sectioned the tent into three portions, like the earth, sea, and sky in creation. He held the pieces of fabric that would cover the tabernacle together with gold clasps that would catch the light of the candles and cast dancing beams like heavenly beings onto the underside of the covering. Walk in, look up, and behold the stars and angels and their heavens. 

Bezalel also placed the lamp stands inside to source the light. Behold the greater and lesser lights God placed in the sky. 

In the courtyard, waters were to be separated and contained in a large basin, which was often called the "sea." The colors of the tabernacle evoked earth and sky. The birds of the air and animals had a place in the rituals and, like humankind created on the sixth day and given dominion over the whole thing, in the liturgical procession, the High Priest came last and ordered what happened in the tabernacle according to the word of God. 

All of God's people were invited to participate in this, and in doing so learn to get the true story of all things deep into their minds and hearts and bodies, so this worship and this story would help fund the particular culture they would generate. To shape how they would see, understand, and treat the world God placed them in, and trusted to them.

So, the first structure dedicated to the worship of YHWH was also a place of new creation. 

Remember though, "liturgy" does not just include proper religious ceremonies. It also includes the idea of work. Again, there is a creation pattern here: God speaks and Moses and the people respond with work. Bases were laid and frames were set, poles were erected and pillars raised. 

This distinctive mix of worship and work involved ordinary things like stone and wood and metal and fur. Bezalel took the raw materials and crafted them into frames and fabrics and vestments, like elements and organisms from energy and base matter. Then the fabric covering was spread and the guidelines for worship and ordering everyday life, the liturgies, were put in a special ark. Bread and lamp stands were arrange and incense burned. Later, a Hebrew poet would pick up on the similarities between creation and the tabernacle and say that when God created the heavens and the earth, God "stretch(ed) out the heavens like a tent" (Ps. 104:2). 

The seventh word spoken by God in Genesis 1 ushers in the Sabbath. The seventh time God speaks in this section of Exodus, God invites the people into Sabbath worship in the newly completed tabernacle. 

The tabernacle was a tent designed by an artist who was moved by the same Spirit that evoked a world from an empty, primordial wilderness, and erected by people given a crucial role in the ongoing shaping of that world. 

Compared to the temples of Egypt or Babylon, this tent was small and temporary. But when the response to God's call was complete and the work of the tabernacle done, a cloud covered the tent, and the glory of God filled the place. Like God again walking around in Eden.  

The worship that happened there was intended to embrace everything about the world and bring it into the presence and care of the Creator. 

If this little tent was also a "little universe," this, more than the impressive temples of the Empire they just escaped, gives God's people a picture of where everything is heading. 

And knowing, trusting, and enacting our true beginning points us toward our true end.  

Listen for the call, notice the potential, respond and give yourself to it, and God will use us to build a little model of that new world right in the middle of this wilderness. We may not even Eden. But, wherever we happen to be, God will meet us there in our work-and-worship. 

But there is also, always the chance that we will say no to the invitation. When we do is when we build hell. 

So, next, Julius and I will explore the ways our worship can give us precedent for thinking about and engaging the anxieties so many feel regarding our relationship to the health of the earth.


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to “All Things”. This is Julius and Wil, and today we are talking about, I guess, an undergrad, there was a lot of talk. Um, I sat through quite a few lectures and chapels about the idea of, um, the language of creation care. And that seems to really, I mean, it has been timely for the past couple of decades now, as, as, I mean, the way that.

Things have progressed with the earth and climate. And especially like we find ourselves in the middle of a public health crisis. There's lots of anxiety. I think about, um, how as a people, uh, or regardless of whether they're, these are people who identify as part of the church or not, but how to kind of navigate.

A changing world and environment and how to care for, um, quote unquote, like the natural world. Um, I know that just recently there've been a lot of anxieties about like how long, like, is this planet even going to be able to last for. Given, I don't know the way that things are going with climate change.

And so today, as we continue this series of looking to Christian tradition for precedents, that help us to navigate times that like, I mean, where we are right now with. Things like climate change. Like these things might not have been like specifically the way that the church has dealt with it before, but we see even in the story proceeding, this, that there's a tradition that holds, um, the church and being able to.

At least see and relate to the world rightly as God has intended it. So the first thing I want to note here is this, the proceeding story seems to outline a different way of seeing and relating to the world. Not just as the quote unquote natural world as kind of like a cold objective thing, but specifically with the term creation as something that is rooted in the story and then the action and in the character of God, And God's loving act of grace and creating all things.

So what can we say more about this distinction and why is this important in helping us, um, helping direct the way that we relate to things like the planet, the cosmos now.

Wilson: Yeah.

I think it highlights, um, the importance of. Well, this may seem like an odd place to start, but you give me just a minute and I think the connection will become pretty clear. Uh, it highlights the importance. Um, of learning to speak Christianl-y. Um, and it, it takes my mind to, uh, when I was a youth pastor, um, and I used to, I used to allow students and even myself, when we're reading portions of scripture, that had really difficult names. or cities or whatever, you know, Hebrew or, or even, you know, in the new Testament, uh, when it's got Jesus's genealogy and stuff would let them just skip the names or say like, you know, some, and I don't know, it's some variation of the same joke about, you know, “And then…some difficult name beget the other… difficult thing to say,” you know, and everyone would giggle or whatever, but I eventually decided to stop. And it kind of explained, "Hey look, look, look. Uh, ‘grande’… ‘venti’…you guys know what that is, right?”

It that's a, that's an alien word. The first time it gets on your tongue, but you've been to Starbucks enough right now. You understand what you're saying? Verizon…

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: There are strange words that you're incredibly comfortable with.

Not because the first time you come upon them, they're easy to say or understand, but because of practice and here's what someplace like Starbucks knows: that's all part of the experience. That's part of how they, like, shape you to become a Starbucks customer. Is they, they do something that you have to be initiated into, but then once you, once it gets inside, you feel more comfortable, you feel like more of a sense of belonging there. 

Uh, you've you feel more at ease or whatever it is, you know. Because they're not just selling coffee because God knows if all Starbucks was selling was coffee, they would have tanked a long time ago. Cause it’s god-awful coffee, but they're selling what they're great at is X is selling a kind of experience and truthfully what they're selling is a kind of belonging and to a certain degree, it's, uh, it's certainly an attenuated, but they're selling identity. Um.

Julius: Totally.

Wilson: So you learn that language, you get comfortable with it. And so we can do, because these are our ancestors in this. And just like, it's important, you know, if I'm going to be your friend, even if your name is difficult for me to say, for me to learn, to say your name well, and if this is the story that we're entering into, we need to learn to say this well, and this is why when, when now bringing it into talking about creation and not just a planet or the, even, even the natural world, you know, because just like venti is different than… Is venti large? Grande’s large?

Julius: Yeah. I think it's Tet. 

Wilson: Grande’s like honking large…? I don't know, whatever, you know, 

Julius: Venti like the largest in the three size ecosystem. I think. 

Wilson: Yeah. In, in Starbucks world. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: Um, uh, but, uh, Just like, you know, Hey, there's some overlap here, but they're not exactly the same because venti is now so tied into the whole Starbucks experience. There might be some places of overlap when you talk about natural, the natural world, the planet and creation, but they're not exactly the same because so much of the experience or the, the world, you know, the parallel we're making, like the whole Starbucks experience, the whole thing that shapes what we feel, uh, what we read into and take out of the word natural or planet is so shaped by just a mechanistic cold.

Hey, it's just there. It's just stuff. Picture of reality. Like it, Hey there, it makes it seem neutral. It makes it seem like just a thing. And now that thing is there and it's totally up to me. Like according to my desires, my whims to decide what we will or won't do with that thing. But creation is personal. Okay. Eh, if you name a person, it's not a thing. And we all still, at least in for maybe not everyone, but in large part, we, we hold in common that we understand when you're dealing with a person in a name, you don't just get to do what you want with that person. It's not just an object for you to manipulate and you can't just control them according to your whims and desires. 


Wilson:  Creation is tied to creator— it ties it to a particular story. The natural world almost makes it seem like, uh, it's totally separated or floating above, or disconnected from a story, but creation, situates it in a particular story and then invites, like, and you, you start thinking, what does this word mean?

And what do I do with it? All of that is shaped by the particulars of that story. There's a God, and this God creates why? Because of love. And how does this God create?

Julius: Right.

Wilson: By speaking. And so then why is creation there? It's not just an object for me, you know, I, because of what I want right now, you know, or what I want to drive or how I want, you know, all of these things, not just my desires.

You also have to think about what, what was the intent and the hope and the purpose of the creator? Well, it was to create out of love and creates by speaking—it’s a way for the invisible, I mean. Creation is language. Creation is a way for God to speak and communicate something about God's self. And so then in all of that, I mean, and this is why God speaks with a word, and with a word comes light and darkness day and night, sun and moon and plant and animal life, and a garden. 

Now, all of this is coming from love, coming from a person shaped by the desire of the creator to give a good gift and in the giving of this gift for the creator to be known. That just, that's such a different thing when you encounter creation as a part of that story— it puts you on an entirely different footing and, and… takes it out of this sphere of “Here's this stuff, what do we do with just this stuff?” To… is this? Who is this? And it, it, honestly, it holds so much promise because it makes demands on us. It invites us. Don't just do with what you will with me, but get to know what I truly am and then do something with me that that's true to what I am in my essence. 

Julius: I think that's really helpful to frame this, and um. While I do think. And I think w-we have affirmed how language really matters in shaping, um, like in this sense, right? The story that, um, like our understanding of the world is held in. Um, but it's, it seems that also like moving beyond that, as much as language shapes, how we interact with the world, that there's another element of like, having to… of connecting kind of like this story ur, to our actual concrete practices and how we, um, like relate to the world in our every day. 

And there's, um, right now I'm thinking of the, one of the comedians that I follow has a bit that he's workshopping right now that I don't know if it'll say. Act or not, but where he's kind of painfully honest, where I think a lot of people are maybe misunderstanding the bit, but like painfully honest about this, this whole idea of like, uh, no, I know like intellectually that it's good to care for the environment or whatever.

Yeah. When it comes time to vote for policies like about the environment I'll vote the right way. But like internally, just like, I think that's where the disconnect comes and people are uncomfortable with it. He's like, I don't care. Like I don't actually in my heart care about like the polar bears or whatever, or, um, um, and so I, I, and I think that that's like a conundrum that a lot of people face and maybe.

Don't always talk about, or aren't always honest about it is this disconnect we feel about, like, I think a lot of us can do the things that like, in terms of optics, feel like the right thing to do about the environment, but as far as where our actual heart and our desires are for the world, that. That there's a disconnect there.

And it feels like at least speaking from a Christian perspective, that the liturgies that we participate in, like have a crucial role in shaping that part of it, of like the part where our heart is pulled into actually caring where like this language distinction between natural world and creation as something that allows us to see, but then also act like differently.

In relation to the world that it feels like liturgy is a huge part in like making it, not just like a, oh, I know intellectually. And so on a surface level, I know what to do to not be considered like, uh, environmentally irresponsible. So I guess my question is what, um, in what ways can we see in the Christian tradition?

Like the ways that liturgy, um, specifically, um, shapes the way that the people of God. In their everyday life interact with the world. The ways that the story actually, um, makes its way into embodied practice.

Wilson: Okay. So in this story, we, we talked through the parallels, right between the literature. That the, um, that Moses and the spirit, right. Or we would say this spirit through Moses and and the people in the wilderness, uh, developed and enacted the overlap there, um, between. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: The creation story and the, what their liturgies there.

They're obviously taking, you know, what God does in creation in the speaking and the working that God does there and putting that into the liturgy or the work of the people. Right. Which is what the word liturgy means. Um, and actually, you know, to put a finer point. Liturgy is not just the work of the people.

It's the work for the people. Um, because when it was first developed in like the Hellenistic world, that Greek term was referring to a communal work, yes, we would all participate in this work that we would do together. Um, but also understood. We do this for the ongoing flourishing of each other in our land and our societies, everything.

Interrelated. Right. Because they understand as a society goes, so goes the land and as the land goes, so goes the society. Right. And so we do these liturgies to appease the gods. Um, so that things could continue to go well for us. And so it is the work of the people, but it's also the work for the people.

And I think that's a dual meaning, or at least a… to just expand the definition with another clause to help us see more of what's happening there, liturgy the work of the people for the people.


Wilson: That leads me to talk about the Hebrew word that is used to describe. In that story, the old Testament, right. We talked through, or God speaks seven times and Moses was alien. The people respond like the primal elements responding to God's God's word in the work of creation. And they come with, you know, the incense and they come with the goal, then the metals and the cloth and they sew and they arrange it.

And then they do the work of the liturgy. Right. In all of these things. It's. Fascinating. And I don't know, this is where I would hope I know on all sorts of levels. This is such a politicized thing. And. Uh, it's funny how, like, in the middle of it, I get excited. So I'm not nervous right now, but I absolutely 100% know as soon as we stop recording and I get in my car to go teach my class, I'm going to have that.

Oh, shoot. That's when I'm going to 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: because I realized what we're stepping into for all the different ways that. It could get politicized and just get just knowing it's guaranteed. Someone is going to misunderstand, not going to hear because we're so locked in our fighting. Right.

But just understand what we're, what we're walking into.

What I hope we do. Here's a key point, Right.

Where this would really maybe open up our minds and our hearts to see at least where Julius and I fought on behalf of Shema, you know, and in that, trying to be faithful to the truest, deepest parts of the Christian tradition, which means to be faithful, that Jesus, where we're really hoping to push this, it would be on this point.

That? Yes, there are those parallels and they're, they're intentional. They're obvious, right? Seven words, seven words creation responds. The people responds here's the, here are the CS in creation. Here are the CS and the tabernacle, the earth, the sky, the three parts that creation the three parts, you know?

Right. That's not on accident. I think it is, then we'll talk about something else at some other point, but I don't know what more I could do to just make that blatantly obvious, but this is the thing that just takes it to another place. The word in, in that story there, while the Hebrews are in the wilderness erecting, the tabernacle. Is not just any generic term for work it's Barra. And that's a very particular, very specific term for a very, not just particular kind of work, but that word tends to be reserved for one being and that's God, Barbara is, is a word used for what God does when God creates. And this is a very distinct it like in the Hebrew, it's it like stands out like, like if it were, it were bold italicized, underlined and highlighted the fact that this word is being used for the activity of human beings like Moses and and the people in worship.

What they're doing here is continuing 

Julius: Hmm.

Wilson: that God begins at creation what's happening here is a restoration. I mean, cause it creation, God speaks and, and all that power, all that life that's carried in God's word. Right. God then breeds that into humans and puts them in a garden to till and to keep it that's what we were made for.

And that's exactly what we fell off. We no longer hear respond. And so faithfully respeak God's word to care for, to cultivate all of creation. And now this is what's being reinstated and proper healthy worship. You're not just doing the work of the people for the people. Yes, you are doing those things, but what really makes it for the people and for the, the good of the whole world is that it is. 

Julius: Hmm.

Wilson: in learning to worship. And in this, like we talked about to not just escape the world, not just transcend the world, but enter more deeply into and be remade to the people that we were made to be. We become the kinds of people that when we work, we do borrow God's care and love flows through us. And that, that Karen loves.

Translates well into genuine, actual care and love for everyone and everything and anything less. Yes, it's an ideal, right? And we don't want to be rigid legalistic, judgemental. You or I, or people fall short of this, but we do not want to let go of that and nothing, anything less than that as the ideal Barra that sort of creation care as ongoing creation, the spirit of God, continuing to carry the word of God through us to do what only God can do through us.

Anything less than that is something much less than a Jewish Christian. That's where I would hope to take recenter this whole conversation. I mean, that's like that's basic fundamental, uh, grade school level Christian theology. And if we can't make the connection between that and the world that we live in. We've missed something of basic fundamental Christian theology. 

Julius: So with this part of the conversation makes me think of is, um, actually I, where it brings my mind right now is what feels like a contrast between two kind of types of stories and images in particularly in, in Genesis, because I'm thinking right now of like, I think a lot of our conversation now, and a lot of our conversation prior to this in preparation touches on.

I mean, I think a lot of where we are right now with regards to things like climate change and dealing with these like environmental anxieties of like things being really dire comes from the result of like this. Misdirected like misordered relationship between humanity and like for some the natural objective world and for Christians creation.

Right. But that like a lot of this is like a lot of where we are is the result of us having built these systems that assume that nature is something that is, uh, Perhaps like an unlimited resource that is there for the taking that is purely for our exploitation versus the more Christian narrative of something to be cultivated, something that is held in like the story of God's creation, um, that there's a different kind of relationship there.

And it makes me think of something like in Genesis, right? There's the, um, and this might not be a perfect analogy, but like the, the story of the tower of Babel to meet. Like represents an origin story of a people who are trying to reach say the heavens or like, to, to become kind of like equal creators with God, but in, in a way that is like exploitative and, um, that intentionally kind of like, it's like, let's build everything like, and not like keep in mind.

Limits that are good. Or it's just about chasing like the highest goal based on like human effort versus something like in Genesis with like being planted in a garden. And I think that ties into you. You alluded to earlier, like having a thing about like the importance of the image of the garden, it feels like those are two different approaches to kind of like building.

Maybe like a kingdom or like a people of like a, do we keep on building upwards to the limits versus something like tailing and cultivating a garden?

Wilson: Yeah. I hadn't, I hadn't thought about, uh, The connection there to Babel. That's good. I like that. And then that even also makes me think like, yeah, in Genesis, the first it's explicitly named the first human beings that found a city are the descendants of Cain and. Like, even that is, is that narrative here is directly tied to the narrative of fall and leading to the violence against a brother and to now building societies and, and trying to seek some, some kind of right.

Cause what was Cain's whole neurosis afterwards was. There's not going to be a place for me. They're going to see, and they're going to kill me too, because I've done this now I'm going to get killed. And that sort of fear starts to shape so much of how we build our things and our cultures and right.

Looking for now that the world has become so unsafe and we've contributed our fair share to make it an unsafe. Now, how do we make it safe? Right. And so you've got cities at the tower of Babel and over and over and over again, you see, we invent an infinite. Of ways. Right? And so the particulars always seem unprecedented.

We invent an infinite number of ways of making one of two mistakes. Either we sell ourselves too short as human beings. And one of the ways you see this is, oh, well, it's God's world. It's in God's hands. If God wants the world to be destroyed well, isn't that how it all ends. Anyway, we have no, right. And you sell that humanity too short.

You make that mistake and, and the other end is a hubris. Well,

we are, Hey, we could build a tower to heaven. Let's chase this. right.

And now Yeah.

you do see, like we can create, we can make things, but now when you rival God, there's an arrogance. That's like at the heart of what you make and how you create, and that's going to lead to destruction for you and for other people around. And so that, Yeah,

in a sense, if we want to go back. Early early in the story for some sort of like, okay, let's back up, let's push this deeper. Let's dig down for an idea, uh, a story or a precedent that could maybe point us in a different direction. You do go to the garden because look, look there at the story.

God speaks. And all of this life, right? We've already taught all of this life that can and power, like the kind of love that can make light shine from darkness that can bring, that can shape order in the midst of, you know, just primordial chaos, right.

Is spoken, is breathed into humanity. Now this is what makes us and God as a good Korean.

And God has a creator that notices like the what's true, you know, the essence of what I create. And now how do I continue to care for what's been made that God has the model for what it is to do this well, notices what God's made and knows. Hey, now, if this is what humanity is, if they're carrying, if they're breathing this breath, if they are this sort of like open. Channel for me like to receive my life and my goodness. And then to let that flow through them, to the world around them, they need the right place to be. And so what does God do? 

Julius: Hm.

Wilson: plants a garden and then puts humanity in the garden and gives us work to do Barbara. Now here's the thing. Where I was going with garden is they don't just happen. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: plants and cares for a guy. And, and, and that takes intentionality. It takes care. You and I riff often about the misuse of the word organic. Oh, I, you know, I don't want to force it. I just want 

Julius: You'd be organic, right?

Wilson: Just because it takes effort doesn't mean you're forcing it and organic things take effort. What you really mean is magic, 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: But it's clear to me. You have not gardened because gardening, it's hard. It's hard work. You sweat your muscles, get sore. You, you face frustration. You've got to constantly weed things, Right.

If you're walking along in a forest and picture like, is this a Y. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: creation with life like spreading out everywhere. This is kind of the picture of, of Genesis at this point. If you're walking along and forests where life is just without, without guidance, without direction, without cultivation, and you suddenly happened upon a garden in the middle of a forest, your response is not going to be holding up happened.

Sometimes your response is going to be, how did a garden happen here? And it's going to lead you to questions about the garden. God cultivates and cares for, for it to make the garden possible, says, this is what you need. And you don't just need this to be given to you.

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: who you are as human, if this is how I've made you in my breath is flowing through you.

You don't just need to be given this garden. You also need to be given the task of caring for it. That's our place in this world. 

Julius: Hmm.

Wilson: And, and that puts us at the place where Right. That. We're, we're not trying to be, co-creators like right there on the same level with God or dethrone in God. Right. It's not babble.

We're not trying to be there nor are we going. Like, well, we just, it's all God's anyway, you know, he gave us, we just, we want to be handed this stuff. No, like it. It's our proper place. I token Jr. Token called it sub creation and it shaped the way he treated his whole like imaginative work of inventing a whole world is why does, why does middle earth holds so true for us?

Because he, he knew the word. He he learned, he's like, Okay.

God, through, through the liturgy, through the worship, through your scriptures, through the disciplines, teach me to enter into your world and see it. Right. And because he had entered into our world, entered into creation that way he was able to imagine and sub create a world middle earth.

It seems so different. Right.

But tells us so much that it's true about our world. And th this is, this is what we need. This is the work that we need to do.


MEDITATION

A precedent is not just something that happened in the past and claimed to be important. A genuine precedent actually sets a direction and provides some momentum that will carry us into the future, and so shapes something of what that future will be. 

So if, for Christians, this kind of worship flowing into this kind of work sets this kind of future-shaping-and-enabling precedent, where would it all take us?

Gardeners, looking forward to the end of all things would certainly not formulate in their imaginations a picture of God saying, "Good job my people, for just sitting around while I destroyed the world I gave you to care for. Now let's get on with that eternal party I promised you." 

And so of course, the book of Revelation, concluding as it does the story that begins with Eden, gives us an ending that harmonizes with and develops that initial precedent. 

Revelation is, of course, a long and complex book. But for the purposes of this episode, the vision we are given there can be summarized in two key points.

First, when in chapter 11, verse 18, God judges the nations and kingdoms of this world, it is clearly stated one of the reasons is for destroying the earth. 

And, if we followed the story well, this judgment should not come as a surprise. 

When Moses and Bezalel were shaping a Tabernacle that taught people to see their world as Creation, they also shaped the Law that would outline ways to actually treat the world as Creation. So in Exodus 23:11, it is commanded that every Seventh year God's people were to let the land lie fallow. 

Let the liturgies that shape your worship on the Seventh day, shape and flow into the way you do your work and how you treat the land. 

Build that into your rhythms for work, so the land can rest and you do not deplete it. That has been calling like a drum beat inviting us to move in rhythm with it for centuries and centuries.

Gardeners would move to this beat. And in practicing it, grow to love it. 

Second, in the book of Revelation we are given a picture of where this is all headed. 

And it looks like a city. 

But not one whose architecture and culture were shaped by hurt and fear and greed, like the cities the descendants of Cain built. This is not a landscape where it would make sense to place in its center something looking like the tower of Babel. 

This is the New Jerusalem. With eternal light and streets of gold and so it is fitting that at its center, straddling a river bearing living water, is the Tree of Life, which was seeded in Eden, and has not been seen for a good while.

But now, it's right in the heart of the City, bearing leaves that heal the nations that have just been judged. 

So the end that fits our precedent is Eden. But not just. This Garden has grown into a city.

When our worship begins to shape how we see, we began to recognize the world and its resources are not just "stuff" to be used according to our plans and agendas. Our worship helps us see that Creation is, in its deeper truth, raw material for healing. 

And so, when this worship flows into and through our work, we build cities that are not concrete deserts with alleyways swallowing the forgotten and lonely in darkness and dunes of refuse blocking the sky. 

Instead, when Eden nurtures us and we then nurture Eden, it flourishes into a City that is a Garden that heals the nations.

Our precedent invites us to experience the truth that lives inhabited in Christ by our Creator and poured out in worship and work, are lives that point to this end.

Precedented 3 - Polycarp, Martyrdom, and Making Things Great Again


INTRO 

True, we've never before had a nearly-instantaneous, nearly-worldwide network connected to devices in our pockets alerting us to rising temperatures and the temperamental outbursts of tyrants or the spread of malicious insects and viruses. 

And being constantly aware of all this can feel disorienting and surreal. 

But even so, we're not convinced we should be so quick to call our times "totally unprecedented." Our ancestors weathered tyrants and plagues and renovated their political thought and activity when facing the consequences of previous human actions. 

And for those of us within the Christian Tradition, we must always remember that our predecessors took on the challenge of reinterpreting all of reality in light of the singular life of Jesus of Nazareth. 

What is not "unprecedented" is humans encountering the unprecedented. And in the midst of our own unique challenges, we unnecessarily feed the bad reactions that can come with fear and uncertainty if we believe we face our challenges alone.

So, in this series, we look at people and moments in the Tradition where those who came before us give us precedents for facing our epoch-shaping tests and tasks. 

In this episode we discuss heroes, and which ones truly give us a precedent for understanding Christian greatness.


STORY

A surrounding culture always shapes how people understand and engage the ethical issues and intellectual questions of their day. And in the first two episodes of this series we laid out some of how early Christians, as they engaged their world, distinctly synthesized elements from both the Jewish and Hellenistic cultures surrounding them.

Now, there are always an incalculable number of ways one bit of culture can be synthesized into a different tradition - just spend half a minute scrolling through all the different musical sub-genres out there on Spotify. Notice how R&B and Hip-hop have been synthesized into both jazz and metal. Or how many vastly different artists can incorporate Latin rhythms. 

And like a middle-eastern musical scale or a tribal groove making its way into a genre of music originating from a vastly different time and place, in the centuries surrounding Jesus of Nazareth, different bits of the Jewish and Roman cultures made their way into any number of other societies and philosophical schools and religious traditions. 

But Christians incorporated elements of their world in the particular way they did, because other central pieces of their culture, like their worship and prayer and social customs, were shaping them into people who understood everything in light of one, distinct, conviction. That central conviction was that Jesus is simultaneously the fully transcendent God, and a fully human person totally engaged in and present to everything that any human is engaged in and present to. 

And the gospel Christians confess, being birthed in this distinct womb, necessarily takes on a distinct character. Like Jesus was divine, his gospel includes the highest, most sacred and mysterious ideas -- like those chased by Plato. And like Jesus was human, his gospel takes on the character of common and routine events that take place in space and time. In this, the gospel radicalizes the tendency of the Jewish stories that came before to include laws about cooking meat and handling routine conflict with neighbors right alongside outstanding stories about mountains shaking and fire dropping from the sky. Christ's life, and so his gospel, takes place in history, but also heals and transcends history by reconciling it to the divine.

Now, in offering this kind of potential intellectual guidance, in this episode, we also want to admit that in confusing and scary times, we look not just for something that can help us conceptually hold together this world and some other, better world. We also look for heroes who bridge the gap between this world and our ideals. 

We always love heroes, but especially in challenging times, seek out people who offer us something this-worldly, something concrete enough to grab, cling to, and emulate so we can receive the benefits of our ideals where we are - because that's where our uncertainty and trouble is. And precisely in this collusion of the transcendent and the every day, heroes can offer a way to somewhere new, somewhere more stable and less threatening.  

But our age also sits in the middle of the seismic tremors set off by the fall of Bishops and Evangelical Superstars. We shiver in the long-shadows of monuments erected to tyrants that stand right alongside statues to genuine heroes. 

So if we are going to name any heroes for our moment, we know, instinctually, that we need to look beyond figures who are able to embody an ideal and amass hordes of devoted followers. Just playing the role of living a life-that-is-larger-than-life cannot be sufficient criteria to name someone a hero. 

A Christian hero needs ... something more ... 

Otherwise our heroes might inspire a picture of what it means to attain knowledge of divine things and accumulate diving power here and now that would construct an idea of GREATNESS that looks a lot like some of the bloodiest empires or most ruthless tyrants of history.

So, moving forward in this episode, we acknowledge, and ask you to acknowledge, both that a gospel that moves through concrete events and takes us somewhere heavenly, sounds like real hope, but can also, and to many does, sound like the beginning of a bloody imperialism. 

Yes heroes carry power, but for either heavenly good, or unimaginable evil. 

So it's important that the earliest Christians set a vital precedent for us when they chose, as the highest honor that could be awarded any Christian hero, the title "Martyr."

One of the most beloved, and widely spread stories of the early Christian martyrs was that of a man named Polycarp. He became something of a Christian celebrity. So, as we tell his story, contrast it with what today tends to build someone a platform, and note what that contrast says about what ancient Christians found heroic and great.

Polycarp was born in 69 AD. This puts his life at a crucial juncture for the Church, when first apostles were dying off. 

Polycarp was a disciple of one of those first apostles, named John. And what John passed on to Polycarp effected more than just how Polycarp thought about the relationship between the divine and the human. It shaped who he was. As one of Polycarp's laters disciples, Irenaeus, put it, "I could tell you the place where the blessed Polycarp sat to preach the Word of God. It is yet present to my mind with what gravity he everywhere came in and went out; what was the sanctity of his deportment, the majesty of his countenance; and what were his holy exhortations to the people. I seem to hear him now relate how he conversed with John and many others who had seen Jesus Christ, the words he had heard from their mouths."

Polycarp eventually became the Bishop of Smyrna, a city on the Western coast of what is now Turkey. Much of his ministry was characterized by the way he converted people to Christ from a form of faith that sought to totally escape the realities and troubles of this world.

And finally, Polycarp did not just convert them to a faith that inhabits this troubled world, but he modeled for them how to enter that trouble as Christ would. 

Though Polycarp was born into the faith, the authorities waited until very late in his life to put his faith to the ultimate test.

When word got out the the Roman authorities were seeking to arrest Polycarp, he initially decided to wait patiently for them at his home. But then some followers came to him and he noticed their panic, for their sake he agreed to move to a small place outside the city. 

But while sleeping there, Polycarp had a vision of his pillow turning to fire. When he woke up, he laconically told his companions, "I must be burned alive." 

When one of Polycarp's friends betrayed his location to the Romans and the soldiers came for him, some of his friends again tried to get him to flee. Instead, Polycarp opened the door for the soldiers and prepared them a meal. As they ate with him, Polycarp prayed.

After a couple hours, they placed Polycarp on a donkey and took him to the proconsul who interrogated Polycarp in front of a crowd. In the back and forth discussion of his trial, Polycarp showed a surprising amount of poise and wit for someone whose life was at stake. And when the Proconsul lost his cool and threatened Polycarp with terrible tortures unless he reviled Christ, Polycarp said, "Eighty and six years have I served Him, and He never did me any injury: how then can I blaspheme my King and my Savior?"

Polycarp was sentenced to burn at the stake. He was taken to the arena but when the soldiers went to nail him in place, Polycarp told them, "Leave me as I am; for He that gives me strength to endure the fire will also enable me to remain without moving in the pile. No need for the security you seek with your nails." 

The fire was lit, but instead of consuming him, shaped itself like an arch or the sail of a ship when filled by the wind, and encompassed Polycarp. And instead of  taking on the quality of burnt flesh, as the story was told by early Christians, the body of the martyr became like bread that is baked.

When the soldiers perceived that Polycarp's body could not be consumed by the fire, they commanded an executioner to enter the flames and pierce Polycarp with a dagger in the side. When the executioner obeyed, a dove and great quantity of blood poured forth from Polycarp's open wound, so that the fires were extinguished.

And as the early Christians writers put it, intentionally shaping the way their hero's story would be told, Polycarp's martyrdom was, quote, "altogether consistent with the gospel of Christ."

Our gospel should shape our heroes. 

But it is also true that the heroes we choose will shape the way we understand our gospel. And so, in the conversation that follows, Julius and I talk about what really constitutes Christian Greatness, and how we can recognize the kinds of people that help us understand and live the gospel well in difficult times. 


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to “All Things”— as always if this is your first time listening, this is Julius and Wil. And for all of you who… 

Wilson: Not always… Typically, but there are also, there, there are many episodes with others with guests.

Julius: Exactly. But, by default Wil and I are pretty much always around.

Wilson: We're the floor that you fall to… and hopefully the floor is not that bad.

Julius: So, to launch into today's conversation and kind of reflecting on the story that came before this— honestly, while prepping for recording, I was, to check my mic, I was singing an an old Whitney Houston song… and the line that stuck out to me from that one—it was a song that my dad always called me to sing with him on stage as a kid—but it was…there’s a lyric that says, “Everybody’s searching for a hero, people need someone to look up to…”

And that might seem like a really cheesy connection here, but I've got to admit that that was kind of what was in my head this whole time after the story that we just came from—

Wilson: Well, okay, here, here. I'm going to, can I…this is slightly tangential, but I'll make a big case for it. 

Julius: Oh, please. 

Wilson: With the slickness, the marketing, and every… all the production that goes into Whitney Houston, a line like that doesn't make it into a pop song that they know someone with this many fans is going to is going to listen to if they don’t, if they don't trust that that speaks to something pretty broad and deep that's going on in the culture. So… 

Julius: That’s pretty good.

Wilson: I liked that, that was right off the— that was on the fly, 

Julius: Nice. 

Wilson: I think, it's good cause it's true.

Julius: I think so too. But I think today, I mean, this series, we're talking about finding precedents, especially in the Christian tradition that help us kind of navigate—I mean, you all know, we've thrown around the phrase "unprecedented and challenging times,” but we're trying to look to these stories to give us some kind of hope to say, “Sure, there, are certain things that might not be as they ever were. But that doesn't mean that we don't have guidance from the people that came before us to things that are similar.” 

And so this whole series kind of touches on the question of why the people that we look up to and heroes matter because as a people we're always looking to stories and people who can embody a way forward for us… or who can, who have um… a kind of life and character that we're able to emulate to help us navigate challenging times.

So of course, today, we want to look first at the foundation of the Christian faith, which would be the life and character of Jesus, first of all, as our hero in the faith. So I want to ask the question—

Wilson: There would be no Polycarp, if, if Polycarp hadn't taken Jesus as his hero. 

Julius: Right. Yeah. exactly. So so starting with that, right? Like as, as we, as Christians are looking for examples, of course the life of Jesus is like the foundation of our gospel hope and the character of Jesus too. And character is not something that is, like, abstract, but is something that we determine from spending time with someone and seeing how they live and how they deal with circumstances.

So what are some stories in the gospels that show us Jesus’s character— who he was and how he dealt with things that like we humans face, being someone who is fully human and fully divine?

Wilson: We could go to Mark chapter 8, where, with a little bit of backstory to set up this episode, it's good to know that… the, the Jewish people who were looking for a Messiah at this time and this place—and probably also good to know as, just a slightly tangential point, that not all Jewish people were hoping in and looking for a Messiah. They were in, they were in very, very trying times themselves, and having been under the boot of empire after empire… you know Assyria and Babylon and Greece and Rome over and over and over again… 

And now currently finding themselves kind of crushed and overrun by Rome, there were a lot that had given up on that kind of hope and we're finding other ways to make a life and to, to try to live their days and whatever kind of relative peace that they could. 

But those who were looking for a Messiah because of that backstory that we just quickly ran through, were looking for a militaristic hero. Right. Now they had lots of precedents for a prophet. They had lots of precedents for great teachers. But they had kind of a vaguely defined hope for a messiah. Right. But it would, to them, it would be probably if there was a precedent for them, it would be something like David— a mighty warrior who was also filled with the spirit of God. And so the Messiah is going to be a militaristic hero that's going to run our enemies out and give us our land back.

And so in Mark 8, Jesus at this point, you've got eight chapters, and in the Gospel of Mark, that's a lot because it's the, it's the shortest of the gospels. That's half— it's fully half of the, of the Gospel of Mark. And so halfway through the story, Jesus has done a lot of incredible things, and at this point in chapter eight is when Jesus turns to his disciples and say, “Who do the people say that I am?”

And they say that others say, “Well, some are convinced that you're a great teacher.” Because Jesus had done what great teachers do— looking for precedents, that’s what Jesus had done. He'd opened up the scripture. He'd applied it in ways that were faithful to the Jewish heritage in history, but, but in a, in a creative and innovative way that opens stuff up now.

So faithful and you, you know, so you're a great teacher because that's what great teachers do. Others say, you're a mighty prophet because Jesus had done what prophets do. Now here's a point where, for contemporary minds who—and this isn't just, who are just a little bit or open to, or questioning the Christian faith— even to a lot of Christian minds that have spent a lot of time in church or reading the scriptures, we can conflate the prophetic role and the messianic role as far as what they understood back then.

Because prophets raised the dead. Prophets, worked miracles. Prophets did incredible things. I mean think Moses, he parts the sea. Right. And, and there are stories of like a widow's son dying and a prophet breathes on them and brings, brings the dead back to life. Right. There's precedent. I mean, it's, it's miraculous, but there's precedent for it in the Jewish imagination. And that's what prophets do. Jesus had done incredible things. 

Now for us today, we might think, “Oh, he raised the dead. He did this. He walked on the water. That's messianic.” No, no, no, no, no. Not to their— that wasn't the job description or the role… that wasn't the precedent, to stick with our current metaphor scheme. Back then—or the metaphor we're building from the word, the concept precedent to them, that's prophetic. 

And so people said, “Hey, we've seen you, you've done miracles, we've seen it. Or we've heard that you've done it. And we believe what we've heard. And so you're a prophet.” And the ca- the level, the kind of miracles you've pulled off, you're a mighty prophet up there with Moses and Elijah. So there were lots of people that would already put Jesus, like high on the list of the heroes. Like the, the greatest, the exemplars of greatness. Right? So you're that. And Jesus says, “But who do you say that I am?”

Julius: Hmm. 

Wilson: And Peter the first human— notice, none of the people in that time, in that place say Messiah. Even with, even those who saw him and benefited from that kind of miracle, none of them say that. Peter’s the first human to say Messiah. And Jesus’s response is “Blessed are you Peter, because you didn't come to that conclusion on your own. You could only see that if my heavenly father helped you to see that.”

Julius: Wow. Yeah. 

Wilson: Because at that moment, Jesus had done nothing messianic. I mean, he hadn't, he hadn't done anything militaristic. He hadn't picked any fights with any Roman soldiers. Let alone win any of those fights. The only thing he's done is, finally in the Gospel of Mark he decided to go to Jerusalem, which would be the place where the Jewish powers and the Roman powers are most intertwined. And so if someone were to go somewhere to pick a fight with the heart of Roman power in our place to win our land back, Jerusalem would be the place to do it. 

And all—Jesus is not going with swords. He's not going with soldiers. All he's done is point himself in that direction. And from that alone, Peter says, “I do believe that you're the Messiah.”

Julius: Well, that's, that's so interesting, first of all, just cause I mean… of all people to get it Peter strikes me as the most kind of like a… warlike? Like, Peter's that… “Okay. Maybe don't cut off the person's ear.” Like the, quick to draw his sword, kind of like, um… but for him to kind of catch that, I feel like says something of like recognizing, um… something in Jesus's character. 

And what I can't help, but think of how pertinent this whole, like, dynamic of the expectation of a Messiah being kind of like a war— a militaristic deliverer from powers of oppression— how how timely that is for our day, and kind of where we sit culturally and politically and in like…a lot of the people that I kind of talk to are, maybe more identify in kind of more progressive circles. And that comes from this place of feeling a lot of— like, dissatisfaction isn't even the right word— but just like really resistance to these like power structures that exist that perpetuate oppression to marginalized groups of people. And I see…

I see that like the people who want change are trending more and more towards kind of like this spirit of “What we can’t…No. Voting is not enough anymore. We can't trust like the system. We can't trust politics. Like, we need something more than that, like we need…

And so there's a spirit of militarism even in kind of just like a level of pushing towards like, “No, we have to build our own systems. We have to build our, the community has to take care of themselves." And then like the further left that, like I see people going, the more that, like, I see a propensity towards like, "No, we have to like, it's revolution's the answer.”

And so the heroes of the people who are dissatisfied with, like, these systems, like are more and more looking to something like what I imagined, like these people who were hoping for a Messiah to be. Something a little bit more like like, "We need a revolution.” Like this, like the status quo, isn't going to topple over if we play by these rules. So we have to be a little bit more like…we need a little bit more fight in us.

Wilson: Yeah.

Julius: And then for Jesus to come and be that Messiah and to kind of turn that expectation around, I think has so much to offer us. Now when we're at this point where like, I ha, like, I know people who. And I wrote like the French revolution and guillotines are like the heroes and the symbols of hope for people…

Wilson: Hm. 

Julius: For like, for change, you know?

And, um. And I think that Jesus offering us a picture of kind of martyrdom that's like non… that's that is able to bring hope and change things, yet is not like the full militaristic “we have to like come with swords to destroy this thing. 

Wilson: And there's to a certain point there's a lot there that I think is right. You know, that, that it's true, that you can't just trust the systems and the powers of the world to take care of the wrongs of the world. You can't look to a human figures or, or alone or to human systems alone.

And so there are certain cases where, I mean, I think, I think backing up in the story, it's been a tragedy for awhile that Christians have thought voting a certain way is the extent of our Christian duty to engage the world. And the temptation though is to eventually get so frustrated that you just switch for another human…

Julius: Right. 

Wilson: …figure, or another human system. And that's where, you know, it's, it's odd on when you get to the extremes of left and right, you see more and more pronounced the differences and how how vitriolic that can get… angry it can get on both on both ends. But there's also some things that on both sides, they hold in common. And so eventually when you, when you push it to the extremes, I don't know. The last 10 years I've thought a lot about Pac-Man because of…

Julius: Oh, yeah, 

Wilson: On the side, on the side of Pac-Man, when you're getting chased by the ghosts, if you go all the way to the right side of the screen, you just pop up on the left 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: And it's like, "Woah, how'd we end up here?” But there's, there's something there that you don't see, but that actually really, really ties the far right and the far left together, like the edges of the Pac-Man screen

Julius: That's so interesting. 

Wilson: And, and where that ends up with is eventually people just get so angry, frustrated, hurt that they end up settling… for a human re- a merely human response to the evils of the world.

And you see this playing out in the story, right? So as this goes along with how this plays out with, with, uh… with Peter and Jesus in the book of Mark— which is why I said it's important that to notice the character of Jesus, but also the example and the precedent given for being a follower of Jesus from the first disciples. That we really should ask these questions because…

I mean, it, it, the guys, this stuff is… I mean, real pain, real suffering… and it does matter for generations. And it does matter for the innocent. These are massive, massive issues and questions. And, and we do want to be very, very careful that we don't offer something like martyrdom— w-we need to be very aware of what we're saying when we, when we say Christians hold up martyrs as a precedent. 

Because we do not want to offer that in a way that will simply make any opposition to evil lie down. Right. And, and allow evil to continue to just trod through the earth and decimate and, and win and control everything. So it's important that we see that there's a tension and there's a back and forth here.

Yes, Jesus is our model, but we also need to see that it's good news. Part of the good news is Jesus has our model invites us to follow him and to also let the disciples’ path be ours too. Because Jesus Peter questions this, right. And here, here's how it plays out when I say, when I say Peter questions it. This is what I mean. 

Julius: Okay. 

Wilson: So it goes up to a certain point and Peter suddenly, I mean, Peter, over and over and over again, says the wrong things. And gets— and here's one where Jesus is like, “Hey, you said the right thing!” Like, “So right, Peter, that only God could have said that, basically through your mouth.” Like, “You didn't do that on your own. You're right. I am the Messiah.”

And now though, here, this is where some Bibles it's, it's kinda like—I get it. It helps for reference, but it can really throw the flow of the story, and it's super important that we read what Jesus just said. “You're right. Yes. I'm the Messiah. God revealed that to you.” And then what comes right after? Because often we get some, some bold texts that had like, “Here's a new little section…” heading that splits up the word. 

But the way it's written and delivered, Jesus says, “Yes, you're right. I'm the Messiah. But here you need to know I am going to Jerusalem, but not for what you think I'm going for. I'm going there, and actually you think” right the one hint you had, okay. Jerusalem. That's where Rome is concentrated. If we're going to start a route, we were going to go there and have it out. You think that, but no, no, no.

It's going to be in a lot of ways. It's going to look, look exactly opposite of what you expect. I'm not going to go and kick out the Gentiles. In fact, my own people are going to hand me over to the Gentiles and they're going to. 

Julius: yeah, 

Wilson: up. Yes, I am the Messiah, but not the way you expect, they're going to kill me.

I'm not going to kill them. And then notice the very next thing Peter says is he rebukes Jesus. That's a strong. 

Julius: Right. 

Wilson: that's a strong thing to do to your rabbi, especially if you're convinced that your rabbi is, you know, at least one of the mighty profits up there with Moses and Elijah, if not God incarnate, you know, and this is part of the story is like exactly when the human followers of Jesus come to a realization of.

You know, but it does me any of those, that's it, it doesn't matter where exactly Peter was in that moment of his awareness of Jesus's divinity. That's a bold thing to do. Now we're back to the old Peter that says the wrong things. He's rebuking Jesus and Jesus rebuked him right back, even stronger. Jesus says, get behind me Satan, because, and here's, here's our point where we're drawn out what we've got to chase, but we've got to do it with humility.

Openness, all. We've got to, we've got to know. Yes, we're chasing divine things, but the only way do we do this, if is if the divine is holding our hand, leading us there,

because Jesus says you do not have in mind the things of God, but the things of humanity. 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: Yes, you're right. There's a serious problems. Something has to be taken on here. Something has to be done about it, 

Julius: yeah, yeah, 

Wilson: you think it's going to be done is just going to further contribute to the problem. It's going to keep perpetuating the same human violence and hatred, the same human division.

That's going to keep you turning on each other. You're just going to, you're going to change the categories. You're going to change the groups, but the same old violence is going to keep happening. And so, yes, I'm the Messiah, but no, I'm not going to do it the way you expect me to do it.

Julius: Hm. So we're at this, at this point in this story, right? That you were talking about where Jesus is talking to Peter, we start to see Jesus talk about an alternative to, Hey, I'm going to Jerusalem. I am the Messiah, but I'm not going to Jerusalem to do what you think I'm doing. Okay. So what does this pattern, right?

That we've named as martyrdom as kind of the shape of like what a Crow like Christian greatness looks like, what does martyrdom do and how, how does it.

actually affect a way forward in a way that heals rather than just being a Fe like a symbolic thing, but that is really like a passive accepting of defeat from the systems that be and continue to like serve violence among. 

Wilson: I think the best way to do that is, is to start with. Concrete words and, and episodes from the gospels and, and kind of inductively draw some conclusions from that. And one of the things Jesus explicitly says his death will do is judge the world. That's one of my favorite things is, is the way Jesus talks about judgment in the gospel of John.

So we've switched here from, from mark. 

Julius: Yeah, 

Wilson: But it kind of throws a wrench in some of our thinking. And definitely me, you know, when, especially with, with some of my story that we don't have. All the way into, but I definitely went through a period where I decided to, I don't want to be a judgmental Christian.

That was an explicit thing in my head. Right. And that created a certain kind of momentum. And there was, there was positive growth in, in the awareness of judgmentalism, how it had taken root in my mind and my heart. Right. And positive to want to do something about that. But similar to Peter, you know, he's like, Messiah.

That's what we need. Here's how we're going to do it. And she's like, you're right. That's what we need, but you're wrong about how to do it. So you're right. We'll you don't want to be judgmental, but then what Jesus says in John kind of is that wrench going, but not that way, because Jesus straight up says I came into the world to judge the world.

Right. And then when you start thinking, well, what is judgment? What is it really? Oh, we do want that. We all want. You know, if judgment comes in the middle of overwhelming, terrifying, scary, confusing times and says here's, here's the truth. Here. Here's how you judge in the middle of all of this. Here's how you discern what's right.

And good. And what's wrong. We all need that. And, and now we've seen this more and more as we, as we get more honest about what wrongs and sins do to the victims, we become aware we do want judgment, right. And so it's not that we don't want judgment. We don't want bad. 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: want good judgment. We want true and just judgment.

Right? And so it's good news that Jesus says I came into the world to judge the world because if anyone's qualified, you know, if we're going to give that heavy responsibility to anyone, I vote Jesus. So it's good news that he says, I'm willing to take that on for you. Right. I came into the world to judge the world.

It's also good news. And here's where it really dovetails with. What was going on in mark chapter eight with Peter, but it's not going to happen. Like you think, 

Julius: right, right, right, right? 

Wilson: right? How does Jesus judge the world? And this is where a whole lot of themes that we tend to think of. We separate and we categorize really, really harmonizing and integrate.

And Jesus' judgment. Jesus says happens at the cross. That's how I judge the world is I lay down my life. Because if judgment comes right in the middle, I mean, and if you want to talk about the middle of violence and hate and confusion and darkness and death in the middle of the worst, if judgment, if we need judgment in the middle of the worst, you can't think of a situation that's more in the middle of the worst than the cross life, the source of life and goodness itself being murdered right there.

That's where judgment comes. And how does he judge the world by laying down his life? 

Julius: Right. 

Wilson: Bye bye. And publicly that's another thing, right? Roman executions, where public kinda like French revolution. Why did they do it in public? They wanted everyone to see. 

Julius: Totally. 

Wilson: Right. And Roman executions, it's not like in the American prison system where we hide it away in some backroom behind barbed wire and concrete walls, where only a few select group of people can see that it actually took place.

We, they didn't hide it. They did it in public and Jesus submitted to that public. Why? So everyone can see what does that do? That shows. That that puts on display God's judgment 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: and what it shows us, what it judges and just makes clear as day is our rebellion and our death, our, our intent to carry things out in a way that it backfires and strikes it life.

It's.

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: And, and think about all the sides everyone's implicated in the cross. There's no one side that gets all the blame, which is, I think that's a word that we need for today. That's a precedent that we need for today is if, whenever we start to believe. That we've got some righteous cause, well, there's probably some kernel of truth and goodness in that.

Right. But when we, when it gets to the point where we're so convinced we're so right, that we would be justified and taking another person's life. 

 Well now, like all of that gets implicated and pulled together and to, and similar to what happens with Jesus, no one group or party is is totally free of Christ.

I mean, even his own disciples had roles to play in that happening to him. Right. And, and when Jesus submits that way, that is the judgment of the world that makes clear the truth of our condition and exposes our fallenness and exposes our propensity to, to think we're fixing things by doing something that's only going to perpetuate the post.

So judgment martyrdom carries out and displays judgment of the world. Set.

Julius: So to take that concretely on like what this precedent has to offer for us in navigating challenging times, and especially like we've touched on like what to do in resisting like systems and structures that continue to perpetuate like violence and injustice. So Jesus has Set.

the precedent that martyrdom is kind of the shape of what Christian greatness in these times looks like.

And like what the course of action, right. In, in dealing with violence and injustice and paving a way towards like reconciliation with God and hope and all that stuff. What then does it look like for us to follow in that precedent in such a way that doesn't just like, That doesn't just mean that we look for ways to die or like what I mean? 

Wilson: Yeah, I think what's key. There is that we are crystal clear that it sets a precedent for our ideal in our. And we'll always need those. Right. But it doesn't set the precedent for the exact precise path everyone is called to. Right. So I think it becomes important here too, to value. If we say the character of the gospel is one that meets us in the midst of his.

You know, and so on that, that dimension of it, we have to, we have to take into account that in the scriptures. Yes. At that moment, at that time, when Jesus knew it's time, I'm going to drew slum and this is what's going to happen. But there were other times where Jesus got word of sun, some of his enemies, trying to throw him off a cliff or stone him.

And he alluded them. Right. So to be Christ, like doesn't mean, we always just hope somebody mad at me. All right. Do your thing. And here, right here, I am your doormat. That's not Christ-like, there's something deeper. It takes a greater discernment and more times than not. Jesus alluded them. And similar with his disciples.

You move from that to the gospel of acts. There are two people I can think of that were martyred Peter and Paul. Right? They, they were also martyred, but there were also more times than so, I mean, by definition, they were martyred once, right. That like, cause that's kind of the limit. Right. 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: And so, so numerically vastly more times they escaped 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: with the help of the church.

Both of them were imprisoned and they escaped. of them were attacked by mobs and escaped the mobs. Both of them had stories where followers came and said, Hey, we got word of a mob or a group that's trying to do this. Let's sneak you out of town before they can get here. And they did. Right. So.

That leads into a kind of precedent where that, that begins to explain some of the complexity of the churches system and culture that they developed in the early centuries around this, where yes, they granted the title. Martyr as, as the highest title that could be granted, but they never said go seek it out.

In fact, too, like day in, day out to most people, they said don't and they came up with lots of ways to preserve life, to get people to escape. Right. And the stories of the martyrs, there's always a tension and a back and forth and a fight between the martyr and the people that are there in their corner.

Even with Polycarp, they're like, Hey, They're coming for you. We love you. You're our Bishop. Let's let, let's get you out of here. And he says no, and they say, no, let's get you out of here. And they, they don't just say, oh yeah, of course Martin. Well, that's what we do. We're doormats. They fight and there's a real back and forth and it's in the martyr and a genuine martyrdom.

 It's it's you see something coming from deep inside the, the person and who, who freely choose it? The hardest scarier path that it's, that it's not just a, it's not a precedent in the sense of just some kind of road legalistic. Well, this is what you do, like it or not suck it up and die. Right. Because that doesn't actually change anything.

So the, the precedent, what it sets is, is an ideal for the hero and zooming out and looking larger. How many times do we see. Someone's martyrdom becoming the story that sets off genuine change. And I think historically, and there, there are plenty of. Top-notch historians who do not confess the Christian faith, they would still say the Christian martyrdom played a massive role in a lot of the changes and developments in, in culture.

And that we saw play out over the next couple of centuries from, from within Rome and that certain things that were just assumed in Roman culture, like. Well, if you're born a slave, you only have a portion of a human soul. Right? And so that's your proper place to the sorts of the, even the beginning of the idea of the equal dignity of every person begins when.

When Christians laid down, when some Christians laid down their life this way, other Christians took that, not as the way every single one of us is called to live, but that's our Christ like hero that shows us the truth. And that judges, that, that shows us the truth of the world in its sin, it judges it, and it shows us the truth of God's reality.

And if that, if, if our identity does come, not from our human structures, but from that divine reality, then this is the truth of who we are. And over time, It, it, it does revolutionize from the inside, but it does it in a way that, and I, and this is where I know it's, I know it's hard. But it does it in a way that that does not play the games of sin and death.


MEDITATION

If heroes integrate the actual and the ideal, then so much of what makes someone the kind of hero they will be is not just what happens, but how their  story gets told.

So the early Christians who shaped the way the story of Polycarp would be told, went to great pains to make sure the ideals Polycarp integrated in the events of his life, were ideals birthed in the actual events of the life of Jesus.

Mark 8:31-32 And (Jesus) began to teach them that the Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders and the chief priests and the scribes and be killed, and after three days rise again. And he said this plainly. 

According to The Martyrdom of Polycarp, "And while he was praying, a vision presented itself to him three days before he was taken; and, behold, the pillow under his head seemed to him on fire. Upon this, turning to those that were with him, he said to them prophetically, 'I must be burnt alive.'"

During the last dinner Jesus ate with his friends, he told them, "One of you will betray me." Then, Matthew 26:47-50 tells us, "While he was still speaking, Judas, one of the Twelve, arrived. With him was a large crowd armed with swords and clubs, sent from the chief priests and the elders of the people. Now the betrayer had arranged a signal with them: "The one I kiss is the man; arrest him."  Going at once to Jesus, Judas said, "Greetings, Rabbi!" and kissed him. Jesus replied, "Do what you came for, friend." Then the men stepped forward, seized Jesus and arrested him.

After Polycarp retreated to the estate outside the city, his location was given up by one of the younger members of the home. So, as the ancient document puts it, quote, "It was thus impossible that (Polycarp) should stay hidden, since those that betrayed him were of his own household."

"And the scribes of the Pharisees, when they saw that he was eating with sinners and tax collectors, said to his disciples, 'Why does he eat with tax collectors and sinners?'" Mark 2:16

The Martyrdom of Polycarp, "when (Polycarp) heard that (the solderies who came to arrest him had arrived), he went down and spoke with them. And as those that were present marvelled at his age and constancy, some of them said. "Was so much effort made to capture such a venerable man?" Immediately then, in that very hour, (Polycarp) ordered that something to eat and drink should be set before (the soldiers), as much indeed as they cared for."

As Jesus entered Jerusalem, quote, "The disciples went and did as Jesus had directed them. They brought the donkey and the colt and put on them their cloaks, and he sat on them. " Matthew 21:6-7.

When the time had come to take Polycarp into the city, quote, "They set him upon an ass, and conducted him into the city."

Now Jesus stood before the governor, and the governor asked him, "Are you the King of the Jews?" Jesus said, "You have said so." Matthew 27:11

And when the proconsul yet again pressed Polycarp, and said, "Swear by the fortune of Cæsar," he answered, "Since you are vainly urgent that, as you say, I should swear by the fortune of Cæsar, and pretend not to know who and what I am, hear me declare with boldness, I am a Christian."

But when they came to Jesus and found that he was already dead, they did not break his legs. Instead, one of the soldiers pierced Jesus' side with a spear, bringing a sudden flow of blood and water. John 19:33-34

At length, when those wicked men perceived that Polycarp's body could not be consumed by the fire, they commanded an executioner to go near and pierce him through with a dagger. And on his doing this, there came forth a dove, and a great quantity of blood, so that the fire was extinguished;

Earlier, we asked the questions, "What good does martyrdom do?" Jesus' crucifixion exposed the hell at work in our world, and robbed death of its power. 

Polycarp's blood extinguished the fires around him.

So, may this kind of self-sacrificing Christlikeness become a working precedent for us. So we might recognize and celebrate heroes that help guide us through this time. So the inevitable sacrifices we make might look like Jesus', and so our lives might participate in Jesus' work to put out the fires of hell.

Precedented 2 - Engaging Other Perspectives & Criticism: Aristotle, Stoicism, and the Word Made Flesh


INTRO 

True, we've never before had a nearly-instantaneous, nearly-worldwide network connected to devices in our pockets alerting us to rising temperatures and the temperamental outbursts of tyrants or the spread of malicious insects and viruses. 

And being constantly aware of all this can feel disorienting and surreal. 

But even so, we're not convinced we should be so quick to call our times "totally unprecedented." Our ancestors weathered tyrants and plagues and renovated their political thought and activity when facing the consequences of previous human actions. 

And for those of us within the Christian Tradition, we must always remember that our predecessors took on the challenge of reinterpreting all of reality in light of the singular life of Jesus of Nazareth. 

What is not "unprecedented" is humans encountering the unprecedented. And in the midst of our own unique challenges, we unnecessarily feed the bad reactions that can come with fear and uncertainty if we believe we face our challenges alone.

So, in this series, we look at people and moments in the Tradition where those who came before us give us precedents for facing our epoc-shaping tests and tasks. 

This time, we take on the questions, "What do you do as a Christian when you have critics, and they're way off?: And, perhaps more importantly, "what do we do when a critic from an entirely different perspective or tradition has a powerful point?"


STORY

Many Christians today in the West find themselves exposed to more differing perspectives and more intense critiques of their beliefs and practices than they've ever had to deal with before. And this, of course, will at times feel overwhelming and provoke anxiety.

But the Christian faith has had its critics from its earliest days. People argued with Jesus and ran him out of town and tried to throw him off a cliff and, well, the climax of our faith's founding narrative is the crucifixion.

And, in certain places, this kind of thing continued for centuries. The earliest followers of Jesus were ignored or ridiculed in public discourses, and you don't get burned at the stake or beheaded or eaten by lions in the arena without your critics. 

But we all know that the simple fact of the existence of  critics, and that these critics are willing to get nasty or even violent, doesn't necessarily mean the critics understand what they are attacking. Some claimed Jesus was driven by demons and was intent on destroying the Jewish heritage that came before him. Some of the earliest Christians were brought up on charges of cannibalism because, through second or third hand whispers, news of the Eucharist became in the ears some local governors news of some new cult eating flesh and drinking blood. 

And judging by some high profile Christian voices in todays media, you might think this kind of egregious misunderstanding accurately represents every point of every differing perspective and every contemporary critic of our faith.

And wouldn't that make things simple -- if everything coming from a different perspective, and especially everything that challenged us, could simply be ignored.

Certainly there is a lot of muddle-headed ignorant nonsense floating around on Youtube and Reddit and TicTock, even the New York Times bestseller list. And when you find this, then there is precedent stemming from Jesus himself, for ignoring or standing against it. 

So when you find uninformed, misguided, or spiteful nonsense, feel free to ignore it or to sharpen your mind, prayerfully hone your words, then plant your feet and push back. 

But, just make sure you've done your part to listen, evaluate, and truthfully discern that the criticism is indeed wrong or can be ignored without serious consequence. 

Because there is not just precedent for Christians being misunderstood or persecuted -- that alone would be a one-sided telling of the story. There is also a strong precedent in the Christian Tradition for the followers of Jesus listening to, and learning from, those coming from different traditions and viewpoints, even their critics. And the sources of this precedent are not just recorded in history annals, but written into the New Testament. 

As we quickly noted a moment ago, a lot of the earliest Roman persecution and criticism Christians faced was birthed in ignorance or misunderstanding. But toward the end of the second century, a philosopher named Celsus composed the first informed and sophisticated critique of Christianity to come from a Hellenistic background. 

Celsus took the time to understand Christian belief and practice, perhaps better than any critic until Nietzsche, and certainly better than someone like Rickey Gervaise or Sam Harris. And one of Celsus' chief critiques was that Christians spurned and disregard venerable and time-tested traditions. 

To Celsus' mind, Greek thought and culture had unlocked so much for humanity, and endured and brought some stability to people through incredibly violent and confusing times, so why would anyone utterly disregard that?

Christians took this claim seriously. 

And they were able to incorporate the valid points of this critique without granting total validity to every argument Celsus made, because of the previously mentioned precedented offered by the New testament itself.

To see this, we go back directly in that venerable tradition of which Celsus spoke, at least as far as Aristotle. In his work on Rhetoric, Aristotle explored why some words, even if they were delivered with passion and by someone with the credibility of an expert, would amount to little more than wind. I'm sure you've all head a TED talk delivered by someone with impressive credentials and with gusto that still left you feeling cold. Aristotle explored why this could be, but then some other less impressive speaker could speak words that had the ability to move hearts and minds and change lives.

Emotion and the credibility of the speaker have roles to play, Aristotle says. But he emphasizes a crucial third piece that gaves a speech its umph. This third piece is the substance of the content of the message, and its delivery depends on the way the words are arranged and structured. If the words are ordered well, they meet people somewhere, and the content then takes them to a new place in their thinking, feeling, and acting. This, the substantial and structural element of the words, Aristotle calls the "Logos."

As an analogy, to help us see what Aristotle is getting at, take a series of musical tones, thrown together in a random way ...

... and you have something that's better than noise -- but just barely. If though, you take those same notes, and play with their order ... and the pacing in which they come ...

... and you might hit on a structure that allows those same notes to start to sing together. 

And now you have melody

That's logos. 

Previously, the word Logos simply meant word or speech in general. But now, in Aristotle's usage, it becomes something that takes a random, disconnected mess of ideas and images and sounds and rearranges them until you have a speech that matters; the words, little "w," become a Word, capital "W," that has the power to change minds and move people to positive action.

And note the way the ideas of structure, reason, and creative power all come together in Aristotle's one term: Logos.

Now that's one step in the development of this venerable tradition. 

Then, a later school of philosophers named the Stoics, picked up on Aristotle's idea and started to see that play of creative power and reason and structure coming together not just in well-crafted speeches, but in the universe as a whole. The Stoics started to use the term "Logos" to talk about the reason and structure that generates and holds together all the finely-tuned systems and organization that make our universe and life possible. 

Then about a generation before Jesus of Nazareth, a Jewish man who studied philosophy in Alexandria, named Philo, noticed significant resonance between the way the Stoics talked about the Logos of the Universe and the way the Jewish Scriptures talked about YHWH creating the world. In the book of Genesis, at the primordial origins of all things, there is nothing but God. Then God speaks, "Let there be light," and there is light. "Let there be dry land" and the land appears. One and on, with a divine word, God enables greater and greater beauty and complexity for created reality. In the Jewish Scriptures, Philo said, the Logos is the word God speaks to grant order and power and life to all creation.

Last episode, we emphasized how important it is to hold to the precedent of keeping the Christian faith rooted in it's Jewish heritage. This too is written into our Scriptures. The New Testament has 3 gospels, Matthew, Mark, and Luke, that open the story of Jesus by tying him directly to his Jewish Roots. 

But the New Testament also proclaims Jesus as the hope of the whole world. So it also has John. Who incorporates the Hellenistic tradition in his opening of the story of Christ when he says, "In the beginning was the Logos." But John doesn't just agree with Philo. Because he then declares something nobody saw coming when he says that Logos, became flesh.

Today, when it comes to dealing with other philosophies or criticism, like we do with so many other things, we tend to think it all comes down to a sharp either/or. Either we have all the answers already, or we are afraid we come across as having nothing to offer. Either we prove the other perspective is 100% false on all counts, or all of our credibility falls apart. 

But once the scriptures like John were integrated into the hearts and minds of the early Christians, they allowed those Christian thinkers to take a wiser and more mature posture. The precedents set in Scripture gave the early Christians an intuitive sense that if something is good, true, excellent or honorable, it will find a place in the story of Jesus's story. Because, even if its human articulation came from a different perspective or tradition, don't we believe the entire cosmos belongs to Christ?

And speaking of John's use of the term Logos in particular, incorporating this outside term into the Christian Scriptures was implicitly a gesture of honor and respect. 

But it also brought this term birthed in the world of Hellenistic philosophy into the context of the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus. And anything incorporated into this story is indeed honored, but never left unchanged.

So in the upcoming conversation, Julius and I discuss how Christians working from this precedent could engage Celsus, and other critics, with a genuine respect and openness that allowed them to both learn and articulate more about what has been given to the world in Christ, and also hold to their distinctive perspective and so give unique contributions to the debates shaping their times.

From this, we hope you can find some guidance in how to engage contemporary ideas, learn from criticism, and offer distinctly Christian contributions to the biggest questions being asked in our day. 


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to this episode of “All Things.” This is Julius and Wil, and we are picking up on this new series where we take a look at specifically Christian tradition and what the tradition has to offer us in, like, inviting us to see that… I think, especially in this year, we've heard the word unprecedented a lot.

Wil: An unprecedented amount the use of the word unprecedented? [Laughs]

Julius: …of hearing the word unprecedented in major corporation email newsletters. But I think the aim of this series is to show how the Christian tradition can offer us a way to navigate these times that seem quote-unquote “unprecedented," because there is a path that has been kind of cleared for us by the people who've come before us to help give us the resources to navigate times that seem to us unprecedented. 

So looking at these gifts, today we're talking about… I think it was a really helpful part of the story to clarify this concept that I remember encountering at least in school, when I started delving more into scripture and kind of um… like in the gospel of John, this concept of logos. 

And that was always kind of, I remember reading like biblical commentaries and… only having a basic understanding of that was a reference to something larger in Greek philosophy about like reason. But what I like about this story is that it really highlights how Christian theology and, like, even the writing of the gospels themselves actively participates in philosophical discourse throughout history—that it doesn't just deny the claims of other thinkers or cultures.

But it actively engages with them. It doesn't just dismiss them and say, “Oh, well, that's all, that's, that's all fake or a garbage or…” But it actually addresses some of the questions of like, “Oh, what about this? These people have said this about the way the world works. What does the Bible say about that?"

Or like, what does, how, how can the Christian faith engage with that? And so, I like that it… this story illustrates how Christian theology can actively engage with these points and point out even places where human understanding harmonizes with what God reveals and affirms about the truth and also points out the way that Christ's life, death and resurrection can expand that understanding, or even push back on some of the points that we take.

So, so far we've explored one side of this conversation in how John incorporates this Greek concept of logos in his gospel account. What was the rest of that conversation like? Like how did the culture and like the philosophical discourse where John was situated in and as the years went on, what was the cultural response to this development like?

Wil: Right. Well, like you would expect from someone genuinely informed and that, that really does value their own ideas, they wouldn't just immediately be flattered because someone could mirror their language. Right? Uh. Yeah. It's not exactly the same, but a decent analogy where we find, you know, something else going on yet again, where we can see, it's not exactly the same thing—it’s not. And the differences do matter, but there is some kind of precedent for what we would recognize as like cultural appropriation.

Julius: Right. Yeah. That's what I was thinking.

Wil: So there were Hellenists that would be like, “Oh, great. You're using our terms, but don't think that that just makes us huge fans of yours. What if we feel like you're stealing? And what if we feel like you're not being true to, or you're, you know, you're being maybe dishonest? Or or that you don't understand really what’s…” that, you know, all this, all this stuff was part of it. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wil: So certainly, and the first kind of writings that we would see from outsiders engaging the Christian faith, uh… and especially only the ones that were critical— the outside voices that were critical of this, this growing burgeoning development in the history of religion and philosophy, because again, in today's ancient world, those things were much more integrated seen as one thing then, then we tend to think of them. 

Largely the first ones were ignorant. And so there's this a pretty famous— famous in certain circles… famous with, within the theology geeks—of of a local governor named Pliny that writes to the emperor saying, “Hey, encountered this new cult alling themselves Christians… I killed some of them, but I'm writing you to say like, should I have, and should I continue to? Cause I don't really know. What have you heard about them? What do you think of them?” 

Right. A lot of it was just, “Hey, this is new. We don't know what's going on. "And so whatever kind of reactions, positive or negative negative, were also largely ignorant. But then towards the end of this second century, so late in the one hundreds, there's a guy a Roman philosopher named Celsus who, who makes it his business to really understand the Christian faith. And he wrote a book called—and this is it's interesting, it's usually translated like “The True Doctrine,” but the word is logos. Right.

So, “The Correct” or “True Logos.” And this is exactly where he hits it, is like “No, no this is the true doctrine,” which also means, unpacking that means this is how you really understand the logos. And to Celsus’s mind, Christians had botched it because in his head… so in, in his kind of Neoplatonic school, you had “ ho theos”which was the God…

The Eternal under originated self existing source of everything else. And the next highest divine principle was the logos. And then below that you have the kind of a descending hierarchy of divine beings. And this is where if they were to place them within there, you know, some of them would place many of the other gods like Dionysius right?

Other divine principles or beings or personalities down below this. But his whole point was this it's, it's like an architectural structure in the spiritual realm. And if that top principle—and if you think of it like a pyramid, right, if you flip that, if that top principle comes down on the bottom, the pyramid doesn't hold right?

That your center of mass on this tiny little, all that mass distributed, wherever on this tiny little point, it's going to all fall apart. Now, that's a, that’s a pretty crass geometric visual that gets at his argument is like, “No, no, no, this is, this is an ontological metaphysical argument.” If the logos if that highest, you know, just below ho theos—if that highest of spiritual principles and to his mind, it was incredibly important that it was a purely spiritual as understood as like in opposition to the physical, if that were to become flesh, everything, all of our reality would come undone from the inside out. 

You know, he, he mocks them. He mocks Christians on certain kind of easy points like, “Ooh, why did God become man to figure out what was going on down below? Doesn't God know, everything?” you know, stuff like that. But his real philosophical argument hits at that point. No, no, no. If this were to happen, everything else would fall apart and it's it's so to his mind was logical nonsense. So…

Julius: Right. Yeah. So what's really interesting to me about that in Celsus’s kind of refuting John's take on the doctrine— I guess you can call it a doctrine. yeah… or at least the ideology, the philosophy… I don't know if the Greeks would have called it a doctrine—but like, the philosophy behind, like this principle of logos and Celsus refutes it by kind of calling it an impossibility, like a metaphysical impossibility that if you were to make this claim, that entire, like… that hierarchy is such like a big piece of how the universe functions in this full philosophical, like, um… framework. But. I can't help, but think of how, even with like, talking about the Pliny was like a governor you said, or, or something like that?

Wil: A local governor.

Julius: A local governor. So thinking about how intertwined these philosophies are with like very real power structures. Right. And like… that I can't help, but think of the connection between um… it, it seems like there's a drive to defend this understanding of the world in this kind of hierarchy, because it… to challenge that would be to threaten the power structures that allow these people who are writing to be in places of prestige and privilege. And so, like, we're not just dealing in abstract philosophies here— even though so much of Greek philosophy tries to hide between like abstracting things and like the spiritual world versus the physical world— but to mess with that messes with like how they operate, like in social order.

Wil: Yes. Yeah. There's a, there is a very, very close connection between the way they put up this…or constructed… or I don't want to use terms that are like, have a wholly negative connotation but… erected this metaphysical hierarchy of the gods, you know, from these lesser spiritual beings, personalities, deities, you know… angels, demons, demigods, however you would label them up to the logos to ho theos is, is directly mirrored in the way that they structured their political system in their whole society.

Now the relationship between that is complex. It's not super simple, like, ooh, somebody thought this and then so other people pick this up and say, “Ooh, let's build an empire that mirrors that,” but it goes, it goes back and forth. It's an incredibly complex, you know, relationship throughout history, but eventually, and we'll say this, there was in, in ancient peoples, Hellenistic cultures, a desire to see these things integrated. Right. Their, their philosophy and their theology and the way that they ordered the world.

Julius: Yeah.

Wil: And so you see this kind of like, I don't know… Amway pyramid scheme of the gods? Mirrored in the way they constructed their, their society with Caesar at the top. And it's also right… And it's also telling, like, so one point there's one person up there at the top of the triangle, you know, and it's also telling that…

And in Hellenistic cultures, you would have heard of a son of the gods before, but it would not have been some peasant Jewish carpenter in some relatively, you know, unknown corner of the empire. It would have been Caesar on the throne is the son of the gods. So that would be, if you look for in the physical order, in the political world, where would you look for like the brightest clearest instance of divinity being mirrored in this world? You would look to Caesar up at the top. And then below that would have a hierarchy that, you know, kind of that tapers out like a triangle…

Julius: Mm.

Wil: Like a pyramid… scheme. Pyramid parentheses scheme. Then with more greater and greater numbers of people as the, you know, you get towards the base of the pyramid with like, you know, Caesar at the top and then the senators and the rulers and the soldiers down to the merchants and the slaves and, and peasants down at the bottom of the pyramid. And so when Celsus says, “No metaphysically, you can't have this. Logically, things would come undone from the inside if the logos descended and took on flesh.”

Julius: Hmm.

Wil: Because to his mind, the same thing would happen in the world. Right. And this is, this is exactly why, when people started to see what Christians actually do, they, they were accused of being antisocial. Because they would eat together. And, and slaves and masters would come around the table as one and to their minds when, when the higher descends to the lower you're wrecking the whole order of things from the inside out. So this is like for, for Caesar, Caesar was supposed to instance as clearly as you could in flesh, divinity. So they didn't want a humble Caesar.

Julius: Yeah.

Wil: Right. I know to us, that's hard to imagine because we've been so influenced culturally by the Christian story. And so when we look at like our rulers today, we're all like, “I mean, yeah, a little bit of humility."

Julius: Right.

Wil: Like I know we've got our sides, but wouldn't it be great if someone just had the guts to be honest enough to be like, “Hey, we're all struggling too.” You know, no, we've all got to project this to us.

It's like, “Hey you know…” You see through it. And a little bit of humility would be a good thing, not to the Romans, because if that were to happen, if, if Caesar were to act humble, we'll know, Caesar is the source strength for the empire, and that would weaken our borders. It would weaken our way of life and everything would come undone from the inside.

And that principle holds. If anything, from the higher descends to the lower it's bad for everyone and everything. And so for Celsus like, this is, this is also the political edge to his argument. Is “No, no, no. You can't think of the gods acting this way because if we actually started acting like that, it would be the end of our empire. It would be the end of our culture and our way of life.”

Julius: Exactly. So it, I mean, understood in this sense, “the word became flesh”— the logos became flesh—isn't just a philosophically radical statement for the time, it's politically subversive. Because the logos, like in the place, in that hierarchy, if the, if the highest part like descends to the lowest, and that's kind of like all over Christian scripture and they're like, I think of the Christ hymn and Philippians and how that gets incorporated into all of this it's politically subversive because like that…

If that's what, the reason, the order that orders this altogether does, then what does that mean for that for.. yeah, exactly for Caesar and for like the Roman empire? And, and so it seems like as far as um… I’m curious to hear how you would flesh this out, but in what this offers for us, as we talk about what the tradition offers to help us navigate our times, with the precedent that has been set before us— it feels like part of it is an invitation to look at the ways that our philosophies and ideologies and power structures are all in conversation and inviting Christ to kind of like illuminate that.

Wil: Yes.

Julius: And to point out the places that like, no, this isn't the way that the world works, and that we're protecting certain things in order to protect power. But to remember that like… oh, actually what Christ reveals is that this is how the world is ordered.

Wil: Okay. So yes. Now in pr- this would be, in principle, what this offers us, if we're going to— well, I'll say it this way. In the middle of it, this is what as a Christian, who's obviously putting time and effort into putting stuff out there, what I would say is like my case for it would be to simply state.

This is, this is what it would give as a principle, or a way, a manner of thinking Christianly now in our time. And then just let, what flows out of that speak as, you know, what might or might not compel the listener, you know, in, in a time where you’re having to in a, in a very inten— even though this is what we say, please hear us saying that when we say it's not unprecedented, please don't hear us diminishing it. It is. It's, it's a difficult, it's a challenging, it can be incredibly confusing and discouraging time. 

We hope to challenge the language of unprecedented in a way that would encourage. Right to not lose hope. So obviously we're invested, obviously I still believe that this is the best way to make our way through even our world in the 21st century, not just maybe the best thing that was an option a couple thousand years ago. But to state it as a principle and then just kind of let that principle unfold itself and, and be what would or wouldn't convince the listener.

And I could see just as a, as an intro, right. All of this, at any point, especially once you pick one particular subject to really, really do it, justice—it is… there, there are so many complex issues and questions being asked, that to fully sufficiently respectfully deal with each one would take a whole lot of time.

But as a principle with Christ as the way we think, I think—I guess maybe as a way to introduce two prongs, you know, would be on the, on the intellectual side and then on the practical action side… and those would be two sides of a way of life, a Christian philosophy and practice. Right? On the intellectual side, I think it, it gives us hope. It gives the Christian a place to push off of and say, “God can inhabit and speak through the things that are not God.”

Julius: Yeah.

Wil: So what, what Christians did with the logos in saying the logos became flesh in Jesus of Nazareth, that the logos became utterly, totally united with humanity, and they also—here’s the dual move.

They also said that the logos wasn't like the secondary principle just below the highest God. They said the— it's funny. They, they moved the logos in, like finger quote “two directions.”And I finger quote it because the spatial metaphor, you know, it's not like God's actually up there and we're down here, you know, but as far as principals higher and lower principals, Christians moved the logos in both directions.

Julius: yeah,

Wil: They raised, they… they ascended the logos and their worship and their practice all the way up to equality with God. Not the next best thing. Not, not the most reliable messenger, but, but one with God… and descended it to become one of us.

Julius: Yeah.

Wil: And so intellectually, what that does for us is lets us it, it gives Christians a hope and a ground to push off on to believe that yes— we use human language. We use human action, right? Some of us can get so caught up in, “Oh, we long for divine things and wouldn't it be awesome if we could know God and, and we could journey into eternity, but aren't, we stuck here?” Right. And without knowing it, you kind of become a, a Neoplatonist

Julius: Yeah.

Wil: Aren't we stuck here in this body? Are we trapped in just human conceptions, finite words? Right. We've got to use human language and human language is limited. And we've got these human bodies and they're limited. Like, I can only be at one place at one time. I only have so much time before I'm gone. We have to use human action and rituals like, “Oh, so how did…” this lets us know…

If we're trying to just make our way up to God we're stuck or right… It’s… And so God can inhabit what is not God. And that gives us hope for words leading us beyond just words, and ritual leading us beyond just ritual… as far as even just the questions of like agnosticism and making, making choices that we've got to make if we're going to actually live our lives and not just be entertained and numbed to death.

You know, to risk making those kinds of choices that would, that would lead us, you know uh in, in some, in a direction which is super broad, but exactly that's the point to actually go somewhere and not just sit and be fed and entertained. 

Wil: Another point on that intellectually, is it invites us to actually… it gives us hope that we can engage the world around us, engage the ideas, our culture—actually converse with it—without the fear, you know, and this could go two ways, you know, depending on where the person stands… Some Christians are really afraid that if you let the conversation in, if you take something seriously, if you…

Some, some Christians—and I don't just mean like, you know, someone with a smartphone—there, there are some Christians getting published in national publications with, with op-ed pieces that seem to be so terribly afraid that if we admit anybody else has anything of value to say anybody… if we admit any other group or camp has wisdom to offer, then that means we're all wrong. And it's all going to come apart from the inside. 

No, we have precedent for this. The Christians were able to take the logos in and Celsus, wasn't wrong to say that, “Hey, you've changed this. You've reworked this.” They had. Right? And so w-we don't have to fear that if we, if somebody else has a point, right. If someone has something like we can really, really engage things like critical race theory, we don't have to just fearfully finger point and be like, “Ooh, That's just Marxist,” as if that's a way to just totally write it off.

The Gospel of John was able to find use for the concept of logos. And so we should be the kinds of people that can find use, and wisdom and join in something good and true for the world in our time, too.

Julius: I think this, like, it's not necessarily even just like incorporating ideas from outside of Christianity as if we're kind of like tacking them on to theology as agendas, like taping on like a little like, well, yeah, we'll take on a little bit of Hellenistic. Like it's the logos stuff? Let's tape that onto our theology, but it feels like a real discourse where like, You guys call it, logos, this like this aligns with what we call it this, you know, and this is what we see in Jesus that it's not just like a, okay, look, we'll take pieces of this, but it's a real conversation of like we're all trying to make sense of this and these things that are transcendent of our languages and philosophies.

And that God is big enough to be that it's not like a, yeah, we're not. Adding things and sprinkling a little bit of this philosophy here in a little bit of this philosophy here, but part of the work and the character of being Christian is to be able to see I guess that Christ, I guess if, if we truly believe, believe that humanity is created in the image of God, like the , that means that.

Even our reason, right? Like, like, sure. It, it needs direction, but that like,

Wil: Maybe does this help? That I, my mind as you're talking is going to what I said about why it's important that God can use what is not God. So genuinely God can inhabit our reason, but that also means our reason must be transferred. It's it is it's, it's both God and habits God speaks through, but it, but what is not God that also gives us a necessary cautionary, you know, principle or border or bound that, that if we hold to it keeps us from conflating or mistaking.

Our reason for.

Julius: Yeah.

Wil: And so our reason must always, yeah, it will always be used, but it will also always be caught up and transcended. And in places where it's distorted by sin, fear violence has to always remain open to.

Julius: Yeah.

Wil: Hmm, maybe. So if we've, if we've said a little bit to some Christians that are super afraid of engaging other ideas or seem to in principle, say we can't let any other group have anything right.

To say without feeling like our whole house of cards falls down. If we said something to them, we could also say something too. And I think there there's a, there is something justified in being afraid of just confirming. Just falling in with what's in fashion or what's popular now, or what has it, you know? And so what we'd say the other direction is on this principle, we just bought what is not God, is it won't leave anything unchanged. It won't come in and directly do violence. It won't come in and just destroy and decimate, but it also will not leave anything unsafe. Right. So Celsus was right. If we're looking for a principal that could be, that we could really learn from and build on to engage our, our times.

He was right to say that you've changed what we talked about. You, you're not just like. And if you, you know, he says that over and over again, if they had read Plato they'd know,

Julius: Yeah.

Wil: That this and this, and later Christian thinkers, like Origen of Alexandria writes a long response to Celsius, which is actually where we know most of this from, he keeps quotes Celsus to such an extent that people have nearly reconstructed Celsus his whole, like, just from what origin quotes.

Taken out that and put together like 200 pages of original material that he key extensively quote Celsus in his response to him. And he shows, yeah, I know Plato. I do. I also know where we've changed it and why. And so this is, this is the question. It does bring us to a point of discernment and choice where yes, we can use this.

Yes, we can build on this. Yes, we can affirm and honor what is honorable, but it will also. It won't be left on changed. And so that's where the real decision point is for us as believers. Right. Is this a distortion of what the world knows and has to offer, or is it a development? Is this a violence to a cultural artifact or has it taken that cultural artifact and furthered it and led it towards a greater truer picture of what's good and beautiful.


MEDITATION

Instead of just offering a meditation to wrap up this episode, how about we suggest a bit of homework? 

Because Christians have a strong precedent for genuinely engaging the thought and issues of our day, pick a challenging or contentious issue. One that often devolves from respectful argument to spiteful criticism between parties. Perhaps one you've been intimidated by and avoiding. Or one you've adopted strong opinions about without doing your own research. 

It's okay to admit this if you're guilty, because I'm pretty sure we've all mixed passion and ignorance, and, further, because the suggestion of this whole exercise is built upon the assumption that you will carry it out by being carried by God's grace. 

So name the issue or question, and explore it ... as thoroughly as allowed by the time you have over the next two weeks or so. 

And from as balanced an honest place as you can. 

Even take the time to fairly engage and evaluate the points of some staunch critics ...

As you go, note both where you find error, and 

where you find things that are honorable or compelling.

Because Origen did not agree with Celsus on much, but nobody can say Origen did not read him thoroughly and respectfully or accuse Origen of refusing to say so when he found wisdom in Celsus. 

And we suggest you do this not just as a mental exercise to help you win arguments. Not just to carry on the strong intellectual current running though our Tradition. Not just to help you make substantive contributions on vital matters. Because while this precedent does run through names like Origen and Maximus Confessor and Thomas Aquinas and Catherine of Sienna, it does not originate with them. 

We suggest this because we believe in it you might find life. And the life offered here by the Christian Tradition, like all genuine life, comes from Christ. 

So we invite you to take this on as an act that integrates study and worship and your own formation into the image of Christ. 

Because Jesus debated, but always with real people on real points, and never with Straw man arguments. And if doing this, the Logos -- the eternal reason and structure of the Godhead, divine rationality itself -- took on flesh and embraced our world by engaging this person on this issue with dignity and truth and love,

Then you can still find the logos here and now.

In the thick of our confusing and overwhelming times.

Precedented 1 - Pluralism, Justin Martyr, Jewish Roots


INTRO 

True, we've never before had a nearly-instantaneous, nearly-worldwide network connected to devices in our pockets alerting us to rising temperatures and the temperamental outbursts of tyrants or the spread of malicious insects and viruses. 

And being constantly aware of all this can feel disorienting and surreal. 

But even so, we're not convinced we should be so quick to call our times "totally unprecedented." Our ancestors weathered tyrants and plagues and renovated their political thought and activity when facing the consequences of previous human actions. 

And for those of us within the Christian Tradition, we must always remember that our predecessors took on the challenge of reinterpreting all of reality in light of the singular life of Jesus of Nazareth. 

What is not "unprecedented" is humans encountering the unprecedented. And in the midst of our own unique challenges, we unnecessarily feed the bad reactions that can come with fear and uncertainty if we believe we face our challenges alone.

So, in this series, we look at people and moments in the Tradition where those who came before us give us precedents for facing our epoch-shaping tests and tasks.

This time we meet a man who faced the pressure that comes with the overwhelming number of options presented to us in a pluralistic environment, and still managed to make the kinds of decisions and commitments that make life rich and meaningful.


STORY

Around the year 100 CE, a boy named Justin was born in an eastern region of the Roman Empire. At this time Rome had conquered lands all around what we today would call "near" and "middle-Eastern" countries. And Rome's rule also extended east along North Africa, spread north into into what is now Britain and France, then circled all the way back East into Justin's homeland. 

Controlling the lands and people all around the Mediterranean this way meant that while there was a dominant culture we can call "Roman," the empire also included a vast array of other people groups and cultures. So those within the Roman empire knew of Caesar and the Roman Senate, but they might have also known of their own Tribal Chieftains our councils. They may have revered the Roman gods like Jupiter and Apollo, but also had their hearts and imaginations tugged at by Egyptian myths, Hellenistic philosophy, and stories of their own local deities right along with the Hebrew stories of YHWH and Moses. 

Rome's official policy of dealing with these different cultures and religions was one we can call, to a certain degree, "pluralistic." Rome welcomed any regional or tribal religion and made room in their pantheon of gods for local deities, made space for different schools of philosophy and granted a degree of leeway for different political systems, so long as the conquered people also submitted to Caesar and offered token sacrifices to the Roman gods. 

And when it comes to the intellectual challenges that come with a pluralistic environment, we don't tend to put things like infrastructure high on the list of stimulating topics. But just think: where would our current culture be without the internet? And where would that web of connectivity be without the cell towers and satellites and the people who designed and built them? 

So, an important part of the story of Roman pluralism is their infrastructure. Things like their roads, and ubiquitous military presence that suppressed regional warfare, both made serious travel easier than ever before. Which made it possible for people and ideas to interact in unprecedented ways. And this meant people didn't just become mentally aware of different gods and ways of making sense of their world or varying systems for organizing their life together. 

Like smartphones can mean anxiety and tension, Roman infrastructure meant everyday people sometimes felt the pressure and uncertainty that comes when central cultural forces like law and philosophy and religion collide. 

So people living in Rome developed structures and methods for making the kinds of choices that many people before them never even had to think about. You see one example of this in an episode of the New Testament book of Acts, where the Apostle Paul takes the gospel of Jesus - which grew out of the near-eastern Hebrew religion, to the Greek city of Athens. There, the Athenians used a place called the Areopagus to hash this stuff out. There were even people who devoted most of their time every day to hearing and debating new ideas. Sort of like an ancient Reddit, in a way.

  All this to say, people with an internet connection, or who've sat in a college comparative religions class, were not the first to experience the pressures that come with a pluralistic context. And recognizing that we are not the first to face a season like this might be an important step in navigating our own pluralistic context well.

And isn't learning that we might not be completely alone good news? When faced with all the choices available to us, it is tough enough to decide what tablet or phone to buy or brand of laundry detergent to use or whether to have Tai or Mexican or Mediterranean food for dinner. How often, be honest, have you spent more time scrolling Netflix than you did actually watching whatever you ended up landing on? How do you choose when you have nothing higher than your own choice to guide your choice?

And if a choice about shopping and entertainment can devour hours of our lives, how do we chose between the various options on matters of ultimate importance? 

This is a genuinely tough predicament. But it becomes unnecessarily tougher if we start to believe we have no mentors or examples who can help us discern our way through it. So we'd like you to consider Justin as one of these potential guides. 

He tells his own story in a book called "Dialogue with Trypho" that he wrote somewhere between the years 155-160 CE. We've linked this book in the episode description. And to chart a path through the philosophical and religious alternatives of his day, Justin began by touring the options. But Justin did more than scroll or read some wikipedia pages and maybe risk posting a thought or two in a forum. He found a mentor, and under this teacher's guidance, fully immersed himself in a way of life. 

At first, Justin tried being a Stoic. And there, he learned much about being practical and developing discipline and mental resilience. But his Stoic master proved to be uninterested in the kinds of things Justin took to be matters of ultimate importance. 

So he found an Aristotelian mentor, but this guide seemed more interested in collecting fees than in pouring into his students. So Justin moved on and studied under a Pythagorian. There Justin learned much about music, geometry, and astronomy. But the deeper he dove into these fields, the more forceful became Justin's desire for knowledge of God. His pythagorean mentor was uninterested in exploring things beyond numbers and stars and harmonies, so eventually Justin came to study under a Platonist.

Here, Justin sensed, he was finally making substantial progress. In his words, Justin felt as if his mind was given wings, and he hoped in time to come to see God.

Now, there was much about the categories and ways of thinking found in Plato that early Christians like Justin found very helpful. And in the next episode of this series we'll look at some of the ways they engaged and incorporated the philosophy of their day. But there was a crucial point of Platonic thought regarding our knowledge of God that needed to be revised. Precisely how Justin's mind would have been equipped by this platonist to fly to God becomes crucially important for this story. 

Plato taught that to come to knowledge of divine things, one must ascend by a feat of pure intelligence. This demanded a total separation of the mind from history and human events and bodily senses. To Plato, the mind was the only part of humanity that carried anything remotely divine, so it was the only thing that could handle anything remotely divine. If anything bodily - like the eyes or ears - or if human emotion got involved in any way, Plato taught, they would certainly mess things up and pull us away from God. 

And this is interesting for Justin's story, because he eventually converted to the Christian faith after talking to a Jewish follower of Jesus. This man began to introduce the faith by telling Justin stories from the Old Testament about God creating the world and rescuing the Jews from Egypt and shaking mountains and speaking through prophets. Stories passed on generation by generation by human testimony. Stories that pretty thoroughly involved God with history and human senses, and, well, the very stuff Plato said you had to escape to reach the divine.

Now, in both Plato's and Justin's day, there were plenty of Greek stories about the gods involving themselves in human affairs. But Plato strongly criticized these myths as being unworthy of theology proper, because they portrayed the gods not just acting out of the kinds of greed and pettiness and lust that characterized so much of humanity, but also because the stories simply showed the gods tarnishing themselves with the concerns and stuff of this world. Both of which was, to Plato's mind, unfitting for divinity. To Plato and his devoted followers, even a smoking and shivering mountain or Prophetic Oracle was scandalous, and unworthy of communicating anything about a truly transcendent God.

But the stories of God's involvement in the world that the Old Jewish Christian told the platonist Justin, in Justin's own words, quote "set his soul ablaze" unquote. And, in the middle of the pressures that came with his own pluralistic environment, these stories culminating with Jesus led Justin to make a decisive choice. In history Justin has become known as Justin Martyr, because he would eventually go so far as give his own life for this choice.

So in the conversation that follows, Julius and I talk about why? Just what was it about Jesus' connection to these old stories of God's involvement with the world that might have set Justin's heart and mind ablaze and empowered his will to choose with such conviction? 


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to “All Things” after a three-week break, we're excited to pick up on this New season and this New series. And this is once again, Julius, and we'll

Wilson: Hello,

Julius: there he is.

Wilson: has got to be right around. Maybe we surpass, but we'd ride around total, see episode 100, which I guess is the thing, right? That's uh, that's some kind of landmark.

Julius: That is a landmark. Um, speaking of landmarks. No, that's, that's not a transition, but talking about, we'll cut that today. We're picking up on a story about Justin martyr and how Justin martyr a huge part of how he comes to the faith is through, um, old Testament stories and the ways that he he's compelled by them.

And in the story, we said that these stories, quote, unquote, “Set his soul ablaze.” And I think one of the things that appealed to Justin martyr about the Christian faith is how it has continuity with this Jewish faith that is so oriented by story is and tells of a God that interacts with concrete events in history.

Talks about a God that engages the senses in that way. And how so much of the Jewish and Christian tradition— right? That word ‘tradition’ means that the knowledge of God is something that is passed on from, from generation to generation, through stories, through people. And so this theme of continuity seems to be a big and like important thing for Justin martyr's, um, conversion and his love for the faith.

So as we explore a bit more of that today, let's look at the New Testament and ask the question of… How, how does the New Testament, um, emphasize the continuity of the Christian faith with, um, the story is in the tradition of like the law and the prophets, the Jewish scriptures?

Wilson: All right. So we're going to go to the, the very opening of the very first book of the New Testament. And before I get into talking about the specifics of the first, I mean the first verse, but then that, that theme continues through the whole book, but we'll talk some specifics, especially like the first like seven chapters of the first book of the New Testament which is called Matthew. 

I want to point out something. I think that's easy to miss. Um, and that to, just to just unpack a bit of what it. Could say to us that this is how the church structured the scriptures.

Julius : Hmm.

Wilson: Um. Oh, what's the best way to help us see this… Um, okay. So in, in this room over here, there's a lamp that none of you can see this one happens to be a very old and honestly a pretty ugly, pretty ugly art nouveau lamp, but it's a lamp and you, and you all know what a lamp is. So even though you can't see this one, you can picture right.

And, uh, so much of how we've been trained to think about— conditioned is a good word too— conditioned to think about uh, the scriptures leads us to like take the scriptures apart piece by piece and just analyze the bit.

Julius : Right.

Wilson: And, and there's a lot that can be helpful. There's a lot that can be good too, that, you know, and, and we can see why that's, how science works.

Right. Break it down to its parts, dissect the animal. Look at, look at the, uh, the stuff that's inside, all that kind of stuff. And so when we think about like understanding a lamp, if, especially when we talk about that, Because this is our culture. This is how we've seen it, so. You know, this is how it's so often preached.

All right. “Let's, let's break it down into tiny little parts and just look at this, this phrase and this word,” which again, there's, there's something to that. The problem is not doing that. Um, I'm not saying there shouldn't be a place for that in our study of the scripture, but what I am saying is that's not complete, it's not enough.

So just like, if you talk about a lamp, if, if the person that made the lamp, wants other people to understand the lamp, they don't just want them to take their lamp apart and look at the wires and how do the connections made and how, how does this, uh, you know, base fit into, um, this other piece and this, the screws and the bolts, right?

Not just take it apart, but also really. I think part of the lamp maker would go, but I made a lamp. So turn it on

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: and, and enjoy when it's together, what happens, right? Because if you pull it all apart and you put the wire over here and the bulb over here and the base over here and the shade over here, right.

You can learn about all those different parts, but you can't have a lamp.

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: And so there's something to, uh, we need to think the. The scriptures were formed, were put together. It was part of the conversation, not just what parts are going to be included, but also how do we order them? How do we arrange them? And so that's when, when you put it together and it has, when all the parts have a holistic form that allows the light to come on and for you to experience something. And so I think it's incredibly important. I think we even look for part of the inspiration and the presence of the holy spirit in the formation of the scriptures when we look at the form of the scriptures.

And so, because of that for like, you know, I actually kind of, now I like that you put the pieces of the lamp together and turn it. Right. Look at the form. What happens when you put the form together, the scriptures and notice the very opening of the, of the book that we chose to be the first book of the New Testament emphasizes the continuity

Julius : Yeah.

Wilson: between what has happened in light of Jesus with that person and what has been happening for a good while with God's people as they engage with God.

So it's all over the place. Part of the book of Matthew. I mean, the, the opening line we talked about in one of the more recent episodes is the genealogy of Jesus. And so in that you see it, right. Hey, Matthew is going to start telling us about Jesus and the beginning of a story, just like the opening scenes of a movie set up so much for what follows.

Julius : It's the opening crawl.

Wilson: There it is. Right. And, and, uh, right. So if you, like, how different would Star Wars be if you didn't have the scrolling text, giving you a little bit. And so for Matthew that the scrolling text, the, Hey, what sets this up is, look, God came to Abe. And made a promise and Abraham had this son and traces the whole story of God's people through these are the whole story of God's engagement through these actual people.

But then also we pointed out that the word, the Greek word there for genealogy is Genesis and there's an intentional play there. This is also tied to what the creator has intended for all of creation from the very, very big Guinea. And so, I mean, it just. If the beginning of your movie, doesn't say something super important about everything else that follows you need to change the beginning of your movie. And that the church said, “No, no, no, no. This is the piece that fits here so that when the form comes together, the light comes on. “It just lets us know the scriptures want us to know that this continuity really, really matters. That this continuity does have something to do with. With what's happening on a holistic and a deep integrated primordial level. So that when it clicks, it's like what happened to Justin? Like it has the potential to set your mind in your heart on fire.

Julius : Yeah. I mean, I think that's a great reminder that the way that the scriptures are arranged and like the order really matters. And like the decision, like end, it's a prayerful decision, right. Within these councils that it's like it, which is both a creative thing, but it's also like a. An act of kind of like communal spiritual discernment to open up the New Testament with kind of like this statement.

Like it's like, like I said earlier, the opening crawl as if to say like, oh, remember that movie that you saw 20 years ago, we're picking up from that. Like, we're trying, this is part of the same story. That it's a very intentional claim to say that this is not like a war we're not leaving. Behind and like trying to establish a completely New thing.

Wilson: Yeah, it's it's, it's letting you know, Hey, this is empire strikes back.

Julius : Yeah.

Wilson: All right. So you need, you need to have known what's going on with the New hope to get what's happening here. It is not right now. According to us in August of 2021, this is not the Suicide Squad that is currently in theater. Right?

Cause that, Hey, we made one a couple of years ago, we're going to act like that one doesn't exist and we're just going to make another one. Right? There's there. They, they to understand the Suicide Squad in theaters. Now you need to know. Don't try to put these things together, right? We're we're going to act like that didn't happen.

And in contrast to, you know, the Star Wars trilogies, what, what the New Testament is saying right off the bat is it's more like that you need right. To understand this story, its fullness, and what's about to happen. You need, you need that background stuff.

Julius : right. It's a funny how Star Wars fans understand the concept of cannon,

Wilson: It's

Julius : in such a, in a, in a deep way that like biblical scholars

Wilson: So maybe better than a lot.

Julius : Yeah,

Wilson: contemporary

Julius : so I, I think one of the, I mean, beyond just what that makes me think of, right. I think you've mentioned this before is on a logical kind of philosophical level that, um, a religion or like an ideology, at least I'm assuming, and Justin martyr's day like that. It's ethos is established. Its credibility is established by not just being like a New thing. That's disconnected from tradition, but that it, that people logically and philosophically would, um, understand an ideology or like treat it with more credibility. The more that it's backed by kind of like research, right with science.

Like it's got to have kind of like source material behind it. And the longer that thread is, and the longer that this thread of thinking or belief has endured, it says something about, oh, this is legit. We're not just like making it up and pretending that this came out of thin air. And so on a logical level, I think that.

I wonder if that's a part of what, um, appealed to Justin martyr, but it seems like from the story there's also beyond that, just like on a heart level, it, the, the there's, um, there's something about these stories that Justin martyr found compelling, and the fact that the New Testament kind of like picks up on those stories. And because these stories are weaved in with concrete events in history, um, that there's like a, there's a beauty to that I think draws him like beyond just the logical piece, that there's a beauty that captivates Justin martyr.

So how does the New Testament, um, pick up on… kind of back to the Star Wars or whatever, like… reboots analogy, like, what are kind of some of the key stories and themes that the New Testament writers pick up on and that they recognize as beautiful and that they kind of continue this thread along in a really faithful and, um, even like creative way?

Wilson: Right. So we said— and there are lots of places we can… I think we'll allude kind of quickly to places all over the New Testament where this happens, but to give it some focus a little bit easier to grasp onto we'll stick with what we said. Let's, let's just keep with the first seven chapters of the book of Matthew, because with that.

If, you know those stories, if you've come to hear what, you know, what Justin martyr heard in the testimony of the prophets, the word of the Lord, as it came through Hosea and Isaiah and Ezekiel and Moses, and the stories that are involved with Israel, right? Israel means…the name, Israel, the word means ‘wrestles with God.’

And so it starts and that whole, the whole, like the, the origin of that name is a person who shifts his name to, in the middle of his life changes his name to Israel because as the story goes, he wrestles with the angel of the Lord, uh, by a river. And, and that story becomes the, the, the beginning for the whole identity of the people.

And so as, as Justin hears these stories, right. Um, and then here's the stories that are told about Jesus. You know, like we would, and like Matthew would tell it if you know those old stories, you start to, to recognize certain things. Right. And so here's this, here's this unprecedented event with Jesus of Nazareth. Right. And, and I  mean, you want to talk about, I mean, it's, I guess it's true in a pretty vacuous kind of way for all of us, that every moment of our life is unprecedented in some way. Right? Because no one, no one has, you know, sat in your chair in your garage like you are right now with your hair color— you know, all, all the particulars are, you know?

Um, but if you want to talk about a whole life of unprecedented events, Jesus has got to be pretty high in the running for top of that list, right? Walking on water, feeding 5,000, water to wine, and all that kind of stuff. 

But you, you, you hear all the stories. Yeah. Justin would in the middle of, you know, whatever cultural environment with all these different options, if you hear the stories of Jesus and, and as amazing and as seemingly unprecedented, as they are, what the New Testament wants us to also do, especially because it lets us know, “Hey, but you've got to know these other ones,” is to hear resonances and echoes and harmonies where it's like, “Hey, I've never heard it like that before, but I feel like I've heard that before."

Julius : Right.

Wilson: Like there's there, there's something there. Right? And, and this is, this is the way the book of Matthew is structured at the beginning. So it goes from the genealogies and the names, and now he's God with us. And then as he gets about living his life, there's so much about Jesus, that parallels. You know, and again, it's not exactly the same.

It's not just like some time loop where let's go, oh, just redo it. It, it's not a, it's not like the movie Groundhog day or someone's stuck in the same day over and over and over again. Right. It's not just like a timeline going back, but Jesus relives events, but in a way that brings them to a greater fullness. Right. 

And so if you know, the story of, uh…Israel’s time enslaved in Egypt and their freedom from that. Well, then you hear that with, with the stories of Jesus too, because as soon as the ruler of the day—you know, think Pharaoh, the tyrant, the, the, the figures, we are like so many other human figures who are obsessed with their status, their influence, and their power and their wealth. When Herod hears about that. Tries to kill all the young children, which sounds an awful lot like Pharaoh, trying to keep, uh, Israel enslaved by throwing their babies into the river. But Moses escaped in that story. 

And so in Jesus's time, Herod like a New Pharaoh tries to kill all the infants, but where do Mary and Joseph go to escape this? Wink, wink: Egypt. Like are you, do you get…  *nudge, nudge* when they're done and they come back up out of Egypt. Jesus is baptized where in the Jordan river, which when the people came up out of slavery and came into the promised land, there's a miraculous story about them crossing through the Jordan river, wink, wink, nudge, nudge.

How long did they wander in the wilderness? Uh, before they crossed into the promised land? 40 years. Oh, and then Matthew just lets us know, wink, wink. I'll stop doing that. That's old, right. But, um, Matthew lets us know, “h, Jesus went into the wilderness to fast and pray for how long? 40 days.”

Julius : Forty. Yeah.

Wilson: Right. Um, and then after all of this, this is where it kicks up in Matthew chapter five, Jesus ascends, a mountain and he says what? He says, “a new law I give to you.” Okay. And this is the part where it's the sermon on the Mount, where he says, you've heard it said, right, but now he says clearly in chapter five, verse 17, a linchpin verse. Hey look, I'm, I'm about to tell you some things that are going to blow your mind. Totally New.

Right? I'm going to, I'm going to take this. Steps further, but I also want you to know, I did not come to abolish the law. I didn't come to abolish or a race or do away with old. Right? Remember this is Star Wars.

Julius : Yeah.

Wilson: two, uh, or, you know, this is not the Suicide Squad.

Julius : Right.

Wilson: have not come to a race or to abolish the law, but to fulfill it. And so now you hear those echoes, well, this is like Moses going up on the mountain and giving us the law, but here's Jesus going up on the mountain, giving us a New law and taking that to a whole ‘nother level. Right. So you've heard that it was said. But I tell you love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.

You've heard an eye for an eye and a tooth of the tooth, but I tell you this and that.

Julius : Hmm.

Wilson: whole sermon on the Mount is his New, Hey, now, right? Because what's happened in me previously, the law gave you some, it gave you some form of life that would allow you to know what's good, to live what's good, to be a model and example of that.

And to, in that wrestle with God continually to be my people, but now. Matthew says that this is “Emmanuel”: God with us. And now that I'm with you, let's take this to a place where it's not just the law, but let's, let's move this towards perfection. Let's, let's move this as a promise because I'm with you— look, and just before you, he goes up there, he heals all people. Now, “Hey, let's, let's see what could happen now that I'm here. If we're really working in this time.”

Julius : Right.

Wilson: So you look at all of these stories, right? And, and if you, if you trust them, then Jesus is unprecedented.

Julius : Sure.

Wilson: But what gives more of the fullness is if you can also pick up the precedents before that, they're showing us that like, this is… this is who God has been.

And you see it concretely in the way, right, through, through the story, the things that that are hit that or experienced that hit us in the senses that touched Justin's heart so much, knowing those precedents unlock… Uh, it's like, I don't know. I think if I were writing it out, I would use something kind of, I would use maybe like subscript or superscripts.

Right. You'd have unprecedented1. That's just like, wow, that's amazing. But if you see like, oh, this is unprecedented and amazing. And look. Look at the harmonies and look at what that, that background and the continuity with that, that like it's, it's New and Old. That's like unprecedented2—that the continuity unlocks a whole ‘nother level of, of the transcendent presence of God in the ordinary person of Jesus of Nazareth.

Julius : I think that's, I think that interplay between like continuity with the old and like the way that a story, um, incorporates that whilst while also moving things forward of like a story that is dynamic. I think why we find that. Why we consider that good storytelling is because there's some, it's how we make sense of the world as humans of like, why people study history of like, I think we are fascinated with finding patterns and humanity of things that are kind of like across time and space seemed like universal human things and patterns.

And, um, and we like to. Arrange them to make sense of like our past to S to, to make connections with where we are right now. And, and sometimes to kind of like, try to imagine what the future will be. Right. So that like the humans are oriented towards story, I think, and making sense of who they are. And then the, the way that we interpret those stories that we tell to one another also shapes, like what kind of. We are. And I think that's one of the things that like, beyond this, just being a good thing of storytelling that Justin martyr is drawn to the faith because this story is something that shapes like a people that it's carried on by the way that people live, um, their, a life. Um, so I guess let's pick up now in looking at the places in the New Testament that lie.

A well-crafted story. Um, that's not just a reboot that attempts to erase the past, but that acknowledges the tradition before it, and then moves it and introduces elements that are also New. What are some places in the New Testament, if that kind of, um, do that, that introduce New concepts that aren't just.

Breaks from kind of like what Jesus was saying, that, that don't abolish what came before, but that perfected that, move it forward. That moved the tradition along.

Wilson: we could just circle back around and say all of those, you know, in a way that we've already kind of started to talk about every instance, every little episode that we just talked about from the gospel of man. Would be ones that also show, show something New, um, because it was done in a way that had never been done before and taken to a wider, greater fullness than what had been there before.

You know, it, it, it is the move from lotta gospel when you understand it. Well that the. We, we tend to set up the law and the gospel and sort of as opposites that are in conflict, uh, it's the law. And that was only there to discourage us and to show us how bad we are. And then the gospel comes in to swoop in and rescue us by saying, oh, you don't have to pay attention to the law. Which, uh, I mean, not to put too fine, a point on it is just not Christian, because that's exactly what Jesus says. It's not.

Julius : Yeah,

Wilson: So instead it's. It's taking the law to a greater fullness in the gospel. And so now it's not just the rules and the regulation, but it's the divine presence that opens up, not just rule following, but genuinely being and loving.

What's good. And doing that from a. And a place that's authentic on all levels, not just on the behavioral level, but heart, soul, mind, and strength. This is who you are, and this is what you love. And so this is why Jesus says, you know, and you've got to hear this line in that when he's on the mountain, giving his New law, the sermon on the Mount, when he says be perfect as your heavenly father is perfect.

It's not a harsh. Totally unrealistic demand that he's unfairly placing on our shoulders. It's a, it's an invitation and a promise to journey into that in him. And so it, because, because all of this, while there is continuity, while there is a sense of repetition, it's also not just some wrote identical repetition, it's New. And so what you see in the gospel is it, it allows us to shape it. What is a pretty distinctly Christian kind of imagination, is that all, you know, especially in a pluralistic world, when there are all these. Options. And so many of them are opposites of each other that we tend to only imagine opposites as being in conflict, but this is letting us see that opposites don't necessarily have to be in conflict.

Opposites can work together in, in a, in a harmony and a kind of contrast. Right. And so what, what Jesus invites and lets us see is start to imagine. Uh, uh, a perfect harmonizing of opposites because they're caught up in a greater unity and wholeness in Christ and that's that's him. And so when, when we look at the relationship between the New and the old, uh, in this and what God has done in history and, and what, where God is taking us for the future, right?

Cause you don't want this just to be a backward looking. This is part of why for Justin his heart, not just his mind is set on fire, right? Cause looking back at history and learning some things unlocking, some of those puzzles can set your mind on fire, but what sets your whole being on fire is when there's a connection between, Hey, looking back and seeing this, this is also taking us somewhere.

This is allows us to not, and, and not in a controlling, right? Because it's always New. in a, nobody expected Jesus wonder and awe where the reactions of Jesus. It's not like, oh yeah, we knew this was coming right. We had profits. It's not a way to lay it out and to control our lives, to control our, manipulate our destinies. But it gives us an orientation of like hope and goodness that we're headed somewhere. We're headed somewhere good with this thing. It gives us a future. So where that takes me, like for the biblical principle, the New Testament witness to this is in the book of revelation. When you do look ahead at the last things. And again, like, I mean over and over and over again. That's that's a pretty stark, uh, example of what it is to look to the future as a Christian, that, and by stark, I mean, it should starkly challenge our desires to totally know, predict and control everything.

Because if you think we're in control, when you think we can understand it, just read that book and, and let it confuse you and let that be glorious and beauty.

Julius : Hm.

Wilson: in there, but there are also things that, that pull us forward and hope and goodness with confidence. Like there's, there's a place in there where, where God says explicitly behold, I'm making all things New

Julius : Yeah.

Wilson: they're here's here's yes, this is in continuity with the old you need.

And here's the form. Ooh, I like that. I didn't intend this. I didn't, but it started with a lamp. Right? So we, we started off this conversation, emphasizing the form of the New. That it, it matters that the way it's put together begins here. And this is part of like the metaphor, allowing it to be a lamp that you can actually turn on and see by.

It also matters that at the end, in the book of revelation, God explicitly talks about the New, yeah. And what brings this home is, is, uh, is knowing that in the Greek, there are two terms for the word New, uh, and there's, there's one term that would be like the Suicide Squad in 2021 knew, Hey, we're just going to, we're going to act like the old didn't happen.

This one's better. Right? Forget that one. Here's the New one. It means like it's like its newness is totally comprehended chronologically. It was not before it did not exist before now. It's New, um, nails and then there's another. Kindness.

Julius : Hm.

Wilson: is a much richer, much more nuanced and complex newness because it's not just a chronological.

Hey, here's something that never existed before. Um, it's more, uh, we, I think we talked about this in episode on revenue. Right, but it's, it's more, um, nots, not Suicide Squad, 2021. It's more like, uh, if we're, if we're looking for storytelling, um, I go to restoration shows. I've been getting into like, uh, shows on Netflix where people take old rusty.

Cars and restore them. That's kindness. When someone takes something that is broken down, busted is, I mean, you obviously look at it and you think of like what this thing could be, what the creator imagined for it and what it was at its best. That is not that now.

Julius : Yeah.

Wilson: Important parts are missing. It doesn't run.

Its frame is bent. It's rusted out. It's deteriorating from the inside, but then someone takes it and restores the car. When that car is now like remade runs painted and it drives out of the garage. That's that complex questioning that comes when you're, when you're there watching it dry going. Is that an old car or is that a New car, right?

That that's kinda, that's kind of us. Yeah, that's what God says. I am doing what the world is. I am making all things New. It's like a

Julius : Hmm. Yeah.

Wilson: and so this is, this is why it matters that we have these old stories. Right. But they're all each moment, right. It's being caught up. It's not forgotten. It's not lost. It's, it's, it's valued, but it's being caught up and renewed and made New. And I think that's the sort of like, you can feel it. You can touch that.

You see that happen. You can hear people talk about it, but, but what sets Justin's and hopefully our hearts and minds of flame is that that's not just something that happened in the past. That's who God is, and God can do that now through us. And that's why he enters into the faith is the invitation to be brought into it and to have that happen for him and his world and to now shape the way he thinks about his future and the future of everyone and all things.

Julius : Yeah.


MEDITATION

There is no way - especially in only one podcast episode - to cover all the ways the Jewish origins matter for the Christian faith. So, we'll just state as a principle that you cannot understand Jesus without putting him in his Jewish context.

And situating Jesus firmly within the stories of creation and God's promise to Abraham and the Jewish kings and prophets is maybe like putting all the different parts together to form a lamp and then turning it on, or fitting a diamond in a masterfully shaped ring and setting. It lets light and beauty itself stand out in a greater fullness. 

Situated this way, Justin Martyr found Jesus and the long story of God's work in the world stunning and compelling, because it convinced Justin the knowledge of God makes its way to humans not by argument and the human mind's escape from the world, but as God engages humanity. It convinced him God could be known by events in history.

What the fullness of the Jewish origins did for Justin Martyr was shift his posture toward God, from seeking ways for for his mind to escape the difficulties of his time and grow wings to ascend to God, to seeking to open himself to receive God's presence and revelation here and now.

The unprecedented life of Jesus is the precedent and ground for how we, at any time, in any place, may find God. Working in our midst. Engaging our broken and confusing world. 

But this doesn't just tell Justin and us something about how God can work in physical things entangled in history. It tells us also about how God does characteristically work. And this work, because it is characteristic, told him, and tells us, something about who God is. 

So about a century later, another Christian who was greatly influenced by Plato, named Origen of Alexandria, engaged the Platonic criticism that asserted it was scandalous and unfitting to think of God soiling God's divinity by taking human flesh. Origen's strategy was to turn the argument from abstract ideas of divinity and make it an issue of God's character. He asked, of the two pictures: the Platonic image of God unbothered by, and uninvolved with, this world's brokenness and confusion, and the Jewish and Christian picture of a God who unites with us and meets us where were are, which presents God as more compassionate?

The harmonies between the old and new stories, tell us God cares, so God is engaged.

And if this is true, God is faithful and involved not just in Jesus' day, and not just in Justin's pluralistic context, but in ours. 

So, looking for God in our difficult and challenging times, name some of the biggest questions you face. And express the pressures you feel because you face these questions in our pluralistic context.

And now think, how have you toured the various options available for developing a philosophy of life and engaging those deep questions stirring in your soul? 

What have you found there that is of genuine value?

Where have you found contemporary thought and ways of life misguided or twisted? Where are you left wanting more?

And if you can trust Christ's faithfulness and presence even now in the Scriptures and worship and communion and Christlike action that continue to tell the stories, what choice or commitment would it empower you to make?

Practicing the Faith 7 - Practicing Grace in Good Works w/ St. Ignatius of Loyola


INTRO

Knowing the physics of flight -- how lift, drag, and thrust work to get a body off the ground -- is not the same as watching the ground drop below you as the clouds surround you.

Knowing what musical modes are and being able to tell someone John Coltrane used these in innovative ways to push free jazz forward is not the same as putting an intuition in your soul into notes in the air for anyone with ears to hear. 

Knowing the Queens Gambit or what a force out is in baseball is not the same as besting a worthy opponent in Chess or feeling your legs take you somewhere your conscious mind may not even know you need to go so you can feel the ball hit your glove and throw where you should to get an out for your team. 

And knowing that Jesus said do not worry, and love your enemies, is not the same as feeling the lightness of trust take root in your gut or feeling bitterness lose its grip on your chest.

Some things, you have to practice to understand.

So in this series, we hope to help you practice your faith so you can know salvation.

This time we look to St. Ignatius of Loyola as a guide for practicing grace in practicing good works. 


STORY

Ignatius of Loyola was born in 1491.

From childhood Ignatius wanted to become a soldier. So he patterned his self-image after the stories of the knights of Camelot, El Cid, and the central warrior from an 11th century epic poem called "The Song of Roland." And with that you already have enough to know Ignatius had a potent combination of imagination and ambition.

So Ignatius did not just want to be a soldier, he wanted to become a great soldier, who would some day rise to the rank of general and have people sit around fires and recount the legends of Lancelot, El Cid, and Ignatius, all in one breath.

We look at this beginning and, depending on our sensibilities, think, "That's a bunch of dangerous machismo nonsense." Or, "I get it, kid. Dream while you can. But don't actually try too hard, because some day the real world will hit and those ideals will fade and you'll realize it's not worth it."

But as his story unfolds, I think we see God looked at it and said, "Sure. There's a good deal of nonsense there, and the world will indeed hit, but we can work with that, Ignatius."

At 17 Ignatius was able to join the army. He displayed leadership potential and a good deal of courage, so he quickly rose in rank and began to participate in military battles by the age of 18. At this point, life for Ignatius was serving a king. Following orders. Keeping structure. It was training for the excellences inherent in the life of a soldier: practicing a sword move over and over, drilling each technique into his muscle memory. And though certain events and a large share of suffering would eventually challenge his ideals and rework his life goals, there was something about the form of life he knew at this stage that never really disappeared for Ignatius.

For the next 12 years he fought, and was never injured. And when that's your record at such a young age, you start to believe you actually are invincible. But then, in 1521, in a battle with the French, a cannonball shattered Ignatius' left leg and tore up his right. Chivalry was still kind of a thing then, so the French that busted his legs also provided doctors to repair them, then returned him to his father's castle to heal. The Spanish doctors, though, thought the French never did anything right, so they re-broke and re-set his leg, and Ignatius almost died from the stress and infection. 

In his autobiography, an older version of Ignatius called his younger self "vain." 

Here's why he'd say something like that about himself: As his legs began to heal, Ignatius noticed one leg was shorter than the other and one was marred by an ugly protrusion of bone. That made Ignatius afraid he wasn't going to look good in his tights. So he had the doctors come back for a series of operations where they again re-broke the leg, reset it, shaved the bone down to smooth the ugly bump, and put his leg in a rack-like tool to stretch it out to proper length. All at a time where anesthesia had yet to be invented. 

All so he'd look good in his tights.

If vanity is what motivated that, it had to be a deeply seated and monstrously powerful vanity. And then, I could add to this by telling stories that display Ignatius' womanizing, and unchecked ambition, propensity to abuse his influence, and his acts of violence - he once severely beat a man in what was supposed to be a mock brawl and ran a muslim through with a sword for denying Christ's divinity. Before he became a saint, Ignatius was no saint. 

While recovering, Ignatius, of course, wanted to read books on chivalry and knighthood. He was still in denial of the truth that his military career was over. 

But there were no military books or stories of knights where he was recovering, and it turns out that was a grace. What they had instead were books on Jesus and the saints. Most influential to him were books on St Francis of Assisi, and The Life of Christ by Ludolph of Saxony.

Those books showed Ignatius a different kind of greatness, that spoiled his old ideas of what a good life was. Something turned so that when he thought about the previous kinds of great things he wanted to do, he was left feeling empty and dry, but when he thought of doing great things for God, he felt joy and strength. In his autobiography, he wrote, "Little by little I came to recognize the difference between the spirits that were stirring." That would be spirits like selfish ambition and vanity, versus spirits of humility, service, and love.  And though Ignatius was raised Christian, he said, "This was my first reasoning about the things of God." 

He once fought to the death to defend the divinity of Christ, but, writing later, as a saint, he realized this was his "first" reasoning about the things of God.

And notice the shift that took place in what, during this series looking at Christian practice, we've called the telos: instead of wanting to serve the King like a soldier to do great deeds as the final goal or purposes of his life, Ignatius now simply wanted to serve Jesus, his heavenly king. So his ideal of performing feats like Lancelot transformed to carrying out saintly deeds.

And notice that today people do not link legends of Lancelot, El Cid, and Ignatius.

But they do tell stories of St. Benedict and St. Francis back-to-back with stories of Ignatius.

And to live in this direction, chasing this new telos, Ignatius did what he'd alway done: he practiced. And Ignatius never did anything half way. So he took pilgrimages. Studied under the most brilliant and holy men he could find. He lived in a cave to pray without distraction and do penance. To combat his vanity, he let his hair and fingernails grow long. He went to the Holy Land, but instead of running Muslims through with a sword, worked to serve them and help them realize a greater fullness in life.

So, progress.

But it is also encouraging to know that he didn't suddenly become perfect inside and out. As he understood it right after his conversion, holiness was entirely measured by the intensity of his exterior efforts. 

As soon as he could, Ignatius started out on that pilgrimage to Jerusalem. But he didn't ride a horse or chariot. As is fitting for his character, Ignatius walked. Even after all the surgeries and rack-like stretching, Ignatius' one leg stayed shorter than the other, and he walked with a limp the rest of his life. And limping toward Jerusalem, he wore only one sandal on the leg that hadn't fully healed.

If you haven't noticed, Ignatius was intense.

While in Jerusalem, he visited a Benedictine Monastery and there he made a confession of his sins. And I really feel for the priest that heard his confession, because it took Ignatius three days to get it all out. 

One Jesuit from our day joked, "When I die and face judgment, I'm not scared of Jesus. I'm scared of Ignatius."

To finish his time at the monastery, he hung his sword and dagger before a statue of Mary, went outside with his blue cloak and hat with a fancy feather sticking out, and those gold tights he was so concerned about looking good in, and gave them all to a beggar. Doing that, he ended one way of life and started another the only way he knew how: with a courtly gesture.

He still was no saint. But this is how his journey toward sainthood progressed: Ignatius became an entirely different person by being the same person in a different direction. 

Such is the power of our telos.

Throughout this series we've made the claim that engaging in a practice well doesn't just spoil the external goods like wealth and power that we can gain from doing something well. But it turns our hearts from them by making us the kinds of people who are able to recognize and receive internal goods, which tend to not spoil us and the people and things around us like external goods can.  So in the conversation that follows, Julius and I talk about what things were nested inside Ignatius' practice once his ultimate goal or telos shifted, and what kind of person that helped him become.


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to all things. Once again, this is Julius and will, and today we're actually, I believe wrapping up the series on practicing the faith and we're coming out of the story where we've looked at the life of Saint Ignatius. And I emphasize that word Saint, because I feel like that word, I think.

Conjures gone conscious, maybe a little too intense conjures, different reactions in certain groups of Christians were 

Wilson: is a great word for 

Julius: okay. Perfect. Yeah, it was either too intense or just the right amount of intense and intense is a great word because we're talking about St. Ignatius. Um, But like my point there was, um, the word Saint, I feel like certain sects of Christianity respond to that world word differently.

And I think certain groups of Christians are a little resistant to that word for the reason of like, I think there's a hesitancy in ascribing sainthood to any person because there's this fear that, that kind of like. emphasizes. The role of like human effort or even like our strivings for perfection or holiness, um, in this world.

And so I think there are certain reactions against, right? Like the, the, the role of words. In being a Christian. And especially once you throw the word kind of Saint in there. So especially looking at the life Saint Ignatius, who, if we're talking about striving and discipline human effort, he might be at the pinnacle of Christian history.

Wilson: Yeah. 

Julius: Looking at the intensity of Ignatius in his practice as a Saint and in his life and ministry. What can we say about where grace fits into that? And even, uh, I think enlivens his, his life and works with the human effort. How do those work together?

Wilson: Right. If you're even open, I mean, this is why we closed it with St. Ignatius, right. And, and what Christian practice can awaken us to. And if, if you're even open to the idea of seeing grace and work flowing in and out of each other, Ignatius is, is the guy to go to because the, the, like you were pointing at the intensity of the area, The intentionality and the intensity of the effort with Ignatius is just so over the top that it's not, it's not hard at all for me to picture someone, you know, uh, uh, I'm laughing because I'm actually picturing.

Friends, uh, Christians that I know it's super easy for me to, to actually picture real people that I know going like Ignatius dude. Have you read Ephesians? Like, like, um, 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: Yeah,

I mean, even just like barking back at the guy, like Ephesians chapter two, man, right.

I mean, it is by grace. You have been saved through faith and this is not from yourself.

It's the gift of God. Right. And if, and when this comes well, I mean, they can take the gift of God, not by works so that no one can boast like chill Ignatius. And, uh, I think we're Right.

to bring up this question of grace, but I don't think ending with, so chill is, is really. The termination point, um, that we have to wind up at, if we bring grace into the, into the picture.

So do to like get into directly this question. What about grace and Saint Ignatius is life. I think if, if we're gonna pose that question to him and his example, I think we've got to be aware that St. Ignatius himself became aware of this became aware of the issue of grace. That's why we're talking about them this way.

That's why we're capping off this whole series on practice with him, because he's a model for us, of someone who, who practices the faith in a certain way that— and it's through that, the case I'm making is, it's through that practice that he becomes aware of the centrality of grace. Um, and so we, we need to know that he himself, as an older man, he himself at a point where, you know, where the church would say now as a Saint, he's looking back at his younger self.

And when he, when old Ignatius looks back at young Ignatius, He admits straight on, there are so many things about—and not just grace, he would admit… he even says flat out. There are so many things about God that I was totally ignorant of. I had no clue that God was like, this God was like this. And, and a central piece of that is I was really like God's grace was in my blind spot. I couldn't even perceive it. He, he himself says it. 


Wilson: And you look back at this and he's straight up honest. Yes, was doing all of these good things to earn God's favor to win valor. You know, it it's, it's what he was coming up out of in the, in the, kind of, in his time and place with chivalry, uh, and knighthood being the model and the role that shaped so much of us, he's doing this to win his halo in the same way that a night would honor some kind of like, or a Knight would win some kind of honor from the. And sure we can look at this and say so much of that seems silly, right.

Like God loves us no matter what, you don't have to earn. God's favor all of that. And in all of that is true enough. And at this point, yeah.

Um, the whole person, the whole purpose of his life was driven by doing something that would win him.

Something that he felt like he didn't have. Right.

And so these outward works are gonna. Bring me glory and wind glory for God. Uh, and, and he still is, you know, this noble soldier, dreaming of fame and glory and unmatched deeds of courage, all of that stuff. But now instead of for my king now for God, and he says straight up at this point, I knew nothing about interior virtue.

Like humility, charity patients. Now he's got a few, a handful of interior virtues, you know, he's got courage. You don't do the kind of stuff he does without courage. He's got discipline. You don't do the kind of stuff he does without discipline, but there were all sorts of other internal qualities and virtues that he knew nothing about.

But the good news about all of this, and this is where. Uh, you know, we're, we're imagining this scenario where someone is some contemporary person is looking at Ignatius and going, well, what about grace and there's? And we're saying that person does have something to say to Ignatius, especially young Ignatius.

We're also saying older Ignatius realizes this and said it to a younger age too, but here's the point, right, where he's, he's doing all these things trying to win, uh, honor and glory. But now for God, instead of just his, his earthly king, at this point Ignatius has something to say back to us who are really, really concerned about grace too. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: If our concern for grace leads us to like totally do away with good works, or feel like it's wrong to put effort into intentionally trying to do something good, Ignatius speaks back to us at this point too. Because what he found out as his life played on was how— what he discovered and witnesses to his, how outer works could start to do things to his inner self. And these outer works did like… everything you do does something back to you, shapes you and forms you. And Ignatius’s life shows how. And this kind of dedication and consistency in the outer works, did something to his inner life, his inner being that allowed him to awaken to these sorts of internal goods.

And the way I would say it is it, it, young Ignatius was clueless about grace. But then he directed his life in Christian practice towards a different end. And now engaging in that practice towards that end is exactly what God used. That's exactly the thing that worked on Ignatius that made him the kind of person that was able to recognize.

Grace was able to see it as the energy, the shaping force that it is, and to respond to it. And so he, he admits, like we said, all the nations admits, he says this in his autobiography, that there's still so much from, from the like internal vantage. There's still so much, he didn't know about God, but where this really starts to connect for him in his story as well.

He was living in the cave. And at that point, when he's out there living in the cave, doing his prayer and doing his penance, he came to begin to understand God in a whole new way. You'd always known. God is like, right. Those sorts of biblical images, uh, resonated, made sense to him, but it wasn't until he was in the cave doing his penance for his king and all that sort of stuff that started to also be able to recognize that God is so much more than that. 

His words for it is he started to see God is not just king, God is also like a school teacher— Gently gracefully teaching a child, which was an image for God he, he wouldn't have resonated with wouldn't have made sense to him before, out there engaged in the practice that way he becomes the kind of person that can think of can perceive that this is God too. This is God, gently, kindly, intimately, not just barking orders, but close and awakening him to the inner nature of things, uh, to, to see things that until this point and what I'm really trying to stress here is he wasn't just ignorant of them.

You know, he'd read the Bible. He was raised in a very Christian. He'd heard the scriptures. So it's not just that he was ignorant. He was incapable of resonating with and understanding God is like this.

Wilson: But now, as his journey progresses and moves along, this is where Ignatius has something to say back to us who, because there's always the danger of, of taking the message of salvation by faith, by grace alone and subtly making our faith. Now, I mean, essentially the same thing that incredible acts of generosity and penance were for St.

Ignatius. It's super tempting and easy for us to make our faith. I mean, to still center that in us to make our trust and our faith in God's grace, that act on our part, the thing that saves. And, and that's, that's, it's so subtle and tempting, but what Ignatius says back is when he awakens himself to when, when he awakens to grace, he never, like, he never feels remorse for doing good works.

He never feels guilty for working so hard to do good things. It's, you know, if this guy would have felt guilty for it, he would have gone to confession and he would have told his priest about it in excruciating detail about all of the things that I did trying to earn it. He doesn't feel he doesn't feel guilty about it.

And he never like, um, suddenly talks about good works as if they're not worth anything and not something that Christian should be engaged in, because what he came to understand at this point is that, that grace, um, as— well, let me say it this way. At this moment, he becomes aware of grace, but that doesn't mean that that was the moment that grace started working in his life. 

Julius: Ooh. Yes.

Wilson: Right. Like, he becomes aware of it and now it's not like, “Ooh now grace is, is at work in me. And from here on out, I'm energized by grace.” This is the point where he becomes aware of it finally, late in the game and becoming aware of it. He's now able to look back and see that grace is what made anything good possible. Right?

That even in my past, grace was at work. And this is because that's what real grace is. It's not centered in us. Grace is God's favor, it's God's power at work in us. And so sure. Bam. There's this thing called grace. I see it now. It's not like it wasn't there before. He now, you know, it's not from that point on. Looking back everything was graced.

And so we can see like every moment of his life, everything good was made possible because of God's grace. And so all of it was you. Right. So he was, he was a military man. And while he's part of that vast efficient military machine, God used that stuff because of grace in those places, we could see Ignatius learned something about how to bring order to groups that are, if it's just a bunch of individuals run over, like we'll run a thousand different directions. If there are a thousand different individuals there, but can bring order to that kind of complexity in a group setting, it made him the kind of man that could found the Jesuit order would exist to this day, also called the society of Jesus. Um.

But, but founded it and structured it in a way that, uh, and—and the Jesuits do still tend to be pretty rigorous,— but, uh, even, even, not just in spite of its rigor, but because of its rigor, it grew, was able to spread and do incredible good, uh, in his day and age, which in a lot of ways was like ours, where there was a lot of religious uncertainty, a lot of just philosophical, cultural uncertainty too.

And that makes people scared. And that all in that sort of environment always tends to breed violence. And in a moment like that, he was able to found a rigorous discipline society that let people find a way to, to center themselves… and, and live in such an uncertain time. And so his time in the military was graced. Uh, all of his physical exercises, and I mean, literally like working to get the, the sword moves. I don't know anything about it. I should have done a little bit of like “perry”? Is that…?

Julius: Uh, no clue whatsoever.

Wilson: Is that like blocking a blocking a strike or something? I don't know, whatever, but. Everything over and over and over again, training his boss. His muscles for sword fights got something into his body and into his mind that allowed that carried over all of that physical exercise was used. Now it reminds me of when Paul says physical training is of some value. 

Julius: Right.

Wilson: A lot of us, especially if we mis- understand grace, we'll hear that, and even though it says physical training is of some value, we'll hear that as “Physical training is worthless.” That’s not of no value. That's not what Paul says. It is of some value.

And there is something of Ignatius is physical training that carried over in his mind and in his body that made him the kind of person. Who, especially when he awakens to grace and when he has his ambitions and his goals redirected towards God, it made him the kind of person that could persist in prayer and in study the way he did until they actually showed fruit.

So even as time as a soldier was graced. When he was crippled by the cannon ball, that was grace. God used that to teach him how God can speak through our limps. You know, literally and metaphorically, how, how Ignatius, who, who wanted to be, and in so many ways was so disciplined and strong— that awakened him to how God can use our weaknesses too.

And some of our greatest work comes from vulnerability. Graced. Like in, in all of these ways, in every moment before Ignatius became aware of it, grace was working in his pain and his loss and his training and his discipline. Whatever happened, whatever instance it was, always prior to it was grace. 

Julius: Yeah.


Julius: I love that. I think Ignatius's story affirms kind of, I mean, in the tradition that we come from a really Wesley and kind of view of grace, of all of reality, having. Being graced by God, right. Anything that has life that has, like, goodness, um… beauty to it, is graced by God. And so these things, um, Ignatius awakening to this grace… what happens there is that, um— I think you've said before that grace doesn't like erase our nature, but, um, but that grace, I guess, truly like perfect it and like affirms the things that are good in, in how like his passions, right, his discipline and situates them in a love, in something that is greater than some of the lesser things that those these practices were directed towards. Right. 

Like, um, the discipline in the military, like being directed towards power. Or like, violence… redirecting the good that comes from the discipline toward something like love and communion with God. But, but without getting rid of that part of his story or his character. Like, not ridding him of like the passion and the intensity, just directing that away from vanity and towards chasing God and wanting to know God more deeply. That that is the grace that is at work in everyone's story and in all of creation. 

And I think that even the people that like, maybe don't resonate with Ignatius’s like intensity. I, I think that there's something to be said there of… I think it speaks to— Ignatius had like a, I guess like a religious zeal in everything that he approached, um, in every aspect of his life that he engaged in. And I think there is something true to that adage that we are all religious about something. 

You know, we, we are all pulled by something. There's something that we desire and that shapes our actions. And then we have habits that grow out of that and things that we are like… there are things that we can be intense about, no matter if our personality isn't intense or not, that we have learned how to approach the world in such a way that is religious. But that the grace of God is that which like, kind of doesn't get rid of those things, but redirects them and situates them.

Wilson: Yep and that's.  That puts, a… or gives opportunity for us to just clearly state exactly what we're hoping to do now, what we're trying, what, what our, uh, our conversation about Ignatius to cap off this series on practice would let us do, is to see how these interrelated parts of what we're calling a practice. And again, you know, we can go back to earlier episodes for the explicit definition, how we're using it.

We're not just talking about any time you work at something, but a practice according to the, you know, the very specific definition we've been working at or looking at, lets us see how. right.

That when you’re, you’re… everything you do has some sort of ultimate goal in mind. The question is just how aware of that goal are we, do we realize what it's aimed toward? And is it good? And what we're hitting on on here is when that practice is taken and directed towards a good goal— a telos, an ultimate aim…. when that's directed towards a good one,  what that does is start. Uh, work on us, enable us to become the kinds of people that can recognize, appreciate experience the internal goods. The real benefits woven into God's creation by grace. 

And so what that would do for something as central to Christian thought as like the category of grace has helped us to understand what grace is. Like Ignatius now, as, as this is connected towards this great, a genuine goal to know and love God… even if, even if we would say, when he first aimed himself that way, he didn't know what that meant. But he was genuinely, at least, at least now genuinely aimed toward that. He comes to know more and more of what it is to know and love God. To come to know more truly what we even mean when we say the word “God,” and along the way to, to then realize the grace that is there, that's making it all possible. And what that opens up for us. 

And this is where it really comes together. Like Ignatius looking back at this, seeing all the times that he spent visiting hospitals, and when he let his hair and fingernails grow out to counter his vanity, um, and, and like limping on foot towards Jerusalem to do penance and like… all of this stuff, his acts of generosity, over the top gifts, towards the poor, all of those things were worth doing.

And when this started, when the telos shifted, things inside also shifted. Not just the ultimate goal way out there on some transcendent horizon it, but that shifting that transcendent goal shifted and unlocked things inside of him. So he could understand, like what we're saying, what grace is. That was kind of, it took me a while to get there, but to restate that's the point. 

When you, when you aim it towards God, it allowed Ignatius to understand what grace is and what would, he would have to say back to us who, rightly, our goal— one of our goals would be to understand what grace is. He could help us with that by saying that grace is not just unearned favor from God. It is that, right… 

It's not just unearned favor from God, but Ignatius sees because of that favor because of all those gifts, God enabled me to do all those good things. Even though I wasn't fully aware of all of the dimensions of what it means to be truly good. God's grace enabled me to do that. And so, grace is not just unearned favor from God, but another dimension of that, or because of God's unearned favor, grace is also unearned power that allows me to do good things. 


Wilson: And that's what Ephesians says. That's what comes next, It is not by works, but by grace that you have been saved, right? Not of yourself so that no one can be. Right after that, Paul says for you were created for good works. And this is what Ignatius shows us is that grace unlocks it ma is the unearned power that allows us to do what we were made for.

And we were made for good.PRACTICING SAINTHOOD - Discussion

Julius: Welcome back to all things. Once again, this is Julius and will, and today we're actually, I believe wrapping up the series on practicing the faith and we're coming out of the story where we've looked at the life of Saint Ignatius. And I emphasize that word Saint, because I feel like that word, I think.

Conjures gone conscious, maybe a little too intense conjures, different reactions in certain groups of Christians were 

Wilson: is a great word for 

Julius: okay. Perfect. Yeah, it was either too intense or just the right amount of intense and intense is a great word because we're talking about St. Ignatius. Um, But like my point there was, um, the word Saint, I feel like certain sects of Christianity respond to that world word differently.

And I think certain groups of Christians are a little resistant to that word for the reason of like, I think there's a hesitancy in ascribing sainthood to any person because there's this fear that, that kind of like. emphasizes. The role of like human effort or even like our strivings for perfection or holiness, um, in this world.

And so I think there are certain reactions against, right? Like the, the, the role of words. In being a Christian. And especially once you throw the word kind of Saint in there. So especially looking at the life Saint Ignatius, who, if we're talking about striving and discipline human effort, he might be at the pinnacle of Christian history.

Wilson: Yeah. 

Julius: Looking at the intensity of Ignatius in his practice as a Saint and in his life and ministry. What can we say about where grace fits into that? And even, uh, I think enlivens his, his life and works with the human effort. How do those work together?

Wilson: Right. If you're even open, I mean, this is why we closed it with St. Ignatius, right. And, and what Christian practice can awaken us to. And if, if you're even open to the idea of seeing grace and work flowing in and out of each other, Ignatius is, is the guy to go to because the, the, like you were pointing at the intensity of the area, The intentionality and the intensity of the effort with Ignatius is just so over the top that it's not, it's not hard at all for me to picture someone, you know, uh, uh, I'm laughing because I'm actually picturing.

Friends, uh, Christians that I know it's super easy for me to, to actually picture real people that I know going like Ignatius dude. Have you read Ephesians? Like, like, um, 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: Yeah,

I mean, even just like barking back at the guy, like Ephesians chapter two, man, right.

I mean, it is by grace. You have been saved through faith and this is not from yourself.

It's the gift of God. Right. And if, and when this comes well, I mean, they can take the gift of God, not by works so that no one can boast like chill Ignatius. And, uh, I think we're Right.

to bring up this question of grace, but I don't think ending with, so chill is, is really. The termination point, um, that we have to wind up at, if we bring grace into the, into the picture.

So do to like get into directly this question. What about grace and Saint Ignatius is life. I think if, if we're gonna pose that question to him and his example, I think we've got to be aware that St. Ignatius himself became aware of this became aware of the issue of grace. That's why we're talking about them this way.

That's why we're capping off this whole series on practice with him, because he's a model for us, of someone who, who practices the faith in a certain way that— and it's through that, the case I'm making is, it's through that practice that he becomes aware of the centrality of grace. Um, and so we, we need to know that he himself, as an older man, he himself at a point where, you know, where the church would say now as a Saint, he's looking back at his younger self.

And when he, when old Ignatius looks back at young Ignatius, He admits straight on, there are so many things about—and not just grace, he would admit… he even says flat out. There are so many things about God that I was totally ignorant of. I had no clue that God was like, this God was like this. And, and a central piece of that is I was really like God's grace was in my blind spot. I couldn't even perceive it. He, he himself says it. 


Wilson: And you look back at this and he's straight up honest. Yes, was doing all of these good things to earn God's favor to win valor. You know, it it's, it's what he was coming up out of in the, in the, kind of, in his time and place with chivalry, uh, and knighthood being the model and the role that shaped so much of us, he's doing this to win his halo in the same way that a night would honor some kind of like, or a Knight would win some kind of honor from the. And sure we can look at this and say so much of that seems silly, right.

Like God loves us no matter what, you don't have to earn. God's favor all of that. And in all of that is true enough. And at this point, yeah.

Um, the whole person, the whole purpose of his life was driven by doing something that would win him.

Something that he felt like he didn't have. Right.

And so these outward works are gonna. Bring me glory and wind glory for God. Uh, and, and he still is, you know, this noble soldier, dreaming of fame and glory and unmatched deeds of courage, all of that stuff. But now instead of for my king now for God, and he says straight up at this point, I knew nothing about interior virtue.

Like humility, charity patients. Now he's got a few, a handful of interior virtues, you know, he's got courage. You don't do the kind of stuff he does without courage. He's got discipline. You don't do the kind of stuff he does without discipline, but there were all sorts of other internal qualities and virtues that he knew nothing about.

But the good news about all of this, and this is where. Uh, you know, we're, we're imagining this scenario where someone is some contemporary person is looking at Ignatius and going, well, what about grace and there's? And we're saying that person does have something to say to Ignatius, especially young Ignatius.

We're also saying older Ignatius realizes this and said it to a younger age too, but here's the point, right, where he's, he's doing all these things trying to win, uh, honor and glory. But now for God, instead of just his, his earthly king, at this point Ignatius has something to say back to us who are really, really concerned about grace too. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: If our concern for grace leads us to like totally do away with good works, or feel like it's wrong to put effort into intentionally trying to do something good, Ignatius speaks back to us at this point too. Because what he found out as his life played on was how— what he discovered and witnesses to his, how outer works could start to do things to his inner self. And these outer works did like… everything you do does something back to you, shapes you and forms you. And Ignatius’s life shows how. And this kind of dedication and consistency in the outer works, did something to his inner life, his inner being that allowed him to awaken to these sorts of internal goods.

And the way I would say it is it, it, young Ignatius was clueless about grace. But then he directed his life in Christian practice towards a different end. And now engaging in that practice towards that end is exactly what God used. That's exactly the thing that worked on Ignatius that made him the kind of person that was able to recognize.

Grace was able to see it as the energy, the shaping force that it is, and to respond to it. And so he, he admits, like we said, all the nations admits, he says this in his autobiography, that there's still so much from, from the like internal vantage. There's still so much, he didn't know about God, but where this really starts to connect for him in his story as well.

He was living in the cave. And at that point, when he's out there living in the cave, doing his prayer and doing his penance, he came to begin to understand God in a whole new way. You'd always known. God is like, right. Those sorts of biblical images, uh, resonated, made sense to him, but it wasn't until he was in the cave doing his penance for his king and all that sort of stuff that started to also be able to recognize that God is so much more than that. 

His words for it is he started to see God is not just king, God is also like a school teacher— Gently gracefully teaching a child, which was an image for God he, he wouldn't have resonated with wouldn't have made sense to him before, out there engaged in the practice that way he becomes the kind of person that can think of can perceive that this is God too. This is God, gently, kindly, intimately, not just barking orders, but close and awakening him to the inner nature of things, uh, to, to see things that until this point and what I'm really trying to stress here is he wasn't just ignorant of them.

You know, he'd read the Bible. He was raised in a very Christian. He'd heard the scriptures. So it's not just that he was ignorant. He was incapable of resonating with and understanding God is like this.

Wilson: But now, as his journey progresses and moves along, this is where Ignatius has something to say back to us who, because there's always the danger of, of taking the message of salvation by faith, by grace alone and subtly making our faith. Now, I mean, essentially the same thing that incredible acts of generosity and penance were for St.

Ignatius. It's super tempting and easy for us to make our faith. I mean, to still center that in us to make our trust and our faith in God's grace, that act on our part, the thing that saves. And, and that's, that's, it's so subtle and tempting, but what Ignatius says back is when he awakens himself to when, when he awakens to grace, he never, like, he never feels remorse for doing good works.

He never feels guilty for working so hard to do good things. It's, you know, if this guy would have felt guilty for it, he would have gone to confession and he would have told his priest about it in excruciating detail about all of the things that I did trying to earn it. He doesn't feel he doesn't feel guilty about it.

And he never like, um, suddenly talks about good works as if they're not worth anything and not something that Christian should be engaged in, because what he came to understand at this point is that, that grace, um, as— well, let me say it this way. At this moment, he becomes aware of grace, but that doesn't mean that that was the moment that grace started working in his life. 

Julius: Ooh. Yes.

Wilson: Right. Like, he becomes aware of it and now it's not like, “Ooh now grace is, is at work in me. And from here on out, I'm energized by grace.” This is the point where he becomes aware of it finally, late in the game and becoming aware of it. He's now able to look back and see that grace is what made anything good possible. Right?

That even in my past, grace was at work. And this is because that's what real grace is. It's not centered in us. Grace is God's favor, it's God's power at work in us. And so sure. Bam. There's this thing called grace. I see it now. It's not like it wasn't there before. He now, you know, it's not from that point on. Looking back everything was graced.

And so we can see like every moment of his life, everything good was made possible because of God's grace. And so all of it was you. Right. So he was, he was a military man. And while he's part of that vast efficient military machine, God used that stuff because of grace in those places, we could see Ignatius learned something about how to bring order to groups that are, if it's just a bunch of individuals run over, like we'll run a thousand different directions. If there are a thousand different individuals there, but can bring order to that kind of complexity in a group setting, it made him the kind of man that could found the Jesuit order would exist to this day, also called the society of Jesus. Um.

But, but founded it and structured it in a way that, uh, and—and the Jesuits do still tend to be pretty rigorous,— but, uh, even, even, not just in spite of its rigor, but because of its rigor, it grew, was able to spread and do incredible good, uh, in his day and age, which in a lot of ways was like ours, where there was a lot of religious uncertainty, a lot of just philosophical, cultural uncertainty too.

And that makes people scared. And that all in that sort of environment always tends to breed violence. And in a moment like that, he was able to found a rigorous discipline society that let people find a way to, to center themselves… and, and live in such an uncertain time. And so his time in the military was graced. Uh, all of his physical exercises, and I mean, literally like working to get the, the sword moves. I don't know anything about it. I should have done a little bit of like “perry”? Is that…?

Julius: Uh, no clue whatsoever.

Wilson: Is that like blocking a blocking a strike or something? I don't know, whatever, but. Everything over and over and over again, training his boss. His muscles for sword fights got something into his body and into his mind that allowed that carried over all of that physical exercise was used. Now it reminds me of when Paul says physical training is of some value. 

Julius: Right.

Wilson: A lot of us, especially if we mis- understand grace, we'll hear that, and even though it says physical training is of some value, we'll hear that as “Physical training is worthless.” That’s not of no value. That's not what Paul says. It is of some value.

And there is something of Ignatius is physical training that carried over in his mind and in his body that made him the kind of person. Who, especially when he awakens to grace and when he has his ambitions and his goals redirected towards God, it made him the kind of person that could persist in prayer and in study the way he did until they actually showed fruit.

So even as time as a soldier was graced. When he was crippled by the cannon ball, that was grace. God used that to teach him how God can speak through our limps. You know, literally and metaphorically, how, how Ignatius, who, who wanted to be, and in so many ways was so disciplined and strong— that awakened him to how God can use our weaknesses too.

And some of our greatest work comes from vulnerability. Graced. Like in, in all of these ways, in every moment before Ignatius became aware of it, grace was working in his pain and his loss and his training and his discipline. Whatever happened, whatever instance it was, always prior to it was grace. 

Julius: Yeah.


Julius: I love that. I think Ignatius's story affirms kind of, I mean, in the tradition that we come from a really Wesley and kind of view of grace, of all of reality, having. Being graced by God, right. Anything that has life that has, like, goodness, um… beauty to it, is graced by God. And so these things, um, Ignatius awakening to this grace… what happens there is that, um— I think you've said before that grace doesn't like erase our nature, but, um, but that grace, I guess, truly like perfect it and like affirms the things that are good in, in how like his passions, right, his discipline and situates them in a love, in something that is greater than some of the lesser things that those these practices were directed towards. Right. 

Like, um, the discipline in the military, like being directed towards power. Or like, violence… redirecting the good that comes from the discipline toward something like love and communion with God. But, but without getting rid of that part of his story or his character. Like, not ridding him of like the passion and the intensity, just directing that away from vanity and towards chasing God and wanting to know God more deeply. That that is the grace that is at work in everyone's story and in all of creation. 

And I think that even the people that like, maybe don't resonate with Ignatius’s like intensity. I, I think that there's something to be said there of… I think it speaks to— Ignatius had like a, I guess like a religious zeal in everything that he approached, um, in every aspect of his life that he engaged in. And I think there is something true to that adage that we are all religious about something. 

You know, we, we are all pulled by something. There's something that we desire and that shapes our actions. And then we have habits that grow out of that and things that we are like… there are things that we can be intense about, no matter if our personality isn't intense or not, that we have learned how to approach the world in such a way that is religious. But that the grace of God is that which like, kind of doesn't get rid of those things, but redirects them and situates them.

Wilson: Yep and that's.  That puts, a… or gives opportunity for us to just clearly state exactly what we're hoping to do now, what we're trying, what, what our, uh, our conversation about Ignatius to cap off this series on practice would let us do, is to see how these interrelated parts of what we're calling a practice. And again, you know, we can go back to earlier episodes for the explicit definition, how we're using it.

We're not just talking about any time you work at something, but a practice according to the, you know, the very specific definition we've been working at or looking at, lets us see how. right.

That when you’re, you’re… everything you do has some sort of ultimate goal in mind. The question is just how aware of that goal are we, do we realize what it's aimed toward? And is it good? And what we're hitting on on here is when that practice is taken and directed towards a good goal— a telos, an ultimate aim…. when that's directed towards a good one,  what that does is start. Uh, work on us, enable us to become the kinds of people that can recognize, appreciate experience the internal goods. The real benefits woven into God's creation by grace. 

And so what that would do for something as central to Christian thought as like the category of grace has helped us to understand what grace is. Like Ignatius now, as, as this is connected towards this great, a genuine goal to know and love God… even if, even if we would say, when he first aimed himself that way, he didn't know what that meant. But he was genuinely, at least, at least now genuinely aimed toward that. He comes to know more and more of what it is to know and love God. To come to know more truly what we even mean when we say the word “God,” and along the way to, to then realize the grace that is there, that's making it all possible. And what that opens up for us. 

And this is where it really comes together. Like Ignatius looking back at this, seeing all the times that he spent visiting hospitals, and when he let his hair and fingernails grow out to counter his vanity, um, and, and like limping on foot towards Jerusalem to do penance and like… all of this stuff, his acts of generosity, over the top gifts, towards the poor, all of those things were worth doing.

And when this started, when the telos shifted, things inside also shifted. Not just the ultimate goal way out there on some transcendent horizon it, but that shifting that transcendent goal shifted and unlocked things inside of him. So he could understand, like what we're saying, what grace is. That was kind of, it took me a while to get there, but to restate that's the point. 

When you, when you aim it towards God, it allowed Ignatius to understand what grace is and what would, he would have to say back to us who, rightly, our goal— one of our goals would be to understand what grace is. He could help us with that by saying that grace is not just unearned favor from God. It is that, right… 

It's not just unearned favor from God, but Ignatius sees because of that favor because of all those gifts, God enabled me to do all those good things. Even though I wasn't fully aware of all of the dimensions of what it means to be truly good. God's grace enabled me to do that. And so, grace is not just unearned favor from God, but another dimension of that, or because of God's unearned favor, grace is also unearned power that allows me to do good things. 


Wilson: And that's what Ephesians says. That's what comes next, It is not by works, but by grace that you have been saved, right? Not of yourself so that no one can be. Right after that, Paul says for you were created for good works. And this is what Ignatius shows us is that grace unlocks it ma is the unearned power that allows us to do what we were made for.

And we were made for good.


MEDITATION

A recent Protestant philosopher and theologian, whose name was Dallas Willard, said many Christians are not just saved by grace, they are paralyzed by it.

What he meant by that was we can believe we don't need to pray for salvation to work, so we don't pray. 

We believe we don't need to take care of the the poor to go to heaven, so we don't care for the poor. 

And on an on, and everyone misses out on they very things that powerfully carry God's grace. 

But the way God's grace energized and shaped Ignatius's life can help us hear Ephesians 2:1-10 in a fuller light that might allow us to experience a kind of grace that would get us unstuck. 

As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our flesh and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature deserving of wrath. But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions--it is by grace you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-- not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Like Ignatius wanting to become Lancelot or El Cid, we have all chased goals and cultivated identities and desired rewards shaped by our world. So take a moment and name a craving or image that has held power over your heart and mind? Who have you envied? What unhealthy and unChristlike image have you worked, even sweat or bled to project? 

And like Ignatius, we have all done good things to chase external goods like status and honor and wealth. So remember a few good things you have done for the wrong reasons.

But notice, according to this passage, when we, like Ignatius, were following the ways of the world and chasing the desires and goals of death, what was God's response? Paul says, because of God's rich mercy, God made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in our transgressions.

So just because we are not aware of Grace, does not mean grace is not at work in us, and through us. 

And what is God's desired telos for us? We are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Which God prepared in advance for us to do ... so whenever we do good, God was present beforehand, giving us the power to make it possible. Grace is not just unearned favor, it is also unearned power for good.

And if we all waited around until our inner lives were perfectly Christlike before we actually did anything Christlike ... Who of us would ever do anything Christlike?

But Paul assures us, the good works we were made for and the grace that makes them possible are not from ourselves. So if we begin to engage in a good work, and notice our motives are mixed ... if that paralyzes us, if it keeps us from following through, that makes the act even more about us, and restricts us and those around us from the fullness of grace.

But since Paul assures us God's grace makes us alive in Christ, even when we are dead in our transgressions, when we engage in a good work and in the process become aware of our lack of love and Christlike motives, how many more dimensions of that moment get opened up to God's grace if we,  1) trust it enough to continue to follow through with the act, and 2) in the process pray for God's grace to touch all the imperfect parts of our internal realities that we notice as we engage in the Christlike work.

Well then the good deed and our own inner lives become God's handiwork. 

And this is not from yourselves.

Because like Ignatius shows, sometimes we believe our way into new ways of acting. 

And sometimes we act our way into new ways of believing. 

Because when we truthfully practice the faith, it is all grace.

Practicing the Faith 6 - Practicing the Cross in the Wake of the Lynching Tree


INTRO

Knowing the physics of flight -- how lift, drag, and thrust work to get a body off the ground -- is not the same as watching the ground drop below you as the clouds surround you.

Knowing what musical modes are and being able to tell someone John Coltrane used these in innovative ways to push free jazz forward is not the same as putting an intuition in your soul into notes in the air for anyone with ears to hear. 

Knowing the Queens Gambit or what a force out is in baseball is not the same as besting a worthy opponent in Chess or feeling your legs take you somewhere your conscious mind may not even know you need to go so you can feel the ball hit your glove and throw where you should to get an out for your team. 

And knowing that Jesus said do not worry, and love your enemies, is not the same as feeling the lightness of trust take root in your gut or feeling bitterness lose its grip on your chest.

Some things, you have to practice to understand.

So in this series, we hope to help you practice your faith so you can know salvation.

This time we explore how Christian practice can help us see that the cross of Jesus is so much more than something that happened way back when, and why the cross is something Christians should want to live out in places like those distorted by senseless suffering and haunted by Lynching Trees. 


STORY

In 2011, seven years before he died, American theologian James Cone published a book titled, "The Cross and the Lynching Tree." 

Cone was born in Arkansas, in 1938. And in the first few chapters of this book he describes the atrocities inflicted on Black Americans as he came of age. Cone explores the effects of lynching on American Society as a whole, but also gives first-hand testimony to the way the constant anxiety caused by the threat of lynching shaped the daily lives and perspectives of he and his family and friends. 

And then Cone tells us what people in that situation were able to see when they contemplated the Cross of Christ. In one of the most striking and revealing pages, Cone remembers a hymn they sang in his childhood church that asserted, quote, "I was there when they whipped Him up an' dey whipped Him down ... I was there when they nailed him to the cross ... I was there when they took Him down." 

This reminds me of the passage in Deuteronomy 5, which we covered in the last episode on Sabbath, that commands all the people of God across generations to rest on the Seventh Day because, quote, "you were slaves in Egypt." So just as we are invited to remember the Exodus story as a first-hand experience, Cone and those whose imaginations were similarly shaped, were able to experience the cross with that kind of immediacy.

And after Cone bears witness to the way Black Christians found hope and strength in the cross during times of fear and hopelessness, he asks a question that haunts so much of American Christianity,  "Why didn't the prominent Christian theologians of the time, especially Protestant Liberal theologians, see a connection between the cross and the lynching tree, connections that seemed so clear to Black preachers and poets?"

In this episode, we'll take up that mournful and disturbing question, because we believe it can help us to not just talk about the cross, and form opinions about the cross and its potential effects on the world, but  instead become the kinds of people whose view of the cross leads us to practice Christlikeness and so share the actual effects of Jesus' reality and character and work for the good of the world. 

To begin, let's look at how the Gospel of Matthew tries to shape our vision of the cross.

Just like the opening scene of any movie begins to shape the way you understand that movie's climax, the very 1st verse of 1st chapter of Matthew, which is also the 1st book of New Testament, begins to shape the way we should understand the moment Jesus ascends the cross to effect our salvation. It does this by asserting that this is, quote, "An account of the genealogy of Jesus the Messiah, the son of David, the son of Abraham." 

At least, this is how just about every translation renders it. And there is a good reason: it's a good translation. The word converted to the English, "genealogy" does indeed mean "genealogy." And, as it happens, the next 16 verses give exactly an account of who begat whom, who then began whom, until Jesus entered into our world of Kings and prostitutes and traitors and martyrs and insiders and outsiders - all of whom find a place in Jesus' family tree. 

So it's a good translation. It's just not a complete one. Because the word rendered "genealogy" also has another meaning, one that will become obvious as soon as I tell you that the actual Greek word there is the word, "genesis." 

So even if you know nothing about Greek, some of the layers of meaning are likely becoming obvious .... But the full implications of that meaning will take some time. And for the purposes of this episode, let's look at how the association of genesis with Jesus' birth helps us understand the climax of Jesus life on the Cross.

To understand the cross, Matthew want to first help you understand that Jesus is the origin and sustaining force of our life walking around with us. And to drive it home, he tells the story of the Angel telling Mary that her child will be so unique he will be called "Emmanuel," with means "God with us." God in flesh kicks off this story.

Then our Creator gets to the business of giving us our life back. 

He touches us, and as our Origin comes into contact with our flesh, he causes our blind eyes to see again (8:29), and even raises us from the dead (9:25).

He speaks to us and as we hear the voice of the Word that ordered the cosmos, our rebellious and destructive and minds and spirits are offered freedom. 

But as all this good comes into the world, our responses get more and more unsettling. He loves us even when we mess up. And what do we do to him? We accuse him of being a drunk and a sinner (11:19).

In the episodes we run him out of town (8:28-34). Then the church people, those who should be able to recognize our Origin when we see him, instead say that He is a demon (8:34).

This gets to the point where we not only fail to recognize the dignity and worth of his life and work, but we come to hate him so much we cannot stand to have him working by our side and eating with our children and moving through our neighborhoods.

So we start making false accusations about him. We put him on trial and rig the results. We condemn the origin of our life ... to death.

But who are we to do that? If this is Emmanuel, how could mortals hurt God? Let alone kill Life?

But then we insult him, and his eyes flinch from a deep and true pain. When he looks at a dead loved one and at a lost city, he mourns and weeps. Is it actually possible for us to hurt God? 

We tie his hands and feet, and the ropes hold him. 

We beat him, and his flesh bruises. 

We whip him. And he bleeds ... 

And now we start to get this heavy feeling like this story might not end too well, as we realize: Jesus is human. In coming into our world of brokenness, our Creator made himself vulnerable. But it's too late. He is too mixed up in our hate, violence and selfishness. And before we can realize what we've done we have put him on the cross. 

There he is. Hanging, beaten, bloody, broken. There is our Origin. 

Don't look away.

Behold the source of life and hope and healing. Dead. Just as broken as we are. 

To help us see the cross well, at this point it seems Matthew wants to lead us to ask a question: How can we ever commune with Life again when the source of Life is dead?

Now, Cone's question about why most Christians failed to see a connection between the Cross of Christ and the trees and lampposts that were used for lynchings, becomes even more relevant and pressing when we notice some of the ways Christians have made those kinds of connections in the past.

For instance, in the Middle Ages. Now we all know this was a time where the Black Death plague ravaged whole populations. 

But there was another, less famous disease the kept cropping up called St. Anthony's fire. There are no hard stats to let us know, or even accurately estimate how many people died from this disease in total, but in the 990s alone we know it took out somewhere between 20 and 40 thousand people in Southern France. That was one decade, in one part of Europe. And St. Anthony's fire raged through all of Europe for another 700 years. 

The "fire" in the name refers to the intense burning sensation people who caught the disease would feel in their extremities. They also suffered seizures and hallucinations. And it effected blood flow, so certain parts of the body like the lips and fingers and toes would turn blue.

Victims also developed welts and open red sores that often turned gangrenous.

And because of this infection, many victims had to have their legs amputated.

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Today know St. Anthony's fire was cause by a fungus that grew in the grains they used to make their bread. This story should make Christians ask, "How can someone share communion with the source of their life when a twisted form of life infects the food that is supposed to nourish them and instead makes their own flesh turning on them?"

That question should also take Christians back to the Gospel. One place we can look, is the night before Jesus was betrayed and sent to his crucifixion. In that moment of darkness, Jesus was in a room with his disciples. And swirling all around the outside of that room was the chaos of the world. Suspicion and hate and fear were twisting hearts and minds and generating rumors and accusations that poisoned soldiers and rulers and commoners alike. And in a few hours, this would lead their bodies to turn on the Origin of their life. All around, and in places even inside that room, was all the sickness and violence and pain that makes our souls and the very fabric of reality groan for healing and redemption. 

And in the vortex of this bloody mess, playing host at a table is the One holding it all together. And to nourish and guide us through what we are about to live as the story unfolds, Jesus holds up a piece of bread and blesses it. 

Emmanuel, our genesis, the One who can speak life into existence and invite beauty from chaos speaks goodness and wholeness on this piece of bread. 

Then he breaks it.

Why would he break what he just blessed?

Then he says, "This is my body, broken for you" (Communion Pic)

Back in the Middle Ages, in honor of the life and work of a Saint who is considered to be the father of Christian monasticism and who emphasized the Christian's call to care for Christ as they cared for the sick, whose name was Anthony, the Order of Hospitallers of St. Anthony was established in 1100 CE at Grenoble, France. This group founded additional monastery hospitals throughout Europe to care for the sick and dying. And, at this time, the primary disease they treated takes it name from a combination of the Saint, and the group of Christians who cared for those suffering, and the form of the suffering effected by the disease: St. Anthony's fire. 

One famous artist, Matthias Grunewald (gruh-na-vald), painted an Altarpiece for one of these Monastery hospitals in Isenheim, in north-eastern France.

Grunewald's paintings on this altarpiece give some of the most visceral depictions of Christ's suffering on the cross.  It's is hard to look at Christ's facial expression, twisted fingers and strained tendons without beginning to feel some real agony. But the paintings are not just brutal for the sake of brutality. There was something compassionate and redemptive guiding Grunewald's imagination and brush strokes. Zoom in to some of the details of the paintings, and you notice open, red sores on Christ's skin, 

that look identical to the telltale symptoms of St. Anthony's fire.

And Christ's lips are not just warped by pain, they are also blue.

And if we remember one of the most common courses of treatment for St. Anthony's fire was amputation of the legs, just below the knees, we cannot help but notice the artist has split the lower panels under the altar precisely below Christ's knees. So as Christ is being placed in his tomb, Christ's legs look like those of someone who has suffered an amputation. 

By including such clear references to the disease, on Christ' own body, Grunewald allowed the sick to truly see themselves in the narrative of Christ's life, and to draw strength from the pain that Christ endured on Calvary.

And do not miss: This altar is where they would offer the broken body and shed blood of Christ in communion.

Grunewald and the medieval Christians who suffered and cared for each other and worshipped together at this Altar seem to have been able to do exactly what Cone points out many recent American Christians were unable to do.

In healthy Christianity, there is not just a precedent for, there is a tradition of finding Christ with the broken and sick and hurting. In Isenheim, the monks and nuns who cared for the sick were able to perceive the connection between the suffering of the ill, and Christ's suffering. They saw and honored the close communion between the victims and their Savior, Christ and his children. It is part of our faith to help people commune with Christ, even in their miseries, and so actually live the redemptive power of Christ' passion. 

So, when Cone makes the connection between Jesus' cross and the Black bodies that were hung from lynching trees, he is drawing from, and continuing, the Tradition of looking for Jesus to be present to the victims of the most heartrending and inexcusable tragedies.  

So in the following conversation, Julius and I talk about how practicing the cross is not looking for hope and salvation by only turning our gaze back at something Jesus did way back when, to look for something that might excuse or explain what is happening now, but instead practicing the cross is to learn to see that what Emmanuel did in being with us back then, opened a way for Jesus to be Emmanuel everywhere, at all times. Our hope is to become, and help you become, people who can see Christ present with, and caring for, the victims now, in the middle of their pain and hopelessness. Actually holding the broken and desecrated bodies of his children - perhaps even through us.


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to “All Things,” this is Julius once again, and Wil… 

Wilson: Hello

Julius: Hello. Glad to be here today. Um.

Wilson: I wasn’t saying hi to you, but you know. Hi Julius. 

Julius: Oh, I was joining your hello. 

Wilson: Oh yeah. Oh, there we go. Both hellos towards whomever.

Julius: There you go. Echoing the hellos. Um, and speaking of caring about people— great segue today… um, so in the story just prior to this conversation, we see that there is a tradition of finding Christ with the broken and the sick and the hurting. And here in the story, like the monks and the nuns who, not only cared for the sick, um, but they were able to imagine and perceive like the connection between these suffering people and the, and the ill, and to connect that with Christ’s suffering, to see the close communion between, um, the victims and the downtrodden that they're caring for and their savior who also suffered.

And so this sets up an interesting contrast to something that as we're going to talk about today, James Cone writes, um, in the first chapter of a book called crossing the lynching tree, which if you haven't read before, we strongly recommend that you read. Um, but in this first chapter he taught, he points out and laments, namely the inability of.

I mean, frankly, a lot of American white Christians to see Jesus in the victims of lynching and, and like race—like hate crimes. And so if seeing Christ united with those who are suffering and victims of these crimes is so it's such a part of like the Christian tradition and like the practice of the faith, what accounts for these moments of failure in the church where the church just absolutely fails to see um, the suffering in their midst and how that's connected to Christ suffering. 

Wilson: It may be a little redundant, uh, but I feel like overall what could only help more is even just saying again— we could pull out mother Teresa…

Julius: Hmm. 

Wilson: Saint mother Teresa. And when she was repeated the asked about how she can give such love, uh, to, to people in such desperate, desperate, Um, places for so long, what she would continue to say is she sees Christ in them.

Uh, that, that it's, you know, we're we just see a broken body, an emasculated body where we just see suffering. She saw Jesus. And to understand her, I think we don’t… we don't miss her regular habit. Uh, and for her as a, as a Catholic, she would do it through Eucharistic adoration and studying the scriptures, but she had concrete ways that she consistently practiced finding Christ in, in our world in stuff like bread and wine, in words on a page. 

And because she had consistently trained herself through practice to recognize Christ. She said, “I can't not, because when I see them, that is what I see. I see Christ.” And you know, so we've got a re almost a near contemporary for many listening.

Our lives overlapped with her to the Isenheim Altarpiece, you know, back to this, the behavior of the Christians through so many, especially in the earlier centuries, when they start inventing and founding hospitals and over and over, this is part of our tradition. 

So we have a whole tradition of great examples. And even artifacts and art that, that witness to this, this piece of the Christian tradition that sees Christ identified with, that sees Christ holding right, being there with, uh, the, the victims of violence and… right. Evil in all forms, like the kind of conscious mob, like intentionally shaped by hatred kind of violence that put him on the cross and that hung innocent people from lamp poles in the 20th century. 

Um, and the kind of evil that to us, we might characterize as like mindless, you know, like illness or tragedies. Right. We have this tradition of being able to see Christ in the midst of those who suffer from all these atrocities, right. But we also have contemporary examples of Christians who fail to make that exact connection.

So what is behind that? I've asked a good deal of people. And in, in conversations with a whole range of folks of all sorts of different ages that I have recommended this chapter from this book, um— well, I mean, I recommend the whole book, but often it, you know, in some situations I'll just, you know… recommend the chapter to get things going.

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: And when people have voiced either, like, full defensiveness or, “Okay I'm open, but I have some questions." Right. And anywhere along that spectrum, when I've asked them, okay, well tell me about it. What is it? And what, what will often come is like a, “Hey, I agree. It was bad. It was wrong. I do agree. Christians should be against like racism and its effects.We should do what we can about it, but…” and here's the telling thing. 

“But I struggle any time we, and this would be kind of, it's a variation of the wording that we put anyone in Christ place.” Right? “So to say Christ's cross was like the lynching tree or this or that makes me nervous because only Jesus saves us.”

And there's like, Jesus, his cross is unique because Jesus was unique. And so there's an impulse there to not diminish the importance and the centrality and the uniqueness of Jesus. That's one thing that people have been taught, and it's a good thing to be taught that Jesus is unique. Jesus is central. Jesus is of vital importance. That's good. We affirm that they've been taught that and they've caught, you know, they've internalized that they've caught it well. 

And so there's something there, but one we want to point out is if, if we say that we also need to see that kind of like what's, what's lurking in the peripheral there, or maybe in the shadows, in the, in a full-on blind spot is if we talk about the cross that way, right, then obviously we view the cross differently than the artist responsible for the Isenheim Altarpiece and the monks and the nuns who offered communion there and went from that worship to go care for the sick, the way that they did. And mother Teresa, who through Eucharistic adoration would then move into the streets and the gutters of Calcutta and went and cared for those people and in the illness and those bodies. Yeah. There's a difference there. And the two ways of viewing the car. And the one that's behind the “Only Jesus’ cross saves us” really, it's it's sneaky because that move, even though it sounds good, it sounds like we're trying to create Christ unique in his, in his cross unique. It actually robs the cross of so much of its power. Because the move that's been made there is we've started to treat the cross as one thing way back in the past, that was like the transaction between God and us.

Julius: Yeah.

Julius: Okay. So I think. So what this all makes me think of, and um, this connection just happened to me while you were talking—and I'm grateful for it because it ties into this, this entire series, we’ve been talking about the idea of practice and thinking through that lens, like to even primarily look at what Jesus does on the cross and the death and the resurrection as a transaction, I think misses a huge point by, I guess reducing salvation to an external good as if it is an object to only be like, bought. Like that it's something to be taken possession of in the way that an object is rather than then a way of being that you are formed into. Um, and that's the kind of internal good that comes with, um, I suppose like journeying with Christ on the cross. 

I think that when people get defensive of being like, “Hey, like the cross of Christ, like allows me to see the ways that whoa, Jesus is identifying with these people are suffering in our world.” I think people who, who kind of get defensive of that are feel that this view of the gospel is threatened where it's a simple kind of like a-to-b transactional external good.

Like, um, like, uh, all I know of the gospel is. Jesus buys our salvation by dying and like… All, all my money is on that we go to heaven after this, and that's the external good is that we don't go to hell or whatever, but that we miss that the whole internal good of what it means to the practice of becoming Christian.

Is to not just gain that external good of like, not burning for eternity, but like to become like Jesus. And part of that is to journey with Jesus on the cross to see like, what are you showing us here that that's a dimension of it, of like that it, it reveals something to us it's apocalyptic, Right.

That it reveals the violence.

That is in the water that we have gotten used to that that's part of what the cross does, but also that like a dimension of the cross is Jesus stepping into that with the broken among us. And so it's not just these dimensions get, um, get missed when we only see the cross as a means to get to… not burning. 

Wilson: Right. That's, that's a good way to make a connection there between that kind of transactional view and, you know, what practice offers us… is directing our attention away from external goods towards internal goods, because the bigger picture there is Jesus… Jesus didn't just like walk into a bank account and say like, “Here are the names of my followers. Secretly put a million dollars in all their accounts.” 

Jesus didn't do that. Bigger, truer, like what's, what's there in the story is Jesus went straight up into death to overcome and defeat death, not just to win some benefits, but, but to overcome, right, through. Through, in a completely godly way, in a way that is utterly different than how any other person would take on the problem of death.

Like the best we can come up with is numbing or power or pleasure. Right. That's the human- but Jesus goes through a way that involved all kinds of suffering, right. To undo death. Not, not by being more violent than the bad guys, not by, right, but to, to actually take care of the problem that no one could take care of other than God.

Right. If we understand death, uh, as, as genuine death… as anything that that word could like appropriately, appropriately be used for, only God can take care of that person. And the way that viewing the cross that's given to us in places like mother Teresa and how she cared for the sick, uh, and how that is tied to her Eucharistic adoration and what the Eucharist is and how the Eucharist is tied to the story, the actual story of the gospel and the Isenheim Altarpiece, where the, where the Eucharist, where communion was offered and how that's tied to the story. With that allows us to see in the cross is it makes a connection that is not possible and just a transactional piece. 

And that connection there is if Jesus went to death to overcome it and undo it from the inside, then this is the way of viewing that cross in our ongoing communion with Christ in a way that allows the power of that to meet people in those moments where death actually threatens. Right. Instead of it being like a.. “Well, hands in the air. Death gets that.”

Julius: Right. 

Wilson: Some sort of magic transaction has happened and maybe in some other place, right. Things will be, be better. It enables the Christ to, and this is what I say, like, this is where this— if you get what, what this way of viewing, what the, you know, the traditional way that we're making the ca- the Isenheim Altarpiece and the let's, let's just call it the mother Theresa way maybe. Um, what this way of viewing the cross does is actually make Christ more unique, and more powerful because. Right. It's one thing to be able to affect some kind of transaction that may be a few people could make a withdrawal on or something. It's another, it's an entirely different thing to be able to be present to everyone who has ever suffered.

And especially in the places where sin and death is wreaking its most malicious havoc… in, in terminal disease, and in hate crimes and stuff like that—to, to be able to be present to every single one of them and hold them and offer them a promise of justice and healing and life beyond the grave. That is, that is… I mean,  at that point we're not just talking about like, “Ooh, let's only talk about Jesus this way.”

Now we're talking about God. Now we're talking about the kinds of things like— if that's true, now we're getting to the kinds of things that we've we've talked about is like the, the attributes that belong only to divinity, like omnipresence. And omnipotence. Like, the power to overcome that and to be present in each and every instance, not just to affect one transaction, one time at one point in history, but to be able to do something at that point in history that allows Christ to be present to and overcome death at each point in history when death tries to do the same kind of nonsense.

Julius: Mm. 

Wilson: I mean, you want to make Jesus more unique and more powerful?

Julius: Yeah. Yeah, yea. 

Wilson: Here’s the way.

Julius: Yeah. And to journey, to journey with the Christ, who does that is a, is a far messier and painful journey. Then I think that, um, I think there's a certain amount of like, there's a desire to kind of bypass that journey when we, when we like want to cling to, oh man. Well, as long as I, as long as I say this prayer, I'm good, right?

Like that, I don't have to worry about what's going on here. And it takes a certain time. Of like privilege in this world to be able to like, to think that of like, uh, as long as I said, the prayer and I go to church on Sundays, like I don't have to worry about that kind of suffering because all that matters is that I'm going to heaven. Right. 

And then we try to transpose that to the people who are suffering now and being like, “You don't have to worry about that. Lynching?” like, “Your brothers being lynched? You don't have to worry about that, just say this prayer. And we're all gonna go to heaven like some day,” but, um, But that bypasses the journey of like, well, some of us are suffering now and Jesus like, is that, is there with these people?

Um, yeah, I don't know. Th-th there’s…there’s a certain…

It’s. It takes a lot more to engage with that, with that kind of journey and to see how like that dimension of the cross is Jesus inviting us to, as Jesus journeys through death to show that he has overcome it and invites us to it, like that part of that, like requires us to look around to the, the, like looking through the valley of the shadow of death thing. Right. 

And to realize the ways that, like, that maybe that path has mirrors for us, that it's like revealing that, like, we… that there's death inside of us as individuals, there's death inside of us, like as communities and as systems and that those, we need to become aware of those in order to kind of like walk into what healing looks like now

Wilson: Right. Yep. Which is, which is why we would be talking about this, the cross in a series on practice, because I liked your wording, you know, to journey with the Christ who does, this is different than just to, um, second hand from a great, great distance receive some of the benefits, uh, And rewards of Jesus.

And that is when, when we talk about the narrative that shapes a practice, the narrative that shapes all Christian practice is the life, death and resurrection of Jesus. And the, the narrative there is not just, Hey, you guys hang out here in Gallilee, you know. Stay out of the trouble. Don't risk. Anything, just stay over here, comfortable and safe.

I'm going to go do some things in Jerusalem. And when I'm done, I'll have all sorts of benefits to 

Julius: Yeah, 

Wilson: upon you. The story is follow me 

Julius: Yeah. Yeah. 

Wilson: follow me. And when Peter gets to that point where he starts to see, oh, dang. Okay. All right. If that's where we're at, let's go. I'll die with you. And even there, Jesus, doesn't say Jesus, doesn't rescind the call to follow me.

He just tells him the truth, actually right now you won't, 

Julius: Hm. 

Wilson: but your body's weak, 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson:  But the call stays. And eventually Peter does go with Christ there and that's, that's a different sort of thing. It's not just, Hey, I can sit here and receive the benefits, but to enter into it, is it to, to follow and to commune with the Christ who does this now.

Julius: Yeah. And it's, it's, it is a grace that that is part of it that, like, there is no bypassing it— that we have to be trained and formed to become heaven people. Cause like, even if like working from that framework, like we…it’s all about just the heaven later on, is it like, if you so to speak speak, like, enter the pearly gates and you're, you haven't dealt with the fact that you don't care about your neighbors and they're in heaven or like that you hate this person or you hate this type of person…

Like, can you truly enter in that kind of kingdom of God and have that be heavenly, if you haven't dealt with like that? That doesn't like, I don't think that's a switch that just flips that, that kind of compassion and empathy for others and like to, to become a just people has to be formed in us, you know, for heaven to be what it is. 

Wilson: The kingdom is Jesus. The presence of God in Christ. That is the kingdom of heaven. And if Christ is the one who is going, this person is sick and suffering. We're going to go take care of them. If Jesus is like Jesus in the gospels, right then the kingdom of heaven. Isn't all right, great. Leave all the suffering.

Come into this great place and just have some like, lounge and a hammock, have some divine grapes and listen to the heavenly music while I keep taking… he's still goes like, “Come on, come on guys. There's still sick people.”

Julius: yeah. 

Wilson: And it will not be until we learn to, to practice it in a way that we find the joy in going with Christ, wherever he goes. And as long as they're suffering in death, Christ isn’t… I mean, I just, I cannot imagine Jesus being like, “Meh, but I got my heaven and my throne.”

That's not the story of God. It's as long as there is suffering and death Christ is present to overcome it to, to, to hold, to grab on, to, to rescue and redeem those who are suffering there and to bring them back to heaven.

“And I'm not done till it's done.” And if he's not done till it's done. Why would we expect that the benefit would be— “Cool. You said the prayer, great. Go, I've got this great green room over here. You guys just go chill out on all the benefits of my work while I keep doing the work.”  The benefits are, “Come do this work with me.”

Come be a part of the kingdom. Come be, come, come cooperate with me. Be joined in, be, be incorporated into my work to, to bring healing in life, wherever it still needs to have.

so were there, but I think just to put a point on it still seems even a little awkward to think of this as a practice. So if we think of the cross as a practice,  does that concept of practice, help us to understand that called to follow Jesus better.

Julius: Well, what that question makes me think of is. One of the times that I preached while I'm working at a church was as the lectionary passage for that week had to do with, um, uh, gosh, I don't remember which book in the old Testament. Maybe the, maybe it was Exodus, I assume, but it was, the people were presumably in the wilderness being bitten by a bunch of snakes, a bunch of poisonous snakes and. 

Wilson: Exodus.

Julius: Yeah, it is Exodus. Right. And then is it Moses is told to like lift up the staff with like the bronze serpent on it and people are to gaze upon it in order to, to be healed. And in kind of like the process that week of like, what do I do with that? Like I know that Jesus talks about this story and likens himself to being that serpent.

And I think there was something that clicked and hopefully this is back to like, this is, hopefully this is backed up by a biblical scholarship and is good. Um, exit Jesus of the passage, but I didn't, what that made me think of is I think what this practice, whatever we like practicing the cross is getting at of like, in order for us as a people to be healed, um, from this poison, right?

That, be that poison, like, um, systemic violence, injustice, racism, white supremacy— like in order to be healed from that poison, we have to look upon the thing that is… Like, like the people who are being bitten by the serpents had to look upon the very… image. Um, and so these people, these people were being bitten by all these snakes. And the way to get the poison out of their system was to like, look upon the very thing that was causing death, and like that was poisoning them. 

And in, in practicing the cross, I think that's what, like… That's what's happening. Is part of what the cross is, is Jesus drawing our attention to that, which is destroying us and that we have to kind of confront that and see it in order to be healed— that we can't just like, pretend that these things aren't happening and that the suffering and this violence and death working in us as a people, isn't a thing. Like, we have to look upon it to address it. And, and in order— like we have to acknowledge it to walk towards healing and reconciliation together. 

Wilson: Why we're thinking specifically in terms of practice is—through this whole series, but now at this point, specifically about the cross, just cards on the table, is to help us think about the cross better. But then again, not just think about it cause that's, the thing about practice is to actually do, to participate.

To live in ways where we experience, right. It's, it's one thing to know hearkening back to the intro, to this series. It's one thing to know, right? Christ won victory over sin and death. It's another to be able to like, “Okay, if that's true, then that's true in the wor-” Right. I, I preached a sermon a while ago where I made the claim that if the cross of Christ and the gospel has nothing to say, um, at the edge of the mass graves in concentration camps, and now in 2021, we can extend that, right? The mass graves in Canadian religious boarding schools 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: And, uh, the unmarked graves of lynching victims… if the cross of Christ and the gospel has nothing to say at the, the base of the lynching tree, then the gospel is not true. Right? But, if the gospel tells us about a God whose love and faithfulness can and will overcome even the worst, even the most tragic, then there is nothing more precious.

Julius: Hm. 

Wilson: And so it's one thing to think. No, the gospel is that good. God is God, is that right? I mean, and that is the only thing really worthy of the word God— the name. Beyond just a word. It's not just some adjective. Um, it's, it's a name. That's the only thing worthy of the name of God. Then it's one thing to know that, it's another to begin to live salvation, to know that.

And that's where we're talking about practice in conjunction with the cross is to open us up to think about it in ways, right, that, that are better. That make more possible. But beyond that, and this is where, like the podcast can only do so much, we can generate the desire and give a little guidance. But the next thing is, is to live it, to practice the cross.

Um, and to point out what we've done in this— that, that's why this is what this episode's about, and to point out what we've intentionally done is we've consistently pointed to stories, right? You just talked about the story of Moses and the Israelites in the desert being poisoned and, and what does salvation look like?

Um, and it involves staring it, looking at it directly, naming it. Um, and we keep pointing to the stories of the cross because—and this is why we think practice is helpful— the way practice is talked about as the term, the way we're using it, a practice is always shaped by and born out of a narrative, and these are the stories.

And when you look at those stories, this is exactly what it invites us into, right? So the first thing we're talking about practicing the cross one part of it is, and this is what we see with mother Teresa. She's not just looking at wafers and wine. 

Julius: Right. 

Wilson: She's looking at the body and the blood. Why? Because of the story.

If it weren't for this story, she wouldn't see Christ there. And if it weren't for the story, and if she didn't see Christ there, she wouldn't see Christ the way she did in the suffering and the poor in Calcutta. The monks and the nuns who cared for people suffering from St. Anthony's fire who'd been… right.

If, if it weren't for this story, they wouldn't see the severed legs of the, the corpse of Christ in the artwork, the way that they did. And so they wouldn't have seen the severed legs of the actual victims in their convalescent beds, the way that they did. And so if we're going to practice it, we, we. We hear the story.

We learn to see that way. And then when we learned to see that way, we take it out into the world and this is, this is where it opens up. Right. We tend to think of instill. It's still, as far as our language goes, we still use the language of bearing my cross. But where this, where this piece of the tradition and the practice is lost, we use the language, bearing the cross, and we will use that word cross for something that isn't necessarily a cross we'll use it for just anything that I find inconvenient or 

Julius: Yep. 

Wilson: Right. But bigger than that, this teaches you. Where is the cross? The cross is where sin and death is at work in me or outside of me. And how do I see Christ there? And then if I hear it. Right. If I hear the story, and if I'm looking at this as a practice, then it's not just an exercise in naming crosses, but it's an exercise in actually following Jesus, answering in our own time in our place. Because he's not just someone who carried out a transaction 2000 years ago, he's present.

He’s—because of what he's done to, to defeat death from the inside, he's present each place death tries to gain more ground to continue to extend his work. And our, our call, our practice of the cross is, is born out of that sort of discernment to be able to say, “How do I answer that call right now to follow you?”

Julius: Mm. 

Wilson: And like we said, if his kingdom is his presence, and if his presence leads us into a moment, a situation circumstances to naming and seeing places where the poison is killing us, then it's a discernment of like, what is he doing and how do I join? 

Julius: Yeah.


MEDITATION

What love would lead Jesus to allow himself to be broken just so God could still be with us in our brokenness? The interplay of the beginning and the climax of the gospel story (which is really the interplay of the beginning and the climax of all things), allows us to see that the God breathing life into this story is not a God who sits back and watches us get torn apart, then says, "Well, if you ask just right, I'll see what I can do." Or, "Well, I've given you to key to thinking about how we can make some sense of all this senseless suffering. Be grateful for that." 

No. This God also inhabits the story. The same God who held and formed you is closer than your own breath. So close, that when you get torn apart, Christ gets torn apart with you. 

This is my body, broken for you

The more we live into our Christian identity, the more we see the story of Jesus's physical body as our own. 

Jesus was not on the cross because God was mad at us for eating the wrong fruit or looking at porn or insulting another person. God was mad at the things that steal life from God's beloved children. Walk into a hospital room where someone you love is suffering and you will not yell at the person for being sick. But you will feel anger in that room. Anger at the injustice and disease and broken desires that keep sending us back to the things that will kill us. Such is God's wrath. 

Love held Jesus to the cross to absorb the power from the things that kill us. To absorb the power from the things that have been done to us. And to rob the power from the things we have done to others. 

King of the Jews! With every insult Jesus absorbed, he also absorbed the hurt caused by a racist slur. With each lash on his back, the pain inflicted by a fist or distant and uncaring stare. With the rigged jury, the effects of systemic injustice. 

This is why Jesus gave his body and died. To take all our sin and brokenness as his. So he can embrace us, where we actually live. On the cross, Jesus was the teenager who was abused and ignored. On the cross, God is the woman who had a vicious rumor destroy her career and reputation. On the cross, Jesus is anyone and everyone when they have something taken from their body they can never get back.

Jesus was on the cross to be closer to us than we can imagine, close enough to hold every body broken by abuse, torched and blistered by St. Anthony's fires, or hung from trees and light poles by bloodthirsty mobs ... 

This is my body, broken for you ... 

So Cone and his childhood congregation could sing "I was there when they whipped Him up an' dey whipped Him down ..."

What a strange way for heaven and earth to get tangled up again. It is the right way, though, if hope is going to be real and bodily. Whatever chaos happens, God is always standing between us and the nothing toward which we are hell bent. With Jesus, God enters it. So we can commune with God, even in the darkest places. 

He is our origin, and our new beginning, because he is Emmanuel, God with us.

What Cone can help us look for, and learn to see is also what the Issenheim Altarpiece and, I believe, the Gospel of Matthew, wants to help us see: Jesus. 

A Savior that unites his Divinity not just to his own human nature, but who is also so close to us that his broken body and mangled human soul mingles so intimately with our broken bodies and distorted souls that we, on our end, might struggle to keep straight whose bits are whose bits, 

And if Jesus can accomplish that, then what happens to our bodies when the Father calls the Son who relentlessly holds us back out of the nothingness of the grave?

[Communion and Altarpiece together]

Practicing the Faith 5 - Practicing Sabbath


INTRO 

Knowing the physics of flight -- how lift, drag, and thrust work to get a body off the ground -- is not the same as watching the ground drop below you as the clouds surround you.

Knowing what musical modes are and being able to tell someone John Coltrane used these in innovative ways to push free jazz forward is not the same as putting an intuition in your soul into notes in the air for anyone with ears to hear. 

Knowing the Queens Gambit or what a force out is in baseball is not the same as besting a worthy opponent in Chess or feeling your legs take you somewhere your conscious mind may not even know you need to go so you can feel the ball hit your glove and throw where you should to get an out for your team. 

And knowing that Jesus said do not worry, and love your enemies, is not the same as feeling the lightness of trust take root in your gut or feeling bitterness lose its grip on your chest.

Some things, you have to practice to understand.

So in this series, we hope to help you practice your faith so you can know salvation.

This time we look at what it means to practice rest, and what good resting might produce.


STORY

There is no way to know, precisely, how faithful Jews in Jesus' time practiced the Sabbath. We know general things like they worshipped and rested, and we know some of the things that were considered work and so were excluded from a day of rest. But the Jewish prayer books and liturgies were still being written and arranged and tested and further developed, and we can't determine exactly where in that process the liturgy was when, say, Jesus, Mary and Joseph, or Jesus and his disciples, participated together in Sabbath  worship. 

But the scholarship on the development of these liturgies does allow us to form some sort of plausible and coherent picture.

So we can imagine that just like our push alerts buzz and inboxes clutter and deadlines and social commitments approach, all while status bars fill and the next episode loads in 3, 2, 1, to clutter our typical Saturday evenings ... We can imagine a typical first century Friday where finances continued to dwindle and fields needed plowing and kids needed dinner and homes needed tidying. But we can also imagine that as their demands swirled with their own momentum and day sank deeper into the evening darkness, observant Jews would resist the urge to do just one or two more productive things, and instead light two candles.

And as the flame of the first began feebly to counter the darkness of the night, they remembered the command from Exodus chapter 20: Remember the Sabbath day, and keep it holy ... You shall not do any work ... For in six days the Lord made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but rested on the seventh day.

A central piece of any practice, as we have been using and exploring the term, is the narrative that gives it birth and shapes it as it grows. And where so many of our days off are shaped by the larger narrative of productivity, it is good to begin exploring the practice of Sabbath by noting it's story not the story of technology, entertainment, and consumption, but of Creation. 

And in Sabbath's narrative, as told in Genesis 1, there is a consistent -- or perhaps a better word is "faithful" -- there is a faithful rhythm or pulse. The main beats of this rhythm are: time, call, response, consideration, then back to time.

Time: In the beginning, when God created the heavens and the earth.

Call: God said, "Let there be light."

Response: Light answered, and broke forth from the darkness.

Consideration: God takes it in, savors it, and calls it "good," then God gives more:

Time: There was evening and there was morning, the first day.

At this point in the story, so much still remains undone. There is no sun, no stars. No earth or life. We are far from a complete creation, and, we might not want to let God forget: there is still darkness. If we wait to rest and enjoy what has been done until everything feels done, our story will never lock in with the rhythm of the creation story, and so the story we do live will be shaped by our own power and ability to accomplish, and we will never experience Sabbath.

But in observing Sabbath even in the midst of all that is still waiting to be done, the practice of Sabbath pulls our story into the narrative defined by a God who is purposeful, and powerful, but not in a hurry.

So as this story continues, God gives the infant creation time to just be what it is, and then the rhythm cycles again: time, call, response, consideration, time.

Again and again: time, call, response, consideration, time -- Six times in all. And every time God speaks, creation responds and expands into greater and greater complexity and beauty with life filling the oceans and crawling on the ground and soaring through the air and God takes it in and calls it good and then starts again. Over and over, until God rests on the Seventh Day, creating the Sabbath. 

And that rhythm keeps coming, inviting us to dance along whether we are working first century fields or 21st century digital landscapes, whether gathered in ancient synagogues and temples or in contemporary auditoriums and living rooms. 

And as that call keeps coming, the story of Creation continues to move through history. Twisting and turning as sometimes creation responds with joy and beauty, but sometimes with rebellion and death. So if our ongoing Sabbath practice is connected to this story, and if we are to honor Sabbath even as necessary work screams for our time and effort and victims groan for justice, our Sabbath liturgies should also deal with the painful realities we all face. 

Which brings us to the second candle that was part of the Jewish liturgies somewhere around the time of Jesus.

As it added its light to the hours of darkness, 

the ancient worshippers would remember the command from Deuteronomy chapter 5: Observe the Sabbath day, to keep it holy ... you shall not do any work ... remember that you were a slave in the land of Egypt.

Remember you were a slave in Egypt, it says. If we are truly practicing Sabbath, we are remembering this story as our own, as a kind of first-hand experience. So we, with those who have known the genuine horrors of literal slavery, along with ancient Hebrews and the first disciples of Jesus, catch flashes of a bush that burns but never turns to ash. Of a river turned to blood and frogs and locust and darkness enveloping a land. Of a pillar of cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night and a stone that gives water and bread that appears from nowhere. 

Sabbath is born from, and pulls us into, a story as complex as our own reality. It contains everything from the glorious harmonies of a world alive with love and creativity to the degradation of oppression and murder and the necessarily terrifying and wondrous work of redemption. Everything from Creation to slavery and Exodus. 

Practicing Sabbath rest, therefore, will always involve a certain tension. God's call to rest does come. And our heeding that call requires trusting the character of the One who issues it. And this will always grate against the demands of our world and our own anxieties. 

But if we trust enough to shut off the ringing, crimp the flow of endless information, cut the power source to whatever projects the illusion that we are in control of our lives and world or resist the urge to numb it all, and instead respond to the call to rest ... we do so because we were slaves in Egypt. We trust because the God who is powerful enough to bring something out of nothing, was faithful enough to make a way for our salvation, and this God is also a God who rests.

While we may not know exactly how Jesus and the disciples did Sabbath, we do see that genuine Sabbath practice takes a different form from merely unplugging or sinking into doom scrolling or frantically doing only what you enjoy doing for a whole day, because Sabbath is not born from our contemporary stories of entertainment or productivity and consumption. 

So in the following conversation Julius and I go deeper into the kinds of Sabbath practices that might conform to this story of Creation and Redemption, and the kinds of good that might result, and make our rest and our work something that contributes to Creation's ever-expanding beauty.


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to “All Things.” Once again, this is Julius and Wil, and we have been talking this series…

Wilson: Can I say howdy? I've wanted—

Julius:  Howdy, of course— I saw it in your face you wanted to say something. [Laughs]

Wilson: I've been thinking about my roots, a lot, re- my origins a lot in this whole talking about practice, and the interconnectedness of like what's internally good in the moment and where it came from and where it's going... And it's just made me kind of think about my grandpa, and so, howdy.

Julius:  Howdy. 

Wilson: It feels alien to my tongue, even if it's deeply embedded in my soul. So....

 Julius:  Very deep. So we're already getting into it: talking about origins, narrative culture. 

 Wilson:  Deep, important things. People, everything 

 Julius:  We cannot can not squander these moments. 

 Wilson:  It's fun.

 Julius:  Um, but we've been talking about practices, um, in this series and today we want to dive into the practice called Sabbath. Which, I mean, if you've been part of or adjacent to the Christian faith for any period of time, that, that word Sabbath, um, is talked about often and, um. I can think back to, especially in my undergrad years in college-- I remember Sabbath became something of a… I don't want to say buzzword. I don't want to cheapen it by saying buzz word, but it was just like a hot topic, especially among a bunch of burnt out college students…. especially around like midway through it, sophomore, junior year, where all of the enchantment of, “Oh, I'm a freshman” and the excitement kind of turns into, “I have so many papers to write...”

 Wilson:  “I don't even know if I like this anymore!” “I thought I wanted to spend four years studying this.”

 Julius:  [Laughs] No exactly. But I remember we, at least in my friend group, we hit a point where, um, a lot of my friends who particularly also were involved in like discipleship ministries, a lot of our mentors started talking about the importance of the practice of Sabbath and a lot of like camp speakers that we would talk to would talk about the practice of Sabbath as a really important thing. But I think we all kind of grappled with it so differently. 

And we all, we all knew as something to be valued. We felt it like deeply in our exhausted undergrad bones that Sabbath is something like good news. But as, as for actually practicing it, I think we were all kind of messily fumbling about what things brought us actual rest versus what things were just like temporary shutdowns that would make maybe make us more stressed when we come back into like our normal rhythms.

 So. Just to kick it off. What can you say about like what it looks like to practice Sabbath and Sabbath as a, as a means of true rest, rather than just, um— that maybe just tuning out and watching Netflix for five hours isn't always necessarily the most Sabbath-like restful thing?

 Wilson:  And that's it. I think that would be it in a nutshell, the distinction is Sabbath is about rest, and rest is not numbing. Rest is, is a practice. Rest is a concrete way of thinking, feeling and acting that allows us to tap into, and as Christians, tap into the creative source of all things, I mean the, the life, the rejuvenation that comes from communion with God.

 The one who creates and sustains everything that's rest and that's very different than numbing or pausing. Um, and could did pull in here kind of as, uh… evidence for this case or… allies in our argument, a lot of the studies carried out in many fields about the effects of things like excessive screen use, uh, binge watching shows that, that really, like, what it does is distract and numb.

 And, and your body holds this stuff. I mean, there's a, there's a book now— that I highly recommend, we’ll make a note to put this in the show notes— called the “Body Keeps the Score” and, and that is true of big traumas, but it's also true of like, I guess the daily paper cuts wounds right throughout the week.

 Those things add up and your body holds it. And what, something like bingeing and scrolling does is distract the conscious part of your mind from what's happening, but it doesn't actually deal with the exhaustion and the pain.

 Julius:  Hmm. 

 Wilson:  So it numbs it and your body holds that stuff. And so really it'll  feel, I mean, it's, it's not wrong.

 And it's a very gray, I mean, the problem isn't that this isn't true. It's that it’s a difficult truth… is, is what that sort of like day off. That's just, you know how I mean, I, I keep calling it numbing or distraction— you put it unplugging or it's something that shutting down, right. That is really like, I have this massive wound.

 I mean, and it's getting serious. Like it's getting infected bleed out. It's the difference between actually dealing with the wound and popping some meds that'll make you not feel the pain while the infection continues to spread and while you continue to bleed out your, your life's energy, um. And so the difference there is, is not just the certain things that will, that will cover over or distract us from the pain.

 But actually some of the things leading to true rest might be a journey through and into. And so like alluding back to some of the practice, the concrete practices that we talked about in the intro to this episode, looking to the scriptural stories and the liturgies and the habits that arose around, you know, through that, that progression, that movement from, you know, the Exodus to Jesus and his disciples and what Sabbath looked like— all of it was intentional. 

Every, you know, from the lighting of the candles to the way they prepped the things, to what the, you know, the, the discussions, the readings, the thought— all of it was intentionally geared, not just to distract us for a little while so we can get back after it come Monday morning, but to take us through whatever it is, we've got to get through, to commune with the God whose life whose power who's creative.

 Uh, energy is always greater than whatever forces of death we've been wandering through all week.

 Julius:  Yeah. 

Julius: I think that makes me think of, I listened to a podcast a couple months ago that Bernay brown was talking about, um, trauma, but even just like emotions in general, how emotions are something that, um, have like a beginning, middle and end that you kind of have to, you have to feel your way through the entire journey of the emotion.

 Um, and I guess when you just kind of numb, like whatever traumas, have stress responses happening in your body and in your nervous system, like you're actually kind of pausing this. I mean, Right.

 now I kind of see it as a progress bar because my CPU is running super hot right now and I can hear the fan, but it's kinda just like.

 Um, that program is still needs to run its course, like it's not, but just pausing it doesn't finish it. You're just kind of delaying it. And so I've found that there are moments where I'm like  scrolling. An hour deep into tick Docker. And like, I can, I can feel myself running away from the, like from the stress response, but I haven't allowed myself to feel through it, to like, to kind of, um, allow that emotion to pass.

 And in the back of my head, I can tell that my brain is still like, “You're still stressed!”

 Wilson:  Okay.

 Julius:  Um, and, and so there have been moments where, um… like three hours of binge watching YouTube, um, will leave me still tired afterwards— especially and then like my eyes get tired too, I get eye strain a lot, but th but versus just like 10 minutes of paying attention to my breathing and doing like a Headspace meditation, or some kind of like mindfulness exercise that those 10 minutes are infinitely more restful than the three hours that I've been doom-scrolling. 

 Wilson:  Doom scrolling— I haven't heard that, but I like it. It seems true. 

 Julius:  Yeah. 

 Wilson:  So I guess I can also speak. Uh, I guess from the end of the mentor or the guide that kind of talks about this and requires it. Um, and I've seen it especially this last year. Now what I'm about to say first, this is not like betraying any one student's trust because this is not any one student.

 This is like 70% of all my students and every one of my Christian tradition classes. Um, but especially in the last year, Um, I'm the one that requires them as part of this class to practice Sabbath and to reflect on it. And, and this is, this is, again, it's always true, but especially this last year with, with COVID and because of how much of our life even more so got pushed on to screens in this last year.

 And we were, you know, for so many people really locked down in their house and everything is happening through some  sort of virtual means. When I, when I say, as part of this class, you're going to be required to participate in Sabbath, which is not just taking a day off. Here's some guides for what it is to participate in Sabbath and reflect on it.

 It's amazing how many of these reflections start off with an honest confession that I, I honestly, I, I really appreciate, you know, I tell them over and over. I appreciate the honesty and the authenticity don't feel like you just have to say, what would I want to hear? Really reflect and tell me truthfully about it's amazing.

 How many of those honest introductions begin with in such a busy season in such a crazy year? I was truthfully angry at being required to take a day off in the middle of this busy schedule in this semester. 

Julius:  Yeah. 

Wilson:  And I felt like going into it, it was going to compound my stress because this is, you know, Sunday is the day I chose to do it, to kind of stick with the tradition.

 And Sunday is typically the day that I catch up on this and I get a jumpstart on this sort of homework. So I thought it was going to make  it more and more stressful and I was angry, but after having done it, practice it a couple of times and it will get to more certain, probably some more. As having this, not just be a don't do anything day, but intentionally participate in these kinds of things that direct your mind and your heart to God, the creator and the sustainer.

 I was surprised and had this counterintuitive reaction to see that what I thought was going to make my week way more stressful actually made it a lot more restful, gave me more sense of like centerdness and agency, gave me clarity on my priorities for the week. And so I felt like it didn't just rejuvenate me, but it, it reframed the way I engaged and thought about the whole rest of  the day.

 

Julius:  I think that there's. Really profound that's revealed in what you just talked about with your students. The responses of that. So many, and I, I F I felt that as a college student, and even now, honestly, like there are moments where it, sometimes our gut risks bonds is it would stress me out more to take a break or like to rest, um, I think that really says something about the kind of culture that we're situated in and how disordered it is, um, that I think, um, so as we're, as we start to kind of transition this conversation into like internal goods, Right.

 We've been looking at all of these things through the lens of practice, one of the internal goods that I, that I. That comes to mind that I can name is that it's an opportunity for us to embody and  participate a way of life that runs counter to this capitalistic hyper productivity culture. And that looking back at its roots, um, I remember studying about this for a sermon, but like really being.

 Moved by the fact that the practice was Sabbath was introduced to the people of Israel, like as a kind of response after they came out of like out of Egypt where they were enslaved and the narrative that they were formed in was like our only like our, our very existence. Is to build up the empire is to lay bricks, to build these buildings and to like, to make of the empire greater that like that is, that was the tell us that they were inscribed in was that we exist only to make these structures and to,  um, Yeah. To, to work And to, to be at the whims of, um, the enslavers. And so when, when they are taken out of that and as a people, God introduces this practice of Sabbath, that there's something really forming about that, of like you are no longer in that, like, environment. This is not the true narrative of the world.

 Like you are not, um, Your existence is not to satisfy the needs of your enslavers anymore. Like it is to participate in the rhythms of what God has created. And like in the, in the very story that they follow this God who has created the universe rests. And so they are being reformed and inscribed into a different narrative that is resistance to this culture that is hyper.

Like productive, capitalistic, Imperial. Like  your only value is in your ability to work and build up like our empire


Wilson:  And that, um, I think that gives us opportunity to talk about something we've introduced earlier in this series where there's a lot of this in, in the, under, like the, the heading of habits. Right. In contemporaries, uh, like in a lot of contemporary circles, people are awakening to like the, the wisdom that's there and habits and how much good can be brought from it, but why it's so important to keep it, uh, situated in the narrative that it belongs.

 Um, and how that, that story, that narrative shapes so much about like what we are able to receive and recognize as the goods that are true to what the thing is, you know, rather than something that we would twist it and manipulate it for. And the final ends on that. So flushing that out.  Um, we can say that there are a lot of people now in the, like the business, the productivity world that are coming to realize, Hey, um, you know what, a lot of people's productivity and energy over time drops.

 And so there there's studies that show, Hey, if we consistently require people to work more than 50 hours a week, right. So like sure. Maybe in one week with a burst, if they worked 50, 60 hours, a lot more gets done than would get done in a typical 40 hour work week. Right. And they're certain, but they're starting to see though, if we consistently.

 Require that over the course of a year, the total productivity drops because people are working at a much depleted state, right. If they're, if they're healthy and rested, their capacities are this right. But when they're not regularly rested, they're over. Instead of functioning at like 9100% of  their potential, they're consistently functioning.

 I like, you know, 50%, 60% of their potential. And so over the course of a year or two on that kind of timeline, their overall productivity greatly drops. So because of that, you know, now you have businesses in schools where, you know, some people call it a white space or the need to work in throughout the day.

 You know, little breaks and then throughout the week breaks and to have healthy start and stop times, right. To let people's bodies work. The thing there is, uh, there are certain things that do overlap with this, and there is a certain wisdom, but what I think what you said that like generated the opportunity in my mind to point out though, is look at the difference in the story and the starting point, right?

 The starting point of that awareness is embedded in the story of production. Oh, look, shoot. We're all about productivity. We assume that that's the good that we're after. Like that's our goal. And look, when we do this, we're not being as  productive as we can. So then they come in and they pull that, but it's directed towards a totally different goal or end and the danger there.

 Is just like on a personal level when we can get really, really good at getting what we want, but we're not good at desiring good things together. And then we can end up fighting over, you know, the goods fighting over the results. Right. And that can lead to interpersonal conflict or conflict within groups or tribes.

 Right. So on this level, though, when we, when we're thinking about. Like, what is this all about? This can lead us to a place where we actually get better and more efficient at destroying things. 

Julius:  Okay. 

Wilson:  Right. If we're about producing as much as we possibly can, we don't then see this embedded in a story that pays attention to like the effects on other things and the interrelatedness of, of all of creation.

 And so we can just get better and better. I mean, I mean, to take a concrete example,  cutting down trees. Right. Oh, our loggers. Aren't getting enough regular rest. And so throughout the course of a year, they're not cutting as many. Right. And so let's give them this time off. And so now a productivity, as far as just how many trees we cut down increases.

 And now we get better and better at outrunning. The planet's ability to, to refresh this resource that we need, or, you know, we get better and better at digging up and burning all the fossil fuels. Right. And so the difference here, that's the story of creation is, look, this all begins with God creating.

 Not just to make a bunch of stuff. I mean, if anyone could be hyper-productive God could, God could waste us in a competition for productivity. I mean, especially looking at the imagery, God just speaks. So all God's got to do is talk faster, right? Creation happens with, with words. And so  God could just rattle a couple of compound sentences and have the whole thing done in a moment.

 But instead God speaks slowly and 

 Julius:  Hmm. 

 Wilson:  time each day to consider and to call it good to appreciate and to notice, and then to call it something else. That is organic to that grows out of what's been done before and then consider, right. And so there's rest and consideration each day, and then there's a day of rest at the end that, that culminates the whole thing.

 

Wilson:  And so our practices here, this is circling back around. What we're looking for as the internal good for Sabbath is not just to let us get back into it. So we get all our homework done so that we accomplish this and we get the right. Yeah. That's twisting the practice towards an external good. Bring it back home.

 Hopefully like at a deeper  level, the point here, the practice is to commune with God so that what we do could be better out of an appreciation of what is there. We've taken time to think and to consider. And now our next move comes from not just what's our strategic plan, but I've noticed this about God's world, about our connectedness, about.

 About people. And now what's the thing that, that the beauty and the appreciation would move me to add. Now that I have this energy and I have this inspiration that comes from this, what's the next thing that I could do to contribute to this overall flourishing, to lead, you know, from, from the, the origin of God's creation.

 Julius:  Hmm. 

 Wilson:  Where God does this to express God's goodness and beauty and care to lead to a greater awareness and participation in like that.  Goodness, instead of just what we can accomplish welcome, like, uh, now I'm thinking to kind of wrap this segment up. Um, when, when we talk about, when you talked about, uh, the, the institution of Sabbath, On the tail end of the Hebrew people's freedom from their enslavement in Egypt, where there, it was about look at the glory of this empire.

 Look at our pyramids, right? And so make more bricks, make more bricks. Hey, guess what? We've outrun the land's ability to make straw. You no longer have straw for your bricks. What Pharaoh does is double the requirement 

 Julius:  yeah. 

 Wilson:  do it without the straw you're at out, 

 Julius:  right. 

 Wilson:  Instead of it being the, like how much can we to, to build, to show the glory of God, zero in this empire, in the pyramids and the buildings and the cities, instead of it being that what, uh, Irenaeus Leone says is the glory of God.

 The glory of God is a  human being fully alive. 

 Julius:  Hmm. Hmm. 

 Wilson:  right, we take our time to see like, what is the, and this story about like, God, God's the one that plants the garden and puts us in that garden to work it. And in doing that, that we reflect God's care and goodness for the world. How does, how does this practice of Sabbath reorient us towards that place?

 Where beyond the forces of consumption and death, uh, what the, what the rest and the rejuvenation leads to as us coming back more alive 

 Julius:  Hmm. 

 Wilson:  and that a liveliness being intricately, the goodness of that, the internal good being. Intricately inseparably connected to us using our energy, our strength, and our power to a greater flourishing, not just to dominate and build bigger buildings and larger empires.

Julius:  So where my mind goes Right.

 now. Is thinking about what it takes to actually practice Sabbath is from my experience. And this is reflected in, um, the law too. Like the guidelines, like there are strict guidelines, um, pertaining to Sabbath in the old Testament. And I like, I know even just from like small.

 Um, like first, not second firsthand experience, but like, I, I know a couple of friends who are like, who practiced Judaism and that there's a certain amount of like work that has to be done in order to practice Sabbath that there's like prep work that needs to be done. And.

 Bringing that into the conversation of like what virtues are needed in order to practice Sabbath. I  think that there is a certain amount of like discipline and attention, and I guess like ordering that needs to be done in order to like create room for rest. And so I think about that on like an individual level of like, like on a very practical level, um, Don't quote me on this, but, um, I think, I think one of the old Testament guidelines is that like, you can't like.

 Travel a certain amount. You can't like purchase things. You can't like cook things. I don't think even like that's considered work on the Sabbath. And so the part of the prep work is like making sure that your food is gathered and like, like prepped for the next day or like that you, you take care of all your errands, but like the day before, so you don't have to go out and walk and like purchase and do all of that stuff.

 And it, it feels kind of similar to, um, I know my girlfriend, Sam, like she,  uh, she, she, one of the things that brings her rest or like one of the things that she can't feel at rest until like her room is clean or organized. And I feel the same way of like, if my bed's not made, like I can't feel at rest yet, you know?

 And that there's a certain kind of, um, If Sabbath is making room for rest, like you have to make your room, you have to reorder it in order to feel at rest. And that takes a certain amount of discipline. It takes a certain amount of attention. It takes like preparation and intentionality in order to practice Sabbath.

 And so in order to practice Sabbath and engage in it like fully that like you really do have to make a point out of, of it. Like you have to prioritize it. You have to prioritize clearing out the space in order to do it. And then, um, one of the, but then as we were talking about like how Sabbath is like subversive and a resistance to our like  capitalistic hyper productivity, culture and narrative, I started to wonder what it would look like for us as a church to do that community.

 Right. Because the biggest thing that kept on popping up in my head that I started to really like get angry at and start to limit was the fact that like it's so like the concept of Sabbath is so subversive because we live in a world where like capitalism and big business makes it such that like working.

 Literally like they can't afford to rest. Like there are so many, like, there've been so many strikes this year of workers that are like, I like it's COVID timeframe now. And I cannot afford to take a sick day and how our structures are built in such a way that does like allow people to like, to practically.

 Like take a day off and to take a break. Like it's, it's,  it's similar to what you're talking about in that narrative of enslavement where like, Israel is like, we're out of straw, but you have to, you have to produce twice as much bricks that like the way that our structures are set. Makes it like impossible to rest.

 And so I wonder if part of the, the making room, like, what would it look like for the church to take care of our own in such a way that like the person who is afraid to take a day off, even if they're sick, because they literally cannot afford to miss like a paycheck? Like what would it look like for the church to make room for that So, that that person can have rest.

 Wilson:  So, I mean, that's a big question and. You know, in the, in the time that we have left and to keep it kind of focused for the listener we'll do through. And I think this is what you were intending through the lens of the virtues required. Um, and so I will, I think that's a great way to do it actually. Cause, cause thinking  about the virtues that are required, according to different stories and goals, Will help us see how subversive Sabbath is, and then help us think about all right, what does it look like to cultivate those virtues as a church that would lead to genuine Sabbath and rest flourishing in the kingdom?

 And so I'll point out that Sabbath has been subversive for millennia, right? So even well beyond the advent of modern capitalism, And socialism. So we could just kind of blanket well beyond the advent of modern and contemporary economic and political systems. Sabbath has been subversive and Sabbath will be subversive anytime we practice it.

 Well, it will subvert any human system that directs the goals and the aims away from God. Uh, W in, in kind of our, and, and we talk because it's what we've experienced most in a, in an out of control capitalist system. Right. Um,  the virtue there is, uh, uh, I don't quite have a word yet, but have a word picture.

 And so maybe that'll lead to naming it, naming the virtue in a word, but it's that like, Hey, Don't ask questions that are above your pay grade and just keep pouring your energy into it. Like that's the virtue when it's directed towards a Finch efficiency and consumption, you know, just product or just a profit, right?

 So you're, you're not even middleman. Head down, keep working and you're hourly. And these are the hours that we say is required. And, you know, these are the hours I have to put in this something I felt as an hourly employee, even in this last year of COVID like, these are the hours I have to put in to, you know, to get paid the amount that will allow me to make rent and buy the groceries and all I can.

 And when I add up those hours and compare that to the actual number of hours in a week, And then trying to balance that with the hours, my kids want to jump on the trampoline or to go to the  beach, you 

Julius:  Right, right. 

Wilson:  and then my wife wants it. Right. So the virtue there would be kind of a, it would involve a lack of 40.

 And discernment and just a willingness to, um, to just to keep pouring your effort into what we require that you pour your effort 

Julius:  Right, right. 

Wilson:  and the virtue that Sabbath requires. Cause you've talked about the FA is, is exactly that sort of, it's not just long suffering, right? That's going to be part of life in this fallen world.

 That's that sort of resilience and long suffering, but Sabbath also compliments. Buttresses that with discretion and foresight, that allows us to think to not just keep our head down and go, but to look up at out and think about where are we going and how do we do this? Well. Um, and I think that's, it's more of it's and along with both of those, right, the long suffering, but also the discretion, the  foresight, and there's a kind of prudence.

 There is also the cultivation of the virtue of being able to, to notice, uh, Well, again, the, the interrelatedness of everything. And so what does it take to really seek the good of everything to not just produce this product, to not just meet my hours so I can pay the bills, but to be able to name and plan for even planning our energy and our time for that larger.

 Good. Because if we're really practicing Sabbath, what we're doing again, circling back, we're not just numbing. What we're doing is community. With a transcendent truth and the truth, the truth, that's bigger than just my need to take a break and bigger than my need to be distracted from this or that is that all of creation needs rest.

Julius:  Yeah. 

Wilson:  It all comes from a place where, I mean, it starts with God even taking time to appreciate.  To let, to let that be good enough for now and now the next day when the time is right now, the next step. And then to give that some time, let it settle in. It's appreciate. And now the next step, you know, and just like you see this in farming, this soil needs to live, follow, and that's part of the old Testament law that it's not just a farming law.

It's not just an aggregate, uh, agriculture law. It's not just about productivity. It's deeply tied to. Like the Sabbath laws, let rest, let this soil replenish itself and then it will be able to provide for you. And so it's that. So sure. Work hard when it's time to work hard, but also take time to reflect and appreciate and have some foresight so that we can consistently shape our systems and our structures and our habits in a way that everything.

Gets the rest that it needs so that everything can continue to dry its life. And it's sourced from the only place that that can really come. And that's God. 


MEDITATION

The ideal definition of a Sabbath is pretty straightforward - it is a day, traditionally marked from Sundown to Sundown - dedicated to worship and rest. And beyond simply generating a desire in you to practice Sabbath, we would also like to offer some practical help in doing so. 

But we realize everyone's lives are shaped by different circumstances. So while it is possible for all of us to share the goal of getting to a place where we can take a whole day each week to rest in God's provision, we are not all starting at the same point, and so that goal will be easier to realize for some of us than it will be for others.  

So rather than burden some with unrealistic expectations (because that is the kind of thing Jesus got on religious leaders for doing), I'd like to invite everyone to consider what day could, somewhere down the road, become a day of rest for you.

Now name only 1 thing that currently intrudes on that day and keeps it from being restful. 

What would it involve to move that thing to a different day of the week? Or to remove it from the picture altogether? 

And remember, practices are communal, so who could you ask to help you with this? 

Now, we said the Sabbath is a subversive practice. And because it moves against the current of so many of our larger cultural practices and expectations, like swimming out against crashing waves, getting into a rhythm of Sabbath is not easy. 

So many of us are already exhausted from keeping up with the current, the thought of turning and swimming against it might feel like too much. It might even provoke some anger. 

And that's okay - just take a minute to really think about the practical implications you'd face if you attempted to make Sabbath a practice, and honestly acknowledge whatever emotional responses you have ...

And now let's close by spending some time meditating on what power and help really makes it possible for us to swim against the flow of consumption and efficiency and find rest in the flow of divine grace. What reason do we have for hoping that we might become the kinds of people who can embody trust in God's care even as expectations pile up and threats to our wellbeing lurk.

And for the source of this hope, let's look again to the source of the Sabbath.

The birth of sabbath comes at the culmination of the creation story in Genesis 2, where it says, quote, "On the seventh day, God rested and finished his work." 

Hear that attentively. 

"On the seventh day, God rested, and so finished God's work." Notice, at the beginning of the day God spent in rest, things were not complete. It seems one last thing needed to be created to finish the cosmos. 

And God accomplished this not by the typical rhythm of call, response, consideration and time, not by speaking, but by resting. But what could God possibly create by resting? 

Rest.

On the seventh day God rested, and so made rest. 

Just like God's creativity makes our creativity possible, like God's energy enables our work, and God's love funds our love, God's resting makes our rest possible.

And there is an unspoken call here. By inviting us into this rest, God makes a way for the agents God works through to bring God's harmony and beauty to the entire creation to become like the Creator.

When we participate in God's rest, it re-creates in us an intuition and desire for God. An openness to mysteries too great to understand. A state of preparedness for the unexpected. A patience that allows us to wait long enough to discern what God is doing so we can join that rather than take off and implement what makes sense to us.

Sabbath is a creative force. It is different than not doing something. Sabbath rest shapes reality to reflect the peace and beauty of God's own life. If that is not an accomplishment, I do not know what is. 

Practicing the Faith 4 - Practicing Scripture


INTRO 

Knowing the physics of flight -- how lift, drag, and thrust work to get a body off the ground -- is not the same as watching the ground drop below you as the clouds surround you.

Knowing what musical modes are and being able to tell someone John Coltrane used these in innovative ways to push free jazz forward is not the same as putting an intuition in your soul into notes in the air for anyone with ears to hear. 

Knowing the Queens Gambit or what a force out is in baseball is not the same as besting a worthy opponent in Chess or feeling your legs take you somewhere your conscious mind may not even know you need to go so you can feel the ball hit your glove and throw where you should to get an out for your team. 

And knowing that Jesus said do not worry, and love your enemies, is not the same as feeling the lightness of trust take root in your gut or feeling bitterness lose its grip on your chest.

Some things, you have to practice to understand.

So in this series, we hope to help you practice your faith so you can know salvation.

This time we look at what it would mean to go beyond having opinions about the Bible to actually practicing the Scriptures.


STORY

Picture two people, both up before dawn. And in that magic kind of silence that is the perfect soundtrack to the stillness before all the world wakes and gets to doing all they things the world will be doing, these two people are using the first gentle golden rays of light and those few moments of consciousness before everyone else in their household rises to get a few key skills deeper into their instincts. 

One is at a drawing table in front of a window striving over and over to put onto paper that perfect roundness they can envision and appreciate but not quite draw, 

inscribing circle after circle until their hands cramp. Then they stretch out their muscles, take a few breaths, then shift to working on their shading until the movement from light and dark they can effect with charcoal is as gentle or as stark as they want it to be. 

The other person is out in the yard, placing their feet in strategic patterns inside and outside the squares of a speed ladder stretched across the ground. 

Repeating the same moves again and again until the sweat beads and then runs down their face and their feet execute the patterns with greater precision and rapidity. Then they grab a soccer ball and work on keeping it in their air using only their feet until they can do that as well as I could with my hands.

Now imagine, the artist and soccer player did this, five mornings a week, for months, or even years. If they were to dedicate that kind of solitary time and effort to running those drills, their skill would likely become more than impressive. 

But then, if the artist never created a single piece or art that consolidated the curves and lines and angles and shades  they were now capable of pulling off into an image that presented a face or landscape or skyline or whatever, and if they never shared that piece with a community of people who could take in the art and discuss it and perhaps hopefully begin to see more truly something about their everyday world that they'd never before appreciated ... 

And if the soccer player never took all that coordination and dexterity and stamina and instinctual vision for the physics of movement and offered those skills to a team, if they never entered into competition with worthy opponents ...

Then we'd feel about both the artist and the athlete, that even with all their engagement and discipline and skill, even with all that quantity, something vital was missing in the quality of their practice. 

Now, let me make an analogy: 

I want you to imagine someone sitting by a window, in that early morning same silence, in that same golden light awaking all the world's potential, with their scriptures open. 

And let's imagine that 5 mornings out of the week, for months or years, this person comes to know the nuances of God's story and the complexities of the characters that get involved in God's mysterious workings of grace. And this devotee to Scripture learns about ancient cultures and languages and takes 15 minutes at the end of each session to ask for the Holy Spirit's guidance in discerning how this could apply to current situations. And they faithfully record key insights in their personal journals. 

If they put this kind of solitary time and effort into engaging with God in the Scriptures, this person would likely develop some impressive insights and skills. 

But if they never took that and offered those skills and perspectives to engaging moments when their neighbors were struggling to pay the bills, or comforting someone whose life just fell apart, or teaching someone to recognize and celebrate the beauty shooting through each moment of their existence.

And if this person never offered the fruits of all their engagement with scripture to a body of people learning to trust and witness to the reality of God's kingdom in this world, 

... Then would we also feel, like the soccer player never playing soccer or like the artist never creating and sharing art, that something vital was missing in their practice? Really. Would we?

In this episode, we hope to convince you that we should feel that lack ... And not just to critique an overly private way of using Scripture, but to help us see, and appreciate, and desire, the larger beauty and good that comes from participating in the practice in its greater fullness. 

See, the point of scripture is not for someone to sit alone at 5:30 in the morning and have great experiences. Those moments can be marvelous blessings that play an important role in something larger. But, like a bicycle kick in the final seconds of a soccer match, or a perfectly drawn circle on a canvas teaching us to see a landscape, our personal moment engaging Scripture find their real purpose and beauty precisely when they play their part in something larger.

Our personal reading, and study, and praying of scripture is training. It is not the final goal. It's a lot like working on our footwork or the dexterity of our hands, it's like any time we develop skills that help reconcile what we are capable of picturing in our minds with what we are able to do with our bodies. The point is to get something in the person that then allows that person to participate in something.

And for us, within the limits of our mortality, the practice of scripture happens most fully in worship. When people come together as a body, to hear the words of Scripture as the voice of Christ still speaking to us, extending to each of us the call to "follow me." And as a result of our responding to that call from Scripture, worship leads us to a point where we look across the body and blood at friends and at enemies and being invited to allow God to make us one. Then to have that unlikely but still unified body move out of worship, to live worshipfully, in proper response to God. That's practicing scripture. 

So, to help our use of Scripture become training for that kind of participation in God's presence and work, in the conversation and the meditation that follow, we'll go deeper into the goods that come from this kind of engagement, and imagine the goals this use of Scripture can open for us. 


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to “All Things.” This is Julius and Wil, your hosts for the season— and for every season that we can foresee in the future… Your default hosts when we don't have any, anyone more fun than us. I'm just kidding. But anyway, so we've set up how scripture, uh, is a communal practice.

And once again, we're using that word practice in a very particular way, of course, drawing from the work of the philosopher, Alasdair MacIntyre, but, um, that word practice as a way of describing an activity that we engage in that connects us to a tradition or a story greater than ourselves, and that is aimed towards some form of a quote unquote, “the good.” And if you need a refresher on any of this, or if this is new to you, this is your first episode listening in. We cover this concept in depth, in our “Habits to Practice” episode from this series.

So taking a deeper look into scripture, particularly as a practice, let's dive into some of the characteristics that make up a practice in this sense. First off, then, how can we begin to understand scripture through the lens of this differentiation, right, between external goods versus internal goods?

Wilson: All right. So like so many things when it comes to discerning the internal good, it can be tricky. And I think maybe this is a place where, you know, by our, what is this, our second topic on something explicit, but probably our third or fourth time going through looking at internal goods. Now it's a place where I think maybe we're ready to really see that, um… if we, if we just jump at it and try to kind of like, uh, reflexively name, the internal good, or, or, um, that, that comes from a practice, we're probably gonna initially name an external good because the internal goods come by way of like the story engaging, getting into it. And so realizing that— this is why it can be, uh, it, it tends to be a more, um, reliable path to start with…

Okay. Let's remind ourselves what external goods are. External goods are the things that can get attached to almost anything. Right? So external goods are the things that you can get lots of different ways, and it feels like we're manipulating or twisting the thing if we direct it towards this other external good, you know. And over and over and over again, we come back to like money, power and influence, pleasure. Right. So when it comes to scripture, Uh, and I'm sure there are versions of those things at play in it, but how specifically do we see those kinds of, um, things getting attached to our reading and our use of scripture, uh, as external goods.

So Julius, you know, being a Christian, being involved in, immersed in this, this whole thing for so long, what are some of the most common, external goods you've noticed that we could name, you know, by way of contrast on our way towards, uh, describing the internal goods—what are the external goods that you've seen get attached to scripture? 

Julius: Yeah. Um, Starting with the external goods, the first one that came to mind right off the bat was, um. Well, there was this notion, it's a, it's kind of a fun little acronym that I always learned growing up about the Bible is the Bible stands for a “basic instructions before leaving earth.” Um… 

Wilson: That’s not actually what the Bible stands for, but. It just.

Julius: It wasn't reverse engineered that word from the, from the acronym.

Yeah. And once again, I'll preface by saying, like, I'm not saying that one can not get wisdom and guidance by reading scripture. Um, but I think that a very simplistic approach towards a concept like that, um, maybe shifts our focus on the wrong thing, where we start to approach the text as a book of answers.

Like, uh— Wil, I'm gonna, I'm gonna steal your little example here, but I haven't seen this movie, but you were talking about the Simpsons Movie?

Wilson:  Do it. It's it's a good one. Steal it. 

Julius:  Um, from my memory of Wil's memory of this movie of like, uh… was it the end of the world or something? Uh, it was like an apocalyptic thing?

Wilson:  Yeah. At the beginning of the Simpsons movie, when we, uh, and it's been, I dunno how long since I've seen the movie, but I remember they're like flaming asteroids falling to earth and, you know, crevices of earthquakes and crevices are open to everyone's panicking and Homer, you know, does his characteristic squeal and runs straight to the church. Right.

And it's pretty obvious he hasn't been there in a long time, but runs straight to the church, and pulls a Bible out of the back of the pew, flips through it real quick, and he's like, “Ah, this book doesn't have any answers!”

Julius:  Yeah, exactly. It's funny because the, I mean. The Bible doesn't read like an instruction manual at all

Wilson:  No. 

Julius:  The closest thing maybe is the book of Proverbs. But even then it's like, 

Wilson:  Yep. 

Julius:  it's, it's not, it's not cut and dry. Like, this is what you must. So that's, I feel like the two things that came to mind were, or that approach, right.

The basic instruction manual. And I also wrote down here magic eight ball, like. I mean, I remember coming to scripture so much growing up, like faced with some, um, I don't know, difficult situation coming to it, approaching it basically like magic eight ball of like, a, “What will I do with my life, Bible?”

And, and once again, like I'm like, I'm not saying that that's like completely wrong, but  when we focus on that as the external good, um, I guess to name it, clearly, we start to, uh, approach scripture only as a  means of, um— I'll name the external good here as accruing knowledge for the sake of control…

And I don't mean just the, like, controlling other humans or something, or like using it as a means of exercising control over other people—even though it has been twisted to do that... Um, here, what I'm talking about is the like… moments where we face uncertainty, maybe in our lives? And we want to have some knowledge of like, like the magic eight ball of, like, uh, what, like… “Will this work out?” Like, “What…can you tell me what to do?” Like facing the uncertain things in our lives, and then trying to meet it with some certainty, um, to combat the kind of fear that comes with that.

Julius: I guess one other external good. I can name is very similar to, um, what I named in the prior episode in  practicing worship, where I think a lot of the times I would approach the practice of reading scripture—especially from the lens that scripture is only meant to be read individually, like in a, like a private study time— that the external good that I sought from it, like the carrot on the stick was to feel good. Either to feel good about myself, for doing my duty as a Christian, or to find some kind of passage that would make me feel better about myself.

Wilson:  Right. When in reality, often the, the scripture will challenge, disrupt things. Uh we'll we'll put you, Yeah.

I don't remember how many times, uh, well, let me look back…When I was 14? I decided to start at the beginning and read the Bible all the way through and. I don't remember how many times in the first month or two of doing that I encountered stories that just made me sit back, especially as a young teen, and go, “What…?  That’s in the Bible? What is...”

That's how— I mean, the first one is in early in Genesis when God makes a covenant with Abraham and the whole little ritual that is described there about like animals being cut in half and there's a darkness and things float through the pieces and like, it's just like, I remember thinking, “This is… if this were a movie, I would think this is awesome. But because this is the Bible, I feel like I just don't know what to do with it.” This “I'm not expecting this,” kind of thing.

And then you get to like Genesis 38. Which I'll I won't describe it, but if you're, if you're curious, just go crack, open a Bible and read Genesis 38 and see what you find there. Right. And there there's so many things that, that don't, I mean, it, it is not guaranteed. If you just crack this book open to Emory any page and start reading, you're going to get something that is just immediately, easily positive and encouraging. Nope. Ultimately, sure. This is leading somewhere good,  but you know, I mean, it's like Psalm 23.

Sometimes God leads us through the valley of the, shadow of death. And the thing is the good news is God is leading us through that darkness. Not that we will get an ind around and we'll never have to walk through the valley of the shadow of death. And sometimes scripture becomes the thing— it’s the, the tangible instrument used by God to initiate that journey into something difficult and challenging.

I had a conversation with the principal of one of my kids' schools a couple of years ago. And, you know, she knew as a pastor and taught at a, at a private Christian university, and she said, “You know, I honestly, I don't like the Bible that much because it's not black and white enough for me.” And I thought that's one of the most insightful critiques. Because so many people will give this like, “Oh, I don't like the Bible. It's so black and white.” And I think, “You haven't read it, have you?” “You've heard people use it in certain  ways, but you haven't, you haven't read it have you?”

And she said, “I'm a, I'm a very, like, straight up cut and dry person and so I, you know, I just struggled with the, the scriptures taking me to places of ambiguity and making me question things when here's, no, this is what I want…” that at that point, there, there was at least I felt like there was a greater than level of understanding and respect there, even though we disagreed about what to do with it, at least it was. Yeah. I think you have a clear read on what the thing is and what it could do.

So if, if these are some of the things that get attached to it, Right. Just having… “Give me an easy out,” uh, “Help me not face the consequences of a difficult situation,” um… “Help me not have to face difficult feelings or emotions or questions.” Right.

 This sort of like if this is what the external goods are that we would attach to the scriptures, how does that help us set up a contrast to start to see what the internal goods are? So Julius what's been something  that's that's most helpful. You've encountered that that begins to allow you to recognize and value some of the genuine internal goods too. 

 Julius:  Yeah, I think as best as I can name it right now, what I'll keep coming back to is that the point of scripture, or like the internal good there is, um, to draw us into communion with God and, and that communion with God always, um, I guess, requires of us to be in right communion with others in the world around us. That, uh, I feel like the that's the internal good that comes with like, pretty much all of the things we were talking about is communion with God and one another through that.

Um, and I love how once again, referencing a prior episode that we did on a book called Simply Christian by NT Wright. One of the things that really stuck out to me, there was a chapter on scripture there. Um, but it was this concept that, um, approaching scripture, whether individually or especially communally provides a window where heaven and earth overlap—that is where, where, um, God's realm and the heavenly realms, and, like, our realm can overlap that the scripture is a place to meet God and to be shaped reshaped by God in that meeting.

Wilson:  The last thing I'd say on internal goods is—I mean like so many things, right, we're gonna, we're gonna see as we move through these different Christian practices, um, how they, they work at different levels to do some, some very common things, right. Uh, for, for, on the personal level and on the corporate level.

And one of the things over and over and over again, we see, “Oh,  here's, here's a different avenue or a different means of making us like Christ.” Right. Doing something to us for our transformation. Um, and so that's— just naming it at the front end and then I'll, I'll talk through the process here—the, in the internal good is making Christ-like people.

Right. The internal good of scripture is making Christ-like people. Okay. It's straight up, says this right in Timothy. Right. “All scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching correcting rebuking and training in righteousness.” It doesn't say it's useful for winning arguments. Right.

And you see this too. The, uh, there are places in like Acts where someone stands up and gives a defense of what's happening or explains what they're doing or preaches a sermon, and they use scripture, and you see that like scripture isn't this, it's not used in this like, “Oh, hey, here's this verse from the old Testament, so obviously we're right, right? We all agree now don't we?” they  understand, like, this is one piece of a larger argument that makes something credible. Right. So it's not that scripture itself is this kind of thing that you can just put out there and any reasonable person will go, “Oh, well, since you've got averse to quote it that way, I now have to agree with your case.” Because they realized, “Well, no, this other person over here could read that same verse in a very different way.”

Um, and so what, what it says is not that it's useful for winning your arguments— it's useful for training in righteousness. If you're using it well, it's gonna make you like Jesus. And that is what becomes credible to other people. It's a, it's a Christ-like person in a Christ-like spirit that then reads this verse in a certain way that seems Christ-like. And that pulls it together in a way that harmonizes with God's world and God's reality. And then that's the way you, you would put forward your witness and hope that it would win hearts and minds.

So it's useful for training and  righteousness. One of my favorite people here, just to give like something super concrete on like how this would look and using scripture, is St. Gregory of Nyssa. Um, and he's following a guy named Origen— and we have podcasts on both of these figures, if you want to search on origin and Gregory of Nyssa, um. But Gregory, he looks at, um, and so concretely, he's looking at the books Proverbs, um, Ecclesiastes, and song of Solomon. Um, and he, he looks at this and goes, okay— so, and what I'm referencing here is we talked about, oh, not all scripture is just this easy answer book, right?

There are places of it that are just confounding stories and images that like stir things up. Um, but then there are places though, where there is just really basic, like, concrete instruction, because we do need that too. It's not that the Bible doesn't have any of that. And he says like, “Hey, all of us need that sometime.”

Right. If you're looking  kind of broad scale, like stages of development, right. We all start out there and we need that. Right. But it's also true that even as you progress and mature to different stages, there are still, you never leave that behind. There are still times where you're like, “This is actually what I really, really, I need some encouragement. I do need some guidance.”

He says there are places where you go… there are places that scripture does try to give exactly that. And he says like, Proverbs would be that place where you go and here's just… you get stuff like, just wisdom about friendship, and discerning things, right. “Hey, you know what,” uh, some Proverbs says things like, “Hey— constructive criticism from a friend is worth so much more than flattery and kisses from an enemy.”

Right. Just giving you some, “All right. It's tough, you know, and I didn't, I wasn't looking for that kind of feedback today, but there it is.” Whoa, whoa, what do I do with it? Can I dismiss it or do I,  do I take it? Well, that is from a friend. It's someone who does know. Right. So Proverbs gives that just basic instruction, how to make it through.

And then he says, you move on to Ecclesiastes, and now you get like philosophy. That's that's the stuff where it's like “Meaningless, meaningless, everything is meaningless. I've considered everything under the sun,” right? Now that's going to challenge you. It's going to challenge your thinking. It's going to take you to a deeper place, right?

And he says, there's a progression here. You give yourself a foundation, something to push off of. Now that you've got that let's challenge ourselves and you move on to this. And then he says, and then you go to Song of Solomon. And especially he says now, because at this point, It doesn't talk directly about Jesus, it was written before Christ came, and so if you're going to see Jesus in this, it's going to require a lot from you. It’s going to take discernment. It's going to take wisdom and you're going to have to move beyond. Cause as long as, I mean, I don't know if you, if you guys, if you haven't read this, this would be one of those places kind of like Genesis  38, go read Song of Songs or Song of Solomon.

It can be the, the translation can vary from Bible, the Bible, same book, either Song of Songs or Song of Solomon, same book. But you read that this is where you you'll read things about like breasts…

Julius:  Right.

Wilson:  And, and in, in a very sexualized. Right. And, and images and metaphors of like pomegranates and peaches, and you're like, “…I don't think you're talking about eating a pomegranate.”

Right. And you can sit there. And if you go at that, and this is where Gregory says, if you sit there and you just take this as like a, you know, literal on the surface instruction… you're going to be surprised to find this in the Bible. But he says, “Or you can go beyond.” You can, you can let the—and he says, and this is the real value. And he says, the way he puts it are, these are intentionally challenging, intentionally obscure texts. And that's their point because now the point is not just to give you something, the point is to do something to you. To require something of  you. And now to see Christ in this, you're going to have to engage.

You're going to allow, you're going to have to allow yourself, the way you think, what you love, how you value these things— you're going to have to allow them to be reshaped and molded so that you can come to a place where now, even that is training you in righteous, understood as training and Christlikeness. And so that's the internal good. There is again, moving from, not just, “Here's something, here's some instruction I'm going to hand you,” to requiring something of you that makes you more like Jesus. 

Julius:  I love how you tied it all together with naming one of the internal goods of scripture is to form us into a type of person. And that type of person is, like, that is Christ-like. And that begins to tap into the. One of the other characteristics that defines a practice is  this concept of virtues and how a practice both requires, and also cultivates virtues in the people who, who participate in this practice.

And so you've already named that, like, um… Christ-likeness broadly is one of those things is, is one of those things that's cultivated in us as we engage in the practice of scripture as a practice and as a communal practice, um. Are there any other virtues that, uh, you can name, uh, either that are required or cultivated from the practice of scripture?

Wilson:  Yeah. Well, getting into that, I'll just restate again, how we're seeing something again, that, you know— we’ve said that part of what's so compelling to me, um, and compelling, and and makes it convincing, trustworthy? Is the internal consistency of the way MacIntyre talks about a practice. Because now in really beginning to look for  internal goods and it getting to a place where we're at least like provisionally describing them, you know, talking about them well, enough to proceed on this, you also kind of organically start outlining and talking about the virtues that they grant and require.

So in saying like, “Okay, scripture, if the internal good is it makes us like Christ— well, let's look. Okay. Well, how would you do that with this odd, almost like surrealist horror scene from Genesis? And then this, this really erotic poem, ongoing sustained poem?”

Like how, if we’re gonna see that in a way that we really seeks this internal good, you also have to start talking about outlining the kind of virtues it would take to do that. And so like the one that we've already, I mean, it's, it's right there. And either the listeners probably already named it, they may not use the exact word,  but you know, a synonym for what I'm about to say, or once we say it, you're like, “Oh yeah, we have been talking about that already.”

And that's just, it takes, it takes wisdom. It takes becoming the kind of person it takes virtue of not just requiring things, being handed to you, but become becoming the kind of person that you know, has the virtue that can take something and go, “But what is this?” You know, let me not just run with my first initial impression, but what's there that I haven't noticed yet?

And how can I see it? How can I interpret it? And then use it in such a way that would lead me to Christ-likeness. And that, that's discernment. Um, And the Bible itself, straight up talks about the need for this. It's funny. This is, this is why, uh, I love and kind of appreciate that we have satire like the Simpsons movie that would make fun of some of the things, because it helps us. Right.

And it's just, whether it's intentional or not, it's another voice drawing our attention to things that the scriptures themselves draw attention to. Because when it gets to a point where we use the Bible in a way that the Bible itself says, “Don't do this. I'm not this, this is not what I am, don't do this.”

And when we consider content consistently keep using it. If we're not listening to its own voice, then we need another voice. Like, you know, some satirical, Hollywood film D to make fun of it, to be another voice saying, “No, that's not what. it is.”

Um, and my, my go-to here. My favorite, one of these is when in, in one of Peter's letters, which is part of the New Testament. So in Second Peter, he talks about Paul's letters. Um, and so this is in the first century, the, the New Testament has not been canonized yet. And most folks, if you were to say the scriptures of the Bible, you would think, you know, the  Hebrew Old—The Hebrew scriptures—or what Christians call the Old Testament.

But Peter is talking about the letters that Paul has written, you know…Peter's gone through, it's towards the end of his letter. He's talked to the church about several things, and then he notes. Now Paul has written to you— our brother Paul has written to you about these same things, according to the wisdom that he's been given.

Right? And th-this is, is where it gets… if you, if you take your time, and, and it's not even like read between the lines. It's really just take your time to listen. This is where it gets really intriguing and fun for me. So our brother Paul, he's written about these same things to you. According to the wisdom that's been given to him that passive is theologically rich, right?

This wisdom has been given to him. So it's, there's a sense of like, this has been given to him by God. That's a high claim, that passive, that passive verb is like, um, powerful. It's, uh,  it carries a huge claim. That's what I was going for. The passive voice carries a huge claim. God has given this to you and he's talked to you about it. According to the way that he does.

That's a quote, right? Speaking of this, “as he does.” Right. So there's two things. Like it's not even like two sides of the, it's like just two dimensions of the same thing… “It's been given to him by God, but he talked about it the way he talks.”

 Julius:  Yeah.

 Wilson:  And, and what does Peter think about how Paul talks? Quote: “There are some things in them that are hard to understand. Because that's how our brother Paul talks.” Right. So already like, look how, look how… hm.

 I mean, we're talking about requiring discernment. What we're looking at here requires discernment, because Peter discerns God's gift, God's wisdom in this, in, in what? In how Paul talks. And Paul can be—he turns me around too, guys.

 If you've read Paul's letters and you got confused, hey—you're in good company. It it, through Peter, the one upon the rock upon whom Jesus would build his church through him too. There are some things in there that are hard to undo. And so are right there already. It, you're seeing like scripture saying, “I require discernment. And that's actually what I would want to give you.” Um, I'm kind of personifying scripture. I'm speaking for scripture. If I could be so bold, but this is these, the scriptures here saying like, “I require discernment of you. And by requiring that of you, that's exactly what I want to give you. If you will use me. I want to require the virtue of discernment in you. And by requiring me, that's what I want to give you,”

Because then it goes on to say, this is still a Second Peter chapter three, verse 16— “There are some things in them that are hard to understand which the ignorant and the unstable,” you know, so “which the non-discerning twist to their own distress.” So scripture itself says without discernment, without stability, without like a dependence and in a dynamic engagement with Christ in the spirit, as you read these things, seeking discernment, without that, Hey, we know we're dangerous, you know, it's, it's no, it's no news to anybody that the Bible is a dangerous book.

 We know this, it can be twisted to destruction or. Used with, with discernment, with that, that openness towards the actual goal of becoming like Christ can lead you to salvation— can lead you to, to receive the gift of God's wisdom. 

 Julius:  Yeah. I think what I appreciate about you bringing up the virtue of discernment is that it…addresses some of the things that we  talked about in the beginning of when we—when we can have a tendency to approach scripture as an instruction manual, or a magic eight ball, that the problem that we're trying to address is either uncertainty or the need for guidance in a hard situation, or really what we're looking at, like the question that we ask when we try to approach the Bible as a book of answers is, “How do we make our way through this world?”

And seeing discernment as a virtue is so much more substantial than approaching it from purely that external, like… “We need rules.” Like, “We need instructions.” But that there's something that, that has so much more depth as to, like… this scripture shapes us into the kind of people who can have the discernment, so that we’re the, we’re the kind of people who know then how to make our way about the world, as we are shaped by Christ.


MEDITATION

A practice, as we've been using the term, is not just a coherent and worthwhile activity. It is also a socially established and cooperative pursuit. So part of what helps us recognize it's character and value is recognizing the community that we enter as we engage the practice.

Think about what happens to the time spent alone in your driveway working on your jump shot, when you begin to picture Larry Bird consistently sinking Threes as you release the ball and hold your follow-though. Or what it does to the moment you leave the ground for a layup if you imagine Jordan gliding through the air.

Or what happens when you sit to study for an exam, and you also picture Isaac Newton sitting at his desk pouring over his own notes? Or Einstein catching thoughts by scribbling them on scraps of paper in his jacket pocket. Or Marie Curie exploring the decomposition of atomic matter and energy. 

In preparing to engage in any practice - whether it be sports or science or business - it opens things up when you picture the community that you are training to join. 

This goes for Faith and Scripture, too. In the opening of this episode, we showed you the Scriptures do not end with private devotions. Now we want to help you appreciate that Scripture doesn't begin there either.

If you were to sit, at any time of day, and open your own copy of the Bible, and begin to wonder about where it came from, would you be able to picture the community that came before you that helped put that book in your hands?

We might begin by thinking about authorship. So we can imagine great names like Sts. Matthew, Peter, and Paul. We can picture Mary sitting with the apostles and telling them the story about the time she and Joseph took Jesus, when their son was 12, to the Temple, and lost him.

But the thread of authorship takes us even deeper into a mysterious community than even Mary and the Apostles.

For example: St. Paul didn't write every word of the letters that bear his name. Several times he incorporated into his letters a few hymns that were being sung in the earliest Christian worship gatherings. One of these is found in Philippians 2:5-11. 

As I read it, see yourself sitting in your favorite spot, during your best time of day, reading along. And superimposed onto this image, also picture the unknown believer who wrote it, and the outlines of the congregations that sang it centuries ago in living rooms and synagogues.

Let the same mind be in you that was in Christ Jesus, 

who, though he was in the form of God

did not regard equality with God 

as something to be exploited,

but emptied himself,  

taking the form of a slave,

being born in human likeness.

And being found in human form,

   he humbled himself

and became obedient to the point of death--

even death on a cross. 

Therefore God also highly exalted him

and gave him the name

 that is above every name,

so that at the name of Jesus

every knee should bend,

  in heaven and on earth and under the earth,

and every tongue should confess

that Jesus Christ is Lord,

to the glory of God the Father.

Picture yourself reading the stories of Cain and Noah and Abraham, and wed to this the image of the families that gathered around a fire late in the evening and told those stories for generations before they were ever written down.

Picture yourself holding the book as a whole, and wondering who decided what books would be included. And integrated into that image, see yourself in the midst of all the women and men and children who left the temples of Apollo and Dionysus to hear a different story about a different God who saves the world not through warfare or wanton fertility that tries to outrun and cover over death, but by confidently embracing the world and entering into it's death to transform it with life. 

Picture yourself hearing those words in worship and in response see yourself receiving with those ancient women and men, along with the words of the Bible, also the bread and wine. And see yourself as part of that company then taking that picture of God and the world and testing it in the way we trade goats and lay bricks and farm fields and and allocate funds and celebrate wins and endure suffering. 

And if you can discern a thread between your personal spiritual drills, the church's worship, and the ongoing presence of Jesus in all those moments and activities spreading across centuries, as testified to in that monumental collection of writings, picture yourself saying with that congregation that spans ages, "Yes, let's call these 'Scriptures.'" 

Practicing the Faith 3 - Practicing Worship


INTRO 

Knowing the physics of flight -- how lift, drag, and thrust work to get a body off the ground -- is not the same as watching the ground drop below you as the clouds surround you.

Knowing what musical modes are and being able to tell someone John Coltrane used these in innovative ways to push free jazz forward is not the same as putting an intuition in your soul into notes in the air for anyone with ears to hear. 

Knowing the Queens Gambit or what a force out is in baseball is not the same as besting a worthy opponent in Chess or feeling your legs take you somewhere your conscious mind may not even know you need to go so you can feel the ball hit your glove and throw where you should to get an out for your team. 

And knowing that Jesus said do not worry, and love your enemies, is not the same as feeling the lightness of trust take root in your gut or feeling bitterness lose its grip on your chest.

Some things, you have to practice to understand.

So in this series, we hope to help you practice your faith so you can know salvation.

This time we look at the story of worship, beginning to end, so the truth of why we need it, and so why God gives it.


STORY

The story of worship in the Bible is quite telling.

In the earliest episodes, the people of God have little to no formal instruction about how to worship. Here and there they build makeshift monuments of stone and burn things on them. Like you might expect. 

But there are also episodes where the worship and communion with God, to contemporary ears, wouldn't just seem like "Old Testament ceremonies," that involved sacrifices of more than just time and attention. There are episodes that sound sound outright bizarre and disquieting.

For example: the man who came to be called the Father of the faith, Abram, did not come to be thought of that way because he displayed impeccable worship forms. 

The following bit comes from Genesis 15:9-18. 

(God) said to (Abram), "Bring me a heifer three years old, a female goat three years old, a ram three years old, a turtledove, and a young pigeon." 10 He brought him all these and cut them in two, laying each half over against the other; but he did not cut the birds in two. 11 And when birds of prey came down on the carcasses, Abram drove them away. 12 As the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell upon Abram, and a deep and terrifying darkness descended upon him. 13 Then the Lord said to Abram, "Know this for certain, that your offspring shall be aliens in a land that is not theirs, and shall be slaves there, and they shall be oppressed for four hundred years; 14 but I will bring judgment on the nation that they serve, and afterward they shall come out with great possessions. 15 As for yourself, you shall go to your ancestors in peace; you shall be buried in a good old age. 16 And they shall come back here in the fourth generation; for the iniquity of the Amorites is not yet complete." 17 When the sun had gone down and it was dark, a smoking fire pot and a flaming torch passed between these pieces. 18 On that day the Lord made a covenant with Abram, saying, "To your descendants I give this land, from the river of Egypt to the great river, the river Euphrates ..."

That little ceremony sounds, pagan? Or to many contemporary Christian ears, more simply, it sounds wrong.

Then, we get to Exodus, when that ominous prophecy that was delivered in some paranormal ceremony had come true and Abraham's descendants were enslaved in Egypt and desperately in need of some help, they had no Scriptures or books of developed doctrines to guide their search for divine aid. They had no liturgies to outline for them what kinds of ceremonial actions and words might please God and win them some attention.

The Hebrew people had, at this point, nothing but groans and cries. Nothing but the outworking of their inner being inarticulately protesting against what they knew was not right.

And that is what God heard and honored.

As a result of God hearing and honoring their groans and cries, the people experienced a power even Greater than Pharaoh's. Day turned to night, water turned to blood, and the wildness of the natural world overtook the stability of human civilization. And when things settled, the people found themselves no longer enslaved, but roaming free in a feral and expansive wilderness.  

But then, like anyone whose world had been so shaped by a character that would use their power to exploit and manipulate them for its own wealth and amusement, in that wilderness, the people started to fear that the new power they'd just witnessed might be greater than Pharaoh's in magnitude, but just like Pharaoh's in character.

And they started to wonder, and then whisper, and then actually believe and act like that Power would bring them out of Egypt only to let them die in the wilderness. Just because it could. 

The fear got so great, they even began to want to go back to Egypt. They were so unaccustomed to and terrified by the source of their life and freedom that they became convinced the thing to do was to return to the place of slavery and death.

So then ... Notice: after God rescued them from slavery, and after they showed they still could not trust the source of their freedom, then God gives them concrete instructions on how to worship. 

We see in this story that God doesn't require a day sacrificed to God's honor. God gives them the Sabbath, to let them know even in the wilderness they could take a day to rest and rely on the one who cares for them without fearing unrelenting demands would lead to the wrath of a whip. 

God doesn't need special words and prayers. Our groans and inarticulate longings are more than sufficient as far as God is concerned. For us, though, the words shape how we think, so we need words that will help re-conform our thoughts about God and the world that have been distorted by fear and pain. 

It is a vital first step to get the people out of slavery. But the longer work is getting the slavery out of the people. Victims of trauma know something about this. 

We live in a broken world. And that breaks us. And that brokenness extends even to our ability to speak and believe and trust true things about God and where our life comes from and how it is sustained.

The truth is people who live in a broken world need worship, and God gives it, to bind us to the source of our life and freedom by our building trust.

It's something like how regular exercise keeps our muscles from atrophying. Regular worship works to strengthen and sustain the ties between our minds and hearts and instincts and the source of our being ... So that our fears and hurts don't take over and direct our life's vitality toward dead ends.

So, in the conversation that follows, Julius and I talk about the genuine goods that come engaging in worship, and then in the meditation we explore the ultimate goal or reason for worship, hoping all of this can help us appreciate that real worship is not a demand. It's a gift.


DISCUSSION

Wilson: All right. So in this series, we're looking at how the idea of a practice as we've defined it and explored it in previous episodes could help us, um, hopefully do other central Christian things well… better. This time we're tackling, um, how practice can help us view worship differently. Uh, but then again, we don't want it to just stay in the, the head spot.

Um, hopefully that will open up some channels for us to do worship better in a fuller way. And by better and fuller way, what we mean—the way we kind of laid out the goal that we're headed for here—is that we would do worship in a way that better aligns us with and prepares us for the kingdom of God.

So to get that whole thing rolling, let's just start with playing with, now, the word worship for a little bit. And so Julius, to kick it over to you to get this started, if you were, you know, just off the top of your head, or imagining, you know, just, just kind of… um, not sabotaging… was just kind of cornering, uh, an average attender, you know, a regular worship attender and say, “Hey, what is worship?” Like under the pressure, without prep, what do you think would come out of people's mouths?

Julius: I, yeah, I, I think that the thing that comes off the top of my head is the music. It's always, there's always… It's a common question when someone shows up late to church and then talks about it afterwards, like, “Hey, how was worship? Sorry. I missed the worship.”

Wilson: I remember, I think a lot of people with an evangelical background, have I remember it somewhat commonly being expressed like as, “Hey, we had such a great service,” like, “the Holy Spirit just fell on the place and we just worshiped. We didn't even,” you know…. “And we didn't even have a sermon, we just worshiped,” because what they're assuming is yeah… 

Julius: Yeah. So it's either that's that feels like the default connotation, Especially like you said, for those of us who grew up, um, around the  evangelical church. Um, but I feel like even among like my church experience. Um, evangelical churches and I mean, a few other denominations really, there is also this notion that I feel like it was a counter stream to the people who are like, who default to associating the word worship with worship music, that there is, uh, an equally prevalent strain of church folks who would push back against that and be like, “Oh, it's not just the music. Everything is worship.” Like the, "Your whole life is worship,” which is like, which we're not knocking, but the…it’s worth nuancing. 

Wilson: Right. Let's make sure we understand that that's an ideal, uh, goal, but not like it. It's just what, you know, when I lost my temper and screamed at my, my friend, “Hey, it's all worship, man. It's okay.”

Julius: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So. 

Wilson: “When I wasn't paying attention and like ran my car through your, your lawn and ruined your daisies, but you know what? It's all good.”

Julius: It's actually. Yeah. It's unfortunately it is not just the default when you're a part of the church. It is. 

Wilson: I just, sorry, I just want to apologize for that like, really ran, ran my car through your lawn thing. Cause when I first pictured was—

Julius: Yeah. I that didn't even phase me for whatever reason. 

Wilson: What was happening to me, in it, because I'm so visual, it was an image first and the first image was a car, like going through a front wall or a dry. And I'm like, ah, but then they would think I was drunk and I don't want people to think that I'd drive drunk. So I like on the fly, shifted it to just tearing up daisies, 

Julius: That's funny. Well, I, it didn't phase me because that did happen to me. No, was when I was learning to drive, I like didn't know how to work a steering wheel. I just like pop to the curb and ended up on someone's lawn. 

Wilson: Well, I guess what I was really going for was like inattention that caused damage to somebody else. 

Julius: There we go. 

Wilson: However, that happened to have happened.

Julius: Yeah, there we go. Um, but yeah, I feel like those are the, the two, the two biggest things that are the default answer. And honestly, at this stage in like doing this work in ministry, and having, like, a degree in theology, it still feels like such a daunting question to answer. Um, I was, I was just telling, Wil before this, that reminds me if I was invited to, um, to lead music  to other people, to lead worship, to lead me, to lead worship music for, um, a conference—it was a youth conference—and the pastor who, the youth pastor who was in charge, um, told me, “Yeah, just to introduce you, I'll have you up on stage, you'll say a little bit about yourself and then I'll also ask you the question, ‘What is worship?’” and defining the word worship to a bunch of high school and middle schoolers. And I remember like making a making a joke that really bombed, whereas like yeah. You know, worship. Comes from the root words worth, which means like how much we value something and ship, which is a giant boat. And they're like, “Oh yeah, yeah, yeah.” And it just didn't land at all. But 

Wilson:“I’m tracking with you, man. I'm getting, um, I'm deep too.” 

Julius:  Like, “Definitely yes…ships. I think it's a metaphor.” Um, where I did end up steering that after the joke bombed terribly was, um, it was another thing that I picked up of, like, uh, I'd heard a lot of sermons of, um… Uh, about that word worship and breaking it down. And how like, it has to do with “worth” and like what, some German word… schippe? S C H I P P E… which is like to, um, basically to recognize something's worth, right.

Or like to, um, to acknowledge or to tout how much we value something. Um, so yeah, that was, that was another kind of definition of like, uh, “Oh, worship is the things that we do to show how much we value God.”

Wilson: So worship for a lot of people can be one of those things that's like, “I know I've participated in it and I'm pretty sure I recognize it when it happens, but I don't know if I could put words to it.” Right. And so in that kind of place, we can easily, you know, reduce it to something like music, or we could then push it to, again, a good ideal, but in such an abstract and idealistic way that’s not super helpful, like, “Oh, it's everything.”

And I feel like towards the end there, you really helped us get some traction. Cause worship is, is the thing that ascribes proper worth or due, but also allows us to recognize, you know, what are the things that are, that are really worth our time, our energy, even our very lives that's getting somewhere.

And, and now here's where practice, um, as we've defined it can come in and really like give us something under our feet to push up on to, to gain some more ground on this. Especially through, you know, thinking about worth and value. So one of the things we talked about in previous episodes, that’s core to, uh, practice, uh, a thing that people do together and seek to do together well, um… 

One of the things that practice is all about is seeking internal goods. Now, you didn't hear these internal goods are, are known in contrast to what's been called external goods. So the external goods are, are other things that there could be lots and lots of ways that we could get these things.

There could be several other ways that we could achieve these ends. And it tends to be things like status, power… So when it comes to, to worship, you know, as, as a step towards looking at, at the real value and, and what worship can teach us to value, what are some of the external goods that can get attached to worship and distract us?

Julius, what are some of the most common, external goods you see getting attached to worship? 

Julius: Yeah the biggest one that I immediately, when trying to list off examples, was like, feeling good…? And that can cut a few different ways, either like people can approach worship as a time, whether, whether it is just the music or the entire service as like a vehicle for, um, as something therapeutic, you know, of like, “Oh, I'm feeling really sad and so I'm going to go…” and the expectation that this is solely to make me feel better about myself or, um… Sometimes it's even like… I think I've seen it— I've experienced this desire to kind of like go there and even, maybe feel bad for bad for yourself or bad about yourself and how that is. 

Like you're seeking in catharsis of like, seeking this moment of like, uh, uh, of, oh, I feel convicted and it's leading me to cry and it's like making this really Mo this real moment of earnestness. And it's like, it's seeking…. catharsis is what it is. So I've seen it cut both ways of feeling something. Um, which once again, I will nuance with, I don't think that those things can't happen when the church comes together to worship, but what- those aren't the things that we pursue. So feeling good, or feeling at all, uh, is one of them. Another one is just like…

Wilson: The feelings, the feelings themselves. 

Julius: Exactly. Yeah. An emotional experience. 

Wilson: Right. And that, I mean, that makes me think of like relate relationships that really matter. You know, whether it's romantic or deep friendship, if it ends up becoming about the feeling the other person gives, it's probably not going to last. Right. And so at some point, if it's no longer exciting, you don't make me laugh as much as you used to or whatever… Like if, what you're really after— and that's the question which shows is, is it the friendship? Is it the relationship, or was it for you really about the feelings you would get? And so if you're not getting that, you're just willing to abandon. The thing. And so for some people, if they attach to the external good of the feelings to worship, this is how you end up abandoning the whole practice because you know, you're not, you're not getting the whatever emotional response or experience out of it that you were expecting.

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: Another one you were about to name was…?

Julius: Yeah. The other one was, um. Ugh, I guess the least charitable way is like upping attendance,  just upping attendance for its own sake. Like, maybe a more charitable way would be like building up community or gathering people or whatever, but for, I feel like the external good of, oh, if we do worship well, That means that it is going to inevitably attract more people to be part of our specific congregation or whatever.

And if it's not, if we are not growing in numbers, then we must be doing worship wrong. Uh, that is a huge kind of like external good that I feel like is, has become like a, make-it-or-break-it metric for like how a lot of people do worship.

Wilson:  Of course we would, we would say that we would want people to find joy in life in Christ, and we would want our worship to be a place where that does happen. And sure, we would want more and more people to find that, but it's easy for-if, if just the numbers themselves become the thing, then really it's just another way for the external goods of like status, power, influence, uh, even money, you know, just more people in the seats, maybe more people giving to the offering plate, you know.

That's just the way with worship those external goods that you see over and over and over again, latching on to inherently good things and twisting them can get latched on to the practice of worship.

Julius: Yeah. I think one of the other things, and this kind of ties in with the, um, with the feeling-state thing, but I think there's this sense of, um, seeing worship primarily as an arena where we, like, can feel the satisfaction of giving something back to God, or like offering something up to God. Which, um, I mean— I think there is something beautiful about us, like responding to God's faithfulness and like showing gratitude and all that stuff.

But I think that, um, it, it was, it was actually reading an author that I've referenced before James Smith talk about worship and it's like the directionality and how, like so much of it is what the spirit does to us and in us as a people and not just like a unidirectional, like, “Oh, worship is exclusively, what we do or accomplish or perform in order to like give something to God.” Um, I think that's a, that that's a place that can get kind of misconstrued as well.

Wilson: Yeah I mean, good… W-if it is good worship, it'll bring us to a true or better understanding of in relationship with experience of God. And, uh, it's, it's really important that we realize, um, God doesn't need this from us. Uh, it reminds me of when I was like, uh, 18, 19 years old. Some of the best advice I got from a mentor at that time, you know— I'm also, I'm an Enneagram four and so I was looking for the perfect the perfect romantic partner that would, that would get me. 

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: And, and one of the best pieces of advice that I got was, “You know, Wil, the best way to prepare for marriage is to work, to become the kind of person that doesn't need to be married.” Um, and I think there's, there's something of a, of a principle there, or an analogy that can be made to what's happening with worship, is, precisely what makes it so good and what it is is linked to the truth that God doesn't need it from us.

Wilson:  All right. So those are external goods. Those are, those are things that it's not about. Um, and now to revisit a bit of our conversation, but see how it applies concretely in something like worship, we said in an earlier episode that naming the internal goods can be tough, um, because you, you kinda have to tell a story. Because, um, and you know, we said it's something like in the practice of baseball—

Sure, baseball, like anything else can become about the money. It can become about the fame, the influence, the highs, the feelings, you know… the status. Um, but, but you… to name, like “Why play the game for itself?” you kind of have to start to tell the story about, “Well, here's this club and they went this long without ever winning a championship. And then in this year, and then…” Game of this series, this player, you know, felt what it was to take the ball into his glove, to have his teammate be where they're supposed to be. You know, all that kind of stuff. The internal good tends to be so concrete that you have to tell a story, you have to pick something.

And so in starting to name, “All right, not those external goods— what are internal goods?” the story I think of is what it was, you know, back when I was the pastor of a local congregation week after week. To, um, to facilitate communion or the UK. Um, and there's a handful of things about that, you know? So, um, and we've said this in other episodes, uh, and here's another place where it pops up because it was a very deep, rich practice and experience that I consistently would get complaints about how we practiced Eucharist, because it was clumsy.

Um. We, we would do it by intinction, which means people would come forward and actually dip, you know, take the bread and dip it in the cup. We would have to line up. We would have to wait one by one. You know, it took a long time. Some summer, we were in a non air conditioned building, and in, in some summers here, it would just get hot and stuffy in the place, and so being crammed and waiting, it was, it was uncomfortable, uh, to wait and come up for communion. 

I would over and over again, say, but that's part of what it is. And when I think about the internal goods, it's so tied to that story of sitting there, looking at us, like waiting on each other. And learning to value the weighting itself, learning to value the clumsiness and and another piece of it is I always, always found it very, very rich to invite other people, to actually to hold the plate and the cup, and to actually distribute the elements and see what it was for people that I knew, you know?

And I'm not going to, don't worry anybody. I'm not going to betray any stories or anything like that. But I knew, “There's tension here. And I know these people really don't like each other,” and even, you know, truth be told there were times where I had to look like across the bread and the wine at somebody that I was having a really, really hard time that I was, that I had hurt or that I felt they had hurt me.

And to see like, that's what it is. That's the internal good is to come together like that in such a way and have to wait on each other. And. Wait on each other in a way that puts us on the same ground, as we learn to receive the gifts of grace from God. That’s, that's part of what it is about. That's that's what we're chasing. That is the good itself.

Julius: Yeah. Um, um, as far as my context in church ministry, I've spent a good amount of my life leading music in church services and like other, um, like gatherings. But, uh, it's really interesting—I feel like the internal goods of, um, worship-through-music—a word that came to mind and that keeps coming to mind is that there's an aspect of hospitality, um, that has to… that that is involved, and that kind of touches on like something we'll talk about later of like a virtue that is cultivated in, in the practice but, um. 

I think of music in church—like to sing, it’s like… part of it is like, these are words that are sung prayers together, and that the act of doing that together feels like, um… a pilgrimage of sorts. Right. If you are, and if you are kind of like leading the way up to, like, the mountain top or something, on a hike. You're not like. If I were to stray from the melody in such a way that would show off what vocal prowess I might have, like if I were doing a runs and improvising from the melody that would be akin to me as someone who's leading a hike to be like, “Hey, check out this trail!” and not waiting for you to catch up, and like run and doing cartwheels and back flips and you can't follow along. Um.

A huge part of it is like. It's a, it's a pilgrimage. And so there's something to singing the same melody together and breathing together and making sure these words are something that are intelligible and that we can all connect with and that isn't throwing anyone off…

That there's no imagery or lyric. That's like, uh, that's weird or theologically untrue, or like, uh, harmful to sing together. Like there's a certain hospitality involved in life. Hey, like we are, we are playing the music, certainly, but it's to invite all of us to be singing these prayers together, to be breathing together, to be part of this together.

And, uh, so… as to naming that internal good, if I were to give that a name, like that’s, it's I guess part of is like, um, It's communion. Like it's, it's the same thing, but through music, Right, It's, uh, it's realizing the internal good of experiencing communion with God and with one another through the vehicle of music. 


Julius: So I think this part of the conversation leads well into the aspect of virtues and what that has to do with a practice and how virtues are… that it starts to touch on the kind of person that you are formed to be, um, to, to engage in a practice well, right. Like a virtue is what makes a baseball player, a baseball player… a good baseball player, not, just someone who plays baseball occasionally or like…

Wilson: Not just a show person, not just an incredible athlete, but a ball player. 

Julius: Yup. Yeah exactly. And so, um. Looking at it through that lens, as, as we continue to look at worship as a practice, what are some of the virtues that are needed to engage in worship and that are cultivated by engaging in worship as the church? 

Wilson: Yeah. That's uh, I guess to ease into it, I kind of want to point out that—again, why these, the, the theory of a practice and the different elements are so compelling is the kind of internal consistency that they hold here. So that when we're, when we talk about the internal goods, learning to, to participate in and to strive for these kinds of goods also like bring out the virtues in us, make us this kind of thing. 

And so if we've, if we've named kind of, if we've told this story of what communion for its own internal good— and you know, you can see communion, like anything can be weaponized. Communion can be, um, twisted to power and even money, you know. But when, when you practice it for, you know, this knowing the, the, the kingdom of God, preparing for that experiencing and manifesting the reconciliation of Christ in coming forward together to receive the bread and the wine. You know, chasing that good also brings out certain kind of the virtues. 

And so, like we saying, what makes a baseball player, not just a celebrity or a show person, but a baseball player. The question here is how does this, you know, pull out virtues in us that move us from just being a church attender or a religious person to a worshiper

Julius: Yep. 

Wilson: And what I see here is like… it’s forgiveness. It's patience. It's it's compassion, and generosity. These are, these are the virtues that, it’s—and this is what I don't, it, it just kind of depends on where you plant your feet to start out.

It's either the virtue. It's either this practice and chasing this good requires it, or the practice and chasing this good draws it out of you. And I, I think it's both, you know,? It, it draws it out of you, it gives it to you by requiring it, you know? Cause I think about like, I mean, I. I guess I don't have to worry about it because my paycheck does not depend on it anymore, 

Julius: Sure. 

Wilson: There really were—and, uh, this is one of those things that everyone knows is true, but nobody wants it set out loud— but there are times as a pastor where it's really, really hard not to withhold communion from someone just because you're mad at them. 

Julius: Sure. 

Wilson: I mean, there are times where it's, it, it kinda hurts to look at someone that's hurt you and say, “The body of Christ broken for you, and the blood of Christ shed for you. And you are just as welcome at this table as I am.”

It takes, it takes forgiveness. Not just tolerance— forgiveness. Not just, “I will tolerate your presence and in this room and in this gathering,” not just, “I won't make it,” but, but it, it pulls out the virtue of forgiveness and compassion because. Especially when you're offering it realizing, “Oh my gosh, look at the bitterness that's trying to take root in me because I know I've done the same thing to other people that you've done to me. And so me too, the body of Christ broken shed for me, and we'll be patient with each other and we'll spread this out.”

You know, that's what I've mentioned. Like I loved, you know, saying the words of institution and then handing them to a, another person to serve it and then handing the cup to another person to distribute the wine and to give them the opportunity to be generous with the grace of God together, to, uh, to allow that, I mean, to receive it in a way that it also, and done in a certain practice in a certain way that receiving it also invites and requires us to extend that to other people, uh, are the, the virtues that make us worshipers in communion.

Julius: Yeah. Yeah. I think it's beautiful. I think of, um, going back to the concrete example of how I've seen music be a part of worship, the virtue that's formed there I touched on earlier was there's hospitality, but also the word that came to mind and the conversation prior was temperance for the sake of hospitality— of being able to, um, like Wil was saying, if it's like, um, a lyric or a melody, that's going to lose someone.

Like being, having the discipline and the temperance or the wisdom to be able to, to say no to that for the sake of, um, being hospitable to the whole of the person. And I think that that touches on, like, if we're talking about virtues of the church as a people, that's, that's something close to what maybe like, justice is. Of like, "I choose to forsake this, um, so that we can all do this. I will, I will not partake in something that lifts me up at the expense of your wellbeing or your ability to participate.” 

It's the same thing with communion. of like, I will not withhold this from you and use my position in order to like, um… bar you from your place here at the table.


MEDITATION

One of the key aspects that makes something a practice, and the last aspect we'll look at in this episode, is that it is directed toward some goal. 

The cool word for this goal is a "Telos." It means a thing's ultimate aim. 

But a telos is not just any benefit or payoff. The telos of baseball is not money or fame. The telos of music is not getting a girlfriend or boyfriend. The telos of worship is not an emotional high or building a bigger congregation. The telos is not just what a practice can get us, it is the reason the thing exists.

And an important part of doing anything well is engaging the question of why we do it. So, what is the goal or telos of worship?

Now, we don't want to be too quick to answer. Because if engaging a practice is going to lead somewhere you haven't already gone, if participating is going to unlock and draw more virtue out of you, you kind of have to acknowledge at the outset that you don't fully know just what the telos is. 

So if you want to engage in worship more truly, is there some expectation you've placed on worship that, it might be good to let go of? 

Now the true reason a practice exists is always deeply and organically connected to the internal goods and virtues cultivated and experienced along the way. 

So, name some of the internal goods of worship ...

With anything we're talking about in this series, we can say the Telos is in some way or another connected to communion with God, or participation in the kingdom of God.

So, what do these internal goods that you've named tell you about what actual communion with God is like ... Or what the Kingdom of God is ... 

And now a genuine practice is always communal, and so, taking into account what centuries of voices have said to us through the Tradition, imagine the kingdom of God as what happens when God pours out all of God's mercy and grace on all of humanity ... 

And so imagine heaven as looking across the bread and wine, across the broken body and shed blood of Christ ... 

And seeing your enemy ... 

If the kingdom of God is like that, and if you're holding onto, drawing energy from, and identifying with things like  bitterness, or fear, you can imagine heaven as a place you would not enjoy.

What virtues would a worship whose telos is the Kingdom of God, require from you? 

What virtues would participating in worship aimed at that kind of Kingdom cultivate in you? 

See, engaging in worship as a practice means not just getting something from worship, but becoming a worshipper. And that means becoming a person who can inhabit and enjoy the kingdom of God.

This is why worship is a gift. God's doesn't need it. God knows we need it. To inhabit and enjoy a place like God's kingdom, we need to sacrifice some things. We need have some things challenged and burned away. We need to have some gifts and virtues given to us by having them required of us. So that when we get through the gates of heaven ... It's bliss.  

Practicing the Faith 2 - From Habits to Practice


INTRO 

Knowing the physics of flight -- how lift, drag, and thrust work to get a body off the ground -- is not the same as watching the ground drop below you as the clouds surround you.

Knowing what musical modes are and being able to tell someone John Coltrane used these in innovative ways to push free jazz forward is not the same as putting an intuition in your soul into notes in the air for anyone with ears to hear. 

Knowing the Queens Gambit or what a force out is in baseball is not the same as besting a worthy opponent in Chess or feeling your legs take you somewhere your conscious mind may not even know you need to go so you can feel the ball hit your glove and throw where you should to get an out for your team. 

And knowing that Jesus said do not worry, and love your enemies, is not the same as feeling the lightness of trust take root in your gut or feeling bitterness lose its grip on your chest.

Some things, you have to practice to understand.

So in this series, we hope to help you practice your faith so you can know salvation.

This time we explore what we might do to counteract the utter mess that could result from having a whole bunch of people having a large set of powerful tools for getting what they want.


STORY:

We talk a lot about habits here. And not just biting nails or twirling hair or humming while we think. We talk about how when some of us get lonely, with little to no thought, we withdraw and wait for others to reach out, while others of start making plans and shooting out invites. And how when we feel vulnerable some of us habitually get aggressive and pick fights while others go fishing for compliments or hole up in our homes and blow through three seasons of Downton Abbey or Knight Rider - tastes may vary, but the habit is the same. 

We talk about habits like this every few episodes and almost constantly in our daily meetings because they have a powerful role in shaping not just what we do, but who we are. 

There is tradition tying habits and identity and vocation that we find goes back millennia to Jewish wisdom literature like Proverbs and some of the letters in the New Testament like 1 and 2 Peter, and through towering figures like Aristotle and St. Benedict. 

But the business, productivity, and self-improvement worlds have caught on to the power of habits, too. In about the last half-decade, they've turned this ancient wisdom into a cutting-edge fad.

Ten years ago, if you wanted to learn to be more successful and decided to take a college course or enrolled in training your company provided or grabbed one of the top selling business books on an endcap at Barnes and Noble, odds are really good you would have taken an assessment to reveal to you your natural talents and strengths, then heard a good deal about how to lean into those strengths as you did your work and chased your personal goals in fitness and developing relationships. 

Now, odds are very good you'd hear about developing high-performance habits aligned with your goals and how to stack good habit on good habit, just like other massively successful people have.

There are three, quite good books, on Habits that we are not going to name though we'll admit to using one of them in our Shema program. Together these books have spent a good deal of time on Top of the New York Times bestseller list and sold a collective bajillion copies (that's not an exact count). 

There is something obviously good here. These are worthy books that really can help people with a whole range of important things. We use one of them in our training. And they are tapping into a deep and venerable tradition.  

But we see a few problems looming. Mainly stemming from the parts of the Tradition they tend to overlook.

In episode 17 from this season, which we released right around New Years, we talked about the way our habits always carry beliefs with them. And so when adopted and carried out over time, these habits engrain these beliefs in us at an instinctual level.  

And this can be great, redemptive even, or this can be terrible. A habit can get into our bones and reflexes the truth that God is love and we are God's children, and the peace that comes with that, or the false belief that we are not good enough and that God does not love us and all the anxiety that comes with that lie. 

Turning this insight to the current usage of habits helps us discern that habits simply imported into the world of wealth and power can help someone see impressive gains in their wealth and power, even as they engrain unhealthy, false beliefs about money and success and what makes a good life.

In episode 17 a key point was that the beliefs our habits carry might not be what we think they are, and might be in conflict with what we want to believe. 

So in this episode, it's time to talk about the way, just like habits always carry beliefs, they are always also aimed at something, and that goal might not be what we think, or lead to what we really want.

What's telling, when it comes to aiming our habits, is what parts get left out or ignored from the Tradition that extends way past the last decade. Contemporary teachers applying habits to business and self-development are aware enough of the the sources of what they are inheriting and adapting to cite Aristotle and even sometimes monastics like St. Benedict. But what's rarely dealt with the way Aristotle's training in habituating virtue was always aimed at (and determined by) the greater good of the polis, or city-state. And monasticism is all about developing the person by simultaneously developing a common life in Christ. 

What we never allow the ancient tradition to challenge and refine, is our contemporary tradition of radical individualism and our own ideas about what constitutes a good life and brings happiness. 

Some of the teachers in this field do try to leverage habits to make their clients into the kinds of people who would want to contribute to the common good. But this common good is undefined, and no way is given for working alongside other people to discern just what this common good might be. So even our common life gets squeezed into an individualist framework. The question, "How can you contribute to the common good," remains another version of the question, "What do you want?" It's really, "What do you want to be good for everyone? How do you want to feel good about what you've done for others?" 

So, the problem that to us seems imminent, is what happens in a culture whose stories carry messages like "you can have it all and be anything you want to be," and then eerily mix in other messages of scarcity - only 2 left in stock, order now; only 30% of new businesses last more than 3 years; housing prices are skyrocketing because demand has reached unprecedented levels while supplies have dropped to record lows - 

And so what happens if we train and equip a bunch of people to get really good at getting what they want and then turn them loose in a cultural environment radically shaped by competition?

In a tradition where it always falls back to each individual to define, according to their own opinions and desires, what the common good is, what happens if 4 million different people have 4 million totally different ideas about what will be best for others, and run off with powerful tools for implementing their own agendas? 

To engage this, in the conversation that follows, Julius and I discuss how participating in a healthy religious tradition can harmonize personal habits with the common good in something called a practice. 


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to “All Things” podcast. This is Julius and Wil. And Wil, today, I would like to ask you some questions… 

Wilson: Oh, that's what we're doing. Switching it up. Huh?

Julius: You know, not like the other times. Um, but, picking up from the story that came before this, and you introduced kind of this.. trend that's happening culturally, where there is a lot of literature on habits, uh, specifically in the world of, like, productivity and chasing one's personal goals, or like business and career goals…

And in talking about this cultural trend, I think you said something really insightful in naming this problem that, um, habits as a means of just chasing personal goals without a view of the collective good can be prone to things like furthering violence and conflict. And I mean, we're about bold claims on this podcast and that feels like a, that feels like a bold claim, but I think there's really something there.

And I'd be really curious to hear you elaborate more on how, um, chasing the narrative of fulfilling our individual goals without keeping in mind the good of the whole can be really violent. 

Wilson: Yeah. So I think first to name there's, there's a good impulse here. We’re not like fully calling out or saying it's wholly evil or any, any of that kind of nonsense. There's something good, and people are right to recognize—and we affirm it, that people are right to recognize—that, that thinking about habits and desires and the way they interrelate really can like unlock empowerment and agency for people, which is a good thing.

We are about that. But there has to be something more. Or I think what we're, what we're poised to give people is just quick, um… impressive results, but very short term that could then end up in an even greater disappointment. I've got this word picture or this image in my head that will be a word picture once I get it out in podcast format…

But, I keep thinking of this game that I used to play with my cousins in, in the 1980s. Um, I think it was called something like Crossfire… but it had this board that was some geometric shape, like a, you know, like a hexagon or a pentagon or something like that. Uh, and with each side there was like a little slingshot set up, you know, with a thick rubber band…

And each player had these little, like, it was basically a marble, but then, you know, it was made to look cooler, like some sort of like, I don't know… battle/space ship or something, whatever. And you, they’re all aimed together at the center, right? And you, you put your little marble there in the rubber band and pull it back, um, and then let them go and they crash together.

And I think that's something like what's happening here with what we're doing with the habits. There's a good impulse that’s like, give you some strength and let's help you aim towards something that you want… But if there's not something helping us aim together, then at some point, our aims are going to like cross sect or cross-sect, I mean, it’s, it’s crossfire.

And if all we've got is individual habits, then the only recourse we have at that point is to fight it out. And so then the, the mighty will stay mighty and, and the weak will stay weak. The have-a-lot, will stay the, have-a-lots and the have-nots will stay the have-nots. And, and at that point, we're not giving ourselves any way to think about, to habituate, and resource ourselves to do this together instead of just hitting at this point, where it's you or me.

Julius: Hmm. It's interesting. The whole time that kind of, we were talking about that. I was, um… I think… At first, it's easy to kind of react to that statement and be like, “Oh, maybe that's catastrophizing a little bit,” of like a, “Oh every personal goal can lead to violence?” And that's not necessarily what we're saying. I think that like, uh, like…

We don't want to sound like we are trying to impose like one homogenous goal on every one, but in some ways, like we… we as humanity, and especially with people who, like, believe in the Christian story, who believe in Christ, um, that there is a common good that we are striving towards. But uh, so what I was thinking about, like was, um, I started to kind of list some of the very common, “Oh, what do people kind of strive for in life?” Right. 

And it's like, okay, there's the very obvious like, “Oh, I want lots of money.” That's a very obvious, like that can get violent real quick. Like. People get rich at the expense of others. 

Or power, right? That’s an, that's an easy one. Like, “Oh, I want to have a lot of influence,” and influence comes at the expense of like, um, imposing, uh, like oppression on other people…

But then there's stuff like, “I just want to have fun,” but even that is like, “Okay, well, how do you want to have fun?” It’s like, “I want to eat good food.” And it's like, that's great. Like that's, um, that can, that can be benign, but at a certain level, it's like a, “Well, where are you getting your food from?”

Like, or, uh, th-the everything that we participate in is so connected. Like even down to like, “Oh, food's benign.” Right. But then like it's worth thinking about, “Oh, is where I'm getting this food from sourced properly?” “Are the people who are involved in making this, like being treated fairly?” or like, “What are its implications on the earth? Like, are we treating the earth fairly?” 

So w-every goal, like, just points to the fact that we… It, it, it breaks down the illusion that like, we are just individuals who live in a vacuum, but every single thing that we do is connected to the whole of humanity and how like the universe operates. And so, it is worth asking the question for even the most maybe commonplace and benign-seeming goals of like, “Oh, how does this participate in the…” cause we can't like extract ourselves from the universe.

Wilson: So, cards on the table, what I— you're right, we're not here to impose a single homogenous, uh, end goal for everyone’s, y’know, personal goals and desires… but we are, I am hoping to woo, or to win imaginations and hearts toward the desire to align your goals and your desires with the kingdom of God. 

Now, but the key point then for us will be to start to show how the kingdom of God, understood well, is not just imposing some homogenous, “Well, this is what we say and so here's how it is.” Uh, and so in moving towards that, this is why, you know, the, the concept of practice that we're going to talk about, I think will help us think on both ends of that: How as an end goal is the kingdom of God different and better than just imposed order?

Um, and, uh, how can the practice, or how can the idea of a practice help us genuinely align with something so good and rich as the kingdom of God.

Julius: Well, just to launch directly from what you just said, um, you've mentioned… teah, like just now, immediately, and also in the story prior, how the concept of practice as something being distinct from just habits or technique is, like, a part of the solution or like beg- like, it helps us to begin to answer that question of like, “How can we do this? How can we live well?” and, um, without just furthering conflict by chasing like the, our, individual goals. 

Can you explain more about what, what that word ‘practice’ means in this context and how it differs from just habits or technique?

Wilson: Right. Yeah, let's take that as, as the goal of this section, is just to make it really clear, for anyone listening, what, what we mean by practice. Um, naming our influences here, I guess this would be like a verbal footnote. We're drawing from the work of a very prominent, um, moral philosopher named Alasdair MacIntyre.

Uh, who in a, in a super important book called After Virtue, just exploring like, okay… With all the modern turns with everything that's happened to culture and with the way so many things have, like, broken down and, and so many other things that used to hold this together have been critiqued, right… So now, in what way, how do we think about doing something together in a way that's genuinely good? Right, that pulls out of this. And so how can we think about this? And in that work after virtue is where he defines the word practice. And a lot of people have gotten a lot of mileage out of this because it's good. 

But in that, he has this notoriously long complex definition of what a practice is. Um, but then he goes in to talk about some specific practices and it's like, “Oh yeah, I get that. I get that.” 

So we're going to reverse his order and we're going to do that. And let's just talk, let's name a couple practices, talk about what they are, and then we'll tell you like, these are the key components and how it works together in this thought. 

So when we, when we say practice, I think the first thing is to make really, really clear that we're, we're talking about a larger collective activity. Um, we're not talking about just a, an individual practicing, a specific skill, right? So w-you know, we're not talking about me picking up my guitar and running scales. You know. It's not just me practicing that skill, or it's not me going out into the yard and practicing throwing a baseball into a net to improve my accuracy.

Uh, it’s, it’s not just refining a certain skill. What we're talking about is what those skills can come together to participate in. So, music— that's a practice. Baseball, that's a practice. Right. So just even that, just to make that distinction, we're not talking about when we say practice now, in this context, in the next, you know, however many minutes this podcast runs, we're not talking about me going out and practicing batting, but we are talking about something like baseball.

We're not talking about me practicing the solo from Sweet Child o Mine. We're talking about music. Right. And so. Individual skills can contribute to this larger practice, this larger. Good. Right. So that's that's the first bit. And then maybe let's just talk through, let’s pick, like baseball—I’ll, I’ll pick… baseball is the practice that, that I'll think and talk about.

And Julius, what's a, what's a practice that you've been engaging in, cause this, cause this here's, uh, just, uh, we'll lay this down and we'll see how this comes back. It's super important to get this, that, to really get it. You gotta participate. Right. You can't really get it if you're just sitting back abstractly thinking about it.

So even us talking about it, it's, it's telling a story, stories are super important to this and, and you got to kind of begin to know how to learn it from the inside. So I'll, I'll pick baseball, Julius what’s something you've been participating in?

Julius: I mean, you'd think that I would say music cause I use music analogies a lot, but to stray from that a little bit, but to be also at the risk of sounding cliche with the music, the musician cliche, I have been getting into like coffee, uh, as a practice. And, um, I feel like I also want to pick that to be kind of a stand in for the listener of like, “Oh, you, like, there are lots of commonplace things that are part of a larger practice.”

Um, and so I will kind of process that with you. But just to kind of help illustrate, like—I think we all on some level understand what this is, and it's better to just kind of start with the concrete and then zoom out and be like, “Oh, this is part of something.”

Wilson: All right. So, so pick it up on base. Uh, one of the things that, that baseball players, fans, a lot of talk is happening is just the role of money in baseball. And a lot of people feel like the game is getting corrupted because it's more and more about. The money. I even heard a baseball announcer recently when I was, when I was watching a game, a player who's, you know, they've been producing really, really well for about five years, um, and said, so now he's at the point where he can, he can enter into free agency, leave the team, go out and get the big contract and quote, that's what it's about.

Cool. And really that angered a lot of people because if that's what baseball is all about, uh, then it's about what MacIntyre would call it's become about for that announcer may be for that player is becoming about what MacIntyre would call an “external good”. So that's one of the important conceptual pieces to understand with practice, a practice is not about, should not be about isn't its fullest thing when it becomes about an external good. 

So when you're talking about baseball and it's, so, I mean, it’s funny how many different practices can be twisted, like you've already mentioned towards power, uh, towards money, towards pleasure—you know, a certain kind of cheap pleasure. Right. Um, so when baseball becomes just about money, it gets twisted towards an external good. 

And, and if you're a purist, if you cared about the thing, you feel like something there has been lost. And what's important, what's, what's really helpful here, is MacIntyre says one of the key ways to distinguish between an internal good— which is genuinely good— and an external good that begins to corrupt and misdirect the practice, is, this is super… there are always alternative ways to achieve the external good. Right? 

So you don't have to be a world famous baseball player to become world famous. There are lots of ways that you can get into like trending feeds, right? There are lots of ways you can get your face on a billboard or on television, right?

So there are always alternative ways to achieve an, uh, an external good, but when you're really practicing something, there's no other way to achieve that good.

Julius: Hm. 

Wilson: Right. So there are lots of ways to get famous, but this point, and also— I guess if people care about this, I'm a Cardinals fan— so Cardinals have this long standing historical rivalry with the Cubs. But even with that, I couldn't help, but get caught up in 2016. Right because it it's been like this long story about the Cubs curse and they're doomed to mediocrity and it's been over a century and they haven't won a world series.

And then in 2016, they win the world series. Like, you can, you can twist that towards fame. You can twist that towards power or towards influence towards money that comes with endorsements and all that kind of stuff. But the internal good there—that’s something that's only felt by the player. His name was Chris Bryant, chase down the last ball, threw it for the final out that in 2016, that finally after centuries broke the curse and the Cubs finally win a world series.

Only Chris Bryant really, really knows the true internal good of that moment. Right? You don't have to be a baseball player to, to feel that, but you have to be a base- or you don't have to be a baseball player to experience, you know, power, winning, you know, whatever— but you have to be a baseball player to know what that moment was for someone like Chris Bryant. And that's an internal good, key to a practice.

Julius: Yeah, It's like a, it's a qualitative thing. You know, there's things that are easy to quantify. Like, uh, oh, I can, I can wrap my head around winning a medal or whatever, but like the feeling of like playing the game and playing it well— that's something that you have to kind of be a participant in it. And so to, to kind of bring my 2-cents into this as I process, um— I brought up coffee and honestly, I always feel really hesitant about bringing that up unless it's around people that I trust or like the people that I live with, um.

Because I feel like with coffee in particular and the kind of tropes that, that comes with being like a musician and like the art scene and like living in the neighborhood that I live in with a bunch of like hipsters who love talking about coffee—that, I think a lot of the resistance to it that I, that at least I feel, and I can be self-conscious about is because of that distinction between internal and external goods and the ways that people are like, “Ugh, talking about coffee, like, of course…” that that kind of like scoffing reaction comes from exposure to people who perhaps, um, may embody like…

Chasing the external good of it, of like, uh, “Oh, I, I want to talk about this because it gives me some kind of like “in" on like a social status,” like the external good. There is like, oh, I want to feel like an insider in this like club. And so that's, that's when people can be perceived as pretentious, if it's like a, oh, this is the external good that we're chasing is how can we be as exclusive as possible, on like some obscure thing, right. But…

Wilson: Yeah, your hesitancy even does a good job of highlighting the difference between an external good and internal. Good. And you're hesitant because you don't, you're enjoying it now, something good is happening, and you don't want it to get twisted towards any of those.

Julius: Right. Exactly. And I think it's like people can snuff that out with anything, of just like.. People are—and I would like to be gracious to even like, even these kinds of people, but like—I just think of high school, you know, I just think of, even with something like guitar of like someone who's like really into guitar, but they're just in it to be cool or like to get girls or guys or whatever.

Um, and people can snuff that out. And those are the people that like, oh, you can kind of roll your eyes at them because. You can tell when someone's doing something for the external reward of it and not because they want to play the thing, or learn or like engage in the thing. 

And so what I found with coffee, and maybe this is a helpful step, is like, I think it has a lot of connections to why people really enjoy cooking and culinary arts, is that there's a real qualitative reward to just like… to knowing how to prepare something that, um.

Like, uh, tasting a good cup of coffee is like part of the internal good, but it's not exactly it, you know, it's like knowing that you made it, you know, like tasting a [00:31:02] good like steak or something like. That's almost the internal good that you're chasing when you're cooking.

But it's also the fact that like, “Oh, I did the process right,” you know, like, uh, “I got a good sear on this thing.” Or like, uh, “Oh, I got the water temperature and the grind setting just right.” There's something really rewarding about like, knowing that you were involved in the process. Um, That is distinct from just sure.

I could go to a, like a top tier coffee shop or like a steak house or like a Michelin star rated, like, restaurant. And that will satisfy the need of like, “Oh, okay. This tastes good.' But then there's even like a certain. Your appreciation for that is elevated. Once you've started to try to like, “Oh, like, I want to learn how to make pour overs at home, or like how to pull an espresso shot at home.”

Or like, "I want to learn how to like, cook a good steak home” or like, to like make this dish that your qualitative experience, even then of going to a restaurant or a good coffee shop is heightened because of your participation in the practice where like… now if I go to a coffee shop, I'm like, oh my goodness.

Like they did. So. Or like, if I go to a good restaurant, it's like a look at the browning on, on this chicken, look at the sear, they got the temp perfect. Like a… once you're in it. Like you, you start to, um. Yeah, I don't know. Like, I, I think what I'm trying to get at is there is a qualitative difference and it's truly like…

Part of it for me is like a heart thing.

Wilson: Right. Yes. Yeah.

Wilson: So one of the things you just did there and tracing out like chasing what's really. In the case of this practice as the practice would define it, not just in an abstract will power. Good and, well, money's good. Who doesn't want money. Right. But as in trying to like, okay, what's going on here? What's the story of this thing.

And so what, what really is the goal? And that, and really chasing that. Yeah. It helped you begin to talk about the good, but it also see how it just organically led you to talk about the heart thing. That's one of the things that's so good about MacIntyre's work that I find just so compelling is how there are distinctions.

There are different moments and components to this thing, to his conception of a practice, but they also integrate so well and flow in and out of each other. And that kind of internal coherency is, is, is powerful and compelling because what you just went through there is from the internal goods to the relationship there to virtues, right. 

So in a, in a practice, another part that becomes important is for the practitioners to develop virtues. But these aren't just abstract—“Well, it's the ability to get stuff done," right? It's not just the, what tends to be broadly like culturally valued as well, leadership skills. Well, what does that mean?

It doesn't, you know, and when it's not a practice, it doesn't necessarily mean they have the ability to lead us towards this internal good. It means something more like, “Well, they make money for shareholders,” right. And it doesn't matter if it's through cost. Or it's a baseball owner, right? This is that's one of the— uh, sorry, I'm going to switch back a little bit to external goods…

Another thing that's helpful that back our points out is external goods are almost always realized as property of some… 

Julius: Oh. 

Wilson: But internal goods are experienced as a certain quality within the whole community within all the practitioners. Right? And so that's why it leads into virtue. Right. So the virtues there are developed you don't just name this off the board, right?

It's not just—you can't just pre-describe, well, it's, it's the ability to make money or this or that. You, you learn the virtues as you get in. You practice it. Right. Um, and, and the virtue there is what allows the internal goods to be realized, not external goods. And so sure, a virtue would be skill—there’ll be certain skills in baseball that are virtues…

But if what you're chasing is not just the player’s status or the money, or not just the shareholders profitability for the team, but you're chasing an internal good, it also means certain heart things and characteristics, things that allow you to be a team player that allow you to do step up and give extra, but to also sacrifice and other places, right.

To, to allow the team to journey together, not towards a few people's property, but towards the, the community experiencing what baseball can be together.

Julius: Yeah. I, I um, It's about the kind of person that you are, I think, is how I I'm learning how to understand it. And going back to being a musician now, um, what helped illuminate that word for me is the ties between virtue and the word virtuoso—of like, uh, oh, they are like a virtuoso guitar player or a virtuoso, like, violinist or something like that.

Um, that term makes sense to me because it's like a, oh, a virtual. So. Defined by they know 50 pieces. Like they are proficient in all 12 keys. Or like they can play up to 210 BPM? I dunno. Like, um, it's not just those things, but it's the kind of person that they

Wilson: I can play whole notes at 210 bpm…

Julius: Yeah, exactly. [Laughs] “They can play on time??”

Um, that's part of it and it's part of it, you know, that they're able to execute these things, but it's like a, it's a qual it's, um, it's a character thing when, when it taps it like, like virtue taps, like, uh, at a character thing and they're traits that, like I said, it's the kind of person that you become.

So talking about back to like coffee and, um, culinary arts, right. I think about… I am not a chef. [Laughs] Like, even if I like, even if I make one good meal, I don't consider myself virtuosic at the practice of culinary arts. Um, because like to follow a recipe to the tee and time everything, and then like, for it to turn out, to be a good meal, like… if I'm, if I'm tethered to just like, following the page. And like, maybe by some fluke, I get like a good meal out of it, like… 

I'm not quite embodying the virtues yet because it's not like, like I don't have the same engagement with a thing as a chef would where a chef understands, like what's going on on like a deep. Like core, like heart level of like, uh, I was, I was talking to my girlfriend's sister.

She studied culinary arts and I was talking to her about making steaks. And I was like, “You don't time things??" Or like, “You don't use a thermometer??” And she was like, “Yeah, like, I, I,” like… “I can tell when the sear is done because of the color of it, or like how it smells or like how the texture of the meat feels,” you know, like all of that stuff. It, it has become ingrained into the kind of person that she is, that she's attuned to these things that don't need like that defy like metrics. You know, it's a, it's a certain attunement with the world and with the practice. 

Wilson: Right. And so again there are distinct moments and elements to it. But just to again show as, uh, what I hope is a compelling thing, the way they flow in and out of each other, you start to name the internal goods, that helps you realize what kind of virtues are there that would allow you to achieve that. And in practicing it, in actually doing it, those virtues are cultivated. They become a  part of you. 

It's not just this abstract, like, “Hey, be more generous." Uh, “Be self-sacrificing.” It's an, it's a concrete way to— you know, “As a baseball player, here's how I become generous.” And it… as a baseball hero… Or like, “As a cook. Here's how I become generous too.” Right. It allows you. Not just to, to name the virtues, but gives actual opportunity to cultivate them and to realize them to become a virtuous person.

But then once that starts happening, this comes back to what MacIntyre talks about— another order of the internal goods—so now you start to see, it's not just, you know, for baseball, it's not just winning the 2016 World series… And again, not just the title there, but just what it is to finally live in that moment to be a part of it. You know, it's not just that accomplishment. 

If you're talking painting, it's not just Rembrandt making, you know, the return of the prodigal son, but putting the finishing touch, letting the paint dry, and then there it is, which would be an internal good, like the painting itself. But it's not just that. It's also like the quality of life. Comes as you develop these virtues. 

So for the baseball player, it's like— you know, I love Sandy Koufax—so it's like, it’s, it's what being a virtuous baseball player allowed for, like the life of Sandy Koufax as a, as a player. Or what being a painter—not just painting to sell it—but what being a painter made Rembrandt into.

Right. What being a chef makes the chef into, and that's a certain quality of life. That's an, an internal good that you really can achieve in a different way.

Julius: Yeah. 

Wilson: And that leads to the last component to talk about, which would just be the telos, which means end, but not in as in like termination point—it’s a Greek word that means end, but not end as in termination point, but end, as in like the purpose. The goal. What’s this all about. And key with this, what practice helps us see is we might.

Like to, to really begin to engage in the practice. You have to have kind of a decent enough. Right. So this isn't just a total blind wheel. We're on a roll. Let's just start throwing balls at sticks and see what happens. It's it's, it's, it's not some you've got, but you also understand we have some kind of vague intuition that's good enough to act upon, but we don't really know the end point yet. 

We’ve got enough that stimulates some, some faith that gives us some, right. We can get in this and we can start doing it. That's what we're headed towards. But as you practice it over time and you do it better and better as individuals and as people and as a collective, as you, as you get into it, the telos starts to become clearer and clearer.

And like you, it’s that kind of like, you make the way by walking it. Or you discovered the goal by getting there. As you start to have— then you start to see, “This is what it's really about.” And so there are certain ways where I can maybe talk about what baseball is really about. And I feel confident enough to say when it becomes just about money you’re…

Julius: Right. 

Wilson: Right. But they're also playing it with Sandy Koufax can say so much more about what baseball is about and I can, because you've been in it, right. You've been, you you've been a part of it. And that's where you can name, like, “This is what this is about.” Right. Uh, I like coffee too. I get tips from you about making pour overs, but I think you have a better, you have a better intuition and you're developing the ability to say, “This is what I'm chasing, and this is what it's about.”

Julius: It's really interesting to me—and beautiful to me, quite honestly—that, um, all of those things kind of blend together. You know, that there's not like a… Um, I mean there's distinction, but it's not… Once again, thinking about the particular practice that I introduced, which is coffee… And now I think I've been talking actually more about culinary arts, which is something I aspire to, I think.

But, um, that, that there's something of the telos in the internal good of like when I'm talking about like, uh, oh, but just like the feeling of when you like, get it Right, Like when you're like, “I put, I put work into this. Used my arms to like grind the beans, like to grind the beans and to feel the mechanism.

And I could feel like I felt the rotations of the grinder and the burrs crushing the coffee to get the particles to this perfect size and getting the water temperature at the right… Uh, at just like the right temperature and like getting the pouring pattern just right, and getting the timing just right…”

That, there's something about that, that so rewarding. And there's something of the telos in that, but it's hard to name outside of like— I think when we were having our pre-conversation about this, one of the things that came to mind is, I think this word and concept of telos can be difficult for us to talk about because we've been conditioned to speak about things in such utilitarian terms.

I think it's hard for us to talk about, telos outside of that, because like it's easy for us to try to justify like, um, “Oh, music, the end goal is to, I don't know… like bring people together or like express something about it, about humanity?”

Wilson: Right,

Julius: And it's like part of it, but it's not quite the full thing…

And I like that you said that it's like a directionality kind of thing, because there's not like… Is there an end? Like, do you beat music? Like, “I wrote 500 songs. I'm like, I guess I'm at the end of it. I'm done.” Or like… [laughs]

Wilson: Well, um, I know it can sound off-putting maybe when you say you can't really know without participating. Right. And if your guard is up, I understand if there's been broken trust, I understand why that might seem, “h, well, I can see how that could be coercive.” Right? “Are you just like tricking me to take right to join your team? To get in…” Right? 

I get how, uh, that could raise some defenses, but the trade-off is, this is exactly why. Th-something like a practice, the way it's described here can, can pull people together in a kind of harmony in a way that is qualitatively different than just one person imposing their agenda and will on other people.

Uh, it's, it's different than that kind of coercion and manipulation because something different happens when a group of people really start to do something. They find out it's worthwhile and all the people start to experience the internal goods, right. It— and it does, it woos our desires together. But it's not one person saying like, "Hey, come be part of my church so that I can build a worldwide empire.”

It’s, “Hey, come, let's do something together. Taste and see.” I mean, this is what Jesus says to disciples. Like, “Come follow me. Taste and see.” Right. 

And then this, this over time begins to, because we experienced the goodness—and this is why I say, I mean, I kind of feel like if you really start to practice things, you're going to start to believe in God.

Julius: Dude. Yes. 

Wilson: Um, might have different ideas about the character of God. You're right. That there's all sorts of other stuff there. You might use different language or whatever, but in some way, you're going to start to believe in something larger than us that is pulling, calling us, and slowly, patiently, but with love, trying to woo us back together to like, the kind of genuine worldwide, cosmos-wide harmony that we were made for.

Because when you start to experience it together, what we're tasting is something bigger than just my agenda, my goal, but something that's really, really good for me. And for us, and that begins to just organically shape and direct our desires away from the kind of Crossfire scenario where we're just going to clash towards something that you see.

"Oh, here's how, here's how, what I love and what I'm good at and what I would like to do with it can align with something that's good for everyone and everything.” And so the ultimate telos, we would say, you know, we said, you got to have just a clear enough example— you need both right here. And this is the nice little, um, uh, creative tension that you've got to have.

You've got to have a clear enough idea that you can start off somewhat confidently, but also an awareness of, “I only have kind of an idea. And we're not going to really know till we get in and do it.” And, uh, a concept or telos that we could say can be all embracing here is the kingdom of God. And, and in somehow, right?

If this is a genuine practice, if this is, if this is something that really is good, in some way as we do it, we're going to begin to manifest uniquely in a way no other way, no other, right, but, but because of this time, this place, this practice, we're going to uniquely manifest something about the glory and the nature of God and a God that created all things cares about all things and is working to lo—by love and in patience to bring all things back together into the kind of harmony it was made for.


MEDITATION

In the Bible, cities often appear as a symbol for human culture. They are stand-ins for all that can be achieved and built as our intelligence and energy is funneled through our habits and desires toward our personal and collective goals. 

And the Bible, for most of its pages, is pretty negative about the city.

The first cities mentioned are built by the descendants of Cain. Cain was the first murderer, who became such by taking the life of his own brother. 

And as the Scriptures unfold, the city of Babylon becomes a central image for what towering and enchanting things we can do when we crush each other for what we want.

The one exception or counterpoint is Jerusalem. This is a city that, at certain moments in the narrative, stands as a sign of what can happen when God's love and glory show through human culture. But, Jerusalem is only this occasionally. 

And at other points in the narrative it gets so off track that even the Jewish prophets look at Jerusalem and say, no, that name does not tell the truth of things. Even you, Jerusalem, should rightfully be called Babylon. 

Because it's so hard for groups of people to get on the same page. Especially when some of us have mastered habits and techniques for getting what we want.

But, then something interesting happens toward the end of the Bible, when the Scriptures elevate our gaze from our own desires and goals, and invites us to envision God's goal for all this.

In the closing book the Bible, Revelation, chapter 18, Babylon burns. 

The merchants and kings and captains and all those who grew wealthy by participating in Babylon's practices of commerce and politics weep at the loss of all the culture that our best habits and ambitions could produce.

Don't miss that as these people groan and cry and tear their garments and heap ash on their heads, this is a genuine mourning. 

And their words are recorded as an honest and haunting funeral dirge.

While there are things mentioned that definitely need to be burned to the ground - exploitation and bloodshed and slavery and adultery - there is also a sense of the tragic loss of many things of genuine value. 

Things like craftsmanship, Art, Music, and Knowledge, are all enveloped in fire, too.

Now, in the Bible, fire is, of course, a symbol of judgement. 

But it is also a symbol of refinement and strengthening. 

And it is also a symbol of God's presence.

So what we see next is startling. Jerusalem emerges and makes it home, in the exact same location where Babylon just burned. And Jerusalem emerges not just from human culture and productivity, but from heaven, where God's goodness and love and creativity shapes things inside and out. 

So has the city been consumed as it was enveloped, or cocooned, refined and strengthened in God's redemptive love?

With this in mind, I invite you to wonder what to make of the lines found in Revelation chapter 21, where it says the New Jerusalem has 12 gates, that are never closed because there are no longer any threats or enemies that need to be defended against. And, that according to verse 24, the Kings of the earth - the representatives of human culture - enter through these gates to bring their splendor to God's Jerusalem.

Because of what we take to be the answer, we'll spend the rest of this series exploring how we can practice key elements of the Christian faith as training. Training that helps us become the kinds of people who can see our personal habits and goals align with that kind of common, cosmic beauty. 

Tradition: Getting Aristotle into Your iPhone and Jesus into Your Bread


INTRO

Knowing the physics of flight -- how lift, drag, and thrust work to get a body off the ground -- is not the same as watching the ground drop below you as the clouds surround you.

Knowing what musical modes are and being able to tell someone John Coltrane used these in innovative ways to push free jazz forward is not the same as putting an intuition in your soul into notes in the air for anyone with ears to hear. 

Knowing the Queens Gambit or what a force out is in baseball is not the same as besting a worthy opponent in Chess or feeling your legs take you somewhere your conscious mind may not even know you need to go so you can feel the ball hit your glove and throw where you should to get an out for your team. 

And knowing that Jesus said do not worry, and love your enemies, is not the same as feeling the lightness of trust take root in your gut or feeling bitterness lose its grip on your chest.

Some things, you have to practice to understand.

So in this series, we hope to help you practice your faith so you can know salvation.

This time we explore how practicing a Tradition, might do so much more than keep you in touch with the past. It might just launch you into a new future. 



STORY

This episode is about Tradition and Progress. And to to talk about that I'm going to tell you more of the story of your smartphone. A fuller story, that doesn't begin with Steve Jobs walking into a room full of engineers and telling them I want my personal computer and all my music in my pocket. I'm going to tell you the story as it begins with Plato and Aristotle. 

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And my version starts with Plato and Aristotle. With the emphasis on that tiny word "and," because the way this part of the story has been told for centuries now tends to frame it as Plato or Aristotle. You listen to many people introduce these two pillars of thought and culture and the teacher facilitating the introduction will probably make you feel like you have to choose a side: Team Plato, or Team Aristotle.

But while there are significant differences between these two, before we start picking sides, it might serve us well to note where these differences came from. 

And these differences were possible only because, before Aristotle became Aristotle, he was Plato's student.

From the ages of 18 to 37, Aristotle was part of Plato's Academy in the city of Athens. And during this time, Aristotle was not just Plato's student, he was Plato's best student, drinking in what Plato did so well.  

And what Plato did so well was engage in a disciplined kind of conversation, where he and his partners would try to discover what they could say about things like Justice and Friendship and Love by painstakingly evaluating each and every word of each sentence and testing the relationships between each word and sentence to the other words and sentences. And Plato's most famous theory that came out of this was called the theory of the Forms, where Plato tried to discover and teach about the rational and eternal and unchanging shape of every true idea or thing.

So, for nearly 20 years -- That goes well beyond just taking a few courses from the same teacher, or watching all the videos on their Youtube channel -- Aristotle listened to Plato do what he characteristically did. 

Engage in dialectical conversation 

... And reason about the Forms 

Over and over, Aristotle was there for it as Plato went through his dialogues with other thinkers,  evaluating and testing different thoughts expressed in sentences and words, looking for rational insight, and talking about the abstract Forms. 

Then shifting a word or replacing an idea and then reexamining the words and connections all over again. 

Then from these particular ideas and arguments looking for abstract eternal truths. 

Eternal forms and changing particular terms and definitions. Unchanging truths and ever-changing sentences and words. Back and forth, again and again, for decades. 

And eventually Aristotle hit on a key innovation.

Aristotle thought:

If you switch out one of those words in the sentence, perhaps there is a way to keep you from having to start all over again and picking apart and testing each idea and reevaluating it's relationships to all the other words in the sentences. Aristotle started to realize that you can evaluate the validity of an argument according to a rational structure that could be separated from the particular words involved.

To take one of his most famous examples, consider the following argument:

All men are mortal.

Socrates is a man.

Socrates is mortal.

Apart from the particular words involved, this argument exemplifies a rational structure Aristotle names a "Syllogism." And you can change out now, any of the particular nouns and categories in any of these sentences... Change "men" to "roses" and "mortal" to "flowers":

All roses are flowers.

I am holding a rose.

Therefore I am holding a flower.

And if the structure holds, the argument does too. And you can trust this without having to go through pages and pages of back and forth arguments testing the new connections, which tended to be Plato's method.

These examples are not meant to prove to you anything you don't already know. Pretty sure you could already figure out if you're holding a rose, you're holding a flower and that Socrates died. These are intentionally simple examples so you don't get distracted by the particular arguments.

Because the key points here are that 1) Aristotle combined Plato's work on universal forms and particular arguments in a new way. And this integration is what distinguished Aristotle from his teacher.  

And point 2) this integration helped people recognize and use a rational structure that exists and works independently of the particular words used to express the argument.

Now, to get back to moving this story forward, Aristotle's outlining of this kind of structure, plus the development of a handful of rules to govern its use, was the birth of Logic. 

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A little after Aristotle did his work, a man named Euclid started to look for ways Aristotle's logical structures could help us explore not just human reasoning, but physical space. 

Where Aristotle separated logic from the actual words we use to think and argue, Euclid abstracted shapes into things like triangles and ellipsis and trapezoids, to reason about the nature of the space in which we live and the forms that fill it up. For example: without human intervention, a perfect triangle rarely occurs in nature, if at all. A triangle does not equal a mountain. But thinking about triangles can help us reason about a landscape. 

And Euclid's advancement of Aristotle's work was the birth of Geometry.

But, if you were to open Euclid's book, Elements -- it would not look the way you probably expect a Geometry textbook to look. Instead of formulas and equations, it is filled with diagrams representing shapes and space set within large blocks of text containing sentences and propositions exploring the principles and talking through the calculations. To us, Euclid's work might look like an odd mix of math and philosophy.

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This is how Geometry was done, all the way up until the 17th century, when a French philosopher named Rene Descartes mastered what Euclid taught, and started to think that there might be a better way write all this stuff out. 

Descartes was the one who invented what we now call, after him, "Cartesian Coordinates" - which is the way you learned in Middle school to think about space as a graph with an x axis, y axis, and a z axis. 

Descartes also developed a way to present and work out Geometric reasoning with algebraic notation, with x, y, and z standing for variables and A, B, and C for known quantities, etcetera. 

This, in the 1600s, almost 2,000 years after Aristotle and Euclid, is when the way we do math shifted from using objects ranging from fingers and toes to diagrams and abacuses, to the kinds of formulas you are accustomed to. Descartes contribution is why, if you walk into a college physics or mathematics class room you expect to see on the whiteboards or projection screens not blocks of text, but equations.

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And this way of doing math, and representing and thinking about things like gravitational pull and friction and velocity is what allowed mathematicians to develop calculus, and then to begin to escape spatial reasoning and it's limitations altogether, and this allowed mathematics to make more and more progress in it's own field.

But mathematical reasoning also got more and more abstract.

The gap between the abstract reasoning and notation and most people's every day experience is still why, so many who are not trained in math, look at a screen full of equations and think, "Really? What does that have to do with planets and car crashes and why I don't float up off the floor?" 

And as this storyline progresses, this gap grows wider and wider.

The abstraction got so severe, that in the early 1900s, most academics considered pure math, or mathematical logic, to be the most practically useless school of thought. It's hard to imagine now, with all our emphasis on STEM education, but the world of concrete objects and the world of math had seemed to veer so far away from each other that if some bright young freshmen, say in 1908, were to tell their parents they had decided to major in mathematical logic, it would be like a student today telling their parents they'd decided to major in poetry or painting. "That's great, but how are you going to make a living doing that?" 

This was the case until the 1930s, when a man named Claude Shannon wrote a paper titled, "A Symbolic Analysis of Switching and Relay Circuits." And what Shannon did in this paper was like what Aristotle did, but in the other direction. 

Remember, Aristotle took concrete words and sentences and ideas and arguments and started to intuit the abstract structure running through them. And over time the abstract reasoning of mathematicians and logicians and the actual things of our everyday experiences seemed to get further and further away from each other. 

The insight that drove Shannon's paper, finally turned the direction back toward physical things. Shannon's thought,  which at this time was unheard of and strange, was that the highly abstract symbols used by logicians and mathematicians could be used to analyze and organize the structure of things like wires and switches.

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And once Shannon figured out how to use Logic to arrange and structure circuits, a switch - and I mean something like the toggle switch on your wall - and some wires could do more than just turn a lightbulb on or off. Arranged the way Shannon outlined, switches and wires could mirror human thinking. 

Once Shannon made this connection, it allowed people to take centuries of work done by mathematicians and logicians and write this onto more and more complex circuits that could mirror more and more complex logical operations, like arithmetic, then multiplication and division and then calculus. 

Then, in the 1940s engineers advanced these circuits into transistors, and then over the next 80 years the industry has figured out how to make transistors smaller and smaller and to cram more and more of these little logical calculating units into less and less space. 

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For example, in 2016 your iPhone had about 3.3 billion transistors in it. In 2021, 5 years later, if you have an iPhone 12, your phone has about 11.8 billion transistors in it. 

And that's why your phone seems so scary smart. Not just because it has so many little electronic logic units in it, but because, in another important sense, it has Claude Shannon and Descartes and Euclid and Aristotle and Plato in it.

So this talk isn't really about Aristotle or logic or your smartphone. This is about Tradition and progress. 

The way the story is told, we are often made to feel like it is tradition or progress, and we must choose a side. But Aristotle would not have advanced his logic if he hadn't first deeply internalized the reasoning of his teacher, Plato.

And Euclid would not have been Euclid without taking in Aristotle. And Descartes would not have made his advances if he hadn't immersed himself in the work of Euclid that came before. And iPhones would not be in your pocket it Shannon hadn't deeply engaged the tradition of logic and math that he inherited. 

So, in the conversation that follows, Julius and I begin to explore how to overcome the either/or between tradition and progress, to set us up to be able to use tradition in a way that can help us face some the greatest questions and issues pressing on people of faith in our day. 


DISCUSSION

Julius: Welcome back to “All Things.” [Laughs] That was like a radio announcer tone. Or uh. Morning talk show. This is Julius and Wil… your favorite hosts? No, we're not…

Wilson: [Laughs] Yeah, it's staying in. 

Julius: Get that out of the way.  Anyway, but so just listening to the story—it's a story about the relationship, right, between tradition and progress—and it seems to inherently outline these two, um…pitfalls, I guess. So one of them, I see, with traditionalism, is that a rote and static traditionalism that isn't open to conversation or change or being repositioned, um…

Wilson: Development, even? 

Julius: …development, yeah, greatly inhibits the possibility of, um, progress– of progress that that can lead to truly good things. But on the flip side of that, um, in conversation with that is that there is no moving forward or innovation without deeply valuing or internalizing the tradition.

So I'd love to hear more about um… about what you have to say about those two issues, right? Between tradition and progress, which I think that our culture can so easily pit against each other, and that there's really a move to reject tradition. Like, just the other day I was on Instagram and there was a, there's a photo that was reposted and the caption, the, the text was something like: “Tradition: peer pressure from dead people.”

Which is funny, but… not, not every— it's not quite everything. I think there's just like… I think we've internalized that, “Oh, tradition has done such bad things,” that all tradition should be rejected and um. Yeah I’d love to hear some more move, moving away from that a little bit…



Wilson: Yeah, it seems like you've got some good stuff to say on it too, so I'll, I'll open it up and then, and then we'll bring that in. Because I mean, there was definitely two movements, even to your question there. So there’s just the issue of a rote traditionalism, which will be pretty easy to talk about.

W-we'll do that pretty quickly. And then where you started to take that was, why does this matter and why would we, why would people see it this way?  Which are, I mean, that's what this is about, so let's go. The, for… now, I said, this shouldn't be that hard to see, right? 

A rote traditionalism doesn't move, doesn’t go anywhere. And, and life moves… right? I mean, just like any, any organism, any, any human being, any animal—if it doesn't move through the world, it's, it's going to die. If it just sits there, it's going to run out of energy and it's going to return to dust.

Similarly, with tradition, if it moves into a traditional “-ism”—now, that's one thing just to make sure, as far as like hearing and comprehending, there's, we're using those as two different terms. There's a healthy tradition, but there's a different, like, a kind of a cancerous form or a a distortion of tradition would be traditional “-ism”. And that's that— “Just sit still,” and that would be the equivalent of, “Well, just plop yourself on a comfy couch. Don't eat anything. Don't drink anything and see what happens.” No life, no processing, no, no taking something good from the environment and incorporating it into yourself and using, turning that to energy to go somewhere. You know, dead tradition.

So to get concrete with it, look: if Plato had only ever parroted—or I’m sorry, if Aristotle had only ever parroted his teacher Plato, Aristotle would not have become Aristotle… and logic as a school of philosophy would not have begun to develop in the West if Aristotle hadn't taken what he learned and done something with it.

If Euclid hadn't taken what he learned from Aristotle and incorporated that into “Well, what do we, how do we think about space? And, and shape?” Right? “And how does that map onto the world? And how could that provide a helpful map?” 

If, if Aristotle, I mean, if Euclid hadn't learned what Aristotle was, was doing and then applied it in a new way, furthered it, took it somewhere it hadn't been before, then we wouldn't have moved in that…we wouldn't have geometry. And then on and on. You know. 

If Euclid hadn't done that, Descartes couldn't have done what Decartes did. If Descartes hadn't done what he did, logisticians couldn't have done what they did and Shannon couldn't have done what he did. And now your iPhone is a worthless hunk of, I don't know… batteries or whatever. 

Julius: Right. 

Wilson: Or w-I mean, we don't even get to that point. There is no iPhone in your pocket…

Julius: You can't even fathom what it is. It’s not a possibility.

Wilson: Exactly. A calculator isn't even a little electronic thing, a calculator is still a human—it’s a job title. Which is actually historically what it was before this. A calculator is a person that sits down and does the calculations. Right? So rote traditionalism, like this is, this is where it goes.




Wilson: But now that being said, I think culturally, there are a lot of folks that are just ready to hear that. But now Julius, maybe open that up— like, why does this, why does this matter? And why does it seem like such a tempting option for so, so many people? 

Julius: Yeah, I th-I think that's an important distinction that you made there between tradition and traditional “-ism,” where we love the…where traditional “-ism” is, kind of, making an idol and misplacing too much love and just being too precious about the tradition in such a way that you close yourself off to being repositioned or to critique, really, that, um…  

And I, I understand where the resistance to tradition comes from… and when people say that, I think that they're pushing back against certain traditions. I don't think that they would push back against all of it. Like I. I could probably name that when, when people circulate something like “Ah tradition… tradition is just peer pressure from dead people,” that what they're calling out is stuff like, um, I don't know… I-I do know. That, I mean, they're calling out things like, okay, the tradition of white supremacy, or nationalism, or like, um, exclusion in the church, or um… a number of things that have done violence to many marginalized groups of people, because “That's just the way that we've done things,” quote unquote, in this country, in this organization. Um.

And to that, I think it's, it's important for the listener— I hope that you hear us in saying that we believe that any tradition, whether that has to do with religious tradition or tradition in the arts, or like in any significant field or meaningful, um, area of life that a tradition… for a tradition to be healthy and good, it must be open to conversation and critique and being reshaped.

And that the question must…like, we also, as much as we love the Christian tradition, we are people who seek to constantly be asking and like be willing to, like, receive new answers and insight as to, “Okay, is this… can this change to be more loving? Is this something that is violent and needs to be done away with?” Like, we do want to ask those questions.


Wilson: But, shifting back and talking about traditional “-ism,” uh  you see that even in the tradition of Jesus. Like, Jesus calls people out for that in the gospels, uh. 

One example is actually part of the inspiration for my son's oldest name.  So, my oldest son is named Corbin— I started thinking about that as a name in high school when I was reading the Gospel of Mark and I encountered this Aramaic word, Corbin, that, you know, the term there as Jesus is using it, was part of a tradition at the time that had a good intent and a good beginning, that you would take something and you would label it Corbin, designate it Corbin, which means a gift devoted to God. 

Julius: Hmm.

Wilson: And so this was a healthy way of, you know, incorporating things into worship and honoring God with things of genuine value. But the tradition got twisted and spun to where, you know, he, he uses this to some of the people of his day who are all about the kind of dead traditional “-ism”— well… they were about the tradition, but now Jesus is saying, but in a way that this is a dead traditional-ism, it's stagnant because you have a fine way of twisting, you know, using your human traditions to, uh, to twist the desires of God…

Because what they were doing is, like, taking money that could be used to help their aging parent or help a widow and saying, “Well, it's Corbin. I can't give it to you. It's devoted to God.” So using kind of a loophole in a, in a twist there. Um. And when you're looking at traditional “-ism,” I think it can cut several different ways in contemporary contexts to contemporary folks.

There are many that are just… and, and, you know. It very well could be that you intuit something that just seems off the rails or seems out of whack, or that, you know, that seems to be called progress but you're not so sure it is progress. The temptation there is to just dig your heels in and get stuck into a traditional “-ism” to fight it.

But I just want to say, like, we get the temptation, but it's a temptation. And that's, that's digging in and it's not the positive way forward. Um. And so. But then on… there are other folks, right, that because of the way tradition has been misused—and I'm convinced so much of this, so much of this comes down to just broken trust, which gets into a whole lot of other issues— but, but ways where the power and the authority of tradition has been misused… which I think that's where we're going in a little bit in this conversation about like, “What are the real goals? What are the real purpose of these?” So we'll get to that. 

But, but when the power… like tradition is powerful, it creates a whole lot of momentum and gives direction to so much of human culture and innovation, thinking, art. So powerful. But when it gets— and it can be twisted though, like Jesus called them out for it—and, and when it gets twisted, hope gets shattered. Trust gets shattered. And when trust is broken, right, there, there can be this other move to the other side. So just like digging into dead traditionalism is, is a void—a pitfall—just totally living out of the broken trust, if it leads you to utterly rejecting tradition, is just another form of the same kind of pitfall.

Julius: Right.

Wilson: And I think what I would say— and I don't know that this would be directed to either one of the, any, anybody in either of those camps— but more the intent is to put it out there is kind of like, here's another example. And if you find this compelling—I would hope you would find this compelling—is just to note that looking back in, in healthy religious tradition, the tradition of art, uh, logic, the intersection of logic and technology, um…

All of, in all of these places the people that genuinely, in hindsight we could say furthered the tradition, even if they made mistakes and there wasn't totally perfect, but they would say we would, we would be able to say they played an important role in genuinely furthering the tradition, we have to know, we have to understand that they knew it well. 

They knew the tradition really, really well, and that's how they were able to push it forward. And I think, if we look at like, the examples of powerful folks in politics, or… in religion, pastors. And, you know, Christian celebrities that have fallen, um… that have misused their power to coerce people, to, you know, manipulate… to abuse people, one of the time after time, after time again, you see that those people were out of touch with the genuine tradition. They had lost something, lost something valuable about what it was, and they knew it well enough to speak its language, to get people who are in, who trusted it, to, to get in, but there was something core to what the tradition was, what it was really about, and where it should go that was being manipulated and twisted. 

Julius: So, I'd love to explore more of that, um… of this thought of, how is it that joining in and running with the tradition actually helps us to move forward?

Wilson: So, I mean, this is—you already kind of see, the conversations flowing that way… in talking about, you know, not traditional “-ism” or trying to utterly do away with tradition and be totally original and make everything up from scratch spontaneously, you know… has already led to, right. It's yeah. It's internalizing getting what, getting like in the flow, in touch with the, the essence or the real power and potential of it and running with it.

Um, I heard a, a guy that, a scholar of tradition, that he recently— I think 2017? That… somewhere around there, but relatively recently passed named Jaroslav Pelikan. He said that trying to do it on your own is like looking at a huge gap. Trying to work without tradition is like looking at a huge gap and trying to jump it with both feet, like, planted— like, just a standing broad jump.

But, but what good tradition can do is, others have already created momentum… and you, you don't just get a running start, but you're, you get to run with them. So it's not even that— it's not just the momentum you can create—but they create some momentum that you join in.

And then you get a running long jump to, to tackle whatever new problem it is is, is how tradition helps us move forward, you know. And he did a lot of work— we're drawing, I'm drawing from him a good deal in all this because he talked about it, I mean, specifically in the area of religion but then he, he talked about it in music, and in culture, and in art and all sorts of other places too.

So running with the tradition gives us a couple of things that, I think if we just name them, will let us, like, get more tangible and visceral the good that it could offer us. And one of the things that I see tradition doing is it gives us… it, it, it doesn't just hand us the next goal. It makes us the kind of people that can imagine the next goal. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: It, it creates the capacity in us to take, "Okay, what do we have around here? What can we do with this?” and if it's a healthy tradition that's not just aimed at power or money, that, you know, if that’s… part of the tradition is, is other sorts of values and virtues that are bigger than just, you know, getting a whole lot of money and living a comfortable life, or being able to control other people…

If the tradition also carries different values, it allows us to become the kind of people that go, “Okay, what do we have? We have this, this and this. And if I really listen, and if I really take in what these people have to teach me, this is what we have, and what could we do with it?” It shapes our imagination. It makes us the kind of people that could like see the next goal. 

So to put that concretely and hearkening back to the story that we opened the podcast with, I would say it allowed Steve Jobs, it made Steve Jobs the kind of imaginative person he was. So first, I know that the caricature of Steve Jobs is this rogue, total original, did his own thing… but it doesn't fit the story.

Like, no, he didn't, he didn't utterly conform to— and I think in some ways he, he rejected some unhealthy traditions, um, and so didn't utterly conform to—in other ways he deeply ingrained them, but that's when we're not getting into all the nuances and complexities of Jobs’s character, I guess, but, um, so anyway. My point here is he spent a whole lot of time studying.

No, he didn't care about the college degree. He didn't care about the, you know, the, the status that comes with having an undergrad degree from this or that institution. But he audited all kinds of classes. And he paid, he probably paid better attention in those classes than the students that were taking it for credit, because he was there to learn what that stuff really had to offer. He wasn't there to get the grade. He wasn't there to climb the ladder. He wanted to learn. 

He deeply ingrained the stuff about design and technology and taking that stuff in, you know. If it hadn't been for Shannon's work, there wouldn't have been circuit boards for him to learn about and think, “Well, what could that do?” If it hadn't been for the tradition of design, right,The Eastern and the Western design that influenced him—if it hadn't been for that artistic, like, tradition, he wouldn't have imagined the elegance, the simplicity, right? The kind of zen-like, um, unity of the thing. Right. But he puts those things together and that allows him to go, what can we do with this?

If it hadn't been for that tradition, Jobs never would have been able to imagine a little device that he could walk in and say, I want this, this and this… and I want it all in my pocket. I want a phone and I want a camera and I want a music player and I want it in my pocket. Right? 

He… if it hadn't been for the tradition, he could not have imagined the iPhone and would not have been able to walk into a room and tell his designers and engineers, “Figure out how to do this.” And so, tradition helps us think, like, the next goal. It, it allows us to think of what is the “this” that we're trying to get after. 

Julius: Yeah, I, I love what you said there about— and I know I'm paraphrasing you here— but, a knowledge and participation in the tradition is necessary in shaping our imagination… that knowing the story that we're picking up from allows us to have a vision for, for moving forward in the future that builds on that.

And I can't help, but think of Jesus and the disciples and the, the, was it like three years, right. Of following Jesus and like being there for these moments of—of course, I'm thinking about, like, we love talking about the Eucharist, right, the shared meal, and how that is so central to the Christian faith and  the kind of people that Christ through the spirit is forming. 

The church to be is shaped by this practice of the shared meal and thinking about the disciples, kind of even just knowing the stories that came even before they were walking with Jesus—of Israel, receiving manna in the wilderness, right? That there's feeding and God's provision here.

And even that, like, that story that's ingrained into at least the, like the Jewish followers who would have been Jesus's disciples, they're familiar with these stories and then seeing those recapitulated in. Oh, we're in, we're, we're in this spot and there's like all these strangers around us and suddenly 5,000 people are being fed, and we're sharing this meal, and there's this provision that's come, that comes from God that embodies a sort of abundance that challenges the narrative of scarcity of like, “No, we got to fight for this. Cause there's not enough food,” and then Jesus is like, “No, we're like, we're good. We've got bread and fish and there's more than enough,” right. “For everyone.”

And so that there's this thread that you can trace of like, “Oh man, that's a lot like Israel being like, what are we going to eat?” And then it's like, oh, we've, we've got enough for the day. And also we don't have to fight for it. And also we literally cannot hoard it. And then.  Being in the story of like, “Oh my gosh, this Jesus guy, he's doing the same thing. Like he's providing food and also we don't have to fight for it”. And then being shaped by this lineage, the church becomes the kind of people who is like, “Yeah. One of the things that we do is we share a meal,” and that touches so many different, like…it, it keeps on moving it forward in that like, “Oh, we, we did this thing with Jesus, and it taught us not to worry about scarcity, so of course we will share our bread with these people.”

And. Looking at the spread of people in the disciples, right, Jesus called people who were at odds with one another in terms of social, like on the social strata, right? 

Wilson: Yeah. Yeah. 

Julius: And so they're like, “Oh my gosh, we can share a meal with you.” Yeah, exactly. Like, “Oh, it's okay, and it's good for me to be at the table with this person.” And the more that you do that, you're like, “Why don't we keep doing this?” and challenge, like, these structures, right? So that's, that's another thing like it's, it's that narrative challenges, another tradition and it moves it forward to something better.

Wilson: And this is how we continue to experience his presence amongst us. And he continues to nourish our very life through his presence. Yeah.

That’s, I really like that analogy and, and how you built on it. Um. Where, what you've got there is... so let's, let's just make it really, really clear the analogy that that was just made. Just like Steve jobs had the tradition of electronic engineering and computing and design, and he brought that together in a new way to create something that had never been before, you can see that similarly with the stories of Jesus and the Eucharist. So, we rightfully say the Eucharist is like central to the tradition. The practice of Eucharist goes all the way back to the earliest days of the church. But even at that point, the earliest days of the church, there you can see it as…

Now, I don't necessarily want to call it an innovation just because that's reading a lot of our contemporary ideas back into people that, you know, that that's just not how they view the world, but it's not totally wrong. And so, you know, the Venn diagram—there's a good deal of overlap. 

And so there's, there's something of what we're getting at with innovation, but maybe a word I'm more comfortable with his development  an unfolding. So you've got all these stories, just like Jobs had, you know, hey, design and computing and circuit boards and music. And. And digital music, Right.

You've got the story of Jesus doing this and the story of Jesus doing that and this practice that we were doing, but the Eucharist as the church did, even in the days of Acts— Jesus never did it that way with his disciples, but what they are is like, “Okay, what do we have? We have… We know this about Jesus and we know he was like this and he did this and he's still with us. And so, yeah it seems right that we should eat with Gentiles. Yes.”

And, and, “This is where he's present to us and this is how it develops and unfolded. Yeah. And so,this is right.”

This is how tradition grows and allows us to be the kind of people that can imagine the next right step and to, and to move into it. It gives us that momentum, the resources to imagine it and to, to make that jump. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: And so a second thing that, that joining in, what it does for us is deeply connected to what we just pointed out. Right? It's it's it. It can, we can distinguish it, you know, as far as terms and thinking about it different levels, but it can't be separated from what we just talked about. But if you really, if you really are understanding, “Okay, what do we have and what is it?What's it about?”, where would that go? 

Another thing that grows out of that, kind of like another branch on the tree or fruit of the tree, is it  it gives us resources to discern things. And it gives us something  good and healthy that we can, that we can use to pick between right and wrong between yet to say yes or no to, but in a way that, that feels organic and true to like what really is and where we want to go.

So  and again, that sounds, that's pretty abstract. Let's make it really, really concrete.  Anything can be turned towards the goals of wealth and power and like circling back to what we talked about with broken trust and why there's such a distrust of tradition is because so often we, we misuse this part of it, or we miss this part, or we don't allow tradition to give us this.

We don't receive the gift of naming for us. Like the why. Why do we do this? What's the good that comes out of it. Yes. And instead of receiving the internal. Good. Right. So in the case of  Well, let's, let's stick first with technology, right? Instead of the, the goods of making life better for people make giving access to things more broadly  access to information, access to music and art and culture.

Those would be goods. That would be like, no, but this is true to what design is. This is true to what the knowledge is. This is what, this could be true to what technology could be. Those would, those would be like, Yeah.

Yeah, that, that in my bones, I know that that is valuable and is worth valuing. Right. But then the tradition of technology can be twisted away from those sorts of things and making it about money and status and power. right?

And so now it's about building an empire now, and here's a place where, you know, it could rubber band back and we could see like, well, even apple and jobs have deeply internalized some other traditions as well about wealth and influence and power. And that's where something grates against us. And we say no.

 And when it comes to like Eucharist and communion, Well, it's the presence of Christ and how Christ heals and reconciles people, right. And brings us together in him and lifts us up out of the things that keep us broken down and enslave to our own wills or broken down and enslave to unjust structures and powers and forces that we have nothing to do with.

Right. It. It gives us something that says, oh, but I think along with making me the kind of person that can imagine, where should this go? It also shapes us into the kind of people that can just intuit and discern, but this is what it is, and this is the good that I receive and what it should, would, it should be about  which takes my mind back to your, the meme that you referenced earlier, right?

Tradition. It's peer pressure from dead people. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: So. I think so much of the sensibility, 

Julius: Hmm.

Wilson: Right. Shapes how you would view it and the sensibility. That would make us view tradition and the influence of other people. So much of that sensibility that would see it just as like bad peer pressure from dead people Has come from the places where either, you know what you might call the internal goods like that.

This is what it's about. This is what it should be for has, has been lost or manipulated or the next, right, step. The next goal, like, no, this really does flow. That's been twisted. And distorted like, and it's not, it's not good progress. It's not that kind of change. It's like a cancerous change, a growth that's going to lead nowhere good leads just to say like, well, why are all these dead people influencing me? The thing is peer pressure is influence and the truth is peer pressure can be good or bad. 

Julius: Yeah.

Wilson: You know, and, and the d-for a question, I mean, just saying it's peer pressure from dead. People doesn't necessarily say anything about it's worth it value.

You have to then move on to here's where tradition would help us a healthy, good tradition could help us just determined, but is this a good influence? Cause I mean, I'm a dad and so I feel the weight of that. I'm also a professor. And in both of those places, I feel the weight of my influence. And I mean, I, I hope my kids and my students know, I take that very, very seriously.

I realize the influence that comes with that and how, how much power comes with that and how that could go wrong, you know? But at the same thing, like if I, if I then said like, Ooh, but that power and that influence, like it's scares me. What if we go and I just totally neglect my responsibility there, it would be, if I didn't influence my kids, I would pretty quickly go to jail for neglect and abuse. 

Julius: Yeah, 

Wilson: Even on the level of like influencing how they eat, because at this point, if there wasn't like pressure from their dad to not just eat donuts, my kids would just eat donuts and that's not going to end well for them. And so when it, when it comes to like the influence of the tradition, we've, we've got to go deeper.

And this is one of the things that a good knowing it, internalizing it and using it this way and seeing how it would develop, like when this starts to integrate, it makes us also the kinds of people that. You know, again, if we can, if we can imagine the next place it should go. And if we can start to value the things that are just part of what it really is and who we are and want to be also helps us look back and evaluate the tradition and say, now, what kind of pressure is this?

And in some places, you know, if it's, you know, if it's some KKK grand wizard, no, I don't want that peer pressure. Let's name that. And this helps us name that and begin to do something to correct it. But if it's the, if it's the peer pressure of Mother Teresa, thanks be to God. 

Julius: Yeah, yeah, exactly. There are some dead people who are worth listening to.


MEDITATION

Now, Christian, I want to tell you a story about your name.

From the earliest days of the Tradition, the earliest and simplest proclamation of faith made by the disciples of Jesus was, "Jesus is Lord." 

And in those days, whoever was Lord determined the way of life for those under their Lordship. 

But instead of sending his followers to war to expand his rule or demanding taxes to build his palaces or ordering circuses for his entertainment, this Lord told his followers to love and trust God with their whole being, and that this would enable them to love and pray for their enemies, and care for the poor and sick.

And from its earliest days, the Faith growing out of the life, death, and resurrection of this Lord was just called "The Way." As in this was The Way our Lord enables us to live.

It wasn't until The Way made it to Antioch, a city in the Eastern Mediterranean, in what is now Turkey, which was known for trading, in spice and gold, and military strategies, and Religious Ideas, that the followers of Jesus were called "Christians."

Adhering to The Way warranted this new name because these followers internalized Jesus' way of trusting God's love and provision in ever-different circumstances and difficulties, and because in new places and ever-changing relationships these disciples took in and applied Jesus' way of loving enemies and serving those who had no way to pay them back and caring for the sick and elderly.

So the new word chosen for these people initiating a new Tradition, was "Christian," because the suffix "ian" means little - just like the suffix "i-t-o," ito in Spanish means little. So just like in Spanish perro is "dog," and perrito is "little dog" or "puppy," "Christian" means "Little Christ." 

And the way these Christians trusted and obeyed their Lord made them live in ways that looked foolish to the people in Antioch, so the word was meant as an insult.

They took it as a title of honor.  

And they began to summarize the gospel they lived and taught as the story of how God in Christ became as we are, so we might become as he is. 

This is the story of your name.

So I invite you, Christian, think of a roadblock, or issue, or source of pain, frustration, or confusion you are facing as a person of faith. 

And if one Tradition can progress until Aristotle gets into our iPhones, and if internalizing the beliefs and practices of the Christian Tradition gets the Creator of the Universe into your flesh, how does that shift your understanding of your faith? 

And how would it open a way forward for you, if you understood that progress in Christ's world, is progress in Christlikeness?  


Adversity that Magnifies God's Grace - w/ Julie Carrick


INTRO

Hello friends. Over the past few weeks, we've had the opportunity to sit down and talk with a few authors that have something worth sharing.

And so while we work on the next series for you, we're going to move slightly outside of our typical format, and pretty much just share those conversations.

This week we’ll talk with Julie Carrick— an author, recording artist, and the person behind the Carrick Ministries Foundation. She’s also someone who’s prayed for miracles and received miracles… and not received miracles.

In our conversation, this cradle Catholic presents a view of Christ’s ongoing and very tangible presence in the world and how this makes us people who see adversity as something that only magnifies God’s grace. So we hope you enjoy and beyond that we hope you are encouraged and edified by what follows


CONVERSATION

Wilson: So, all right, welcome back to another episode of “All Things”. This is Wil— I’m joined again by Mark Bunnell, one of our folks here at Shema that you've heard from before, and a first time guest on the podcast, Julie Carrick, who is an author, she's a recording artist and she and her husband have founded their own ministry, Julie Carrick ministries, that also supports other authors, speakers and recording artists and, having talked with her a bit, started reading through her book, has a lot, a lot to say that will help us become the kinds of people that could recognize God's grace and God's presence wherever we are in our life.

Um, and just gives me just some incredible firsthand stories about how she's learned to see God's grace and presence, even in the places where we might be most tempted to feel abandoned by God , um. Or to be tempted to think that perhaps there is some kind of evil or some kind of situation that could thwart God's purposes or stop God's grace, but instead has has journeyed through and now is, is somebody who  gives a good portion of her time and her energy and resources to helping others see this. So, Julie, thanks for being on. Thanks for joining us.

Julie: Thank you, to it's a privilege and an honor to be with you.

Wilson: Well thanks.

So, one of the things that comes out in your book, and especially as people who are hosting this podcast, it's all about learning to see God reconciling all things and taking seriously that gospel claim that who Jesus is, what Jesus has done, and because of, because of God's character and God's work, God has cleared the way to heal and to reconcile everything.  Um. You, being a cradle Catholic, I think have uh some background and some experience to draw from that could offer a lot of us a lot of wisdom about, about what kind of training and what it is to participate in God's work so that we can begin to see God everywhere.

And let's start with just that as being a cradle Catholic let's talk about the Eucharist. And, and what do you think, growing up receiving Eucharist and having it talked about the way that it is in a Catholic mass and to participate in that and receive it. How has that really shaped the whole way you see the world in a way that you see as distinct or different from the way many of us and many others view the world?

Julie: I feel like the Eucharist, because Christ is who he says he is in the Eucharist— and I love to fall back on John chapter 6, verse 53: “Unless you eat the flesh of the son of man and drink his blood, you do not have life within you.” And I believe that I have life in me because of the Eucharist. Um. A lot of times when people look at me and my ministry, they say, “Wow, you're such a strong woman.”

And I beg to differ. I think those of us who are the weakest need the strongest interpersonal relationship with Christ, and because of the Eucharist and the fact that I've had that physical presence, literally inside of me from the time that I was eight years old, um. Every time I go to mass, every time I receive him in the Eucharist, it's like going deeper into this wellspring of grace. 

That he is literally with me, I am never alone. And, in the times of my life, that it would be the easiest to feel abandoned, to feel like I've been left alone, or somehow there's not a deity up there watching over, um, I tap back into that Eucharist and to realize that that incredible intimate embrace that I have with him, um, is the strength that just surrounds me and encourages me even on times when I don't know how I'm going to go forward. It's a wellspring.

Wilson: That’s—I, I keep thinking, well. Two things popped into my mind. As a teacher and as a mentor, one of the, one of the coolest moments that—it happens often with different people, and it's just awesome the different routes that people take to get to this place. 

But it's, it's always such a, an incredible moment when someone says to me, you know… they came from either like a really agnostic place, like, ‘I don't know, maybe there's something, but how could we know,” or a really disillusioned place like, “I don't know. I grew up in church and now I'm at a place where I think. I'm pretty sure there's still a God, but that's about all I know, um and maybe, maybe the best way is for me just to make it up on my own, be spiritual.”

Or even coming from an atheistic place, when, when people move from that place to a moment where they say something like, “You know what, I still don't know if I can believe this, but I really want it to be true.” “I don't, I don't know if I can, if I'm ready to trust it, but there's something in me wants that to be true.”

And I think that about, um. At that kind of place, I'll also bring up the Eucharist and just think if it's not just a ritual that helps us remember something that happened way back when, but what if, really, the way you take in food—like, think about that image, that, that the energy that's held in that thing… I don't know. This is I'm starting to find miracles everywhere.

And so I, especially when you think about fast food, like it's garbage, right? Taco Bell is junk. Taco Bell is garbage and that makes it even more miraculous that my body can take that and make it energy.

Julie: [Laughs] Right.

Wilson: Not necessarily the most efficient, but I can still run on that. That's incredible. That you can take that stuff and your body can break it down and, and transform that energy into something that moves through you. That's just food. And, and why wouldn't we want that to be true about Christ? That who Christ is, can get into us that place to be our energy and to fuel our life that way, like…

Julie: So two, if I may, just two quick examples of that in my life, I mean. One of them that was just absolute, um…proof, if you will, if somebody ever just needs that physical proof, “Is he who he says he is?” In 2004, um —and God bless my husband, he is, he has been just such an open book literally to let us share our story with people—but in 2004, we were that marriage that hit the wall.

I mean, we hit it hard. We had been to hell and back in 2004. And when he asked me to sign divorce papers, I said the only way that I would even contemplate signing them is if he would go to the adoration chapel at our church, and that if he would go there with me for an hour, every other day, for a week, then at the end of that week, if God told me, “Okay, go ahead and sign.” I would sign. 

And it was because of me even saying that, that he was willing to go. And, we would walk in there and it was like Satan was scraped off at the door. He couldn't come into that space. And within an hour, I saw the light behind my husband's eyes. I saw the man who I'm married to start shining through, and it was the most amazing thing. 

And then at the end of an hour, hour and a half, we would walk back out and it was like Satan was waiting outside that door just to leap back on his back. Right. And this went on actually for a couple of weeks, and every time that grace of Christ went deeper into my husband.

And when the turnaround happened, it wasn't just a, “Okay, I'm going to end the affair and I want to work on things,” whatever… It was 180-degree turnaround. Like it was, it was healing to the deepest root of his, of his soul. And not only did it heal him, it healed me that I was able to not only forgive, but desire this life with this man who those months prior had caused the deepest pain that I could feel.

Wilson: Wow.


Julie: And that's one example where  just this physical presence of him was transformative. And the other one, which was just… I don't know. It's so hard for me to even share the, the depth of it, but. When my daughter was 20 she was the victim of a sexual assault from what she became pregnant. 

She never questioned the life of her child. Her only question for God was, “Am I a mom or am I a birth mom? What do you want?” And she kept asking that question. And, and in the meantime had sought a couple. She had, you know, she knew that if she was placing this child for adoption who that would be, but she didn't know if at that point. 

And so it was on a Sunday, late afternoon, we were going to mass together. And from my vantage point on the church, I was able to see, as she came forward to receive the Eucharist at mass, and it was that Sunday that she's like, “God, I need an answer. I need to know what I'm going to be doing with this child.” And as she came forward to receive, that was the first time that she felt that baby—as soon as she had consumed the host, she felt that baby just jumping inside of her, just like leaping for joy, “Mama I'm here, I'm here.”

And I didn't know that right. That was, I learned this after mass. All I knew is that when I looked at her when she received, there was like a light that surrounded her. And all I could imagine in what I was seeing was… she, my daughter, this child inside of her, and Christ literally inside, and this beautiful trio together was just the most intimate embrace that, that you could possibly have.

And right after mass was over, she said, “Mom, I have my answer today.” And when she explained to me the feeling that she was having and that she knew… I mean, it was so absolutely of God. It couldn't have been anything else. And it was in that Eucharistic moment that she knew, and… that's.

Mark: Yeah. I think what what's super encouraging to me in those stories is, in the last handful of years, um… so I guess for whatever listeners don't know, I come from a super Protestant background, um. And… but in the last handful or so of years, around the topic of the Eucharist—and we would just always call it communion—I started asking “Why?” in the back of my head and it wasn't until I started spending time and talking with Wil that I acknowledged and started to actually look for answers to what I was asking for. 

But it really came to a head when we were, it was a youth group service, and then Wil had suggested, I think, that we… I was running the service and that, um, that we do communion at it. Cause he said, “It’s important. You got to do it.” And as I was preparing it I was thinking about a couple of the students in mind, particularly, that I knew were… and they weren’t going to say it out loud, but in their heads and be like, “Mark, if this is just a symbol, why don't we just put a poster on the wall?” type of thing and even…

Wilson: Or “Can’t it be Oreos?” 

Mark: [Laughs] Yeah.

Wilson: “Or Oreos and soda?”

Mark: Yeah, “Can we do it with crackers that are good, Mark, please?”  But then I, then I started trying to like rationalize it and…or make sense of, of what was going on, and like. “If this is just a symbol, this is an interesting symbolic thing…”And really started to chase that question of like, “What is…what’s, what's going on here?” And then talking with some other people, um… Some other close friends have said like, “Yeah, I started to chase that question,” and from Protestant backgrounds, and they're saying some of the, some of the most striking encounters with Christ that they've had have been at the Eucharist table.

So it's really encouraging for me to hear from you, from a very different tradition, or church tradition background, about the importance and just how the transformative effect that the Eucharist has had in your life. And then I'm sure there's a little bit from you, being a cradle Catholic, that’s kind of like, “Well, yeah, you Protestant guys…Come on, come home. What are you doing?”

Julie: No, actually, there's a lovely story, um, from my life as a recording artist—the last project that I recorded in 2019 is a project called “Come to the Manger.” And the most amazing thing in that whole, the whole project was the, the song “Manducate,” which is Latin for the word ‘manger.’ And if you look at the definition of the word manger, or Manducate, it literally translates “to take and eat.”

And, so Christ, the lamb of God, who was born in the town of Bethlehem— and Bethlehem means house of bread— and to have this infant baby who's the King of kings laying in a manger, and the very thing he's laying in means “take and eat.” So that beautiful Eucharistic invitation from the time he was a baby. And so I look at that in my life as a cradle Catholic, and it's kind of funny that the cradle, the manger, you know, was already the invitation.

But when we were recording the song “Manducate,” my band members, most of whom are Protestant— beautiful men in Nashville, Tennessee— we got together in the studio and we were getting ready to record that song, and it was the most striking thing I have ever heard in my life. They played it one time and it was perfection.

It was perfection in one take. And at the end of it, everyone in the room just paused. And they said, “What was that?” And I said, “That was God's invitation to you to the Eucharist.”


Wilson: I mean, it's all over the place. I mean, even. So, manger means “take and eat,” and what do you put in a manger? Food. It’s, it's it, it really is. It's through and through and, and even opens us up. I mean, even if you start from that place—that God offers us that, that God can be that. And I've, I've also told people, I've told my students, “Look, if you, if you really have a hard time believing that God is capable of being present in ordinary stuff like bread, you also have a hard time believing that God is capable of being ord… present in ordinary stuff like a man's body.” Right. 

And so if, if you, if you really can't even open yourself to the possibility of like a, a genuine divine presence in something like the Eucharist, then, well, let's also talk about how you think about the incarnation.  But, but God's desire and, and promise, God's desire to be that for us, God's ability to be there in such an incredible way in ordinary things and promise to meet us there, I mean, it runs through and through and opens us to such a fuller understanding of salvation. The kind of salvation that isn't just, “Hey, you're all alone in this world. All the bad things that happen, but take heart when it's all over, you can go somewhere better,” 

But even more it's “I am with you.” Right.

And that's when, Julie, time and time again, it comes through in your book: “In, in incredibly dark difficult situations. I am with you. I am with you.” And I don't know. Maybe just give you one more opportunity to speak about a story or an instance that you think might be edifying for people to hear about like your life being a— I guess the subtitle of your book is, is “how adversity magnifies grace” and to pull those things together for us in a concrete story. 

Julie: So I, I, as you were saying that I could just picture one of the miracles where, I believe in my heart of hearts, if I weren't walking this closely with God, that I would have missed one of the greatest opportunities to let him reveal himself, and it was when I was pregnant with our second child. We were living in Germany, and as I was going into the, I was going into the ER, actually, I was having severe abdominal pain, and it was before I knew I was pregnant.

I went into the hospital. I was having this horrible pain, they did a ultrasound and they said, “You're having an ectopic pregnancy. And we need to do surgery to remove that tube before it bursts.” And I panicked, I panicked. And I said, “I can't, I can't let them do that. I'm pro-life,” right. I was like, just like in this moment of just panic and I, I ran across town.

Drove as a maniac across town, and got my husband who was in the army, and I was like, “Honey, they want to do this surgery.” And as we were coming back into the doors of the hospital, the Catholic priest, who was our chaplain was coming out, Father Clancy. And we explained very quickly to him what was happening, and he said, “Okay, so you need a miracle, you need a miracle.”

And I said, “We do need a miracle. I don't know what to do.” And, and we stopped and he just, he laid hands on me. And he just prayed for maybe five minutes. And during that time, the pain had stopped and I was grateful. The pain had stopped, but, being very immature at that point in my faith as far as an adult relationship with Christ, I, I assumed that the tube had burst and that I better get in there and let them, you know, so me up before I bled to death. 

And so I went into the back end of the hospital, the doctor kind of chewed me out. And he said, no, we need to finish the rest of the ultrasound and we need to do surgery immediately.

And so he started the ultrasound again, and then he went kind of back and forth between right and left. And he said, “Where was your pain?”And I said, “Well it was on the right…” And he goes, “Well, that's strange…” And then he, then he went to the left and back to the right. And he said, “Well, whatever it is, it’s gone.”

And. Then they finished the ultrasound down into the uterus, and the exact same mass that was in the tube was now safely nestled in the uterus where she belonged. And that is Heidi. And she was born safely on March the 23rd, 1986. And…. just the beauty of accepting that gift of grace and knowing that this priest who just, just expected because of that relationship with Christ, just to be with us.

Um. It, it was like he revealed himself to me just as a gift, you know? Just as a pure gift to say, “I’m going to spare the life of this child and let you, let you have her here this on side of heaven.” And, I don't know. It sounds like so far fetched, and yet it's a reality of my life. 

I mean, it's, it's something as simple as just doing morning prayer, and it’s something as extreme to show his love as to save the life of my child and to let me keep her. And I don't know. It's it's it just, he is who he is. He's, he's amazing. And he loves us so much.

Wilson: Um. I w-I would just maybe ask  for others who have been in a place and prayed, and haven't got the miracle, right. I know you've been there too. And so, so what would you say about the grace that's there in the miracles and when you pray for them and ask for them and then you don't get what you prayed for or asked for.

Julie: Absolutely. So, the total opposite end of that spectrum, um. My husband and I, after our daughter, Heidi, was safely born in 1986, it was a few years later, I had the sad loss of a child at five and a half months into the pregnancy. And just the spontaneous miscarriage and, um. By the time we got to the hospital, that baby, there was no way that he was going to make it.

And he was perfect. Like he was this perfectly formed, amazing child. And, I couldn't understand why on one hand, God would give me the miracle of letting me keep my daughter, and then just a few years later take a baby home far too young, far too soon. And it didn't make sense to me for a while. I'll be honest.

It didn't make sense to me. And… but in my love of God, I thought, “God, you've got to have a purpose here. I'm not quite sure what it is, but I love you enough to know that you're journeying with me. And so for now, I'm going to kind of just let it, let it go,” right? 

Two years later, the same thing happened. I got to that five month mark. I miscarried that baby boy, and I couldn’t, again, understand why would God just take these children home? And it wasn't until I was able to start telling the story of their lives and that this incredible spark of creation in God's design when a human being is conceived in the womb of his or her mother, that— it's true,we don't know the number of our days—but sainthood is real. The soul is eternal. 

And it wasn't until I felt the loss of these children that I could truly have empathy for women and men who've lost children. And knowing that God was calling me to a life of ministry, it was like I was allowed to have both the experience of the loss to love them even more. And it made me realize that these saints are with God and heaven. I mean, they are literally with him— these babies, as they were miscarrying, my husband and I baptized them, they were… I know that they immediately became a part of the communion of saints, and…

And to give kind of a lighthearted end to this part of the story was, it wasn't until we had our son, um, a couple of years later— so now there's a seven and nine-year age gap between our children, so our, our two daughters and then seven years when we have our son Paul—and I think Paul was about seven… He was six or seven, and his sisters were just into those teen years, and we were at dinner one evening and the girls—and this is how old they are—they were asking for beepers, right? They wanted beepers. If you don't know what a beeper is, it was before cell phones. So—

Wilson: I remember begging for a beeper, I had a beeper.

Mark: Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. I remember that. 

Julie: And so we were having this argument at dinner, and they were like, “Mom, I need a beeper,” and I'm like, “You're not a doctor. You're not a lawyer. You don't need a beeper.” Right. 

And so finally our son chimes in and he says, “Mama, I think I know why God took Timmy and Clancy home early…” 

And I was like,  “Really? Why do you think?” 

And he said, “Well… he knew you were going to need two more saints to help you with these girls.”

And I thought, well, you know, there's some wisdom there, um. Yeah, it's, it's not always, you know… our prayers are not always answered the way we think they should be answered, but in God's plan, when we allow ourselves into his life of grace, he does eventually reveal what the purpose is. And, and sometimes the suffering is just literally bringing us closer to him at the cross and to appreciate all the more, what he was willing to suffer for us and, uh, and enter into that.

Wilson: While you were talking, Julie, I thought of two things— I thought of now Saint Teresa of Calcutta, and the desolation that she felt after she said yes to Jesus and went and carried out this mission. She felt, she felt spiritually abandoned and desolate. And the conclusion that she and her spiritual director came to, and that she lived on, was that God was giving her the grace to experience what the people that she ministered to every day felt—that she wouldn't be coming from this place of like privilege and, and just power top-down, but she would be one of them in the midst of that. 

And for her, that would also be ultimately a chance to know God's grace and power even there.

Julie: Yeah, absolutely.

Wilson:  And so our story is, Jesus didn't like go to the cross to kind of like, make some kind of magic portal through or around, but to make a way through it for us.

So then no matter where we go, no matter how dark it gets, we find Christ there bringing us back to God. And so there's that other thing that I thought of, is the resurrection. That when the— when the disciples encounter Jesus on the other side of the cross and the grave, they don't just see like some wispy spirit. Right. 

Which is how you would tend to imagine some sort of life beyond death, but it's Jesus. Like they, they can fall down and grab his feet. And he eats fish. Right. And Taco Bell with if that was around… Right. But like ghosts don't eat, but Jesus eats. And in that, the victory is not just that something will survive, but death gets nothing. And that's what we hold on to, is no matter how bad—even losing a child, right? God is there too. And, and God's presence and grace and power there means death gets nothing.

Julie: Yeah.

Wilson: And so that, isn't the last word. Death has not ultimately stolen anything from God. And the promise—and I like to think of it that way is, you know, having a, having a bit of insight…

“Oh, it's so you've got some saints to help you with these difficult children.” I have children, and I, you know… I welcome, right, all the prayers and help I can get from living in dead folks. Anyone who's there and available to pray for me and help me, I will take it, you know? And so like the insight, the insight that's there is, is a good one, but that's always like, we always get to like…God's graces is bigger than we can imagine. 

So don't think that's it, it wasn't just so that Julie could have this moment of insight and a funny story. Like that's a sign of a promise of what heaven fully is when it becomes clear to us death got nothing.


Julie: As you say that, I’m thinking, in fact—there's an image over my shoulder here, is the Pietà, when Christ is, is taken down from the cross and he's laid across the lap of his mother. I mean if anyone can understand this, it's Mary, you know?

Here she is this amazing human being, the most amazing human being ever. And as the mother of the Savior of the world, she, if anybody, should have had a free pass. And yet, she not only heard him say,“I am going to suffer and die,” but, “on the third day I'm going to raise.”

 I am going to suffer and die. My son who's in the air force. I mean, if he says to me, “Mom, you know this mission— I'm not coming back from it,”

I'd have to join the air force and go, you know… like get in the middle of it and keep them from getting hurt, right? That's not what Mary teaches us. She teaches us that it was through his suffering. It was going through the pain and the agony that he bought our salvation. I mean, he literally bought us.

He, he paid the price for us, and if anyone can acknowledge that, you know, if it could have been any other way—I mean look at, all the way to Jerusalem… All the way there, he kept saying, “I’m gonna die. I'm gonna die. I'm gonna die.” Right. Then they get there and we're going to celebrate it on Palm Sunday.

Right. And the people praise him. And Mary was like, “Oh my gosh,” just… “Maybe the story is different. Maybe he doesn't have to die after all, look at how they're greeting him,” 

And the next day, he's taken from the garden of gets Semini and arrested and, and she watches the whole thing unfold, and teaches us that in, in the quiet and in the acceptance of what we're supposed to suffer, some amazing fruit is going to come out of that. And it's that acceptance of the suffering, um… She teaches us that really, really well. 

Mark: So, Julie, as you know, we've been in the pandemic for the last year or so—I think now it's actually been more or less officially a year from whenever— I don't know when we'll release this podcast, but recording this around March, um. So, um. How has, how has your life and your experiences of God's grace—in all the, the ups and the downs, the highs and the lows so far—how has that influenced and shaped the way that you've navigated this pandemic and this last couple of years that we've been in?

Julie: That's a great question. Um. W-what's kind of an interesting way of looking at that is, one of our artists—her name is Liz Owen from Grand Rapids, Michigan—she called me about four and a half months into the pandemic and she said, “I’m…I feel like I'm losing it,” you know, being locked down, not having, not being able to go anywhere and not being able to go to church.

I mean, it was, she, she said, “I feel like I'm losing it.”

And then she had like this, you know, kind of a high pitch, kind of hysterical, laugh, and, and she said, “With everything that you've been through, this probably isn't even phasing you, is it?” 

And on one hand, I kind of laughed and I said, “That is kind of funny when you put it that way.”

I mean, when you've been allowed, allowed the gift of adversity, it thickens your skin, you know… it does thicken you a little bit to say, “Okay, whatever is coming, I can handle this,” you know. 

And then I'm, I'm always afraid to even say that out loud, because it seems like anytime I've said, “Yeah, you know, we've made it through this and this and this… bring it,” you know. Don't ever say “bring it” because it'll get brought, you know,

Wilson: [Laughs] You're inviting an even worse challenge, right. “Just come on. Challenge me.” Right?

 Julie: “Challenge accepted.” And in all, in all seriousness, the pandemic I had, I could write the next, you know… volume of, of “Unfailing Grace,” because during the pandemic, we had some of the greatest joys. Some of the most amazing joys were the gifts that I found in the middle of it was that, because I wasn't touring full time and I wasn't, I wasn't gone every week, I've got to spend an entire year each week visiting with my grandchildren and my daughters and their families who live in the same valley here in Phoenix, where I live in, in Scottsdale. And, so that's been an amazing gift. 

The other thing is, God knows the number of our days. As I said, whether, my, you know, the babies went home from the womb at five months, or my grandmother who was 99 before she passed, um. My father died during the pandemic. And… it was very, very painful to, to lose my dad. He's been my daddy my whole life, and just an amazing man of faith, and stronger… I… he's one of these guys that's not going to die. Right. Because he's, he's Ted. And, um. When he died, it was really painful. Still is.

But…. The gift that came out of the pandemic is that God knew when my daddy was going home. He knew when, when his days were finished on this earth. And he knew that my mom was not going to handle that very well on her own that she was going to need more support than what would have been expected, I guess.

And so, to be here during that time when my mother needed me the most, and to be the one that, you know, I felt like my father's passing was like the band-aid getting ripped off from my mom, and somebody had to be there to let the healing start, and um… in very many ways I was the one that had to pull off the band-aid and be there for that time of healing and to help her transition that new, that new life.

And so, um. I believe in a lot of ways, the pandemic has been maybe a bit more refining, as far as my desire to share the truth with people, my desire to share the faith with people has gone deeper than I thought it ever would. Which is kind of the opposite of what I had expected. One of my pet peeves—and I apologize profusely to anyone that I'm going to insult, because I know I'm going to, um. But it drew… it drives me crazy when I hear people say things like, “Well, I'm going to go to church this morning, sitting in my living room in my pajamas.”

You know, we've become a spectator sport instead of, okay. Yeah. Maybe you can't get up and go to a church for part of the pandemic, but that didn't mean that you couldn't get up, get dressed, look the most presentable that you would be to encounter God—even if you are watching mass or whatever your church service is, or, you know, whatever on television, we still need to put ourselves in that place of accepting his grace and an honoring him as our King of kings.

And, so for me, the pandemic has just taught me that there, there are those who love the feel-good Jesus, and there are those that need to encounter a time of, a time of drought in order to realize that they're thirsting. 


Julie: And so in a lot of ways, I'm grateful for the pandemic because I believe as we come back to church, as we come back to groups of people that are there to honor and praise God together, we're going to do it with 100% sincerity and not lukewarm. 

I feel like we've gone from John 3:16 to Revelation 3:16, and that would be, you know, “For God do loved the world that he gave us His only son that whoever believes in him will live.” 

That's, that's nice. That's pretty, that's comforting. 

But in Revelation 3:16, it says, “Hot or cold—but the lukewarm I'm going to spew from my mouth.” And I want to be on fire for God, and I feel like the pandemic has brought me to that place.

Wilson: As you're talking about that, it also makes me think, um. What, what the gift of God's grace to all of us in our adversity opens up and makes possible for us for a fuller life that, without tasting that it would just be experienced as like, as like a burden or a requirement, but now it kind of begins to reveal it to my vision as a, as a genuine opportunity for a fuller life.

Because, like, we all know we come alive when we help. When we bear each other's burdens. And, when, when we've been brought— because there, there is suffering that is just unfathomable, right? And even in John chapter 9, right? When the, with the blind man, the first question is like, “Why? Who, who's responsible for this?”

And, and when you get to that place where you've, you've experienced the unfathomable suffering and the even greater, even more unfathomable, grace of God in that place, it allows you to look around and go, “But that suffering makes some sense and I can do something about it.” If you'll look around and notice, right?

And this, because I'm thinking, you know, in this, how grateful I am, that even just as simple as I have a home to get claustrophobic in, right? The, and that I have kids that can be on top of me in this house all the time and, and drive me nuts… even those things are a grace and a lot of people don't have that.

And, and where God has met me, in that time where I thought, “Oh, good.” Right. If there's any, if there's any way that I could begin to rationalize or justify not noticing and not helping, God's grace not only meets me in that place, but also challenges that, and says, like, “But for them and for you, I am, I am more gracious.”

And so I, I hear this as a—and again, please don't hear this as a burden, and everyone: you have permission to take a deep breath and just rest, because this is an incredibly difficult time. But you take that, and you receive that grace and that gives you permission to know like, “But I don't just have to stop living.”

And part of living is noticing who doesn't have what I have. What suffering is explainable and what could I do? And in what small way could I step out and do that? And that's just another thing, like we're talking about, the—letting the Eucharist, Christ’s life and presence, fuel us and flow out of us to, again, to, just like we're talking about, be a—like you are, and like your book is a testament to, a living witness to, the— a sign pointing to the truth that God's grace and mercy is bigger and is able to handle and overcome whatever adversity we're facing.

Julie: Absolutely, absolutely. That’s, that’s perfection. That is.

Wilson: Sainthood—holiness, right? Christ, Christ’s glory shining through us.

Trauma, the Left and Right Brain, and Redemptive Relationships


INTRO:

Hello friends. Over the past few weeks, we've had the opportunity to sit down and talk with a few authors that have something worth sharing. 

So, while we work on the next series for you, we're going to deviate, just a little bit, from our typical format, and pretty much just share those conversations. 

Last week we began our discussion with Dr. Ken Baugh, director of IDT Ministries and author of "Unhindered Abundance: Restoring our Souls in a Fragmented World." If you want to catch up, go ahead and skip back to that episode. We started talking about God and Trauma and how the intersection of neuroscience and ancient spiritual practices like Scripture meditation and memorization can help forge paths of healing.

This week we pick up the conversation exploring the way different dimensions of our brains work, and how this interaction points to the massive importance of redemptive relationships in our healing.  

Again, we hope you enjoy, and beyond that, hope you are encouraged and edified, by what follows.  


CONVERSATION:

Ken: Let's talk now about the left and right side of the brain, unless you had a quick response to that— Wil, did you have something else you wanted to throw in? 

Wilson: You're you're on a roll. 

Ken: On a roll, okay, let's keep going. so one of the things that I've been learning, and this is newer to my study is that the right hemisphere of the brain is what processes information from our five senses first.

So there's more horsepower, if you will, in our right side of our brain than there is in our left. Basically your brain and mine are processing what's going on around us; the left side processes at six times a second, the right side processes at five times a second. 

So there, we’re— even though there's, there's a one second difference, your right brain has more horsepower than your left brain, meaning that when something happens and you need to make a decision, you will often make that decision, depending on the situation, instinctively, and you don't even have to think about it. 

Let me give you an example. If you're driving down the freeway, and you're looking at your phone, you're not texting because you know that's wrong, but let's just say you glance at your phone quickly.

And then you look up and you see a bunch of red car lights in front of you. What do you do? [pause] 

This is, this is not a rhetorical question.

Wilson: Oh, I do, I do that to my classes all the time and I get the same response— [laughter] just deer in the headlights.

Ken: Crickets. Yeah. Yeah.

Wilson: I press the brakes.

Ken: There you go. Now you hit the brakes without even thinking about it. If you would have had to go— I think if you had had to think about it and go, “Red lights, what does that mean again? Oh yeah. Everybody's hitting their brakes and stopping and I'm going at quite a clip here. So if I don't hit my brakes, I'm gonna run into the guy in front of me and my insurance is gonna, is gonna go up. Somebody might get hurt. Really. This is gonna make for a bad day.”

If you had to do all of that processing cognitively, what would happen? You'd run right into the back of the car in front of you— but you don't. Why? Because your brain, the right side of your brain is able to make a decision before your left side is even invited to the party. That happens all the time.

And so, in fact, neuroscientists will tell you that the majority of your behavior is the result of what is going on in your non-conscious, not your conscious mind. That's why you can be driving home at night, and let's say you had a rough day at the office. And you're driving home kind of processing and thinking about that, and the next thing you know, you pull up in front of your house and you're like, “Man, how did I get here?”

That's because everything was automated, and so your brain was able to process your day without having to think about driving home. The same is true when you learn how to ride a bike— you don't need to relearn how to ride a bike every time you get on a bike. Once you know how to ride a bike, you know. 

When you learn how to drive a, a manual transmission, a stick, you don't have to relearn that every time you get into a car. Why? Because, you, some people can refer to it as muscle memory, right? There's a, it's almost like the matrix. When you need to fly helicopter, you just dial in the helicopter program and boom. You're able to fly the helicopter.

In a similar way, your brain has already pre-programmed responses based upon these different scenarios of your experience. Cause you know, cause you've driven a hundred times on the freeway and you see red lights and you know to hit your brakes. So you don't have to think about it the next time you see red lights, it's an instinctive thing. 

Well, we do the same thing emotionally. So if you have a pre-programmed response, let's say you're walking down the hallway at home as a five-year-old little boy and you're checking to see if, if dad— who you're not sure had a good day or a bad day, and you're not sure if he's going to go off on you or not, so you're kind of trying to read what's happening to gauge your response—if he looks at you, you can know if you're in trouble or not. 

Okay. So let's, let's say you, you park that experience and fast forward 20 years. Now you're walking down the hallway and your boss is walking towards you and he gives you that same look that you thought was the same look of your dad, and what are you going to do? You're gonna go down that rabbit hole with the same feelings because those feelings have now been triggered by that memory. 

This is the important thing to understand: the brain has no concept of past or present. It's just there. You, your brain has a hundred billion neurons in it, approximately, and it can store the equivalent of the entire worldwide web.

So, every experience that you and I have ever had— good, bad or ugly—is in our memory banks, and can be triggered at a moment's notice, depending on the situation and the intensity of the situation. That's why you can walk into a restaurant and smell an apple pie and go back 20 years when you were a child and you'd go to your grandma's house and she'd have apple pie waiting for you when you got there. 

You may not have thought of that— that memory may have not come up for 20 years, but you walk into this restaurant, smell that apple pie and bam. You're right there. So this is the important dynamic of our thinking and our left and right brain. 

So, here's the other aspect of the right brain: the majority of our character formation— this includes our formation in Christ— is a right brain dynamic. Meaning that, character is formed not by information, but through relationship.

Information helps with that process, but it's not what determines the outcome. So, for example, one of the things that we have been conditioned in our current Christian subculture is that truth is what informs your will, and then all you need to do is make the right decision.  Well, I've made a lot of dumb decisions even though I've known that those were the wrong things to do. So my knowledge of right and wrong did not change the decision— I still made the decision. I still acted on that. 

So what's going on? Well, We've identified that if, especially if it's a sinful behavior, well, that sin and you just need to stop doing that. Yeah… but that's not helpful. That doesn't help me stop doing it, just identifying it as sin. 

Now, maybe it kicks my willpower. and it's like, “Okay, I'm going to try really, really hard to not do this anymore.” But what happens, you're focused, your, your thoughts are focused on not doing it, not doing it, not doing it.

And the same thing has happened in: “Don't think about a pink elephant in the room.” And what did you just do? You just thought about a pink elephant in the room.

So again, it goes back to the point that what we think about is what we move toward. What changes character is relationship. So that old Adam, that more is caught than taught, is absolutely true in regard to character.

That's why Jesus invited the disciples to come be with him. Not just show up at the synagogue at 9AM for your next Hebrew lesson. Now, I’m not minimizing the importance of scripture, at all. Nor am I saying that scripture isn't a unique dynamic of cognitive information, because it is. But information alone, and the emphasis that we have put on information, which I think goes back as far as the reformation, is not what changes our character. It's our relationship. 

That's why Jesus said, John 15, the metaphor he used was: “Abide in me.”  “If you abide in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit.” 

So essentially what he's saying is that “As you spend time with me, you're going to become more like me. Therefore, the decisions you make will be more in line with who I am and what my people do in that given situation.” 

Wilson: Yeah. That makes me think, just. I don't know— I guess I can edit it out if it feels like I should later— but just this morning, I was teaching a Christian tradition class, and there were several students that they were really having a, really having a hard time processing that it was almost 400 years before the church canonized the New Testament say… before, they said like, “This is the new Testament.”

Now, of course, those writings were around, they were in use, but this is where I helped them see like really the reason we call it Christian tradition is because it, it all comes from—that seed is the relationship with Christ that, that personal, that time with Jesus and why… the key factor for any teaching and what they, when they came to canonize it, is it what they said “Yes. This is canonical scripture. This is part of our Bible” is it was apostolic. Because the apostles spent time with Christ and it wasn't like they spent time listening to people talk about things that Jesus talked about. 

It wasn't, it wasn't like watching a bunch of Jesus's TED talks. They spent time with Jesus.

Yeah. I mean, it makes me think of the… there's a 20th century philosopher named Michael Polanyi who, that he was one of those guys, he started off as a chemist. He was like a renowned chemist and then decided, “No I'm going to do philosophy.” But because— and he crushed it in both—but because he started to get frustrated with the way he thought, similarly to how we think about knowledge with scripture:

“Oh if you just, if you just know the facts, if you know the right things, then you'll be able to do this stuff.” 

He was saying, “No, I'm a chemist and that's not how it works. That's not how knowledge actually gets passed on.” Like, sure, we can write the textbooks and the manuals, but that's not how a scientist makes more scientists.

And one of the key examples that comes out of this is he says look: when in World War II, when the US was rushing to develop the technology uh, to… to generate an, A-bomb, they had all the right manuals, they had the best labs, they had all the great funding, but they couldn't get the results. And what they eventually had to do was take the… they were European scientists that had written the manuals and bring those scientists into the labs, and now the key was the person. 

Now that there's the person that has that knowledge in them, right? Not just, not just the manuals that they wrote, but now that that scientist, that person is here with the lab and with the funding, then they got the results. 

Similarly, I think the analogy here I'm trying to make to the Christian tradition and scripture is, when the church was discerning between “No, that's not scripture, this is.” 

Or “No, that's not a Christian teaching, this is,” the key was apostolicity—whether or not it was apostolic. The key there is, like, does it— and I think of it, like, they spent time with Jesus, and so Jesus relationally attuned them to the truth—to him as the truth. And then they spent time. Right?

Going back to, way back, when we did the Apostle's Creed episode, Kevin Portillo was, when he was talking about Irenaeus, when he's, when he starts to like help the church discern between what's true teaching, what's Christian, what's not, the apostolic thing there was not just like, “Could we credit to this,” and “Are the footnotes proper?”

But it was more, “No, no, no. Who, who taught you? Who has, who have you spent so much time with that they shape who you are, who taught…” 

And that's what he's getting at with taught you, “Who taught you? Because I was taught by Polycarp, who was taught by the apostle John, who was taught by Jesus.”

And again, that's not just, you know— Jesus wrote a note that was passed from this person to this person, to this person. Jesus spent time with John and that attuned, that shaped who John was, and John spent time with Polycarp, and that relationship shaped who Polycarp was, and this is… this is how the message gets pushed out. 

So when I told my—bringing it back full circle— what I told my class was, I think what's way more important and interesting than how long did it take for them to say “This is the new Testament,” was what kind of people could write it. 

That Christ comes and shapes the kind of people that could generate— that could create. That could… that could be in tune with God and God's inspiration so that God could use them, to like bring this into the world. 

And what kind of people could recognize Christ in these writings, and, “Well, these are good and edifying, but not scripture,” and “These are actually misleading and harmful.” And the key there is that relationship and how we rub off on each other. 

Ken: Yeah, and I like, Wil, what you said, of how it shapes us. And that's really important to this conversation… because Jesus invited the disciples to come be like him. So let's just take an example. One of the things we know to be a disciple is that we are to love our enemies. 

So, Jesus says to the disciples, “Okay guys, I want you to come follow me. I'm going to teach you that my people love their enemies. Then I'm going to model this for you of what it looks like to love your enemies. And then you're going to get the opportunity to love your enemies. And you're not going to do it perfectly at first. But over time, as you watch me do this, you're going to become the kind of people that naturally and habitually love their enemies.”

It's not going to be a Herculean decision on your part when you have that opportunity or not. It's not like you're gonna have to wrestle down your willpower in order to love this person, because you have now become the kind of person that loves their enemies. That same principle is what plays out in how we actually change.

So let's just take a current example: we know that a lot of pastors and church leaders struggle with pornography. So— and pornography is sin. So the typical way of dealing with that is… “Well, you need to get an accountability partner and you need to be able to tell that person and know that you're going to meet with that person once a week and going to have to tell them everything that you've done.”

Now the assumption is, my knowing that I'm going to be meeting with this person is what's going to motivate me to not look at pornography. Well, I would question that motive to begin with, right? Because, if I still want to look at pornography, but I don't look at pornography because I know that I'm gonna have to answer for it to somebody and get in trouble, so to speak, then I'm going to do one of two things:

I'm either going to not look at it for the wrong reasons, or I'm gonna lie about it. And so, instead of addressing the pornographic behavior— that is not the problem. It's a problem, for sure… But the problem is what's going on in the heart. And so we have to address it from a heart issue.

So the, the goal in resolving a pornography problem is to deal with and address whatever is going on in the heart that is looking for pornography to numb it or help cope with it, and get that resolved, that pain resolved relationally, so that I'm not even tempted by pornography. It's not that because I make a choice at the moment I'm being tempted…

It's more about: I've just become the kind of person that is no longer interested in pornography. That's why Satan's temptations of Jesus didn't work. It wasn't because the temptations weren't real. It's just that Satan didn't realize that Jesus was the kind of person that wasn't tempted by impressing others. He wasn't tempted by the riches of this world. He wasn't tempted cause he was the kind of person that wasn't tempted by those things. So— and I'm not minimizing his divinity, I'm just saying that the temptation, for it to be temptation, had to be legit. Right? So— and we can get into a whole conversation about that.

But, my point is behavior change is connected directly to our character. Our character formation takes place much differently than we've ever realized before— that it is largely a right-brain, relational, bonding dynamic than it is an intellectual, cognitive, propositional truth dynamic.

Ken: Those, those two things do work together. I'm not advocating a right or a left-brain Christianity— I'm advocating a whole-brain Christianity. 

Dr. Jim Wilder, does a really good job talking about, uh, these aspects of right-brain left-brain and such, and I've been learning a lot from him. And he actually was kind enough to do some editing in my book to help kind of bridge the gap a little bit because my book is very left-brain oriented. 

And again, it's not that the left brain dynamics that are in my book aren't helpful, they are… but they don't have the same horsepower to actually bring about life change as the right-brain. So, the revised version of my book is going to include a chapter or two that really get into these dynamics of the right-brain.

I hint at it in my book. Dr. Wilder helped connect some dots, for me, even in the editing process of doing that, uh. But it is a… It is fascinating how God has actually set up the change process for us, and then as you start overlaying that understanding and let that understanding inform your thinking about why Jesus did ministry the way that he did you see,  “Oh my gosh, it was all relational— it was being with him. It was spending time with him.”

Yes, he did do some teaching. Of course he did. Right? He taught parables. He taught, he taught the crowds— the disciples, most of the time were there listening. So there was a cognitive aspect like we would see today, and I'm not minimizing the role of preaching or anything like that.

I'm just saying, that there's a whole ‘nother part of the right-brain dynamic that we need to add to the conversation if we really want to see change take place as it is available. 

Julius: Yeah, I- I mean, I-I’ve just enjoyed everything that you've said so far. I think what's been going on for me, listening to you, is I think you've helped me kind of reconnect— 

I, probably like Wil, identify more with, like, the right-brain processes, the very affective, like, emotional… not that I, not… I mean. I can probably over-think just as well as I over-feel, but, like. I think over the past few years, especially, like— I'm re-reading right now a book by James K. Smith called “You Are What You Love,” and his books, um, work from a very very similar, if not the same, like, kind of anthropological-neurological framework that you just spoke about and uses kind of the same analogies as, actually, that you did. 

Ken: Oh, interesting. 

Julius: So you guys are on the same page. 

Ken: Cool. 

Julius: But that was one of the really formational readings for me was, um, was this idea that so much of what governs our actions and, and what we, I guess, believe, is informed by the, the, the non-conscious, like the unconscious level, and how it's our everyday habits and our embodied practices and, like taking it to like a deeper, like theological level, like are the liturgies that we participate in, whether they’re liturgies that form us towards God's kingdom or towards like desiring… a different kingdom. Um… That it's, it's our habits that form, like that shape what we desire, and that our desire is what pulls us and what kind of like… That’s kind of what drives our… I don't know.

Our desire is, is a, is a vehicle that, that drags our emotions and our actions and all that stuff. But because of that, like, it's working from this anthropological model that human beings are not just “brains-on-a-stick.” That we're not just… that transformation doesn't come from gaining the right information, but that it is about like re-formation. Like spiritual formation is about like reforming our desires and it's more embodied than just learning the right things.

And I think because of that, I actually have not known what to do with the thinking part. And I think, um… 

What you were saying earlier about, um, connecting that to all of the calls in Scripture to pay attention—to taking captive of every thought and setting our minds on the right things— I think for a while I started to resist those scriptures, or at least hold them, like, suspend them and not know what to do with them, because I was starting to operate from this:

“But wait,” like, “You can't think your way into goodness,” or like, “You can't think your… like… cognitively change your beliefs” and, and I don't know… You can't decide, “I'm just going to think good things and so, like, I'm gonna feel good things. 

Um. But you said something about how the… when we think either negative or positive thoughts, that that kind of creates a gray matter in our brain, that kind of creates a rut in our, like, whatever parts of our brain caused us to feel and tell stories.

And, I think what you helped connect for me is that paying attention to our, to our thoughts is… 

Like, thinking is a habit, and so it's worth paying attention to what are we often thinking about. Which, which really draws me today to the importance of—you mentioned like meditation and specifically like meditative practices on like meditating on scripture, or like, I think of something like Lectio Divina as a practice that I think really beautifully marries the, um.

It's a marriage between like the cognitive parts of our brain, or like the left-brain, if you will, that has like to do with like the cognitive processes and the intellect, but also um. Even just thinking of Lectio, there's like a, there's a slowness to it, and there's also like an involvement of, like, our affect because of that, that um. 

It helps train our mind into, like, habitually thinking. It still invites thinking into the conversation because we're meditating on these thoughts and beliefs and sayings, um. But it also invites all the rest of the gears into it… you know?

And so, yeah, I, I… I hope that makes sense. But I, I think w-w-you… just even further helped connect everything so that the… My understanding of the human soul is so much more robust, and holistic now. 

Ken: Yeah. Holistic is a bit is important word. Okay. So let's, let's invite another person to this party and that's the Holy Spirit. 

Julius: Hmm.

Ken: Because the Holy Spirit is the primary agent of change. The Holy Spirit is referred to as the spirit of truth, who guides us into all truth. There is no change without the Holy Spirit. 

So, he is the one that we partner with in this change process. And that's important because Western Christianity—not exclusively, but primarily—has been a left-brain faith built on the truth of scripture, cognition, intellect…

We can go back to not only the reformation, but the enlightenment. There's a lot of cultural dynamics that influenced, uh— that Wil, you could, you could certainly speak much, uh, much more eloquently about than I can. But here's my point: the early church, most of the people in the early church were illiterate.

So even if they had a Bible, they wouldn't have been able to read it. And, the Bible didn't exist—the New Testament didn't exist for them to be able to read every morning in their quiet time. And even if they would have had one, they couldn't have read it. So, how did people grow and transform pre-printing press? Right?

Pre… everybody having their own copy of the scrolls, which nobody did— not even a synagogue had a complete copy of the scrolls, right? We would kind of lend them to each other. You have this scroll, I have that scroll, let's swap next week and, and so forth. 

So again, the Holy Spirit is key, key, key in this. He is the one that makes us grow. What we do—there is a part that we play in that—but that part isn't the growth part. That part is, is creating an environment where growth takes place. So for example, I like to use the analogy of a farmer. 

A farmer can't make a crop grow. But he can plow the soil, plant the seed, water, the seed, nurture the seed through… you know, fertilizer and so forth. What is he doing? He's creating the environment for that seed to grow and thrive, but he can't actually make the seed grow. 

God is the one, through the work of the Holy Spirit, that makes us grow. Paul talks about that clearly in 2 Corinthians 3:18, that the growth process— we are being conformed into the image of Christ, and that conformation process is driven largely by the person and work of the Holy Spirit. So… there is a part that we play that doesn't make this legalism, that doesn't make this a works-oriented salvation— it's a participation. 

And, that’s important because there are things that we need to do. And I think scripture, especially the new Testament… Well, it's not just the New Testament—it’s the Old as well, and the Shema, right? 

It’s: “Think about these things. When you're walking along the pathway, when you're talking to your children at dinner, before you go to sleep at night,” right? The Pharisees would tie the phylacteries around their wrists and on their forehead in order to remind themselves of the Torah, an…

So there's all of these tools, if you will, but it just shows us not only the importance of God's word, but also the importance of meditating on God's word and… going over it over and over and over again. And so, some of these newer exercises to evangelicalism, I would say—like Lectio Divina, that— what you just referred to, right…

That's not a new thing to Catholic traditions. It's not a new thing to a lot of main, uh… mainline denominations. But for evangelicals it…. can even be heretical, right? Because there's mystery involved in that, and, you know. A lot of people get really challenged by any aspect that is mysterious. 

I just say that it's humility, uh, that we need to have.

But I really think that we have to, when we're talking about change, we're talking about all these dynamics that we are, we have to bring the Holy Spirit and his central work into the conversation. 

Wilson: Ken, is there, is there anything else that you just, you wanted to get on tape? 

Ken: One of the things I'd like just to encourage your listeners with, is that there is more life available to you than you ever dreamed possible. Jesus wasn't kidding when he said “I have come that they may have life and have it abundantly.”

And that abundance is not material abundance, necessarily. It's not another version of the prosperity gospel. It is a life characterized largely by love and joy, peace, hope… All the fruit of the spirit would certainly apply. And when we think about it, these are all aspects of the nature of Christ, and the character of Christ. 

So his character is being formed in us. And all that Jesus experienced in this life, in his quality of life—he was never rushed, he was never stressed, he was never trying to meet everybody's expectations—his quality of life, as well as his character is what constitutes, in my opinion, the abundant life. And that is available to us.

But we hinder it—thus the title for my book, “Unhindered Abundance”—we hinder it by our own choosing and our own pain and the, our own defense mechanisms, and our own resistance to working through or resolving those things that distort the image and character of God— some of the things that we've talked about. 

But if we will sum up the courage and rely on the person and work of the Holy Spirit, and enter into community with other believers that are safe—not every believer is a safe person… But to find those people, and then start doing life with those people, we will start to experience things differently… and we'll experience a quality of life that Jesus has made available to us. 

That's my goal for the book. That's, that's my desire for my life, that's my desire for all the people that I get to journey with, and that's really what I've tried to capture in this book as—and I don't want to simplify by saying this is the “how-to,” because it's not a “how-to”— but it is practical.

And it is— there are things that we can do, and I hope that it becomes a tool that will help people in their discipleship to Jesus and that transformation process.


MEDITATION

We're going to keep this meditation short.

But we're also going to ask you to really do something. And not "really" as in seriously. But as in physically. Tangibly.

I'm going to read a story from the Gospel of John, that we've dealt with before on this podcast.

As I read it, would you pay attention to, and note, one concrete way your reading of Scripture shifts if you begin to intentionally use it as a means of entering the Apostolic faith,

Understanding that "entering the Apostolic faith" means spending time with Christ?

Becoming like Christ.

As we're reading it with the understanding that it's not being done to collect some facts or data, but to enter into the story, and to be with, and to be influenced by, Jesus, if anything distinct or fresh happens, would you actually write it down, and keep that note near your Bible for a little while?

Jesus went to the Mount of Olives. Early in the morning he came again to the temple. All the people came to him and he sat down and began to teach them. The scribes and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in adultery; and making her stand before all of them, they said to him, "Teacher, this woman was caught in the very act of committing adultery. Now in the law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?" They said this to test him, so that they might have some charge to bring against him. Jesus bent down and wrote with his finger on the ground. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "Let anyone among you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her." And once again he bent down and wrote on the ground. When they heard it, they went away, one by one, beginning with the elders; and Jesus was left alone with the woman standing before him. Jesus straightened up and said to her, "Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?" She said, "No one, sir.” And Jesus said, "Neither do I condemn you. Go your way, and from now on do not sin again." - John 8

And if in scripture you can find some way to spend time with Christ, would you also write on that note the question, "What would it look to live in Christ's presence, with others?"

END.

God, Trauma, Neuroscience, and Spiritual Formation


INTRO

Hello friends. Over the past few weeks, we've had the opportunity to sit down and talk with a few authors that have something worth sharing. 

So, while we work on the next series for you, we're going to deviate, just a little bit, from our typical format, and pretty much just share those conversations. 

This week and next, we'll talk with Dr. Ken Baugh, director of IDT Ministries and author of "Unhindered Abundance: Restoring our Souls in a Fragmented World." This will be a two-part episode because we ended up talking about God and Trauma and Cutting-edge Neuroscience and Ancient Spiritual Formation practices, and when it comes to the intersections of topics like that, you can imagine, there is a lot to talk about. So we did, and we just couldn't bring ourselves to cut any of the good stuff. So, we hope you enjoy, and beyond that, hope you are encouraged and edified, by what follows.  


CONVERSATION

Wilson: All right. I am excited to have on the show today uh, my spiritual director; a person who's helped me a great deal in the last five years, Dr. Ken Baugh, who is also the author of a new book from— it’s well, I guess new, it’s, it's fresh off the presses but you've been writing and working on this, talking about this for a long time— from Nav Press, called “Unhindered Abundance,” which is a book about, that explores some of the exciting connection points between cutting edge findings in neuroscience and ancient practices in Christian formation. 

Uh it's also one note that, in a world where like books don't sell—and so for publishers, they want to, if they can like guaranteed Harry Potter size sales before they'll give a contract— they gave this book a hardcover release for the first edition. Which is like, that, if you know anything about books right now, that's a big deal. So they must believe in this book, and it makes sense to me because I believe in this person.

So Ken, thanks for joining us. And I guess to really kick it off, I know that this isn't just some abstract thing that you're interested in.

It's not just a, “Hmm. I don't know. At some point I got fixated on neuroscience.” There's a, there's a story there. So what is it that really got you, um, chasing down and exploring the connections between neuroscience and Christian life? 

Ken: Wow thanks, Wil. It's great being with you and Julius today to kind of share the story, and talk through some things that I hope will be helpful for your listeners. There is a huge story behind this, in fact, I would say the book is probably the culmination of 30+ years of ministry experience and 45 years of being a follower of Christ.

So a lot of what I've learned about myself over the years, what I've learned through the educational process, what I've learned in the trenches of local church ministry— of which I was a pastor for 25 years—kind of came together. And there were a couple of questions that were really driving the, uh, the thesis of the book.

And it was largely: how do you put together spiritual formation, spiritual disciplines, an understanding of salvation by grace, the person and work of the Holy Spirit, the character and nature of God, sin—you know, it really, I was really pulling together a lot of theological pieces, as well as practical dynamics, because I'm a pastor, I'm not an academic—and trying to figure out how do we bring these together in a way that helps people understand what it looks like to actually grow in Christ and what my part is in that process as a believer and what God's part is.

Because I see, I see the growth process as a partnership. A limited partnership, sure. But still, a partnership. Because there are things that we are to do that are part of the growth process.

So the specific aspects of psychology and neuroscience came into play with this as I was really journeying through my own pain and trauma from childhood, and my story in regard to the rejection and abandonment that I experienced, not only as a result of my parents divorce when I was five, but through a lot of bullying that went on in my life through elementary and middle school which was severe. It really impacted my soul in a, in a devastating way that caused me to really hide a lot of who I really am.

And… one of the things that I've discovered in ministry is that, whatever weak points you have in your character, which, we all have them… But whatever weak points there are, it's like a wound that Satan kind of pushes on to derail you. And ultimately, that's what happened to me, sadly to say, that after 25 years as a pastor and as a senior pastor in a church here in Southern California for almost 11 years, I got fired.

Largely because of, as a result of burnout in my own life and my really hitting the wall both spiritually and emotionally, that the elders really felt like, “Yeah, it's time for you to go. You don't have the leadership skills to take the church to the next level.” So, it just so happened that during that particular experience, I was about halfway through writing my dissertation…

Which ironically was titled “Emotionally Healthy Discipleship.” So  I kind of became a guinea pig of, you know, my own research and… for me, that story is woven throughout the entire book and that brings great integrity to the conversation because this isn't just theory for me. This is personal experience.

This is something that I am putting into practice in my own life as even today, as well as my wife, Susan, that she and I have been journeying together through a process of recovering from our own trauma—she's a survivor of sexual abuse— and so this is very personal for us. And really, I’m really hoping that it becomes a tool that helps others, not only in their own formation, but also in their own recovery.

Julius: Well, even just hearing a little bit of your story and knowing a bit about your background now, um… I mean, I I'm really looking forward to kind of hearing more about, like, your perspective on um, the connection between emotional pain, and trauma, and our spiritual growth—or even spiritual conflict—and the ways that those things can, um, hinder our, our spirituality. 

So first of all, kind of working from this very holistic, um understanding of the human person—based on your story and kind of your interest in neuroscience—what has that taught you about how, like… what emotional pain and trauma have to do with spiritual conflict? 

And I guess when we, when we talk about spiritual conflict here, can you kind of expand on, like, what spiritual conflict we need to kind of be aware of and like what, what exactly that means?

Ken: Yeah. That's yeah. Great questions. Julius, we’ll be here the rest of the day. 

Wilson:  [Laughs] We're all about the long story, 

Ken: Right. And I, that's what I love about what you guys do.

Wilson: Short story long.

[Laughs]

Ken:  [Sighs] Where should I start? Well, first of all, I would say, I mean, that's a… There's a lot of elements to your question. So let me just start kind of poking away at it. Okay. 

Trauma in and of itself is something that I think is becoming more normalized in the psychological community. I think we're realizing that there is more trauma that people are experiencing than we ever realized before. Because… most trauma you would associate with something like an assault, a rape, uh you know, combat, where you have post-traumatic stress disorders, you know. Really extreme hardcore stuff. And you can refer to those as Type-B trauma, right?

The bad things that happen in life that we have no control over. But there's another kind of trauma called Type-A trauma, which largely is when we don't get the things that we need. As children. As infants. And when there's neglect, when there's abandonment, when there's rejection, when there is emotional unavailability by our primary caregivers, if there was abuse going on in the home— maybe there was domestic violence in the home—all of these things create trauma. 

Trauma is anything that happens when we feel overwhelmed and there's not a loving presence there to help us through it. And so the younger we are when we experience trauma, the more, the more damaging it actually is because we don't have the cognitive resources to really process through it.

And so what happens is, when we, whenever we feel overwhelmed, what creates the traumas being alone in that feeling overwhelmed. And so God has created in us this ability called the— some call it a “trauma coping mechanism”— where part of us kind of splits off. I'm not saying that we become a multiple personality. But there is a part of us that holds the trauma. And another part of us that holds, let's say the good in life. So let me just give you an example of that. 

If, if you're being verbally abused by your dad, there is part of you that needs your dad as a child. You need, and you long for that relationship, you long for that connection. And there's times when your dad is loving and warm and gentle and fun to be with. But then there's the side of him that just erupts in, in a rage and just terrifies you.

And so now the dad who was safe becomes the dad who is dangerous. And for a child to hold those two competing realities in place— they don't have the ability to hold that in one bucket. It has to split, split into two buckets. So one bucket holds the trauma, and the other bucket holds the “everything is fine.” And those two buckets don't intersect with each other. So the pain bucket, if you will hides itself from the “everything's all right” part of you. 

So that's a simplistic way of kind of explaining some of the reality. But what happens is in the, in the pain side of it, as a child, if your father erupts at you, you don't have the ability to say, “Well, gosh, maybe dad had a bad day at the office. Maybe that's why he's going off on me.” 

Instead, you internalize that as “Gosh, I must have, I must be a bad little boy. I must have done something wrong. I must…” you know. “There's something wrong with me,” or “Maybe I'm not worthy of love.” And so you get all these shame messages that start to kick in that is what creates the conflict that I have this loving dad who becomes a monster and that creates a conflict, and I don't know how to resolve that. And so it's overwhelming. 

Now, as you get older and become an adult, you can work through that stuff, right. And you can deal with it. But what tends to happen is that trauma gets locked into some closet in the deep places of our heart and just stays dormant until something triggers it, and then it comes raging to the surface. It's like trying to hold a beach ball under water. You can do it for so long, but eventually you let go and it explodes to the surface. 


Ken:  All of us have a different capacity to deal with trauma. I was working in an inpatient hospital shortly after seminary. And one of the things that I discovered with people calling in to, uh, explore if they need a treatment or not, was that there was a certain age that if somebody called in and gave me a certain criteria of what they were experiencing, I could almost pinpoint it exactly as to the age that they were… that they were. Because we only have so much capacity to hold that ball under water. 

And eventually it's going to explode to the surface and manifest itself in all kinds of different ways, whether it's depression, anxiety, addiction, phobias…uh, you know, or other things that are even more severe. Including, you know, bipolar disorders, disassociative disorders, even schizophrenia and stuff. Some of that can be not all of it, but some of it can, that can be traced back to trauma.

So, going back to the dad illustration: If I have this perspective of my dad as scary and unsafe because of those bursts of rage, I’m going to project that onto God in some form or fashion. So that's going to create a spiritual conflict.

I define a spiritual conflict as anything that distorts our perspective of the true character and nature of God. So, you can imagine then, if I am afraid that God's going to go off on me like my dad, then I'm going to be walking on eggshells in my relationship with God. I'm going to always be waiting for the other shoe to fall.

I'm not going to be able to live in the reality of what it means to be a beloved son— of, of what it means to be dearly loved. When God talks about “I’m a good shepherd,” you know, I'm, I'm going to have a disconnect with some of these metaphors in scripture that define and characterize who God is because of my experiences. 

And so those are some pieces in how this plays itself out. And again, I want to… if nothing else I want to normalize for your listeners that trauma is real. And I would, I would suggest that every one of us has certain Type-A traumas where we didn't get what we needed, and it doesn't mean that your parents were bad people… they were doing the best they could. 

We don't have to throw our parents or primary caregivers, whether it was a grandparent or whatever, we don't have to throw them under the bus in order to work through the pain so that we can live in freedom from that. But we do have to identify what it was that was going on and that needs to be validated.

And so that's, that's part of the process of healing, which we can get to at some point. 

Julius: Wow.

Ken: So the healing process is… is not that complicated. And the most important aspect of the healing process is to be with somebody who is going to give you safe feedback. I define safe feedback in my book as a person that will respond to your trauma with empathy, compassion, grace, love, understanding— that they will validate your experience.

And, that relationship is, is so important. Type-A trauma is almost always the result of some kind of breach in relationship, and so, you can't heal relational wounds cognitively. Relational wounds can only be healed relationally. Now, that doesn't mean there's not an aspect of cognition to it—there is. But you've got to have that relationship.

And Wil, that's really what brought you and I together— what almost five years ago? So you were kind of at that intersection where you needed somebody in your life— maybe you didn't think you did— but you needed somebody in your life that could be that person and give that safe feedback, right? 

Wilson: Yeah, that was… so the way Ken and I met, I was at a point where certain events, a string of—hah that's the other thing, I don't think even saying… there were definitely events… but it was more like, what about three years was uninterrupted brought me to a point where it, it, it had surfaced some of the effects of both, the Type-A and Type-B trauma, that I had experienced in childhood that just for a long time, I had, you know. I had been able to manage and hold a lot of.

But then [I] just got so worn down and  burnt out to where I was at a place where I could no longer hold the beach ball, at all. And was experiencing a whole lot of anxiety, and a whole lot of sadness, and um. I had an incredible wife that was, was there with me but also just felt like, um. Like I needed some, some help.

And she had mentioned, you know, she asked my permission and I said, “Yeah, you, you have permission to kind of talk about where I am with some of our friends.” And through a mutual friend, said, “Well, I've got this, I've got this friend. He's a, he's a solid guy named Ken that will he heard some of your story. And he would like to get lunch with you.”

And my response was like “All right, we'll see.”[Laughs] Because, just where I was at that point, I thought, all right, this is one of two things: This is some hack that just thinks I just need some platitudes and it's going to give me some… right? And I'm going to know that five seconds in. And if that's what's going on, I'm gonna have an entertaining lunch. And he's buying, so what harm could there be? [Laughs]

And, and so we showed up and I, I tested you. And it was pretty obvious pretty quickly that this wasn't a hack. In fact, I remember exactly what… I mean, we'd been talking about two hours and I remember exactly what you said to me that I thought, “This guy might… this might be for real.”

And so yeah. Um. And, and being that kind of presence and not— and it wasn't just the, you know, the right answers, the, oh… You know, well. 

When, when you've, when you're dealing with trauma, you know really quickly if the person across the table knows, or if they just know the right things to say. And there were, there were a few things that, that let me know that, you know. And, and there was a, a confidence and a graciousness and a life that made healing seem really really possible and attainable. 

And so. And that's what Dr. Baugh has been for me for, you know, a good number of years now. So there, that’s… Now I’m going to toss it back over to you, Ken, because. After, after I got to that point where I decided— you know and this is,if you've been in this kind of spot, listener, you'll understand this too.

Once you get to that point where you, you choose, “I am going to trust,” right? They've, they've shown they're trustworthy. They've exemplified that you still have to risk it. And you still have to make the decision to actually trust the person. Once I decided I was going to trust and started talking through a lot of the anxiety and the things that I could see, the pieces of the hairball that I was able to name, and telling the stories that, you know, you only tell the people that you can really trust telling those stories— You started uh.

You know. My main preoccupation was my emotion. I feel, I feel like overwhelming anxiety and I feel sad and that, and that's about it. I can't even get mad anymore. And that was one of the things, like, that was, like, crippling. Because that was, for a long time, that was how I'd get stuff done. I’d just get mad about it.

And then I'd channel the anger into accomplishing things. But I can't even get mad anymore. I'm just, I'm just, I feel defeated. Right? Just the sadness and anxiety just felt so defeated talking to you about those emotions. You started to talk to me about my behavior and my thinking. So. That, that helped me see some of the connection there. But, but why was that?

Why, where I was, when I was asking about my emotions, why did you start with behavior and thinking?

Ken: Because emotion is always tied to some kind of thought. The two are… they work together. It's like evangelism and discipleship. You can't separate them— they work together and reinforce the other. So I knew that underneath the, the emotions that you were feeling, there was distorted thinking that was going on.

And as we kinda peeled that onion off, we, we discovered those things, and it took a lot of time to do that. Here's what's interesting: we actually know what we need in order to heal. But we don't know who we can actually do that with. That’s why trust is such a big part of the process.

Because the trusting relationship is to get that other person to the point where they will actually become aware of what the contributing issues are. And then they trust you to share those with you. And so when you're overwhelmed by something… 

If there's something too heavy to lift, what do you do? You go ask somebody to help you lift it. And you can, the two of you together, the three of you can lift it together. Something that you couldn't lift on your own. 

And the same is true emotionally, is that when we have such big emotions where we are actually feeling shut down, because they're so intense— we need some others to come alongside of us, who we trust to help bear those. 

I think that's what Paul's talking about when he says we’re to bear one another's burdens. 

So there's an aspect of containment that is really important in this relational process. And, and it's not that Amy wasn't a safe person for you. It's not that you didn't have other people in your life that you could trust. For whatever reason, the invitation, and the relationship, and the people that you trusted to even have lunch with me to begin with— which, that's not a small thing either— God just kind of put all that together in such a way that, over time, we built up the kind of relationship where…

Where now we'll when we meet together, it's very mutual. Whereas before it was less, it was less mutual. Right. And so I think that's like any relationship as it grows over time when I'm weak, you're strong. When you're weak, I'm strong. And that's how we get to help each other.

I think the other aspect of this that was important was the grieving process. Grieving is essential to emotional healing. And grieving is not something that we can do alone. If you grieve alone, you'll always grieve— John Townsend taught me that years ago. And yet it takes a lot of trust to talk to somebody about the things that you are the most sad about. Because our tendency is to step into fix-it mode. And the very first thing that has to happen in the healing process is validation. You have to be able to share your story, I have to be able to validate it, and as I'm empathizing through that validation process, it creates a connection. And, and, you were spot on, Wil. You can, you can smell fake empathy from a hundred miles away.

And if there, if it's there— you're done. And so, and a lot of the times, the way you demonstrate true empathy is, is interjecting your pain and story in appropriate ways and times into the conversation. Because that puts you both on the same ground that,  “We're both wounded. We're just. I, I might be just a couple steps ahead of you, but there'll be a day when you're probably a couple of steps ahead of me.” And so it's just kind of this give and take, which becomes part of that relationship.


Wilson: Yeah, I remember I, you talked about jumping to fix it mode and I just wanted to fix it. And you kept saying “You need to mourn.” And that mourning had to be enacted. It's not you… When you’re just holding it inside, that that sadness just festers. But you've got to, you've got to behave… you've got to let it out, together, and like appropriately by yourself too.

I remember you, you drew a diagram for me once that, it was, it was a series of gears. And in this one, the emotions were down in the center and the, the thinking and behavior were up at the top. And you said, “Wil, you want to get here. Your emotions are spinning this way and you want to stop that. So you want to reach in and grab the gear here and just change the way you feel, but you can’t.” 

And that’s, personality wise,I tend to most, most quickly and deeply associated with the feelings. Right? If I feel sad, then I am sad. And if I am sad, then there's something about me that's wrong, that's, that's broken that's right, right.

And you're like, and so Wil you just want to get there and fix that, change that, but you've got to start here, but what you, the gear, you can start turning is the thinking and the acting. And if you will act the things that you know are true, and if you'll consistently tell your, you know, replace the story with, with that, the tape that keeps going in your head with a truer story, that's like grind… that's like grabbing those gears and it will be a grinding, right. 

You'll be acting in a way that's in conflict, cause, cause you're trying to take your thinking or your acting gear and turn it in the way in the opposite direction of where you're feeling gear is trying to take them, but that's how you eventually get to those emotions. Eventually it'll stop, and the whole mechanism will start turning the other way, because of the way you're thinking your feeling and your acting is interrelated.

Ken: Yeah. What… I'm sorry, go ahead, Julius.

Julius: Oh, no, sure. I guess I, I really appreciate I think you said earlier about how we can't heal relational wounds cognitively, but they have to be healed relationally. And I think that's been such an important thing to um, to remember in framing kind of, like, what we're talking about here. Because I think there's, there's a way to mishear that gears analogy in such a way of like,

“Oh, if I just turn the thought and the behavior gear, that I can, like… If I just think better then, like, I can change the stories that's behind the emotion, if I act into it.”

And while I think that there's a part of it, I think you really touched on a key piece that you both— that your relationship embodies this— is that, it's also the… we can't turn these gears alone. 

Maybe as a part of the metaphor and that like relationality is a part of it and it's not like, just a matter of like how hard we try to change our thoughts or our emotions. So I’m… yeah. Am I, am I hearing that correctly? And that there's like that, that the thoughts—and I'm still thinking about the gears analogy— but like, if, if the thoughts and behaviors are like interlocked with the, like, with the feeling wheel, um, that relationship with other people is just as integral to the healing process and in changing those stories and, and therefore kind of like changing our affect?

Ken: Okay. So there's Yeah. So that you guys are hitting on a couple of things that are really important. We need to talk about how the different hemispheres of the brain process. So you have a left brain and a right brain process. So I want to come back to that. But I want to just give us, give your listeners an example that I think will illustrate what we're talking about. 

You can know all of the Bible verses about God's love for you, and still not feel loved. You can know all the truth, you can believe it, but you still struggle to feel it. The reason is: the feeling side of that has to come through the context of relationship.

So this, this is where the, this is the intersection of the divine and the human come together. Growth is always a process that requires relationship with the divine, with God, and relationship with other people who give you safe feedback or safe people. That's how God created it. There is no “Me and God alone, we got this. So I don't need people.”

There is none of that, because God didn't create your heart to thrive in relationship with him alone. He created it to thrive in a community of relationships, that includes the Triune God, but it also includes other human beings— other people. So that's why relationships, human relationships, are a key part of this process, where the trust comes in and all the stuff that we just talked about. 

The, the, the gears… The gear analogy was what emerged through a lot of my research. So, let's just back up just a second. God created us. And again, I'm going to be a little bit simplistic here, so… You know. Cut me a little bit of slack. 

God created us as a material and an immaterial self. Okay? So the material self would be like to our body, the different systems in our bodies, right? Our skeletal system, our respiratory system, et cetera… And an immaterial self, which is referred to in different ways: inner being spirit, heart, or mind in scripture.

The soul, I would see differently— now there's others that would, would see it differently than I see it, which is, which is fine. I'm probably wrong. But I see the soul as kind of the bucket that holds both the material and the immaterial self. The, the word and metaphor in scripture, both Old and New Testament used primarily to describe this inner being, is the heart. 

Jesus talked about the heart all the time. Solomon in Proverbs 4:23 says, “Guard your heart for, from it is the wellspring of life.” And we can go through and find lots and lots of verses, I've got, I've got a whole litany of them in my book. 

The heart is central. Of the heart, there's three primary dynamics— and again, this is reflected in your study of script, my study of scripture. The first is our thoughts. The second is emotion and the third is our will or the decision place of making decisions. 

Those three gears influence each other. So my feelings do affect my thinking. My will does affect my feelings and my thinking. But, my thinking also affects my emotions— my feelings— as well as my will. All of these work together to ultimately drive behavior. So essentially there is no behavior that is not… that does not begin in the heart. 

Now, there is an aspect of this that is non-conscious. And so, that takes us into the right and left hemispheres of the brain. But before I get to that, let me talk about these gears for a second. 

Of those three gears thought emotion and will, the only gear that we have direct control over, long-term, is our thinking. God has given us the free will to choose what we will think about.

Now. You can't control your emotions directly. You can't just say, “Be happy,” and be genuinely happy. Or “Be terribly sad and depressed,” and make yourself terribly sad and depressed. 

Wilson: Well… I might be able to pull that one off.

Ken: Well, yeah, you are gifted at that Wil, I will say. [Laughs] 

Our will, you can control a little bit, right? But willpower is unsustainable over the long haul— so just think of the last new year's resolution you made. How long did that last?

But our thinking. Is what we can control. Essentially, you control your emotions indirectly by what you choose to think about. And you control your will, largely indirectly, by what you choose to think about. So, that's why I believe, of those three gears in the heart, pride of place in scripture goes to our thoughts. So that's why you're going to see so many verses, for example, Romans 12:2, “Be transformed by the renewal of your mind.” 

1 Corinthians 10:5, “We take every thought captive to make it obedient to Christ.” 

Philippians 4:8.  “Finally, brothers, whatever is true, noble, right. Whatever is pure, whatever is lovely.Whatever is admirable. If anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things.” 

Ephesians 4:21. “Be made new in the attitude of your minds.” 

Colossians 3:2. “Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.”

And I could go on and on. The point is: what we choose to think about really matters. Now, our growth in Christ is an aspect of what we choose to think about. This is where the neuroscience comes in. 

Julius: Mhmm.

Ken: Neuroscience tells us that what we choose to think about over and over and over again, creates gray matter, creates neurons, that make that thought our default. 

Julius: Hmm.

Ken: So… which is one reason why I think Jesus told us not to worry.

What is worry? Worry is just thinking negative thoughts or catastrophic thoughts or worst-case scenario thoughts over and over and over and over again. And when we do that, that becomes our default, and whatever we focus our attention on we move toward. So this is all just basic neuroscience. 

And yet, when you look, when you hold those findings up against what the scriptures emphasize in the way of our thinking, then it's like, “Oh man, I can see the connection here.”

So, part of my diving into neuroscience is because I kept coming back to scripture and just seeing this emphasis on what we think about, and then I wanted— cause this, this is the way I'm wired— I wanted to know, “What's going on with our thinking, and why is this such a big deal?”

That's when these findings from neuroscience really became helpful. Which takes us to an interesting study in regard to spiritual disciplines— especially meditation and memorization of scripture.

You can literally rewire your brain, by memorizing scripture and meditating on scripture.


MEDITATION

The Bible is a big, intimidating book. But with Google and Bible apps, it's incredibly easy to find a verse you're looking for. 

So let's say you're having a conversation that veers into a topic you'd like some help thinking through. And you vaguely remember, "There's some verse that says something about that ..."

If you choose to include Scripture in your thinking and conversation, you're not going to have any real trouble finding some verses connected to that topic in some way.

But, what you think about is one thing. How you think is another.

And simply knowing there is some information out there somewhere that I could access is not the same thing as having it in you. 

What Ken, in this conversation, is beginning to help us appreciate, on the levels of Spirituality and Character and Neuroscience, is when Scripture gets in you, it's not just something you think about, it begins to shape how you think. 

But memorizing Scripture can be an intimidating thing to begin, because there is simply so much of it. Where should you start? 

And the truth is, are many good places ... But I realize that, while it's true, saying that doesn't really help someone who is willing but would appreciate a little guidance in setting out. 

So, I'd like to introduce you to some verses that Scripture and the Christian Tradition themselves say are passages that can be incredibly helping in shaping how you think about the larger world you live in, and how you understand and use Scripture itself. 

One of the best ways to get something deep inside a person is to wed it to music. So the earliest church, did just that with what they wanted young Christians to internalize as the foundational piece of the Gospel. The following two passages are actually hymns, used in worship from the earliest days of the faith, that St. Paul incorporated into some of his letters. 

The first is Phil 2:5-11 ...

Let the same mind be in you that was in Christ Jesus,

who, though he was in the form of God,

    did not regard equality with God

    as something to be exploited,

but emptied himself,

    taking the form of a slave,

    being born in human likeness.

And being found in human form,

    he humbled himself

    and became obedient to the point of death--

    even death on a cross.

Therefore God also highly exalted him

    and gave him the name

    that is above every name,

so that at the name of Jesus

    every knee should bend,

    in heaven and on earth and under the earth,

and every tongue should confess

    that Jesus Christ is Lord,

    to the glory of God the Father.

Next is the Christ hymn from Col 1:15-20 ...

 He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation; for in him all things in heaven and on earth were created, things visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or powers--all things have been created through him and for him. He himself is before all things, and in him all things hold together. He is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, so that he might come to have first place in everything. For in him all the fullness of God was pleased to dwell, and through him God was pleased to reconcile to himself all things, whether on earth or in heaven, by making peace through the blood of his cross.

And finally, when Jesus himself was asked what was the greatest and most central part of the Law that communicated something of God's heart for humanity, Jesus pulled a prayer from Deuteronomy that the Jewish tradition had already placed at the core their prayer and interpretation: 

'Hear, O Israel: the Lord our God, the Lord is one; you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength.' The second is this, 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no other commandment greater than these."

That last one is named the Shema Prayer. So we are partial to it, but not for no reason. There is little that we would consider a greater honor than to help you get that prayer into a spot where it could help shape who you are.

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